Chapter 4(The Interview)

After the incident at the church, when I got home I got a call from the Hera Publishing office. I got nervous because I thought they heard what I did awhile ago but it is not about that. It is about my interview. They informed me about my upcoming interview. I'm a little nervous but it's part of my plan so I should be my best version of myself in this upcoming interview. I should impress at the same time be honest to the person who will be my interviewer. This is me and I should pursue what I really wanted to do in this life. I want to be happy and at  the same time to start to seeking justice for the death of my mother. This is what I’ve been waiting for too long and I think it is the right time to make an action. I can take revenge for my mom's death. I should be.

I smiled and set up my clothes for my next interview. I can wait to be a famous writer. This is so fetch. This job I will enjoy and can make some action to find evidences. I can peacefully live if I can give justice for my mothers death. I'm a grown up already and I should do this for my peace of mind.

There was a knock on my door and I hurriedly open it and I see my friend in front of the door and Shainna suddenly give me a tight hug. Shainna’s hug is kind sort of medicine for me. She become my protector and she is the one who's taking good care of me when I lost my mother. I don’t know what will happen to me, if Shainna is not there beside me at my worst. I have her in ny best, I have her in ny worst. Maybe, I am a I will be suicidal because of sadness and loneliness. I am very thankful that Shainna is helping me to survive and have a better life. She help me to become more stronger and become who I am today. 

[Giggling] “I can't tell you how I am proud of you, best friend. Your so great. You know that being part of Hera is difficult so you must do your very best. ” She said like a big sister.

I smiled and hugged her. I am really lucky to have her by my side. She's here when I'm happy, even in my dark days she still stay on my side. I’m really lucky to have a friend like her, or I should call her my sister. Maybe we are not have the same blood, likes, hubbies but love bind us. We barely fight, and even if we fight, we forgive one another easily. I wish I could be her best friend, always by her side, but how can I do that if I have something to do to be free. Free from hatred, anger and sufferings. I wish I just could easily forget what happened on my past. I wish I could be a perfect best friend for her. 

“Shainna, Thank you for everything.” I hugged her tightly. 

I lost my mother and I have no idea where my father is. Many people say that I am lonely now. But in this place, I have my best friend playing the role as my sister. I have the best friend ever in this world. She's always help me when I'm in trouble. She always make me feel that I am not alone. Her presence makes me feel loved and cared enough. But I think, I need to let her go, to make her happy. I want to live her own life without worrying about me anymore. I want her to be happy and meet someone who will love her. I want her to build her family for herself. I want her to chase her own dream. I don't want to be burden anymore. 

“Shainna, If I will have this job… I want you to leave this apartment. You can leave me alone. You can go back to your parents.”

“What!?” she exclaimed and pushed me a little. I know she is irritated on what I said.

I sighed. “I want you to live your life to the fullest. Now I'm going to get a job and I can pay the rent alone.”

“But, I want to stay. This is my own decision, I’ll stay. Don't push me away. You can never stop me staying here. Stop! I will never left you behind. Stop this nonsense already.”

[Sigh] “Okay. I can't stop you because it's your own decision. I also love if you'll stay here because you're good in cooking.” We laughed and hugged each other.

I’m also happy that she will not leave me alone in this apartment. Without, Shainna this apartment will be like an empty room. I don’t know if I can have a good decision without her help. Shainna is a good sister to me and I love her. I wish someday she will meet a great guy who will love her eternally. If that's happened, I will support her.

[Smiled] It is good to hear my dear best friend. I will never leave this apartment, whatever you say. And if I leave, maybe you have already someone who can take care if you. You know, your husband.

“Whatever you say, Shainna!” I just smiled.

We hug each other and I have a good idea in my mind, then I grab a pillow near to me and strike her in her head. At first, she was shocked, but later, she caught up to me and hit me hard over my head with a pillow that she grabbed. All we do is make each other happy and feek loved. We laughed, we cried, but we ended up being happier. Shainna helps me a great deal. She's my sister, my friend, but she's also a great teacher. She teaches me a great lesson in life but my own mind cannot forget the tragedy of my past. I’m a great loser, who doesn’t know how to forget and forgive. That is so foolish of me. I am a nuisance. I'm starting to hate myself, I'm a bit selfish, but Shainna always rescues me when I'm in a bad situation.

That day, Shainna spent the night in my room and we just talked about life. And I realized that sometimes the world is such a cruel place. A place where a lot of people suffer and struggle to survive and attain the true happiness. But I think happiness is not really at my side.

Next day…

This day is my interview and I’m bit nervous. Shainna cooked me a delightful breakfast and left a note on my side table. She is a very good cook unlike me. I smiled when I read her message. She's a very nice, caring person. I know that one day her soon-to-be husband will be very fortunate to have her. She's very nice, optimistic, lovely and talented lady I know. Maybe that's why she's not dating yet because I’m giving her a hard time. I’m really a big pain in the ass.

I shake my head to clear up any thoughts that come to mind. I prepared all my stuff for my job interview. I've already eaten what Shainna makes for me. I dress up and I stare at myself in the mirror. What a lovely sight, I wish I could be happier. I would love to be able to forget all the bad events of my past and just treasure  the good memories. But, things will not just work in reality, you have to face your fear and overcome it.  I am Akesha and I will do my best to overcome my fears and bad memories. This is my first step, I will achieve my goals. Maybe next time I'll make myself happier. I look forward to it, but now I want to bring justice to my mother's death, I'm gonna make them pay.

I smiled bitterly and left the house and went to the Hera Publishing Company.

I remember what Shainna told me last night. It hit me so hard, it stuck on my head every single word she said.

Aki, you can't go back to the person you were after all the misery you've encountered. But always remember you can still come home to yourself  and start and rebuild yourself.

I will. I will, after I bring justice for my mother's death.  Starting a new life means a lot to me. A life that full of happiness.

“Get in there, Akesha, you can do it!”

I also believe that everything that happens comes about for its own reasons. I will succeed in this interview to bring justice and it will happen sooner or later. I claim it.

I wish the interviewer will not be Ms. Amanda.