Alec
I’m sitting on the edge of my bed and a million things are running through my mind because today was quite an eventful day for me, and a few hours ago, I received the confirmation that it all worked out in my favor. I glance at Carla, who’s lying on her side fast asleep, and slowly get out of bed before walking toward the window of our bedroom. The moon is merely a crescent, but I’m drawn to her already. In a few days, the Full Moon Hunt will begin. For once, I actually feel excited about it, and that’s because this year, I’ve let go of the weight that’s been burdening me for close to seven years. My father’s death earlier this year has made me Alpha, and with that, came a heap of responsibilities. Leading the pack is more troublesome than I thought, and it’s incredibly difficult to make a decision because it has to be approved by the board of Alphas that rule our city. Carla moans in her sleep, and I tense up and turn my head to look at her. Thankfully, she doesn’t wake up. I hate it when she catches me awake in the middle of the night because she always ends up accusing me of thinking about someone else. Over the years, Carla shed the lighthearted persona she used to carry around and became instead this cold, bitter woman who’s paranoid about everything. I’ve lost count of how many times she accused me of being unfaithful to her. Every week, there’s a new allegation, and in all honesty, the only reason why I’m still with her is because of her father, who’s still my Second Beta. I have immense respect for him, and breaking things off with her will make it difficult. Her father has always made it known that he’s proud of her being Luna, and for the most part, I don’t mind it either. She’s a good Luna. She manages her responsibilities fairly well. It’s our personal relationship that’s messed up, and I don’t know how to fix it. Although, if I were being completely honest, I’d say that she’s not so mistaken about there being someone else on my mind. Today marked the end of my suffering, and oh, how I’ve suffered. Guilt has been an essential part to me for years, so much that I don’t know what to do with this new sense of freedom. I’ve finally righted the wrong that’s been poisoning me slowly for years. Delaney Waters has been released from prison today. I had to wait until after my father died to make that possible. As Alpha, my decisions are rarely questioned, and this is one thing that I’ve kept hidden from my circle of Betas, Deltas, and Gammas. I know that nobody would agree to her release, mostly because it’s a disrespect to Trevor’s father, but they haven’t had to live with that fact that an innocent went to prison for a crime that I committed. They have no idea what that feels like. Naked, I make my way to the bathroom and splash cold water on my face. Carla is still asleep, and I think it’s unlikely that she’ll wake up. As long as I’m quiet. When this thought crosses my mind, I experience this strong sense of derealization. What am I doing? No, literally, what? I’m stuck in a relationship with a woman I don’t love anymore. Most days, I feel like a prisoner. Being a leader doesn’t come with the freedom I thought it would offer; I can’t take a step without mentioning it. If I don’t, then there’s a huge discussion and I’ll have people disagreeing with me. This thing with Delaney, for instance, can never be discovered. Releasing prisoners is something that only the council can permit, and I’ve gone ahead and done it to unburden myself. I’ve made sure that nobody will find out, though. I personally handled the officers in charge and dealt with the court order. I made sure she would be issued with a new identity so she could leave the city and start a brand new life somewhere else. It’s the least I could do. The discussion I had with my father on the day Trevor was killed returns to me. I think about it all the time. I can’t say that I hated my father, but on that day, something changed between us forever. I could never look at him the same. It was the day I realized that life wasn’t fucking fair. “What happened?” my father had asked. By then, Delaney was in prison and news of Trevor’s death spread like wildfire. “I hear rumors of an Omega having killed a Beta-born. You were there?” My eyes had been low, and every muscle in my body was shaking. “Answer me, Alec!” he boomed. “I was the one who did it,” I finally revealed. Confusion was etched onto his features. “What?” “I killed Trevor, not the girl,” I told him. “She needs to be released. She didn’t do anything wrong.” He ran a hand down his face. “Tell me what happened. From the beginning.” And so, I did. I explained everything from the very beginning to the end, and I added the fact that our group had never quite left Delaney alone. We were always hounding her and making her life more difficult. It seemed like a pleasant joke at the time. Before I found out that she was my mate. I told him that too. It was the main motivation behind me killing Trevor. Goddess, everyone talked about finding their mate, but nobody ever told me what it would actually feel like. When Trevor was harassing her, I felt physically ill. I felt sick to my stomach. I felt this anger deep inside of me that was impossible to ignore and erased everything else. I forgot we were friends. I forgot that she was an Omega born under a black moon. All that nattered was keeping her safe. So, when Trevor ran after her, I ran after him. When I saw him on top of her with his hands around her throat, I became murderous. I grabbed the stone and slammed it against his head with all my might, and when he died and she breathed out, causing color to return to her pale face, I heaved a sigh of relief. At that moment, she became mine. Mine to care for. Mine to protect. As soon as I finished telling my father the tale, he did the unexpected. He slammed his fist into my face with a disgusted sound. Then, he cradled his hand and cursed. “Fuck! You imbecile! Do you have any idea what you’ve done!?” With a burning face, I said, “I didn’t choose for her to be my mate, Dad. It just happened!” He turned away from me and started kicking the furniture in his office angrily. I’d never seen my father as angry as he was that day. When he turned to look back at me, his eyes were red. “Waters. Waters was…dammit. We should have killed her when we had the chance!” I stared at his face in confusion. My face was starting to ache. His hands fell to his sides. “She’s the Omega they’re saying killed Trevor.” I nodded. “Good,” he claimed. “Let her be sentenced. There’s no way this story is going to come out, do you understand me? I don’t want you to mention anything about the two of you being mates. This will die with you.” “No,” I found myself saying. He tilted his head. “What did you say?” “I won’t let it happen,” I argued. “She won’t be sentenced. She’s an innocent. I was the one who did it. If anyone has to go to prison, it will be me. So, you can kick me and punch me as much as you want. Beat me to an inch of my life. It won’t matter!” He lunged at me then, and grabbed the lapels of my coat. “Don’t you understand what you’re saying!?” he asked, spittle flying. “Do you understand the gravity of the situation!? That girl can’t be spared! You don’t know what she represents!” I frowned. “What could she represent? She’s just an Omega.” My father released me and stepped back. His face was harder than ever. He then pointed a finger at me and said, “The choice is yours, Alec. If you choose to fight for her innocence, she’ll be killed. They won’t want her around for that. That, or you leave her in prison, but at least she’ll be alive.” “What? No. That’s not fair.” “Fair doesn’t exist,” he claimed. “There’s only what will happen and what won’t. Her life is now in your hands.” I made the choice that I thought would benefit her more. I testified against her and claimed she was the one who killed Trevor even though it was me. Rejecting her was part of the deal, and I just had to see it through. Still, what happened never sat well with me, and as soon as I stepped into power, I made sure to make things right. Now, she’s probably far away, and I’ll never get to see her again. For some reason, that thought fills me with sorrow, but at least I’ll know she’s safe. “Alec?” Carla’s voice pulls me from my thoughts. I turn around to look at her and find her sitting up. “What’s wrong? What are you doing?” Her question irks me, but I choose to say, “Nothing.” I get back into bed with her, shutting all thoughts of Delaney Waters for the evening. Tomorrow, though, the cycle will start all over again.DelaneyMy work shift is pretty easy, apart from one thing. I’ve forgotten how to socialize with people. If I had to be completely honest, I’d say that I never really learned how to deal with people. In school, I didn’t have any friends. Everyone was too busy calling me Cursey Waters to get to know me, even the other Omegas. The years I spent in isolation made things worse, so I feel awkward around big crowds, and for some reason, I’m afraid that someone will recognize me and spread tales about me. I serve my last table the beer they ordered and then return to the bar. Paola is busy with the cashier, and she glances at me covertly before asking, “Are you okay?”“Yeah, just a little overwhelmed,” I admit. “You seem on edge,” she notes. “It’s weird being around people again, right?”“I guess so.”The door of the cavern swings open and Francesca and Pollux both walk in. They’re standing very close, and she presses a kiss to the side of his neck before making her way back to the bar.
DelaneyThe very next day, we wake up early and head down to the bar, even though it only opens later tonight. It's strange to wake up in a dark place. There's no way of having access to sunlight here, so torches light the place as well as lightbulbs. Now that I'm used to the thought of being free, it's easier for me to take in the details of the place, and honestly, I'm amazed at how all of this was put together. I want to know more about the place. When did our kind start building it? Who was behind it all? How is it possible that a place like this with so many people slid beneath the radar of the very people who want us oppressed?There's so much more to this story that I want to know. Francesca is already there, even though all the chairs are on top of the tables. She seems to be mixing fruits in a blender. When she sees us both, she smiles and says, "You're early.""Yeah," Paola says before sitting on one of the high stools near the bar. I do the same. "Your brother was here
AlecI feel a hand on my arm, and that's what wakes me up. I turn to the side and see a very blurry Carla staring back at me. Her brow is furrowed, and if I had to guess, I'd say she looks concerned. "What's going on?""There's someone at the door," she claims. "A meeting will be held today among the Alphas. They want you to join them in an hour."I tense a little but try not to let it show. "Did they tell you what the meeting would be about?""No," she claims. "But this rarely happens, right? The next meeting was meant to be in a week's time. Why this all of a sudden?"I get up and start getting ready for the meeting. Deep in my gut, I know exactly who this meeting's being held. I didn't think that they would find out so soon, though. Carla remains in the room as I'm getting ready. She seems to be watching me intently, for some reason. Again, I don't know when she became so paranoid. Being Luna changed her completely. I try not to make eye contact with her, and by the time I'm don
DelaneyOnly, the meal doesn't end as peacefully as I thought it would. We finish eating and Paola orders something they call Coal, which is a mass of gooey chocolate mixed with biscuit crumbs and nuts that’s absolutely delicious. It’s the best dessert I’ve ever had in my entire life, and I eat most of the bowl by myself and ignore the dirty look that Pollux gives me. I find that it’s easier when I act like he doesn’t exist. I didn’t have a problem with him before, but now I do. Does he think that he’s the only one who’s capable of being prejudiced against strangers? I don’t know him and yet, I have a terrible impression of him already. What kind of person judges another so harshly without knowing them? How can he assume that I’m a cold-blooded killer when his sister and I were in the can for very similar reasons?Only, she actually killed the man who was going to kill Pollux, and I never hurt anyone. My crime was being Omega and cursed. But I don’t want to talk about that anymor
DelaneyI still don't understand anything that's going on, because after Pollux says that, we sit still for a very long time and Connor serves the men the same thing we ate. I wish I had a way of communicating with Paola. I want to ask her so many questions. What's going to happen? Why did the others leave while we stayed behind? It’s frustrating that I have no ways of obtaining answers. I’ll have to wait and see. The air around us is crackling with tension. I find it a little hard for me to breathe. I wait expectantly to see what will happen, and honestly, I’m not looking forward to it at all. I’m not left wondering for too long after this thought crosses my mind, because the signal happens to be a sharp whistle, and everyone gets to work. The two men—who up until the whistle had been occupying a table close to the door—stand up and lock it. The visitors turn to look at them, confused, but they don’t act quickly enough. Connor reappears from the kitchen with a meat cleaver in h
Delaney“Are you going to tell me why the hell there are people after you?” Pollux asks right away. “And don’t lie to me. Don’t tell me that you don’t know what they’re talking about.”I feel extremely helpless right now. Having to explain myself to him is not something I ever thought I would have to do, but right now, he’s the one in charge, and unless I want to leave this place and try my luck elsewhere, I’ll have to cooperate. “I might have an idea,” I admit. “But I’m not sure. Nothing makes a lot of sense to me.”His rigid stance speaks volumes about his impatience. I lick my lips and say, “When I left the prison, they gave me an envelope with a new identity and instructions to leave the city. But Paola brought me here, and I fell in love with this place and what you were all fighting for, so I decided to stay.”“Who sent that to you?” he asks evenly. I shrug. “I don’t know. The letter wasn’t signed.”“Who do you think could’ve sent it?”I never really thought about it. I tell h
DelaneyAfter making our way to the surface, Paola and I don't say much to each other. I tried to convince her that she should stay behind. There's no reason why she should have to suffer because of me; because I was exiled. But Paola refuses to listen. I don't have many belongings. Everything I own fits in a plastic bag, and she mentioned the same thing. The surface feels different this time around. I didn't think I'd see the sky again, but here I am, walking down a lone road with my best friend next to me. Do we have a plan? Absolutely not. I have some money, and it'll really come in handy. I haven't told her about it yet. I guess I'll just have to see where we'll go. "I know a place," Paola tells me. "It's pretty rough, but unless we want to spend the night in the streets, that's is the only place we have to go."I agree, and we head there. Whenever I think about the fact that my plan practically blew up in my face, I feel slightly embarrassed and disappointed. I should’ve kn
DelaneyI hold in my gasp and press my back against the rough brick wall, praying to the goddess that the two men didn’t see me. The man in the alleyway continues whimpering while his assailants hover above him, raining kicks and punches down on him. I look from left to right and don’t spot a single person that I could call for help. They’re going to kill that man. I can’t do a thing to stop them. Years in prison has taught me to mind my own business. What could I do against two men? The least I can do is call for help. I decide to turn away and head back to the hotel, and I run directly into someone. A man. He’s tall and wearing a fitted black suit. A scar is running down the left side of his face, and his hair is tied back in a ponytail. The smile he gives me is wicked, and instills fear in me. Before I know it, he grabs my arm and starts dragging me toward the alleyway. No. I use my free hand to punch him in the face, but that does more damage to him than to me. My fingers ar
DelaneyIn the morning, there’s an agitation somewhere deep in the settlement that wakes me up right away. I turn on my side, and see Paola staring at me. It seems the same noise has woken her up as well. I ask her, “Do you know what’s happening?”“No,” she says. “What time is it?”Before I can answer her, there’s a sharp knock on our door and Francesca walks in. “I’m sorry ladies. I wouldn’t have come in so quickly if it weren’t an emergency.”I sit up. “What happened?”“They’re saying something ridiculous,” she explains. “Some of the scouts that keep a close eye on the Alphas and everything that goes on in the city have just reported that Tobias Renner has been captured. Your father, Delaney. I mean, can you believe that?”My eyes widen, and my heart drops to the pit of my stomach. “What?”“We’re worried because it might mean that our informants got the wrong information, which means that they’re on to us. That’s bad, and we’re trying to figure out what to do now that we can’t trus
Alec The whole city is looking for the rebels, particularly Tobias Renner and his troublesome red-headed daughter. I couldn’t stop it or say no, not without making myself seem suspicious. I had to agree with it. Either way, I’m in control of everything that happens. Everyone’s looking up to me to take care of this and make this all go away, and this is easier to do when the people who were suspicious of me are now dead. Well, not all of them. Carla is alive still, and she suspects of me even though she hasn’t said a word about it. She hasn’t said anything since she woke up, to her precise, and I don’t know if it’s a head injury or whether she’s choosing to stay mute. As long as she doesn’t say anything, I’m good to go. She hasn’t gotten out of bed either, and the healers don’t know what’s wrong because she refuses to communicate and doesn’t want to leave the house. I check up on her only when I’m sure she’s asleep. One thing I can say is that I’m glad she’s not participating in a
DelaneyI hear Paola say my name. “Delaney?”I turn to look at her over my shoulder, and see her in Cade’s arms. I’m outside, getting some fresh air, and I’m standing right next to a metallic garden table with the polished green paint. He sets her down on one of the matching chairs, and then retreats. It’s almost like he was never here.I sit down beside her, and her eyes follow me the entire time. I stare at her face for a few beats, unsure of what to say. During my rant in there, I’d forgotten that she would be there, listening to everything that I was saying about her brother. I don’t know what came over me. The fact that he would ask me what’s wrong when he let innocent people die just touched a part of me that I didn’t even know existed. I’m angry, and I don’t trust that anger. “My brother…” she begins before trailing off. I give her some time to get her thoughts in order, and she then asks me, “Were those things you said true? Did he really do that?”I wait for a few beats, t
DelaneySince Cade told me what he’d seen and heard, I’ve been in a deep, pensive state. It’s much more than just me thinking too much, though. It’s something else. It’s an overwhelming feeling of guilt that really could kill me. Guilt, helplessness, and regret, all mixed in one. It’s a truly miserable feeling. Because I had to realize way too late that Alec didn’t have anything to do with the attack, even though Carla had been leading the whole thing. He hadn’t known. This explains why I felt so guilty whenever I thought that he had betrayed me. It was because he hadn’t. He’d been innocent. He’d even tried to help the cause, which means that the second explosion had been his doing. And if Pollux had done the right thing and told us, so much could have been avoided. Alex wouldn’t be dead, and neither would Matteo. I’ve been too busy being angry to be able to cry about this. Pollux…he’d betrayed me in the worst possible way. He’d betrayed the whole rebellion in the most horrible w
Alec“Alpha Alec,” one of my Gammas says right as he enters my office. “Here’s the list of the casualties you requested. Also, the newly appointed Alphas have accepted your meeting request for this afternoon.”“Thank you, Jason,” I tell him before taking the envelope from his hand. My whole body hurts still, particularly my back, but I’m starting to heal well. The problem with burns is that they take time to heal, and they tend to leave scars. I’m not too worried, but it is in inconvenience. I’ve stayed home for what feels like an eternity now (even though, in reality, it’s only been a few days), when I should be doing better things. I scan through the page in front of me. Twenty-seven deaths, including security and some of the cleaners who’d been on shift the day of the explosion. All the Alphas gone, except for me. Even my Beta, Carla’s father, died in the explosion. She just doesn’t know because she hasn’t woken up yet. I’m the only one who survived it. This is a mere confirma
Delaney The new location is supposedly safe, and I believe that because it’s in the middle of nowhere. I don’t think anyone could stumble upon us by accident. I look around and all I see is greenery. We must be in the middle of the woods somewhere, which makes sense because we’re living with rogues now, and they have a completely different way of living. The rogues are resourceful, I’ll give them that. There are shelters carved out of the land itself—wooden structures that blend into the thick foliage, and paths so overgrown you’d miss them if you didn’t know where to look. It’s rudimentary compared to the life I’ve known, but it’s safe. Safe. That word doesn’t feel real anymore. Not after the last few days. I’m still in shock concerning the bombing two days ago. Those of us who go into town come back saying that it’s all over the news. The Alphas have died. That’s all that’s being said. Names haven’t been released yet, and my guess is that the packs are trying to keep this
AlecWhen I look up, my vision is completely blurry, and there’s a mess all around me, but that’s not the first thing that I notice. Carla.She’s lying beneath me, and she’s unconscious. There’s also blood near her head, which makes me think that she hit her head way too hard when I collided against her due to the explosion. I roll off her, groaning. I’m filled with a sense of urgency. I have to move. I have to do something. I check the time on my watch, and my eyes widen when I realize that this bomb went off way too early. Twenty minutes too early, to be exact. What the hell happened? Did something happen to the timer? Granted, I don’t know how to truly set up a bomb. I just followed the instructions I thought made more sense. But the timer was right. I’d made sure of it. I don’t know what happened, but there’s not enough time for this. I have to get out of here, and I have to find a way to help Carla. I rise, even though my head is fucking pounding, and then haul Carla up befo
DelaneyMy ears are ringing from the explosion, and the windows of the car have all cracked. My head is a pounding mess, and I’m having a hard time seeing things clearly. Goddess, was the explosion meant to be that way?I look around at the car. Francesca is raising her head too, and I notice that there’s a piece of glass lodged on her hairline. I gasp, and point at it. “Francesca.”She frowns, and then she brings up her hand and feels the glass. Her face is a mask of horror, and she says to me, “By the goddess, don’t look.”I look away, and I imagine she removes the glass because when I look back at her, it’s gone and a bleeding gash is left behind. She presses her sleeve against it, and then stares out of the window. The building is up in flames, and I hate how long it takes me to process everything. Matteo is dead by now, and I’m guessing that so are the Alphas, as he’d planned. There’s no way anyone inside that building survived the explosion. It’s starting to fall apart, and th
Alec I check the time on my watch. It’s 7:45 on the dot, which means that in forty-five minutes, at 8:30, this entire courthouse will go up in flames. Since the bomb has a timer, I don’t have to do a single thing. I’ll just have to show up to the meeting and then excuse myself right before it happens. It’s a good thing that I’m not the head of the meeting. One of the Alphas from our neighboring city will be giving the speech. I’ll be in the background, where nobody will see me. It hasn’t been easy to get the job done, because I had to do it myself. I put all the bombs that we recovered from the rebels under the ground, the same ground where the meeting will be held. The massive office is covered in a blue carpet, so the floor is never seen. All I had to do was remove a few tiles, dig just enough for the bomb to fit into the whole, and then cover it up. I did it last night, and all by myself. It’s incredible how easily one can slip in here when being an Alpha. Nobody questioned it,