goodbye

I woke up still in Saint's room. I saw him at the end of his bed facing his laptop and I knew he was serious about what he was doing.

I carefully moved my body, and I flinched. It still hurts. He looked at me with his usual stare. He's still wearing his eyepatch, seriously? What's with his eyepatch? Is he hiding something in his left eye?

"Just rest Klea, your cheeks are still swollen." I nodded to him and lay down again.

Later on, I heard his phone ring. I looked at his back, and because of the silence, I could hear what he was talking about. Am I eavesdropping?

"Hellion you need to report here in the underground, asap." It was the voice of the man who was Saint's assistant. Hellion? Who's Hellion? His codename?

"Why? Why do you need me?" Saint asked in a cold tone.

"The mafia bosses are now livid, they know that the heiress is in your power." I felt Saint approaching me so I immediately closed my eyes.

"You don't scare me with that statement, Luther," Saint said with a very dark voice.

"Oh Hellion, I know you when you're angry. You and the heiress need to escape." Luther said it clearly to Saint.

"If you want to protect the heiress until your last breath, you need to report here ASAP and bring the heiress," Luther said.

"Are you fucking out of your mind, Luther? Klea is fragile and you know that!" Saint exclaimed. I want to leave his room. But he could see that I was awake and just listening to him.

"Yes, Hellion. I know, just come here a'right?"

"Fine!" Saint said and ended their call. I felt Saint sitting next to me. I tried my best to act like sleeping.

"I'll be back." He said and immediately left.

When I heard the door open and close, I relaxed and slowly opened my eyes. Can Saint handle them? Will he be okay?

I went down to the kitchen to drink water first. I saw Sister Mary also drinking milk, she smiled at me and I smiled back.

"Why aren't you asleep? And, what happened to your cheeks and arms?" He asked worriedly, I sat next to him and smiled softly.

"Some girls bullied me because of Saint.." I said softly, Ate Mary's eyebrows immediately raised.

"Who are they? Drop the names, I'll crush their lives." I smiled, he and Saint are indeed brothers. Both have the same attitude.

"They will stop, Sister Mary. Saint will handle them." I said smiling. "By the way, this Saturday I have a tour with Psalm," I promised with a smile.

Sister Mary's mischievous smile came out. "You don't know what to do! Our Sabrina is really getting older."

"That's not a date, Aunt Mary," I said laughing, Sister Mary immediately raised her eyebrows because of what I said.

"Weh? Really? Well, if you can smile at that, it's okay." He was teasing.

"Well, not really, Psalm is just my friend," I said, Sister Mary just shrugged and patted my head.

"Just be careful, right? Even though it's kind, it's also hiding something." He said and I nodded. Psalm is the very opposite version of Saint.

And I like Psalm more than Saint. But Saint means a lot to me. Especially because of what he said earlier, that he was afraid I would leave him. But that will never happen.

I will always need Saint in my life because he has trained me to always be by my side. That he is my support in everything, and I really appreciate him so much for that.

"Sister Mary? I have a question." Sister Mary looked at me.

"Yes? What is it?" This question has been bothering me for a long time, even when I was young. But I couldn't ask because I was afraid.

"Why is Saint's left eye covered? Why is he wearing an eyepatch? Even at school he still wears an eyepatch..." I was surprised that Ate Mary almost threw up just because I asked. What's wrong?

"I can't answer that question, Sat. Only Saint has the right to answer that. But it seems like he won't answer.." Sister Mary said. Why? Is there something wrong with his left eye? Are his eyes not the same size?

"Why?" I asked in confusion. "Only Mommy and Daddy know why he covers his left eye."

"He doesn't let anyone know, and whoever finds out without his permission, he'll kill him." I blinked at Ate Mary's words.

"Oh he, I'm going to sleep. You too." She said and left me alone in the kitchen.

Should I ask him about his eyepatch? Or not?

I followed what Saint told me not to go in today. And since he left last night he still hasn't returned, what if something happened to him? What if he is doomed?

But, he will handle them. Saint is the boss. He's strong enough to beat them. Besides, they won't hurt Saint because he has many connections.

I sighed. Sister Mary went to work. So now I'm alone in Saint's mansion. What can I do here? Cleaning up? But Saint's mansion is clean.

I was almost surprised when the house phone suddenly rang. I looked at him and he immediately approached and answered.

"Hello?" I said.

"Hello? Who is it? Is Saint there?" I frowned when I heard a woman's voice. And who is it?

"You, who are you?" The woman on the other line laughed a little.

"I'm Saint's girlfriend, you? Are you a maid there? Please reach out to him." I suddenly felt nervous because the woman said, Saint, has a girlfriend? Then..he knows Saint's real name.

"I'm sorry he's not here," I said and immediately hung up the phone.

Who's that? It was vaguely from school because he knew Saint's real name. Maybe that's his girlfriend...wait, what's the point?

Saint has the right to have a girlfriend, I don't control his life. I asked. I knew Saint was going to have a girlfriend, but I wasn't informed this early!

"Oh? Hija? It's good and the swelling on your face is gone." I immediately looked at Manang Cillia, I smiled at him and nodded.

"Ah, yes. Because Saint took care of me yesterday." I said weakly, Manang Cillia just smiled at me and nodded.

"Oh, there's your snack, eat it." He said and placed the food in front of me.

"Thank you, Manang." I thank him. He left in front of me and I was dumbfounded. What am I going to do now?

I don't have any friends that I can approach or send here to the mansion. Besides, Saint might get angry if I send someone to the house.

[FAST FORWARD]

It was already 5 pm but Saint is still not there so I immediately smiled when I heard the sound of the doorbell. I hurriedly walked towards the gate and when I opened it I was surprised by what I saw.

Why is he here? I didn't send him to the mansion, how did he know the address of Saint's mansion? Is he spying on me?

"Psalms?" I can't believe it said. He immediately smiled at me and I was even more surprised that he was with more people.

"Odette? Cassidy? Rence? Stan? Eren? And Pierce? Why are you all here?" I can't believe it said.

"Because we were worried about you, we immediately looked at the form you sent us and went to the address you entered," Cassidy promised with a smile. "And we didn't know you were really rich."

"Do you have a lot of food, Danica?" Odette immediately elbowed Eren because of what he said. They all laughed.

Do I let them in? Well, what if Saint suddenly appeared? Will they know we are in the same house? I turned to the double door of the house and saw Manang Cillia coming out of there.

"Oh, Hija? You have guests to let in." I immediately approached Manang Cillia and whispered.

"But Manang, Saint might knowㅡ" she cut me off. "I'll take care of it."

I immediately smiled. "Thank you, Manang!"

Manang just smiled at me and let Psalm enter. I could clearly see the sparkle in their eyes when they entered Saint's mansion.

"Wow, Danica. You're so rich." Rence promised happily. I laughed weakly at what he said.

"Come on, let's go to the poolside," I said smiling.

"You have a pool?!" Eren's eyes widened when he asked that. I nodded. "I should have brought swimwear!"

I just laughed. Having friends is really good and at least I won't get bored because they are here.

I really hope Saint doesn't get angry.

Our laughter filled the entire poolside, almost late at night and almost all of them didn't want to go home. Odette even insisted on having a sleepover, but I immediately said that maybe my parents will come home today and they don't know that I have a visitor. It's good that they understood and didn't force them anymore.

"After you ate dinner, did you go home?" I told them, and they nodded.

"Are you coming in this Monday?" Psalm asked and I nodded. I really appreciate their care for me. Even though we have only known each other for one week, they are really worried about me.

Eren smiled mischievously at both of us. "Do you know, Danica, Psalm was excited to come here, he just had to ditch class to come here right away. Right, Rence?" He was teasing.

"Yes!" And Rence agreed. I bowed and smiled secretly. Does he really care for me like that?

"Yeeee, you guys." Cassidy was teasing.

"Oh, Psalm just takes it slow and maybe something will come of it," Eren said after, my face getting even redder.

Pierce was just quietly listening to us and eating chips. I looked at Psalm who was now holding his neck and laughing softly while shaking his head.

"Tell us, Danica, ah? If there's progress!" Odette said with a smile as she joined in the teasing.

"Huh? Well, Psalm doesn't intervene with us." I said shyly.

"Boom! Friendzone." Stan laughed as he patted Psalm's shoulder.

"No really Danica? Even a crush?" Crush? Who is my crush? Psalms? Psalm is fun to talk to, I'm also happy when I'm with him. And sometimes I love him.

But, I'm not sure if I really have a crush on him. Besides, if I say yes, I don't want to depend on Psalm if he has feelings for me.

"Nothing. My older brother will scold me when I like a boy." I am referring to Saint, I know he will be angry even if I just make friends with a girl or boy.

"Oh? Really? Your brother is super protective." Cassidy said. I just smiled at him.

"I'll put away what we ate first," I said, they all gave me thumbs up. I took the tray with the empty glasses.

I went straight to the kitchen and I almost dropped the tray I was carrying when I saw who was leaning against the refrigerator and staring at me as if he really expected me to come here.

"S-Saint.." I stammered.

"Who are they?" He immediately asked, I carefully placed the tray on the sink and faced him. Saint is tall so it's hard to look him in the eye so I bowed down.

"M-my k-friends..." I didn't like about who they are because I have no escape from Saint if I keep lying to him.

He tsked. "You have a walk tomorrow with Psalm...and then with your friends today. What else? Is there something you need to tell me that I don't know?"

It's unusual for me to hear Saint speak a single sentence with no English mixed in. "I didn't know they were coming today...they just suddenly rang the doorbell outside earlier, and it would be a shame if I didn't let them in."

"Oh, really? So you gave them our address?" He asked while crossing his arms. I immediately shook my head.

"It's on the form of the club I joined, Odette is our club leader and they were worried about me and why I didn't come in so they went to the address on the form..." I explained. I looked at him and I could clearly see the twinkle in his eye but it disappeared immediately.

"Don't let them go, Saint..." I said softly. He combed his hair with his fingers and picked up his coat from the kitchen counter.

"Do what you want, I won't interfere but tomorrow don't forget what I said I won't pick you up, and plus, be home before 7 pm." My smile immediately came out.

"Yes! Of course." I said smiling. That's the first time I smiled at Saint, it was genuinely not fake.

"And lastly, don't smile like that in front of me. I don't like it." My smile immediately fell and I felt a small pinch in my heart. Can he just appreciate it?

Can he be soft just once? I never saw him smile again since his parents died. Even Ate Mary couldn't make him smile and laugh.

Right, he's a heartless man after all.

As soon as Saint left, Psalm suddenly entered the kitchen.

"It took you a while? Someone else is looking for you." He says. "Ah, I'm on my way there," I reply.

"Let's go?" I nodded and followed him walking but I still didn't want to get rid of what Saint said.

'Don't smile like that in front of me, I don't like it.'

I sighed. Maybe my smile is too annoying for him.

Last night turned out great, after we had dinner last night (but of course, Saint didn't join us) we went to the bar section of Saint's mansion, and he agreed. We did karaoke, we got drunk a little and played billiards. Last night, I was really happy.

I am very happy and I am very grateful to Saint that he allowed me, even though I know it was against his will. Psalm texted me last night that we would meet at Stat Mall at 9 AM. And I can't hide my excitement, this is the first time I'm going to the Mall without Saint.

I didn't even have a bodyguard with me, just like I was a normal student and kept up with the trends. I woke up early today because Star Mall is quite far from Saint's subdivision.

After I showered, I immediately put on my favorite baby pink off-shoulder dress that reached the height of my knees and my sandals with a little heel. I looked in the mirror.

Ate Mary immediately entered the room and smiled at me. "Oh, our baby Sab is beautiful. But something seems to be missing..."

I immediately looked in the mirror and at him again with a frown. He came to me and removed the tie from my hair and let it loose. She gently combed my hair and smiled at me.

He took something from the drawer and I was surprised, make up? I know Sister Mary gives me makeup but I don't use it because I don't know how.

She trimmed my brows and put some mascara into my eyelashes. He even put blush on both my cheeks and some lip gloss.

"There, you're beautiful. You don't need heavy makeup." He said with a smile, I looked in the mirror and saw that the features of my face have been enhanced a bit.

I smiled at Ate Mary. "Thank you, Sister Mary!" I said and she just nodded and smiled.

"Okay, let's have breakfast." He said and went down first. I looked at myself in the mirror once more and smiled.

I grabbed my pink shoulder bag and left the room. I locked my room and was about to go downstairs when I suddenly met Saint. And suddenly my forehead wrinkled. He is wearing long sleeves and pants, is he walking?

He looked at me from head to toe and I saw him gulp. I just smiled at him but it immediately disappeared because I remembered, he doesn't like my smile.

I got down from him first and sat at the dining table. He must also be walking with his girlfriend, I rolled my eyes. Then he will be angry with me because I have a walk now? Then he also has a walk. What's that? He has the right to roam but I don't? Ts

After I ate, Saint came down, I just got tired of him and left his mansion. I was surprised to see Psalm leaning against an Audi. Does he have a car?

"I picked you up because I know Star Mall is far from here...and..wow you look so beautiful." He said smiling while staring at me.

"Thank you, you look handsome too." I was embarrassed to say, he just chuckled at me and opened the shotgun seat's door for me.

"Thank you," I said and got into his car, I love the way his car smells. Lavender.

He turned around to get into the driver's seat and started the engine. But before we could leave, I saw a woman enter the mansion. She's wearing a fitted backless red dress, and red heels while holding a black purse. Her lips are also red, is she Saint's girlfriend?

It's like a knock. She even wears hoop earrings and her long wavy hair I'm sure she's beautiful. I just gasped in the air, Saint's taste is weird. The arrival is a hit.

"Actually I'm nervous because it's my first time with you on a date." I immediately turned to Psalm because I didn't hear what he was saying because of Saint's girlfriend.

"Huh? Me too, this is my first time wandering without my older brother." I said smiling, he nodded at me.

"Really? Your older brother is strict, aren't you? He's a college student, he's not a minor." He said laughing.

"Well, he doesn't want me to be destroyed, because the world is dangerous now," I said. Psalm nodded at me.

"Well, he does have a point. But he seems to be strict with you as if he is not enough to tie you to your house." Psalm said. If only I could tell him why Saint is so strict with me, I would have told him. But I know he will be devastated if he finds out about the true state of our lives.

"By the way, what do you want to do? Are you sure you only want to go to the mall? What if we go to the amusement park?" My face immediately lit up, amusement park? I haven't been there yet but I know it's fun.

"Really? We're going there?" I asked him in amazement.

"Of course, I'm going to make you happy for this whole day." I smiled at what he said. I knew Psalm will never disappoint me when it comes to making me happy.

"Go! Go! Psalm, I'm so excited!" I said restlessly, he just laughed at my reaction and drove towards the amusement park.

I fell asleep during the flight so when Psalm woke me up, I smiled when I saw the giant Ferris wheel and other rides.

I immediately got out of his car and pulled Psalm into the amusement park. He just laughed as he looked at me.

"What do you want to ride?" Psalm asked and I immediately looked at a roller coaster.

"That!!" I said while pointing to a roller coaster, Psalm smiled and immediately nodded.

Oh my god, this is my first time riding a roller coaster! And I can't even hide my joy!

I couldn't stop laughing because after we rode the roller coaster, I saw how the color of Psalm's face changed. I didn't know that he would be afraid of rides. Edi, I wouldn't have let him go on rides.

"Is that okay?" I asked Psalm and he gave me a thumbs up while drinking water.

He smiled at me. His breathing calmed down a bit so I smiled. He's willing to face his fears just to be with me. How can I dislike Psalms?

"Does anyone want a ride?" He asked, I immediately shook my head.

"No more, you might get dizzy," I said and laughed. "Are you really teasing me?" He also laughed and said.

"Your reaction was so epic, Psalm!" I saw a strange sparkle in his eyes while looking at me, this is the same shine I saw with Saint's eyes, but Psalm never fades.

I roamed my eyes around and saw a claw machine. "There! Shoot me a teddy bear there!" I said smiling.

We walked there, Psalm brought many tokens and one fell. "Where do you want it?" he asked.

"That! The pink pig." I said smiling, he nodded.

He aimed for the pink pig but he didn't get it. I just laughed at Psalm, he tried again and failed. I saw that he was really determined to get the pink village pig.

So we spent the whole morning in that claw machine until my stomach rumbled. He looked at me with raised eyebrows, obviously surprised.

"I'm sorry, I didn't realize the time. I'm sorry, but I can't get it. It's hard." I tapped his back and nodded.

"Okay, let's eat because I'm hungry," I said and rubbed my stomach. He laughed at me and nodded.

"Where are we going to eat?" He asked me.

"Hmm, let's eat at the mall and then go to the movies!" I said excitedly, I've never actually entered a cinema. Saint doesn't want to be there because he says many people will meet us.

So I'm going to make the most of this day when I'm free to do what I want. Today, I'll spend my whole day with Psalm.

"Alright." Psalm agreed and we walked out of the amusement park. I looked back at the amusement park.

I sighed. If only Psalm wouldn't scare me, I might have ridden all the rides there. Besides, I really want to try the Ferris wheel. Maybe I'll come back here next time when I don't have any problems with Saint.

We arrived at the mall and I was amazed at how many people there were. It used to be that when we went to Saint's mall, he would rent the whole place so that no one could disturb us. This is really my first time leaving the house without any restrictions.

I was surprised when Psalm suddenly grabbed my shoulder, I could feel my heart beating fast as I stared at his hand on my shoulder.

"Let's eat, I'm hungry." He said and we walked together towards an Italian Fastfood.

He ordered a lot. I blinked as I stared at what he ordered. Can we finish it? There are so many...

"Why so many?" I asked confused, he chuckled and pinched my cheeks.

"We're hungry, aren't we? That's it." He said with a smile, because of his positivity I nodded to him and started eating.

I saw him sometimes stealing glances at me from time to time so I smiled too and I couldn't help but think that maybe he likes me too. I read this in other novels I'm reading...but maybe I'm just assuming too much.

"Psalm, I just finished the book you gave me," I said, and he immediately looked up at me.

"And? Any feedback?" He asked.

"It made me cry!" I said sadly, he lowered the cutlery he was holding and looked directly at me.

"Is the book good?" He asked and I nodded.

"That's nice to hear, but why are you crying?" He asked. "I didn't know Gus was going to die."

He just laughed at me and continued eating. I just ate, I stared at Psalm for a while and realized that he was also handsome. But not as attractive as Saint, but Psalm is also handsome.

And why am I comparing Saint and Psalm's features? Why did Saint stumble here? I rolled my eyes again, it's up to him, he's also having fun with his girlfriend.

I just continued eating. When we finished I was relieved, I was full. I looked at Psalm and I also saw in his face that he was full.

"Are we going to the cinema?" He asked and I nodded.

We left the fast food and I just smiled while staring at Psalm. He's an ideal and I know it.

I just stared at the showings while Psalm waited for my decision. What is good to watch? Maybe Psalm won't be angry if I stick to the cartoons, right?

"Psalm, How To Train Your Dragon 3 only." Psalm looked at me for a bit and nodded. He paid for the tickets and we went inside together.

I watched 1 and 2 of these because Ate Mary bought me DVDs then. And this is my first time in the cinema, and I was amazed at the size of the screen in front of us.

I hope, next time Sister Mary will be with me.

I still couldn't move on until we got out of the cinema, I couldn't believe that Toothless was already having fun. Psalm even got worried when I cried in a scene, but I just smiled at him and said I was fine.

It's now 6 PM and I told Psalm that my curfew is 7 PM because that's what Saint said I should be home at. Psalm is now driving me home, he is just silent as if he is deep in thought.

I can't help but smile, today is the most memorable day of my life. Now I've experienced that it's happy to live a normal life, that I don't worry about any problems. As if everything is normal, this is the normal life that Daddy wants me to experience.

But in an accident that happened, all that ended, if only Daddy had been here, he would have seen that I am happy now and that I am living a normal life as he wants. I suddenly felt sadness, but it immediately disappeared when I remembered the fun things Psalm and I did today.

"Danica? We're here." I looked outside his car and saw Saint's mansion. I took a deep breath and smiled at him.

"Can you not call me Danica?" I asked with a smile, Saint wouldn't be mad if I'll say my real name right?

"Why? Did I do something wrong? Didn't I make you happyㅡ"I cut him off?

"No, no, you made me the happiest human alive this day. But it's like you're not talking about me when you call me Danica." I said smiling, his eyebrows met because of what I said.

"Wait, what? I'm confused." Confused, he said, right. He won't understand. I just gasped.

"Just call me, Sabrina or Sab okay?" I said. His eyes were still confused.

"Alright, Sabrina." That's it. Now I feel that I am really with Psalm and not someone else.

"I'll go now, bye Psalm," I said and got out of his car. I waved to him before closing it.

And when I entered the gate, I heard his car leaving, and just as I was facing the mansion, Saint's girlfriend came out. I couldn't believe what I saw, she was now wearing one of Saint's coats.

I also saw Saint coming out as if he was going to take the girl out of the gate. I just ignored them and walked straight towards the mansion.

I saw how Saint's eyes went on me for a while and returned it to his girlfriend. I was about to enter the mansion when Saint's girlfriend suddenly spoke.

"Hey, you!" I immediately looked at her, she was Saint's girlfriend. He was the one who called on the phone yesterday.

"Saint? Who is he?" The woman asked while still clinging to Saint's arm. I looked at Saint's face and it went blank as usual.

"Ah, she's my sister's friend." The woman nodded at what Saint said, I felt a little pain in my chest because of what Saint said.

Am I just a friend of Ate Mary? Is that really all he thinks of me? "Don't come near him, hubby? He might snatch you from me."

"Don't be ridiculous, Audrey. That will never happen okay? Just stay on my side, I'll never live without you." I couldn't do anything but go inside the house but before I could get away from her completely, I heard what I shouldn't have heard.

"Don't worry about her Audrey, okay? She's not important in my life." And with that, I felt my tears fall because of what Saint said.

For the first time, after my father died. I cried. This is the first time I cried, since the death of my Daddy I have not shown that I am weak. I never cried since that day.

But how did Saint manage to take away all the happiness I was feeling just now, just because of his simple words? Maybe because my period is near and I'm getting emotional.

It was the first time I cried not because of a book, but because of a person who I thought was very important to him. He even said sorry one day.

He even told me that he can't lose me in his life, and I hope I don't leave him. Then, he'll just say now that I'm not important in his life?

I hurried into my room and leaned on the door. I cried and cried just because of the words Saint said. How can he say that word? How could he let go of those words without thinking about how I would feel?

I just lay on my bed and thought about the fun things Psalm and I did earlier. Psalm is really nice, and Saint is so rude. Why am I taking so long with Saint?

If it wasn't because of our enemies, Saint would have driven me away a long time ago. And that thought just hit me hard.

What if, Saint is just keeping me here because I am his responsibility?