CHAPTER 89
"Then who's the father of your child? Why are you here instead of staying with him?"
I don't know what to say. I really don't know what to do or what to think. How can I say that he is the father of my child? How can I say that I am his mate? How can I say that I'm staying here because of him? How can I say that he loves me?
I looked at Cristine and the others. They are also looking at me with tension on their eyes. I sighed and put a small smile on my lips. I shifted my eyes towards Alqamar and even those eyes can awake everything in me...I must stay hidden from him. I have to keep it all to myself for his sake. I don't want him to forget me. I don't want him to forget all the memories we shared together.
"We had...a little misunderstanding...and I'm still currently searching for him," I said confidently. I said it like I'm a pro for lying like this.
"I want you to leave once you find him. Humans like you can't stay here longer." He sai
CHAPTER 90Two days had passed and everytime I saw Alqamar in this village I always stay away or end up locking myself inside my room. It's so hard to face him right now and I also don't know how to talk to him right now. I feel like everytime we'll face each other he's always mad at me. I think he really thought that I am flirting with Rael and because Rael has a mate Alqamar is mad at me. Of course Rael is Alqamar's friend and Hera is Herman's sister. Even though Herman tried to steal the throne from him Herman is still Alqamar's older brother.I feel like I am a burden here. If I can just have a place that I can stay at. I can stay at the old ancestral house but it was dangerous for me to live alone in that house. Plus, I came here for Alqamar. I should be patient and brave for waiting for him. I have to wait for him to remember, that's the least thing I can do for him. Alqamar sacrificed so much for me and I should do the same.It's already dark outside when
CHAPTER 91All I can see was anger in his eyes. I trembled in fear. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. He's so angry at me and he was never like this to me. He never shouts at me. He never looked at me this way. Tears filled my eyes."I-I'm..." I closed my eyes and heaved a deep sigh. "...Midnight," I said. I felt his eyes filled with fury. I opened my eyes when he stepped backwards and distanced himself from me."Are you part of my memories? Tell me..." he asked calmly this time.My lips parted at his question. I looked at him and I saw him staring down at me. His keen eyes are surveying my face like he knows that I am hiding something. I got nervous and looked away."N-No...I...am friends with...Cristine and--""Liar. Cristine never had a friend," he said firmly. I sighed heavily. Why is he pushing this anyway? Does he suspecting something? I don't know. Maybe I was really wrong of talking to him earlier. I should really st
CHAPTER 92I am trying so hard to calm myself down but even myself can't control it. I looked away from his eyes but I am still trembling in front of him."From that moment...I started to wonder...about you..." he said slowly. I swallowed hard. I don't know what to say. I don't even know how to escape from his eyes. The more I pushed myself towards him the more he's becoming confuse and I don't want it for him. I promised that I'll stay beside him until he remember me but I think it's such a selfish thing to do. I am hurting him. I am confusing him. He's in pain because of me.What shall I do if my existence can hurt him? Should I go back? Should I...just disappear and let him? Thinking about leaving him and never seeing him again hurts me so much but if it is the only thing I can do to make him fine...who am I to ignore it?"Y-You shouldn't be..." I said and lifted my head to face him bravely. I shouldn't be a coward. I should face him no matter what.
CHAPTER 93His eyes are throwing daggers. I couldn't look at him straight in the eye. I distanced myself from Ronald and with my heart beating wildly I tried to open my mouth to speak but his intense gaze at me made me shut up."I didn't know that you have so many girlfriends Doctor Madrigal," I can hear the insults in Alqamar's voice. I shook my head. I know that Alqamar is upset to me again. He'd probably think I'm such a bitch here, first Rael and now Ronald? I don't want Ronald to get in this situation!"I think you're mistaken Mr. San Diego," Ronald said calmly. I looked at Ronald and I saw him smiling at Alqamar. Damn it! What is he doing? If he smile like that in front of Alqamar he would think that he's pissing him off!Ronald pulled my shoulder that made me stiffened. I bumped by Ronald's chest that made me more confused. What is he doing?! If Cristine sees us...damn it! It would be a disaster!"Then who are you to her?" Alqamar asked in h
CHAPTER 94I walked back and forth while my mind is spacing out. I can't think of anything else but Alqamar's words. I sighed heavily and stopped for a while. I don't know what to do. Alqamar just left earlier the moment he told me to help him remember. I'm nervous. What shall I do? How can I help him without surpressing my feelings?My feelings might slipped. I don't want to be a burden to him. I looked at the door when someone knocked on it. My brows furrowed and opened the door and heaved a deep sigh when I saw Cristine. She's wearing a sleeveless dress and the way she looks at me I knew that she found out what happened earlier."Come in..." I told her. She didn't speak and just barged inside my room. She crossed her arms as I closed the door behind me."Ronald told me what happened. And from what I see your presence is triggering his memories," she said and roam around her eyes in all corners of my room."H-He told me...to help him rememb
CHAPTER 95Hera immediatelly called me to sit right next to her. When she saw who's beside me she immediately bit her lips and went back to what she's doing. She's having a sweet arguments with Rael as usual.I saw how their eyes glued on us the moment they saw us coming. Fin cleared his throat and was about to say something when Froy, his son run towards me."Can you sit beside me? I really want to be with someone as beautiful as you!" Froy said with enthusiasm. My eyes widened at his words. He's tugging my dress and I would feel bad if I refused this cute boy. I remember the moment I first met this kid."Froy! Come here! Midnight we'll gonna sit next to uncle Alqamar!" Rain went to her son but Froy refused her mother's hand and looked up to me."But I really want her beside me Mom!" Froy shouted. He peeked beside me and I saw him smile widely."Can I borrow her, Uncle?" Froy asked sweetly. I looked at Alqamar. He's seriou
CHAPTER 96I walked around the area to find Alqamar. I even checked his room if he was there, but he wasn’t. I remember what Cristine told me. I don’t want to believe her that Alqamar is now jealous even though he doesn’t remember anything. I know that if I believed what they said, it will just complicate things. I will just hope too much but I don’t know why I am searching him right now.I sighed heavily when I stopped in front of the river. It was so dark and the only thing I can hear is the crickets that couldn’t be seen because of the darkness of the night. The half moon is so bright right now.“Where are you…” I whispered softly. I promised to myself that I won’t leave him, that I will stay with him no matter what. But here I am…unable to find him. What if he is alone? Alqamar is more silent now but I know deep inside him he’s hurting. He’s in pain because watching his f
CHAPTER 97Alqamar is silent. He’s sitting in the small rock since I told him so many things that will confuse his mind. I feel regretful now that I told him those things. I just don’t want him mad or feel lonely. I am so worried with him every time he’s like this. I can’t stand seeing his eyes with full of loneliness so I would sacrifice a little information so he could trust me again. I want him to feel that even he lost his memories there’s still someone who can understand him.My eyes lingered on him the whole time. The darkness didn’t give justice in his dangerously handsome face. Times had passed and he’s still handsome in my eyes. My cheeks heated at that thought. Damn it! Lexis it’s not the time to fantasize about him!I bit my lower lip and peeked at him again and my heart almost jumped out of its place when I saw him also looking at me! I swallowed hard and looked away.“Are you
EPILOGUELooking back to all the things that happened, it seems worth it now. After the accident I woke up with a headache and the first person I saw was a man wearing his white lab coat. He told me that his name was Ronald Madrigal, and I had an accident. At first, I couldn’t believe it. How could I have an accident when I know that I have the greatest power among all my pack? And I am the alpha. But then…I noticed how I clearly remember my childhood memories and the night where I saw my parents soaking with blood but other than that…I remember nothing.I feel like I was stuck in that particular memory and it’s tormenting my mind. It was frustrating to only know a bit of yourself. I remember Fin, Gray, Rael and Cristine because they are part of my memories when I was still young but…I didn’t even remember how I got an accident! Damn!“Don’t stress yourself too much, Alqamar. Your memories will be
CHAPTER 120“When are you planning to go back, Alqamar?” I heard Cristine asked while I am watching the trees danced with the wind. It was still vivid to me. The things that happened and how I almost lost my life in that unfaithful night. And…how I watched Lexis cry while darkness is eating my whole system.I had the choice to go back and tell Lexis that I am alive but it’s not easy at it’s seem. I’ve learned my lesson. Carlos is still alive and probably waiting for his attacks if he finds out that I am alive. When everyone thought that I was killed Carlos stopped chasing and targeting Lexis. It only means one thing. I am the only one he needs and my come back is his trigger to use Lexis again as my weakness. So, I have to remain hidden and just like before…watched Lexis from afar.I don’t want to go back to the days where I was still looking at her from afar but it’s still happening right, an
CHAPTER 119It wasn’t easy. Every time she’ll ask about my identity or my past makes me anxious. Thinking that once I told her everything she’ll slip away. And it’s even harder when I found out that Herman and Carlos’ group is planning of an attack against Lexis. So, for the mean time I told Lexis that I’ll leave. She assured me that she loves me. She made love to me, and I know that finally, she loves me back. Finally, I claimed her and she’s officially mine now, forever.“Are you seriously going alone, Alqamar?” Cristine asked me with her raising tone while I am packing my things. I already told Lexis about it and even she wants to know my real reason she still managed to keep herself silent. And I regret that I still need to keep this a secret. Maybe I was just really afraid that she would leave me if she found out the truth.“Yes. I know I can handle them better alone,” I said co
CHAPTER 118I tried to pursue her. Followed her wherever she goes. I wanted to be there for her. That’s why I tried so hard to be near her. I am sure that she’s smart and I didn’t know why she had a low score in her quiz but maybe fate is on my side that I took that chance to get her attention only to me, not with anyone but to me."I'm gonna schedule a tutorial for you so you'll understand-""No!" she cut me off when I tried to suggest that. I just want to help her or maybe I did have a secret intention, but I am serious that I want to help her. Our eyes met. I gave her a serious eye and she was just staring at me like she was in the middle of a deep thought about me. I sighed."What's wrong with that?" I asked. I really don’t get it. It’s more convenient to her."I'll just ask Ronald for it. You don't have to schedule anything," she said.My jaw clenched. I really hate how she’s gotten close
CHAPTER 117The next morning, I woke up early moving forward to the second day of class. I didn’t know that it will be more fun than what I expected. Already carrying my bag and other things when I saw Rael, Fin and Gray inside my house. My new house that I bought last week. I planned to stay here until I am still teaching at the school. I will just visit the village when weekends.“How did you all enter my house?” my brows furrowed while staring at the three who were sitting comfortably in my couch. These three has nothing to do with their lives.“You didn’t lock the doors,” Gray said. Rael smirked at me.“Your house is huge, we can stay here, right?” Rael’s twinkling eyes looked at me. I raised my brow at him, he noticed it that made him looked away.“Yeah right…we can’t,” he answered in his own question.“You’ll work?” Fin asked
CHAPTER 116I parked my car in the parking lot of the school. I sighed heavily when I saw the students coming inside the school. I can’t believe that I am here. I must be crazy. I looked at myself in the mirror before coming out of my car. I went straight at the faculty and checked my schedule. I unconsciously smiled when I saw that my first schedule is Lexis’ section.But my smile faded when I remember something. She’ll see me again. As her professor. Would she recognize me? What if she recognizes me and run for hill to hide from me? Because she’s scared? I gritted my teeth. I hope it won’t happen though. I would rather want her to not recognize me and remain to be a stranger to her. Goddamn it! Am I masochist?I sighed heavily and collected my things to attend my first class. I can feel everyone’s eyes on me. I am used to it but…they are college students. They should look at me with respect and not&helli
CHAPTER 115I can sense her presence now. I just saw her car arrived at her grandmother’s ancestral home. I watched her guided by her parents and her grandma who looks shocked of seeing her. I stared at her grandma. She looks familiar but I shrugged it off when I saw Cristine watching me. I stood up straight and looked away from Lexis’ direction.“I was right. You’re here,” she said and raised a brow at me. I ignore her and walk like nothing happened. I am going now to the village. It’s enough for me that I saw her safely arrived.“What do you need?” I asked when I felt her followed me.“Do you have plans? You know that Herman and Carlos are allies to bring you down, right?” She asked calmly. I sighed. I have plans but it’s not necessary to tell her anymore.“What are your plans? Make Lexis fall in love with you first and then tell her the truth and finally you&rs
CHAPTER 114After I send her home, I immediately washed myself. I feel like her puke is all over me. I closed my eyes as I felt the cold water dripped down my body. Watching her closer like that makes me insane. It’s been years since I last watched her close like that and she was just a young girl back then. Now that she’s and a grown woman I can’t help but to feel crazy over her.I woke up at dawn and the sun hasn’t risen yet when I drove myself towards San Isidro. I have a house in the city if ever I don’t want to go home yet or won’t be able to go back early. This province is an hour far away from the city. I parked the car in my usual place and walks towards the village.Everyone greeted me as soon as they saw me. I just nodded every time. I don’t have any plans today and I think I’ll go back in the city during Lexis’ graduation. I’ve never missed every celebration she has. I was alway
CHAPTER 113I woke up feeling awful the next day. My head is spinning like crazy. I don’t know but I felt cold. Damn! I am not usually like this. Maybe because I let myself in the rain yesterday? Well, wolves can also possibly catch a cold, but it will just pass by like before.I get up from the bed and changed my clothes before going out. Everyone made away for my arrival until I stopped in front of them, I saw my whole pack waiting for me to speak. I sighed and started to elaborate the things I wanted to say.“First of all, I wanted to compliment…Carlos’ group for guarding the boarders of this province, the other wolf pack wouldn’t have the chance to cross the island because of that,” I said and looked at Carlos and beside him is Herman. Carlos just nodded courteously at me. There’s a reason why I’d give that mission to him. So, that he will be far away from my pack while I’m investigating hi