C9

I smiled when I saw the beautiful views of Montromey again after I left the room when the king and queen left me because the council had called them for a meeting. I went to the swings and sat there while thinking about what the queen said, I am not going back to Moon Night? Why is it? They might probably think I was dead and when I returned I would just look like a ghost that appeared in the territory out of nowhere.

"Sachiko? It is true what I heard" I looked at who speak and none other than Kline who was with another person.

"C-cora?" I stood up when I recognized who Kline was with.  Even if the image of her painted by Elora is chaotic, she will still be recognized immediately with just one look.

"You know me? Why are you crying?" She ask confused.

"I am sorry there is nothing I can do for them, I can not save them," I asked for forgiveness crying.

"What? Wait, what are you saying? Everything is fine here and I am happy that you are already here. You did not know how much aunt and uncle worried about you. Thanks for Ester telling me you are here if she did not I did not know you are back" Kline said. They did not know I was found in Evergreen? 

"I did not come here with my own will," I said in a small voice and wipe my cheeks and eyes wet with tears.

"What do you mean? Then why are you here?" I sat back down in the swing and made stare contact with the ground.

"King Vinsor found me in Evergreen's same situation when their watchman found me in the woods. I just woke up almost three hours now" I could not look at them especially at Cora because I know what their reaction would be.

"You live in Evergreen pack since you left?" Kline asks shocked.

"Yes, when I left I did not know where I am going so I just wandered to where ever my foot take me. I'm a small town where many sellers of what I had reached were mistaken for a princess because of my clothes. When I left there I saw a small hut I wanted to spend the night there but I felt a different presence and before I knew who they were I lost consciousness and when I woke up I was in Evergreen" I said to them. I was surprised when someone knelt in front of me, it was Cora. ​​She smiled and held my hands.

"What is your name again?" She asks.

"Sachiko Walter"

"It is like this Sachiko, I heard what happened in the pack I came from and I know it hurts but I do not blame you for what happened"

"But I know I am one of the reasons"

"Whatever the reason is no one is blaming you" she emphasizes.

"You do not understand Cora, I am a human and I survived. King Vinsor said I am the only one alive there when he arrived. I do not know how did I end up in the tree away from the packhouse. Idris is just in front of me unconscious and I do not have the strength to move I am also losing lots of blood and I know I will not survive"

"Idris? Is he your mate?" I shrugged.

"He is not your mate but you talk with concerns and regret like he is your mate" Kline ask confused as she came forward and grab my hand pulling me and so Cora and bringing me to a garden, and we sit on the grassy ground.

"Tell us about you and Idris," Cora said smiling.

"Do you know how humans live?" I ask them. Even if I just lived with wolves for thirteen years that seven years I spent with humans will not be forgotten.

"A little" Kline answered.

"Let us say me and Idris were humans, just an example. We have a mutual understanding and we are lovers. He is my boyfriend while I am his girlfriend"

"There is no problem about that since Idris does not have a mate and so are you" Cora happily appointed.

"No, I have one, when I was in Moon Night pack someone told me I  am his mate but he did not accept me because I am a pure-blooded human. At first, I was hurt because I thought he understands me since we became friends but I was wrong he is one of those who look down on me" here we go again storytelling time.

"How did you react? You accepted the rejection?" Cora asked incredulously and in shock.

"Yes, I can not do anything. Who I am anyway, just a human so without any hesitation I accepted it. It hurts because I thought he did care for me but I was just assuming. That made me sad but at the same time, happily do not know why but that is how I felt. Just the other day I felt a burning sensation and pain throughout my whole body and it is killing me. Dustin said my mate marked another person that is why I felt like that, I already told about this to the king and queen and they said I am a wolf blooded human, not a pure-blooded human and it is confusing since I lived my whole life as a human" 

"If that is the case who is your wolf?" Kline asks excitedly.

"I do not know because my wolf has not come out yet, it just insinuate when the rogues attacked Evergreen"

"Then how did the queen and king know you are a wolf?" Cora also asks confused.

"I do not know I did not get the chance to ask" 

"They are the highest race of wolves of course they will know" Kline stated. 

"You are one of us Kline you will know too" we turn our back to whom it spoke.

"What do you mean?" Kline asks Yoshiko the one who spoke just a few seconds ago.

"Why don't you use your ability and you will see the changes in her, you too Cora even if you are not a royal lycan you will know, every wolf can tell the changes in her" both of them stared at me as they heard what he said.

"Your scent changed, but the unknown scent in your blood did not" Kline commented.

"No way" Cora blurted with her eyes wide looking at me.

"You smell alpha blood Sachiko" she continued.

"You are a daughter of an alpha" Kline cleared.

"There is a possibility that mom and dad know who are you and who are your parents that is why mom asked you to stay here and never return to Moon Night. But they have to confirm it first before telling you or maybe they will not because they do not want you to expect" Yoshiko explained.

"You stare at your cousin Kline as if he has something wrong with you," I remark at her.

"Keep that stare away at me Kline do not criticize because it is not confirmed and I also hope to" Yoshiko defended that confused Cora and me.

"What are you two staring at each other there? What are you trying to understand that Cora and I don't know?" I interrupted their gaze.

"Nothing" they answered at the same time so Cora and I also stared at each other with a shrug.

"You Cora why are you here? What they know is that you are gone, so Elora painted the image of you displayed in the packhouse so that they can always see you every day" I asked Cora.

"It was terrible what happened to me then at Evergreen that caused me to lose the pack and I did not expect to be given another chance to live. I chose to live here so that I could protect the whole Evergreen even though in return it was my grief and longing for them."

"You have no intention of showing up to them or letting them know that you are still alive? Even they are also saddened by losing you and they also miss you so if you are having a hard time they are the same, especially Elora and Endrich. You play a big part in them, so it is not easy what they went through when they lost you." I explained to her, that even though I didn’t ask how they felt I could see in their eyes the longing when they are looking at the image of her.

"The day will come and that I will also show up to them but for now not first. Whatever happened to all of you there I know they survived" she marked.

I just kept quiet and played with my fingers. Is it possible that they survived? If the adults did not survive what about the children? I looked at Cora as she held my right hand.

"You okay?" She questioned. Okay? I am not until now I still can not believe what happened.

"I want to be alone, excuse me" I stood quietly and left them there. I went to a mountain just near the palace. It was high and not that far but I don't care I wanted to go there.

"Aaaaaahh" I shouted when I reached the rock that was the top of the mountain.

What happened to Evergreen still hurts me, it's unbelievable. As if we just had fun having dinner, I can't imagine that it was our last dinner together.

"I am sorry but I can not help but blame myself that it was my fault. I know that I am one of the reasons for what happened, if I had allowed you to do what you are planning to do to those two prisoners maybe all of this would not have happened."

If only I hadn't interrupted their plan.  If only I hadn't become recreant and confronted those two prisoners, then everything is still fine now and no one took their lives and no ambushes happened.

This is so hard for me, I thought if I was strong and knew how to use weapons I would be able to be strong and unbeatable but in a flash I did nothing. I just watched them fall and gradually lose their lives, I am a very worthless citizen.

What is my shortcoming? Why is it that almost everything is just misfortune? If they had not known me this would not have been the case from Moon Night to Evergreen. I learned to use weapons to protect myself because I was always the one getting protected in the pack. Maybe it is also because of being a human being so I am always the first target before the wolves so instead of fighting they still protect me.

It is hard to live as a pure-blooded human in a territory of dissimilar creatures, what more if you know nothing to do but hide behind them. And now that they say I am also one of them, should I rejoice? I do not know what I will face, if being human is not easy I do not know what the consequences of being a wolf are. Will tomorrow be difficult for me or not? Every minute is still grief, the loss of people who valued me is a misery that silently kills.

I held the necklace Idris gave me, I sat on the ground and cried. It was as if I was being torn to pieces when I remembered his condition in front of me that night, his suffering as well as the suffering of others.  With the severity of what they suffered and gained in the battle, is it still possible for them to survive? Evergreen's territory is small so it is hard to survive only gambling can be done to survive.