Anu's POV
My day can't be worse than this.
The whole day I spent being moody, one moment I would be fine and the other moment I would recall something hurtful that happened five years ago and cry over that. and the next moment i will laugh with Zakera for a lame joke. I had skipped breakfast but I had three cups of coffee and one pastry, after that I also had some junk food which is most likely not me.
After completing such a bad college day, Zakera and I returned to our hostel. I was feeling exhausted and also my leg was hurting a little so I thought about taking a nap.
It was almost evening when I woke up feeling slight pain in my abdomen.
as i guessed, my periods arrived.
Anu's POVI'm numb, but the next moment I would feel dozens of emotions that I can't process.I had no control over my tears, and thumping heart. Taking deep breaths, I tried to swallow the lump that I felt deep in my throat.Trying hard to stop my mind from thinking anything negative about my dad's health, I closed my eyes for a moment to recall his smiling face when he came to visit me last time.He was happy to know that I'm enjoying and peacefully living my college days. He was relieved to know that I've a friend with me who takes care of me in his absence. He was proud to know that I'm doing well in my studies. He was very happy.I still can't get over that moment when he cherished my
Rishi's POVWhen will I see her again ? this isn't a question. it's my desperation.I'm counting the days by minute.I miss her so damn much.It's been two weeks since she has been staying with her dad to take care of him, after two days of observation he was discharged from hospital. Anu had been staying with her dad to look after him till he got cured completely.Well, he's doing fine now, but Anu wants to spend some more time with her dad and she decides to extend her leave.I don't mind her decision to spend more time with her father, who is dealing with health issues. but my poor heart is missing her so much. there
Anu's POVRight now my feelings are running like fresh river water, which meets the salty water of the ocean and flows together. Both types of water get replaced from the old one just like how my thoughts have been replaced by him.This very feeling sucked every drop of sleep from my eyes in the last few days and the fun part is, I'm not even complaining.yup, i'm enjoying every second of thinking about him, it makes me feel like he's with me, right now, right here, beside me. blinking tiredly, I keep looking at the moon when his precious smiling face keeps flashing in front of my eyes, making me smile too.I've stopped pretending like he doesn't affect me in a way that no one ever did. I've stopped denying the inner voice that tried
Anu's POV My exactment has no boundaries as I kept feeding my head with imaginations of him saying "I love you too" as soon as I confessed my love. He makes my heart go up and down like the tides of the ocean. when I think positively about him accepting my proposal would take me to the highest point but again, my negative thoughts about him rejecting me would take me down. I couldn't control the rapid heartbeats I have been feeling since the morning. Even the tricks of taking long breaths and drinking a lot of water didn't help my poor heart.I guess, now only he can solve my heart problem. With a wide grin I combed my hair looking at myself in the mirror. For the first time, I looked genuinely happy. Like, I know this is my happiness and I deserve every bit of it. I own this happiness, this smile and these good feelings. I own the feeling about him, that makes me more happy. The glow was so evident on my face that I didn't have to use any kind of cream on my face. The pinkish bl
Anu’s POV Life is like a mystery book, you will never know what is next until you turn the page. When this morning i left for college feeling exhilarated for things that i anticipated after i made a decent proposal to Rishi. I was eager to witness his smile, his twinkling eyes, and his cute dimples following his smiles, last but not least his deep voice. Yes, more than any great musician's music, I love his voice. His voice soothes my soul. Just like how a mother’s voice can calm a crying toddler. Of course we used to talk via calls these days , but I wanted to feel his voice from being beside him , not from being miles away from him. Though the distance did good to us, the distance made me realise how madly i’m in love with him and i’m thankful to the distance we had since last few days because if not this distance happened to us i would have still neglected the need of my heart by covering up with lame excuses and would have missed my first love story that has just began, yet
Rishi's POV I washed my mouth after a hasty action of brushing my teeth. spitting the water out on basing i blew air on my palm to make sure that my bad breath has gone. " Perfect " I mumbled as I smelled fresh mint flavour in my breath, perhaps my breath smelled good unlike the previous day. This sickness has made me look like a geek in just one day, till a few minutes ago I myself couldn't stand my bad breath. Of course after throwing up all day out of fever my mouth had to smell like that. yuck!! but thanks to the mint flavour toothpaste, no more bad breath. smiling wide in front of the bathroom mirror, I checked if my teeth were clean and neat and my eyes slowly travelled to my messy and dirty hair that I haven't combed for two days. my face looked grimy and dull. eyes are tired and sunken. licking the dry and lifeless lips of mine, I gazed at myself in the mirror for a good few seconds. I looked so much different than what I'd look normally. I didn't think that just t
Anu’s POV Burying my face deep into the pillow, I growled out of embarrassment. Even if I don't want to think about it, my mind automatically goes back to that moment without my permission and makes me parelise. No amount of curse can replace the cretinous feeling inside me. Never thought that I could be so dense at times. But what could I do if he looked so alluring and eye pleasing even being sick ? above that he initiated the kiss and i couldn’t hold back myself anymore. Before today, I had imagined his lips on mine many times. I’ve imagined how his lips would feel while ruining mine, I imagined how I would be feeling in that peak moment. I’ve dreamt about kissing him, hugging him but all my imagination and dreams felt less and underestimated then what I experienced today. The kiss was quick, merely lasting 6-7 seconds. But in these few seconds he showed me different worlds and made me feel entirely different things that I've never come in contact with before. I’m not
Rishi’s POV " you're stupid, ohh wait wait....actually if stupidity had a face then it would look like you. " Ram mocked me as i glared at him for the nth time in last few hours and still he won’t shut his bloody stupid mouth. " Will you stop blathering ? ``Retorting back at him, I took a deep breath to calm myself. Ram has been a pain in my ass since the time I told him that Anu didn’t say I love you too when I had proposed to her. I know things happened in a hustle, it wasn't a very planned proposal nor was it prepared. Yet I was sure about my actions, I knew exactly what I was doing. After she left abruptly from my apartment, I was restless and anxious. I tried to get her on call but she isn't responding at all. The whole day I spent in guilt of stealing the kiss from her made things more awkward between us. It was nearly late at night when I decided to make things clear and neat with her. I was ferocious about everything that made me feel like I would lose her if I didn't
Anu’s POV I froze on my spot, trying to breath for the sake of my life and to make it even more worse Sid pulled back only to bent his head till my level and look into my eyes for a brief moment before he went to the left side ear and purred “ And, it’s always going to be YOU….” letting his hot breath touch my skin and create havoc inside me. At this point, I just melted and now I want him to hold me before I collapse on the floor. He made me freaking weak, being my weakness. He’s my weakness, and instead of feeling threatened to realise that I feel a sense of contentment and happiness. It took so much for us to reach this point where I can trust him, give my heart and let him touch my soul. We built this trust through a lot of uncomfortable conversation, emotional vulnerability and with empathy for each other’s broken parts of heart which we eventually learnt to fix. We cured each other to make each other feel complete and that’s how we reached this point of healthy relatio
Anu’s POV “ be a good baby and don’t trouble Masha okay……Mumma loves you baby *umhaa*” Smooching loudly on the speaker of the phone , I heard Ria doing the same before the call ended. Placing the phone on the dressing table I huffed as my eyes pulled back to the mirror in front of me. I looked beautiful and glowing even in the dim lighting of the room.. Maybe the Skincare and months of doing yoga with a pit of laziness every morning is finally showing the results I wanted. Well, it’s been three months since I started to care for my skin and body after Ria gave me an earful of how I'm not taking good care of myself. I was amused to hear her talking about yoga and intake of healthy foods. Like from when did she know about all these ? But then I came to know that Ria’s new best friend, Dhruv’s mother, is a yoga teacher and runs her own yoga centre. At first I didn't want to join the yoga class because of my laziness and habit of procrastination. Besides, Sid would always make me f
Author’s POV “ How come I had no clue about your feelings towards me ? Was I that ignorant in those days ? “ Asked Anu blankly, staring at the ceiling of her room while her fingers played with the ends of her wavy hairs. The chillness of her hairs wetted Sid’s pink Ryamon cotton shirt as her head was placed on his stomach, while both of them were laying on her bed in mid afternoon to take a nap before Ria returned from her school. Once she gets home, it’s hard for both of them to take a moment of rest since Ria has become more mischievous nowadays and all appreciation goes to Sid who is spoiling her with all his rights. “ Because I was a good pretender…. “ Replied Sid who was also staring at the blank space of the ceiling. His fingers aimlessly tangled between the layers of her hairs while his other hand was placed under his head. The room was so peaceful for their own mood that none of them wanted to break this moment. The soft white curtains moved back and forth as Slow b
Author’s POV *Hey, are you free this evening ? I’ve two tickets for 96 movie, Evening show * *let me say this before you say Yes…... .just know that it would be our first date if you said Yes..*It took a lot of courage for Sid to hit the send button after he typed and erased the same msg for the past two hours. And when he finally hit the send button with a shaking hand and uneven breath, he shut his eyes tight not wanting to face her rejection that he was expecting despite filling himself with hope of a positive response from her. After a while he opened his eyes and saw the message being delivered but not seen as she wasn’t online right at this moment. He sighed leisurely, placing his phone on the table in front he leaned on the couch, biting his nails one by one. He realised that he wasn’t this nervous even when he was preparing for his board exams a decade ago or when his father caught him watching porn on his PC when he was in his first year of college. Finding no other w
Part 70 Author’s POV“ Keep your phone with you all the time, “said Rishi, rotating the steering wheel with his one hand while his other hand was behind the back of her head, on the seat as he glanced back to make sure of the clear spot to park. “ hmmm “ Anbu responded while she was lost in some thoughts.“ don’t skip meals even if you’re busy, “ he said, halting the car in the perfect parking slot and releasing his seat belts. “ Hmmm “ she again hummed without even paying attention to her surroundings. Looking at her he spoke “ don’t eat too much of oily foods, you’ll end up having upset stomach ““ Hmmm “ her eyes were fixed to the front of the car as she aimlessly kept playing the pendant of her chain. “ Try to make time and call me, or text me “ turning towards her side, He said to gain her attention. “ Hmmm “ she was still lost in her thoughts that she didn’t even realise that he was gazing at her for the past few minutes. with a playful smile lingering around the corner o
Author’s POV It was 2:36AM, Anu was sleeping soundly with her arms wrapped around her daughter. It’s been a week now since they have shifted here and Anu had been running to places since then, Ria’s new school admission process, new house arrangements and also finding a maid seems more difficult task then the above two Thank god to Masha who looked after Ria in absence of Anu as she had to go out often in this one week. And after all the rush and tiresome work, she managed to arrange everything. Hereafter she can join her new office in two days without having to worry about anything else. She was in deep sleep when the constant ringing of her phone disturbed her sleep as she leisurely opened her eyes and took a few minutes to shake off the sleepiness to gain her consciousness. “ hello “ she spoke in her horse voice. “ Masha, at this hour ? “ she asked on call, hardly able to keep her eyes open. Rubbing her eyes using her thumbs, Anu glanced at the clock when she put down the
Author’s POV “ Are you sure no one would catch us here ?” questiONED Anbu as soon as she stood behind Rishi, who seemed lost in gazing at the night sky. Turning around he shook his head with surety and spoke “ don’t worry, everyone already slept and i’ve asked one of my cousin to look out for us “ “ Hmmm “ she responde, looking around thinking of a way to start the conversation. The terrace was covered in peaceful silence, the dim lights provided enough brightness there. Covered under the night sky and serene atmosphere, both of them stood in an awkward silence for a minute. She began “ um…..what’s both…. “ “ let’s sit over there “ He spoke pointing at the right corner of the terrace. She and both of them sat down beside each other leaning on the wall behind them. “ what’s going on in your mind ?” She had no patience after watching him avoid looking into her eyes a few times. Every passing second was filling her with more questions and disturbing thoughts, He looked
Author’s POV “ What’s bothering you ? “ asked Swati who was helping Anbu in removing her make up after the function. It was nearly Two AM when the reception was complete and guests left after having the buffet, some of them didn’t fail to remark on the food taste though. Throughout the function Anbu was standing on the edge of walking to her room and throwing herself on the bed to take a nap. These Marriage things seemed exciting and interesting only when she wasn’t the actual bride. Exhausted, sleep deprived and tired are the words that can describe her current status. The happiness of marrying the man she loves is one side, but the tiresome they have to go through to marry each other seemed tiring that in middle of rituals she had this urge to get up and scream that she doesn’t wants a grand marriage anymore and would just have register marriage instead but she also couldn’t say that as her other side badly wants this grand marriage. After coming back from Delhi Rishi and A
Author’s POV “ What do you want now ? '' Anu fumed in anger, glaring at Rishi, who was seated across from her on the couch in the hall. It’s been a few minutes since Masha called him in after convincing Anu for this. Since Anbu didn’t want to be an awkward and unwanted part of this conversation between Rishi and Anu, she assured him that she will wait in his car till he is done. Masha had taken Ria to upstairs before calling him inside the house as per Anu’s demand. Anu didn’t want Ria to know about Rishi. Meanwhile Rishi took a brief moment to examine his surroundings. He could say that she had maintained the home well and tidy but what surprised him was those brown carton boxes which were placed here and there in different sizes, some packed and some half packed. Leaving the furniture, other things seemed already packed and ready to be moved. He realised that she is in the process of shifting to somewhere else, but he won’t dare to ask her about it. Anu’s eyes reflected th