I pull into the underground parking lot of the Starlight Lounge - one of the most exclusive bars in West Hollywood - pull my visor down and quickly apply a coat of mascara to my naturally long lashes to make my deep, chocolate-brown eyes pop. I then apply a layer of lip oil to my moderately plump lips to give them a little shine. I pinch my cheeks a little – a trick my madre taught me – to give my soft, latte skin a natural flush, then I tie my bust-length, dark brown hair up into a sleek ponytail. I give myself another once over and once satisfied, grab my bag, and get out of the car.
I smooth out my black slacks and tuck in my long-sleeve, white, button-down shirt and tighten my black tie. The club has a strict dress code. All servers must wear black pants, a white shirt, and a black tie. At least I get to wear my Sketchers for comfort, but they’re black so they at least blend in. While my diner uniform is cuter, I like this one much better. I think it’s classy and no one can look down my shirt or up my dress, which is a plus. I also think it appropriately hugs and flatters my thin frame and natural curves. Not saying I want to go to work looking sexy, but it’s nice to go to work and not feel like a frump all the time.
I use my keycard to access the service elevator and head up to the Starlight Loung, residing on the top two floors of this twenty-story building. I step out into the dimly lit, red corridor and use my keycard once again to access the staff room. I toss my stuff into my locker, grab my black apron, tie it around my waist, tuck my pen and pad into the pocket and head out to clock in. I walk into the main lounge/dining area to see the club in full swing – emphasis on the swing.
The Starlight Lounge – like everything in West Hollywood – is a modern club with a 1930s style. The first floor is the lounge and dining area with a live jazz band and lounge singer, while the second floor is reserved for VIP lounges, which they call ‘cigar rooms’ for the sake of nostalgia. The interior is mostly charcoal-coloured upholstery and deep mahogany with soft lighting for a dark and mysterious ambience. It gives it this secret, exclusive atmosphere that almost harkens back to the prohibition era. I guess I have a thing for themes since I work in one place with a 1950s theme and another with a 1930s theme. I really gotta step into the 21st century.
“Lani!” calls out the manager, Lamont, standing by the bar.
I walk over and greet him with a warm smile, “Hey, Monty. Where would you like me to start?”
“If only all my workers were as hardworking as you,” he sighs wistfully. “Would you mind working behind the bar tonight? Marcello called in sick, but I’d much rather have you behind the bar than Karen,” he whispers.
I glance at Karen working behind the bar and lean in to whisper my reply. “Because she’s such a Karen?”
“It’s like parents know what monster their child will become so they name them appropriately, so the world gets an advanced warning,” he says, shaking his head in bewilderment.
I chuckle. “I’ll take care of it. Anything I need to know?”
“Mr Foxx is here tonight, so if you wouldn’t mind preparing a bottle of his favourite for me to take to him.”
“Consider it done,” I say with a smile, giving him a salute.
I walk behind the bar and over to Karen as she cleans the bar top, blowing loose strands of her dirty blonde hair out of her face. Karen is a forty-four-year-old stout woman who stands at only 4’7” but has the attitude of a woman ten feet tall. She’s like an angry, bitter Mrs Pots; the walking embodiment of a Napoleon Complex. Any time she works behind the bar she needs to use a safety step because she can’t see over the bar. Makes you realise that bars don’t accommodate the vertically challenged.
I walk over and greet her with a pleasant smile. “Good evening, Karen. Monty has asked me to take over at the bar so you’re now off the hook.”
“Maybe if he could figure out how to properly staff people I wouldn’t have had to be back here in the first place,” she says bitterly, tossing down her handtowel and storming out from behind the bar.
“Your efforts are very appreciated!” I call out, but I doubt she heard me. I swear, in the time I’ve been working here, I’ve not once heard a positive thing come out of her mouth. It’s like she complains just for the sake of complaining.
I prepare the bottle Monty requested, placing it at the end of the bar, then happily work on serving the customers and filling drink orders. As I work on mixing another drink, the lights darken further, and the spotlight hits the stage at the far end of the room. I smile wide, turning my attention to the stage just like the other patrons, as my friend takes centre stage. Her ivory skin looks luminescent under the spotlight, the diamond earrings and clips in her radiant blonde hair refract in the light making them twinkle like a thousand rainbows as she steps up to the microphone. Her ruby red lips capture the attention of every man in the room as she begins to sing her signature song Some Kind of Mystery – not her own song.
She stands there, her figure swaddled beneath a luxurious black fur coat, hiding her 6-foot form from the lascivious eyes of the men in the room. Her amber eyes connect with each man in the audience flirtatiously, tantalising them, luring them in like fish to a worm on a hook as her voice fills the room. Just like the men, I stare at her completely captivated.
Irina Obraztsov was the first friend I made in America. She’s a year older than me and immigrated from Russia to pursue a singing career. She is one of the most confident, self-assured women I’ve ever met. She can come off as abrasive, and harsh, but she’s just got a zero-tolerance policy for bullshit – or what she deems bullshit. She’s not everyone’s cup of tea but considering everyone in West Hollywood is either lying or kissing someone’s ass, her direct – and at times brutal – honesty, is a breath of fresh air.
When Irina hits the high note of her song she drops her coat, revealing an exquisite cobalt, satin, backless, cowl-neck gown skimming the floor like water and hugging her figure. The crowd cheers and whistles, applauding her talent and beauty as I smile in awe of her.
When the performance finally ends, she steps off the stage, sauntering through the throngs of men all vying for her attention as she makes her way to the bar.
“A glass of my usual please, Lani,” she says, turning to look out at the club as she leans her elbows back on the bar.
“Certainly Madame, would you like a lemon wedge with that?” I say playfully.
Irina smiles back at me, “That would be divine, solnyshkuh.”
I quickly pour her a glass of sparkling water, squeeze a lemon wedge into the glass then drop in a fresh wedge. I place a napkin down and slide it over to her.
“No matter how many times you perform that song, I never get sick of it,” I say with high praise.
“You’re always sweet to me. I hear there’s a big record producer in here tonight, which I really hope is true. I just keep waiting for someone who matters to come in here, see me perform and take a chance on me,” she says, her hunger and determination emphasizing every word as she turns to face me and takes a sip of her drink.
“Don’t you also work here because you need to pay rent?”
“That too.”
I chuckle. “For what it’s worth, I really hope it happens for you one day, but in the meantime, I love getting to see you perform.”
She smiles wide, “And getting to enjoy your company is one of the other reasons I stay here. Who else would I bitch to?”
“Everyone else who works here?” I respond playfully.
She waves a dismissive hand. “They don’t count, they’re nowhere near as fun as you.” She takes another sip of her drink and abruptly halts herself. “Oh, have you heard from your family? How are they?” she eagerly asks.
“I spoke to them on Wednesday, they’re doing good. Apparently, Miguel went and found himself a girlfriend,” I say, wiggling my eyebrows.
“Oh, the young Mr Contreras has decided to venture into the dating pool. Should we send him floaties in the mail?” she teases.
I snort with laughter, “Boy has to learn the dating terrain at some point. He sounds like he really likes this girl though. As long as she treats him right and he treats her right, it’s all fine by me.”
“How old is your brother again?”
“Sixteen.”
“Yikes,” she says, making a face of discomfort. “Here’s hoping his raging hormones don’t ruin it for him.”
“I don’t think guys ever grow out of that.”
“Sadly, my dear, you are right about that.” She looks around the room, catching the eyes of a tall drink of hot chocolate. “Speaking of, wish me luck.” She throws me a wink, puts her drink down and makes her way over to her nameless admirer.
I take her drink, place it behind the bar, and work on filling the incoming drink orders. The rest of the night goes incredibly smooth, and surprisingly quick, like someone sped up time, which is fine by me, just means I get to go home that much sooner…sort of.
I spend the last half hour of my shift cleaning up and closing up the register, then take all the money and night's receipts to the manager’s office.
“That’s everything, Monty. Anything else you need?” I ask as I place everything on his desk.
“Not at all. Thank you for everything tonight, you were a lifesaver,” he gushes.
“Because I saved you from the wrath of Karen?” I tease.
“How can someone so small be such a giant cunt?” he asks incredulously.
I chuckle shaking my head. “I’ll see you tonight. You take care of yourself.”
“You too, Nalani. Have a safe drive home,” he says earnestly.
I gather my things from my locker and head to my car. As I get in I breathe a sigh of relief that my workday is finally over. I know I signed up for thirteen-hour workdays, but that does not mean it’s not exhausting.
I eagerly drive home and as soon as I enter the door, I strip down, go to the bathroom, then toss on my nightshirt, and climb into bed, my feet throbbing and aching from being on them all day. I open up my laptop, hit ‘Continue Watching’ on Schitt’s Creek and snuggle up in my cosy, fluffy bed, ready to fall asleep to the sounds of the dramatic lives of the Rose’s.
As I relax and my eyelids start to feel heavy, I feel Ily jump onto the bed from wherever she was hiding and walk up to me, snuggling up in my arms. I wrap my arm around her and kiss her head.
“Thank you for always welcoming me home,” I say to her.
I think compared to most people I’m incredibly lucky and I value every opportunity I’ve been given, but it’s the nights as I fall asleep all alone, a world away from my family that the loneliness starts to creep in. I miss my family more than anything in this world, but I just keep reminding myself that I’m doing this for them. The aching back, the sore feet, the perverted colleagues; it’s all worth it if it means I can give my family a better life. My life isn’t perfect, but it’s still pretty damn good.
This day sucks coconuts.Why in the hell did I agree to work a double shift at the Starlight Lounge? And on a Saturday no less. I started at 4 pm, it’s now 9, so that means I’m halfway done. I just have to keep reminding myself this means more money and more money is never a bad thing. Thankfully, it’s break time.The microwave dings and I eagerly pull out my container of homemade sancocho. It’s basically a Dominican stew. Try as I might, I can’t make it as good as my madre, but I give it my best efforts. I’ve tried looking for Dominican restaurants in the area, but I only found one, and while they claimed to be ‘authentic’, I can tell you my madre would have been cussing the cooks out for disgracing our heritage.I sit down at the table in the small, soundproof break room and begin digging into my food while I scroll on my phone to see what friends and family back home are posting online. I try to squash down the pang of sadness I feel seeing them all so happy without me. I know what
I pull the ice pack away and gingerly feel the back of my head. It’s still tender to the touch, and the Advil is only doing so much to ease the ache in my skull and stiffness in my neck, which means tomorrow at the diner is going to be a gruelling eight hours.“You sure I can’t get you anything?” asks Amber, sitting on the end of the bed against the glass pane, smothering Ily with affection.“I’m okay. I appreciate you bringing me food though,” I say graciously. “I really didn’t feel like getting up. I just want to spend the day resting so I can be alright for work tomorrow.”Amber looks at me with a deep frown of displeasure. “You’re not seriously going to work tomorrow.”“Of course, I am.”“Lani, you could have been really hurt last night. I would be so shaken if it was me,” she says while nuzzling Ily who playfully paws at her face.“I’m not. No one intentionally hurt me, it was just an accident. I’m not bleeding or have any broken bones, so there’s no reason for me to stay home.”“
“No, I definitely didn’t forget anything.” He graces me with a smouldering smile as he removes his Ray Bands, tucking them into his black hoodie, revealing those deep blue eyes that looked at me with worry just last night. I stare with my mouth agape, producing the perfect place for flies to seek sanctuary as I process the sight before me.Julian Easton is standing in my doorway. Julian Easton knows where I live?!“Um…what are you doing here?” I quietly ask, the shock of the situation preventing me from remembering how to turn the volume up on my voice.“I wanted to check on you, make sure you were okay after last night,” he says with genuine concern. But he’s an actor so I’m not sure how genuine it actually is.“How did you find where I live? Who even let you in the gate?” I ask, alarm quickly replacing my shock.“I got your address from your friend Irina. I explained I wanted to apologise and pay for any hospital bills if there are any.”“And the gate?”“Some guy let me in when I sa
“Thank you,” I say with a courteous smile to the waitress as she sets my order down on the table. As someone who works in the service industry, I always try to treat other servers with respect. We have enough problems; we don’t need to make life harder for each other.I take a sip of my Pepsi and start digging into my delicious and juicy-looking bucket of wings as I wait for Irina at our favourite bar/restaurant. Aside from the food, we love the alfresco-style dining that opens out onto the streets of We-Ho. It's sophisticated but with tropical decor and vines that wrap and weave through the shaded pergola. It reminds me of the hotel resort my mum works at back home. Growing up I was allowed to play and swim in the pool for free. I always thought it was weird having a resort pool that looks out onto the ocean though. I mean, that's basically one free giant pool. Either way, it's the closest I can get to feeling like I'm back home.I’m onto my second wing when Irina finally graces me w
We’re enjoying our food and drinks, gabbing about whatever random stories pop into our heads and just having a general good time, when a voice reaches my ears filling me with the same dread and dismay as if I were to hear the seven trumpets announcing the apocalypse. I close my eyes, praying this is just a side affect of my hit to the end, but I am proved wrong when Dylan saunters up to our table, leaning on it and encroaching on our space.“Now what are the chances of bumping into you here? It must be my lucky day,” he preens.“Hey, didn’t you read the sign? It says no dogs allowed,” Irina cautions, making me force back a smile.“Then I’m surprised they let a bitch eat at the table,” he counters.Irina raises her eyebrow in challenge, and I instantly know this won’t end well.“Dylan, please leave us alone, we’re just trying to enjoy a nice dinner,” I request politely.“Better idea, why don’t I join you,” he excitedly suggests.“Over my dead body,” Irina sneers, sitting back and foldin
Once I’ve clocked in at the Starlight Loung, I race to the bar, tying my apron around my waist as I try to catch my breath. “I’m so…sorry…I’m…late.”Lamont looks up from his planner as he sits at the bar, raising a concerned eyebrow. “Is everything alright?”“I ended up…” I place my hands on my hips and take in a deep breath so I can speak better. “I ended up with a flat tyre, so I had to catch the bus. I’m so sorry,” I apologise profusely.“It’s okay, you don’t need to stress yourself. I was starting to worry because you’ve never been late. You’ve never even called in sick before.”“I swear it won’t happen again.”He reaches out placing a reassuring hand on my shoulder, “Nalani, relax. You’re not in trouble. Just next time throw me a text to let me know you’re going to be late and it’s all good,” he smiles comfortingly.“I thought I did…” I frown. I pull my phone from my apron and open my messages to see my text to Lamont has a ‘message not sent’ warning. “Damn it! I’m so sorry Monty
“You sure you don’t want me to drive you home?” Rory asks as he escorts me out of the Starlight Lounge.“I live on the complete opposite side of town to you, I can’t ask you to do that,” I argue, feeling guilty at the very thought.“You didn’t ask, I’m offering. You shouldn’t be catching a bus all alone at this hour,” he says with concern.“I’ll be fine; besides, I’ve got my trusty defence kit,” I say confidently as I hold up my keychain. It’s great! It’s got a whistle, an alarm, a torch, a seat belt cutter, a taser, a window breaker, and it’s cute and pink. Haven’t had to use it yet and I would like it to stay that way, but it’s better to be safe than sorry.Rory chuckles, “Okay if you’re sure.” He reaches out and squeezes my arm, “Have a safe journey home, I’ll see you tonight.”“See you tonight. Have a safe drive!” I call out as he walks off towards the parking garage.I put on my coat, untuck my ponytail and prepare myself for a walk to the bus stop when a voice has me freezing in
I take in a deep breath, inhaling the warm, intoxicating scent of vanilla, cinnamon, and pumpkin. A unique-smelling cologne, but one that is both sophisticated and delicious. We put on our seat belts, and he starts the engine up with a roar, surprising me. He chuckles at my reaction, pulls out into the road, and sets off towards my place.“What kind of car is this?” I inquire to fill the silence.“Ferrari SF90 Stradale Spider,” he announces proudly like that should mean something to me.“What made you get it?”“It combines exhilarating performance with open-air driving and Italian design,” he says with a dreamy sigh.“You sound like a car salesman,” I snigger.He chuckles, briefly smiling over at me, “Okay, I just really love how it looks.”I discreetly pull out my phone and Google the car. My eyes nearly fall out of my head when I see the price. I’m sitting in a $1.4 million car?! I cautiously look around me, suddenly feeling terrified to so much as leave a microscopic scratch on thi
Immediately I feel dread wash over me and those unpleasant gut bubbles rising in my stomach. The urge to check behind me starts to creep in and quickly my head begins to spin.“You couldn’t have phrased that another way?” Áine chastises Irina.“Nothing terrible has happened,” Irina quickly assures me, only easing my dread by a fraction.“Then why did you sound all foreboding like that?” I prod, breathing through my anxiety as Áine rubs soothing circles on my back.“Okay, so that’s on me. I was just going to say…Julian’s been calling me. He’s shown up to my place and left voicemails and text messages, all of him looking for you. I haven’t told him where you are because it’s none of his fucking business. I just thought you should know he’s clearly desperate to talk to you,” she informs me.Just hearing his name causes a pang in my chest. Since I left the penthouse I blocked and deleted his number. He came to the diner a couple times but each time someone covered for me and told him I wa
“Nalani, are you sure about this?” Lamont gently asks, his eyes filled with sadness as he holds my letter of resignation in his hands.“I’m sorry, Monty. I’ve thought long and hard about this and as much as I liked working here and the people I’ve gotten to know, I just don’t think it’s in my best interest to stay. Recent events have caused me to have painful memories here and with what’s going on in my personal life, I think changing jobs would be good for my safety,” I delicately explain.Finding work isn’t easy in this economy but for my wellbeing, I need to put myself on lockdown. I’m looking for new work and I’ll be sure to let my employers know not to hand my information out to anyone who asks no matter what. I’m also looking for a new place to live so I can start fresh. Making sure this guy couldn’t call me is one thing, but he knows where I live and he knows where I work, so the next best thing I can do is change that. Is there a chance he is watching my every move and will st
The sound of glass shattering wakes me from my deep sleep with a jolt. I sit up in bed, my eyes alert and frantic as I look around the room. I reach across the bed, pulling my phone out from under my pillow and see that it’s two in the morning. I unlock my phone and type 911 into the keypad as I carefully get out of bed and make my way to the door.With my heart clogging my throat and cold dread rolling through me, I carefully open the door, make my way to the hallway railing and peer down to the floor below. I glance around and finally, my eyes fall on the source of the crashing. I let out a deep sigh of relief and slip my phone into my pocket as I make my way downstairs. With each step, my concern grows as I watch a dishevelled-looking Julian haphazardly pour himself a glass of vodka while shards of broken glass lay at his feet.His cheeks are rosy, his eyes are glassy – but not from crying – his jacket is nowhere to be seen, and his shirt is rolled up to the elbows with his bowtie
“And that girl was so mean. I can’t believe she smacked the fork out of his hand,” Áine remarks shaking her head, recalling our shift at the diner.“I don’t know the poor guy, but I hope he sees sense and dumps her. No one should be with someone that toxic,” I add as we step off the elevator and into the penthouse.“Even you know when to leave a toxic relationship. No offence,” she adds sheepishly.“No offence taken,” I assure her, making my way to the kitchen to grab some snacks and drinks from the refrigerator.“Are you sure Julian won’t mind me being here?” she nervously asks.“He’s not my warden, Áine. I can have friends over. I had asked Amber if she wanted to join, but she’s swamped at work.”“Maybe next time,” she chirps optimistically.That’s something I love about Áine…well, I honestly love just about everything about her. She is so bubbly and optimistic, just wanting to see others happy. There aren’t many people like her; I just wish she could direct some of that optimism to
Taking a deep breath I try to calm the worms crawling around in my stomach. I place my hand on the door, take in one more breath for good measure, and walk into the diner. I’m only two steps inside when someone scares the daylights out of me by screaming my name.“LANI!”I’m immediately wrapped in a bear hug by Bernadette, who I haven’t seen in ages. She squeezes me tight, rocking me back and forth as her thick wavey brown hair gets all up in my mouth.“I can’t believe you’re back. I was worried we’d never see you again,” she whines in her thick German accent.I smile, hugging her in return and giving her a tight squeeze. “You know me, I’m a workaholic, I was bound to come back eventually,” I say playfully.“Are you just visiting or are you back back?”“I’m back back, I just need to go talk to Gary.”“He’s in his office,” she informs me, beaming.“You’re the best,” I smile, giving her a kiss on the cheek and making my way to Gary’s office.As I’m about to knock on the door, I get an u
Entering the apartment with my shopping bags I’m immediately greeted by Julian’s enraged voice emanating from somewhere upstairs and reverberating around the spacious penthouse. Concern fills me as I cautiously make my way upstairs, the sound of Julian’s pointed words increasing in volume with each step I take. I guess that’s another reason to have an apartment with more walls: they act as a sound barrier.“No, no, NO. You swore to me it was a sure thing, Gradin. You were the one who told me I was a shoo-in for a Best Actor nomination at the Oscars, and now you’re trying to tell me I’m not even a fucking consideration?! I’m not involved in any fucking drama or bad press so either I’ve been blacklisted for some ungodly reason, OR YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME!” he fumes.Yikes…he didn’t even sound this angry when the police were over here. I learned the hard way that Julian doesn’t handle criticism or rejection well, so I don’t think I want to be in the line of fire when he’s upset like this.
“Lani?” calls Julian’s voice gently followed by a light rap on the door.I sigh, pulling my legs against my chest, “What?”“Can I come in?” he tentatively asks.“It’s your house,” I remind him.He opens the door and lets himself in. I look over to see him watching me with a sheepish look on his face. He walks over and sits on the edge of the bed, probably deciding it’s better to keep a safe distance from me.“I’m sorry,” he says sincerely, running his fingers through his hair in frustration. “You’re right, this isn’t happening to me, and I don’t have a right to get so worked up on your behalf and make this about me and how I’m feeling when you’re the one going through this. I shouldn’t have done that,” he admits.“I don’t blame you for getting upset, and I appreciate that you care, but I’m struggling enough to make sense of all this to myself, worrying about you freaking out on top of everything is just too much for me right now and I’m sorry if that’s selfish but I am seriously over
Sitting on the sofa I stare at my hands, determined to pick this frustrating piece of skin that has come up close to my cuticle. I just know it’s going to keep getting caught on things and will drive me insane. I never understand how they occur. You never really see it happen; you just suddenly one day feel a sting or feel something catch, then you look and there is another tiny piece of skin that’s come up from around your nails. It shouldn’t be so annoying, but it is.“Lani,” I hear a familiar voice call my name.I look up into concerned sapphire eyes. They used to smile more, but now they just seem to either look at me with guilt or concern.“Hmm?” I hum.“Here, I made you some hot chocolate,” Julian explains, sitting beside me and placing the mug in my hands. “Sugar is good for shock,” he assures me with a comforting smile.Shock? Is that what this is? Honestly, I’ve been through so many emotions lately that I can barely keep them straight. They’ve all started to bleed together an
***I give Irina and Áine the biggest hugs I can as I reluctantly say goodbye to them. Having them here and spending the day with them has been like a booster shot to the arm. I wanted them to stay and never leave, but I know they have lives to get back to, and it’s not like I’ll never see them again. I guess I’m just feeling homesick for our regular get-togethers.“I want you guys to know you are welcome to stop by any time, day or not. I’ve missed hanging out with you guys,” I say sadly.“On the bright side, your bedroom here is bigger than your whole studio apartment,” Áine chuckles. “For a change, we all fit comfortably.”I smile half-heartedly. As nice as it is here, I miss having my own place. I miss the home I made for myself. That being said, I’m not ready to go back and even if I do, it will only be to pack up the rest of my things and move the hell out. You couldn’t even pay me to continue to live there now.Áine quickly kisses my cheek goodbye and gets in the cab waiting fo