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Trained Not To Love You 30 In His Arms
CamilaTears welled up in my eyes as I listened to his words. I had always felt like an outsider, unworthy of his kindness and care. The weight of my mistakes and the pain of my past bore down on me."I wish I could have made things right," I whispered, my voice trembling. "But now, all I can do is be here for Katya and you. I don't want to cause you any more trouble."Ronan squeezed my hand gently, his touch warm and reassuring. "I do not know what to make of what we have, Camila, but I will do my best for you and Katya. I promise," he said, his voice filled with sincerity. I reached out and touched his hand, feeling a mix of hope and fear."Do what you can for Katya. I might not always be with her, and a law concerning my people might arise. Anything can happen to a slave in the land of their captors, but Katya will always need stability. When those soldiers dragged me out, and I couldn't help her, I knew my limitations. Promise you will care for her even when I am no more," I sai
Trained Not To Love You 31 Good Morning Sir
Camila.I left Ronan in the room and got up to prepare breakfast and take care of Katya. As I worked, a mix of fear, excitement, and confusion swirled inside me. I couldn't stop thinking about how Ronan kissed me and how I had slept in his arms. What did it all mean? I felt butterflies in my stomach and kept sorting through my thoughts, knowing it might be wrong to get my hopes up, but I couldn't help it.I knew it might be a one-time thing, but I cherished the calm and peace it brought me. For that night, I wasn't a slave, and he wasn't my Master. It was a moment of freedom, a chance to dream, and it had lasted through the night with me in his arms and my sweet Katya not making a sound. I felt blissful, even if just for a little while.While I was setting the table for breakfast, Arya confronted me in the dining room. The sight of her brought back all the fear and anxiety I had been trying to push away. My heart raced as I braced myself for whatever harsh words or actions she had
Trained Not To Love You 32 Are We Truly Free
RonanSeeing the guards dragging Camila made my blood boil. I hadn't been this happy about rejecting a transfer in a long time. I was supposed to be sent back to Kavistan that day to sort something out, but my desire to spend more time with Katya had brought me home instead. They had torn Camila's blouse, and I could see the disgusting looks on the men's faces. Had I caused this? Guilt washed over me. So much heartache had come to Camila because of me, and it seemed like it wouldn't stop.Seeing how shaken she was was alarming. She even admitted to doing wrong, and I berated myself for allowing this to happen.I wanted to raise hell that night, but I needed some sanity, even if just for a moment. Something drew me to Camila, and as I held her hand while we watched Katya, I realised what the great divide had deprived us of. In another life, this would have been okay. Holding her would have been okay, but it was forbidden in this life. When I kissed her, it wasn't impulsive; it wa
Trained Not To Love You 33 Your Flight is By Noon
Camila Breakfast was silent; Ronan ate quietly while Arya packed and moved her things in tears. I could see she was terribly hurt. It would be expected to hope someone could plead with Ronan on her behalf, but this was a 'good riddance' situation. I hoped that, for Katya's sake, he would never forgive her and for the sake of his folks, too. The woman was too hateful for her own good. It was indeed a blessing that she was leaving. Ronan finished his breakfast quietly. There was a sense of finality in the way he placed his fork down and pushed back his chair. Without saying much, he decided to go to the living room. As he stood up, he looked at me with a softer expression and asked, "Could you bring Katya to join me?"I nodded, understanding the unspoken wish in his request. Ronan wanted to see his daughter play with the new toys he had bought for her. I could see the longing in his eyes, a desire to connect with his daughter in a moment of peace and joy. I felt a warm anticip
Trained Not To Love You 34 Lack Of Values
CamilaArya's tears continued to fall. I knew somehow she wished this was a nightmare, and she hoped she could wake up from it. The helplessness was visible in her eyes, but I didn't feel sorry for her. She had put me in a helpless situation yesterday. The helplessness I felt while the soldiers tried to drag me to the Guardhouse, which was far away from the main house, made my heart harden toward her pain. I couldn't feel an ounce of pity for her. She was wicked. Arya should take what she dished out so easily.Secretly, I thanked God for Ronan's personality and values. He cared for the people around him, but Arya was too blind to see that part. I was indeed blessed."A time will come when my mother will have to live with me when my father is no longer here; what about her? With you, I will always worry for the people at home when I am not here..." Ronan said, and it was a fact. She seemed like that type of person. "That is too much for me to handle. You are too much, Arya. As for
Trained Not To Love You 35 A Half-Empty-Cup Person
CamilaRonan seemed to have triggered a flood of memories for Arya because her eyes suddenly looked haunted, filled with shadows of the past. The current sorrow and fear she was experiencing were still visible, but now they were mixed with something deeper and more troubling. It was clear that Arya had endured a dark and painful past. However, instead of learning compassion from her experiences, she became bitter and cruel. Most people with such a past would try to prevent others from suffering in the same way, but Arya seemed to have taken a different path.She was like a half-empty-cup kind of person, always seeing the worst in life. It was as if she took pleasure in the misery around her, finding no joy in anything. Her eyes reflected that sadistic nature, a darkness that seemed to consume any light that tried to reach her."You once yelled at a soldier who tried to molest a Sardonian girl. I remember it, Arya. You told him, 'She's human too!" it was a brave move that drew me t
Trained Not To Love You 36 Remain Mine
RonanThree days passed, and honestly, Arya's departure was much needed. With her gone, my house finally had peace. Camila took care of everything, ensuring that the household ran smoothly. However, I suspected that the other workers were bullying her, though she never mentioned it. Despite everything, she always had a smile for Katya and me. Camila was careful to avoid doing or saying anything that would put me in a difficult position or require my intervention so people wouldn't suspect anything. Yet, every time I had to pretend that our night together in Katya's room was a spur-of-the-moment thing, it hurt deeply.I longed to hold her, to make everything right between us. This desire burned within me, growing stronger each day. No matter how hard I tried to tame these feelings, they only grew more intense, like flames that couldn't be extinguished.Two weeks passed, and everything was at a standstill. I was waiting for a call I hoped would never come. Despite my efforts to dela
Trained Not To Love You 37 The Decanters
RonanMy temporary butler, Oliver, let my friends in. He was a permanent staff member, but I made him a contract worker because of Camila. I knew butlers tended to gossip, and I didn't want anyone talking about my situation with Camila. I needed to be careful to keep us safe. "Can't believe we finally visited your home," Joseph said, taking off his jacket and handing it to Oliver. Marc did the same, and Oliver walked away. Joseph's eyes went straight to Katya, who was playing with her toys on the carpet in the living room. The open space arrangement of the foyer and living room wasn't a good idea. It took away the privacy I needed. Joseph and Marc could see everything at once. Katya's presence was now obvious, and I felt a mix of pride and anxiety. I wanted to protect her from prying eyes and questions. "Is that the little angel?" Joseph said, walking toward her. He seemed to adore her completely. Reaching for Katya, he picked her up, and she instantly began to cry. I had to co
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