"I'll give you whatever you desire and you give me what I desire."
I slowly opened my eyes and met his menacing gaze as tears brimmed in my eyes,
"It's a fair deal."He said and got away. I let out rapid breaths in dread and turned to leave but I heard him saying, "Just a week."
I wiped my tears and left with my shaky form, submerged in his apparition.
The driver offered to drop me home but I refused because I don't want to be in that abhorrence filled mansion anymore.
I took a taxi and went home filled with undesirable thoughts. I just knew that- this guy can never be the one I deeply hoped to meet. That he can ever be that Knight I used to admire till now.
A loveless marriage is something I never want but I have no choice. I want Eugene to recover and for it I have to do it even though I don't want to…
Filled with unwanted thoughts and great fears, I went home. Mother came and I looked at her.
“What happened Dear? Are you alright?" She asked, tensed. I tilt my head and left for my room saying, "It was.. fine"
I close the door behind me and lock the door. I leaned on it and fell on the ground. I hid my face in my knees and began to cry.
He held supreme power over everyone, I am just an ant he can easily sway with the wind. I understood what it felt like to be overwhelmed, to have a feeling of being vanquished.
I don't want to marry that revolting guy. I don't want to become his toy forever. I don't want it... but...
I want to give my mother a house, I want to treat Eugene in a better hospital so that he can recover. I want to give my mother a luxurious life.
I want to fulfill all the dreams I held dear in my heart but I can't do this by marrying him...
****
Days flew by and before I knew it, one week would be over tomorrow. Thinking about it over and over again, I've got no choice but to comply. For mother's and Eugene's sake, I have to...
Still, to clear some uncertainties, I decided to talk to Mother, I knocked and entered her room. She smiled and I laid on her laps,
"Mother..." I called her name softly. She hummed and I said, "Tomorrow, I have to tell whether I want to marry him or not..."
"Wasn't he supposed to decide that?" She asked.
"He.. gave me a week to think.." I took a deep breath and began to say,
"He will give me everything I desire in return for two things..." I took a pause and spoke up again, "Loyalty and Satisfaction... No affection, No love..." I sat up and asked,
"What should I do mother?"
Mother hugged me and looked at me, her eyes show a glint of desperation to tell me something but it vanish the instant I notice it as she began to say,
"Listen, Sophie, I leave the decision to you but remember dear, Instead of having an illicit relation, he is willing to give you his name and a respectable relation of husband and wife rather than a plaything which he can throw anytime. He will give you what you want and there's nothing wrong with being in an intercourse relationship with your husband... The rest is up to you whether you want to spark the flares of love in his heart or not.."
I blinked and remained motionless. After coming back to my senses I gave her a nod and left for my room.
Love? Him? Like hell, I would. But I was left with no choice, I have to marry him, no matter how much I don't want to.
The next day, My heart began to pulsate rapidly as I was being lost in the midst of dread and anxiety. By each second, I felt my heart being stopped. My hands and feet are cold. I was having lunch with my mother and my phone rang. I picked it up and my breath hitched when I heard the voice,
"What have you decided?" My heart skipped a beat at his deep voice. I dug my nails in my palm to calm myself and said in a faint tone,
"I agree." I can't see him but I bet he must be smirking because he knew that he left me with no choice but to speak in accordance to his liking.
"Good." That's all he said and cut the call. I looked down and stood up and left for my room without saying a word. I fell on my bed and closed my eyes.
A strange feeling of being void filled me. Like I am not living and I can't feel a thing. I continued to stare at the ceiling for I don't know how long. All my feelings were drained from me. I stood up and looked at my messy form. My messy hair and since I am home today, I didn't bother to change my nightwear.
I am still in my gray trousers and black tank. I was looking at myself as I put a hand on my waist and began to wonder, Why does he even want to marry such a low girl like me. I mean there are more alluring girls.
I have seen the pictures of him with his previous wife. She is an epitome of beauty, what a charm she possessed, I wonder why he divorced such a lady. Well, It's none of my business...
I went to the hall and saw my mother serving dinner. After dinner, I began to walk around the house. I still feel like whatever happened is a dream. I continued to look around. Our house isn't too small. I and Eugene grew up in that house.
It's our house. This holds too many memories...
I came to the hall again and began to watch TV but then the doorbell rang. Mother was washing dishes so I had to open the door. Me being careless, I opened the door without checking or asking.
My eyes widened in horror as my throat dried. He was standing in front of me. My heart began to pound as I lost my strength in his crushing presence. My quivering lips called mother.
"Mother! Come Here!"
Mother came and she was also shocked like me upon seeing him. On the other hand, he was amused by our reaction. Unlike me, mother regained her posture and said,
"Welcome, Please come in." Mother smiled and said politely.
"Thank you very much, but I would like to take Sophie out for a drive, is that all right?"
He asked decently. ‘Where was this manner when we were alone?’ Still being bewildered by his sudden appearance, I remained stoic and my mother said, "Ask Sophie."When Mother said that, I looked at him. He looked at me with his void gaze. Since I was too shocked to say anything I stood still and being irritated by my lack of response, he asked,"Can I have a glass of water?" Mother nodded and left. After mother left he shook me, dragging me out from my thoughts."What are you thinking? Come, We need to talk." He said- no he ordered. My lips formed a thin line as I looked away. Mother came with a glass of water and I said. "I'll go and change." I went to my room and realized I am still in my messy form. I quickly changed in my casual red checked shirt and black jeans. I combed my hair and walked out. I didn't dare to meet his dire gaze as I left with him.We left and being a gentleman- from outside, he opened the door for me. He was driving and the crushing silence took over once agai
"This marriage will be toxic for both of us."I said and got out of the car. I feel so broken, how low he wants me to fall low in my own eyes?‘Not that I have sold myself to him but also made this whole ordeal a damn contract.’ I felt like I was being pricked by the shards of glass that are present in my path, they dug into my skin by each step I take further in my life. First Eugene accident, then the burden of responsibilities over my shoulder and now I want to liberate myself from this burden by receiving the pain of my inferior act. ‘What's wrong if I want to fulfill my wishes?’Filled with those undesirable thoughts, I went home. Mother came and asked."How was it?" her tone lingers with interest, basically it was my first drive and was my first dinner with a man, I can understand her. I have always avoided relationships and I feel like this loveless marriage falls flat on my face just because I never involved myself in love; So fate decided to give me an unloved life.I loo
We came home and saw Christian walking out of our house. My heart skipped a beat when my hazel eyes met his onyx one. I wish we could come back later. I remain still because I lose my posture whenever he is near.He walked closer and said,"Mrs Skye, Sophie, sit in the car, I need to show you and Mrs Skye your new home." I looked at Mother and then him and gave him a nod. We left with him.We stopped in front of another mansion. Mine and mother's mouth gaped as we quickly closed it afterwards.I looked at him and I and Mother said at the same time, "You don't have to."He looked at us with a perfectly raised eyebrow, "It was part of the deal." He said and got out of the car and so did we."I know, but it didn't say for a mansion." I tried to reason."She's right, You don't have to." Mother also said. He looked at us confused but soon gained his stance and walked towards me and my heart began to race as I took a step back.But thankfully, without sparing a glance at me, he took a ho
A woman with beguiling looks and charm which is impossible to resist was seen in the mirror. That woman's appearance can make anyone fall for her. Her bewitching looks, the enthralling form of hers; Like some fascinating angel who comes right from heavens. Her features were enhanced a million times when the veil was put over her and she looked at her reflection for the last time. The divinity there may seem but not though. I can see what others can't. I can see everything but myself in it. I am not here. It's not me. It's a beauty, no, beauty is not enough to explain how I am looking; exquisite. The elegance and grace, it's not mine. They can see a lavishing wedding of a woman with angelic features with a man as handsome as ancient Greek Gods. The irresistible man of a perfect dominating aura. Fakeness is getting bound eternally with lust as a constant reminder of misery which leads to this day. That's what they call facades. The demeanor used to hide the actual one. “I
He moved closer and held my chin. Indulging each moment, he lifted my chin and snaked his arms around my waist and pulled me close.I let out a gasp as I looked at his eyes; clouded by crepuscular feelings. Time passes slowly as if it has stopped. He moved closer and our lips brushed against each other. My dried lips made contact with his delicate lips as he kissed me. My first kiss to a guy who is almost a decade older than me. My first kiss to a person who doesn't love me...The kiss started with delicacy but held no emotions. He moved his experienced lips tenderly and dazzlingly. But when he kissed me and I stood still; frozen as a tear threatened to fall but I didn’t let it. His hand cupped my cheek to deepen the kiss- or I thought so. He wiped the tear that was present on the corner of my eye and pulled away. ‘What the- Does it even matter when I have sold myself?’For a second I thought it was love but I know it better than anyone else that love is impossible in this toxic
“And you will satisfy my desires from now on.”He continued that soothing action but to me it was torture. His touch has only one thing in my heart; repugnance.The feelings he has induced within me in just a few moments made me petrified because if I can't spend a few moments with him, how can I spend the rest of my life?What is killing me the most is that his touch is not rough at all. It was tender. He was gently moving his hands. “I know…”Touching me softly, treasuring me but not loving me. The touch was affectionate but not loving. I can't understand his intentions.“Exactly. All authority to your
My eyes slowly opened when the sunlight penetrated through the curtains. I adjusted my vision and the realization hit me like a truck.I realized that my soul is corrupt now. I have lost my innocence, my purity.‘I successfully bargained for my virginity.’I have just survived the most horrendous night of my life. Depression took over me in just one day, I'll turn insane but I have no choice but to keep these feelings in my heart and bear this undesirable feeling of being used over and over again.I shifted my gaze and saw Christian standing in front of me. My eyes widened in horror as I quickly sat up and pulled the duvet over me to hide my exposed form.
My throat dried and my body became numb. Not wanting to face him again, I went to the library again. I began to pace around it in stress.As I was pacing, Samuel came,"Ma'am, Sir is waiting for you in the dining hall." My heart skipped a beat as my body began to shake in fear.I don't want to face him, It's scaring me.I bit my cheeks and went to the dining hall. He was sitting on the head of the house chair. He has changed into a casual shirt and trousers. I muster some courage and walked closer,"Welcome Home." I said in a low voice. He looked at me with a mystifying yet surprised gaze.“What?” He asked, blinking in confusion.
The way my fingers intertwine with his is bliss. Like, I am made only for him and he for me and nothing in this world separates us. Being so close to each other that even if distance came between us our hearts will always be connected. Receiving that benediction of being with him, I stare at his beautiful face becoming more prepossessing under moonlight. I continued to watch him with yearning and began to say, "Christian, You filled my life with so much happiness. I feel blessed to have you by my side. If I have you I want nothing else, You are my strength which helped me to overcome every difficulty of my life. You are my hope of a better tomorrow. I feel like I can even walk on thorns because I know you are here to heal my scars. No matter how much I fa
"Sophie, We may have met in the most unexpected situation, starting our lives as nothing but some kind of toxic marriage but you know what? Our hearts were connected years ago and after so many tries to twist fate, my heart is still attracted to yours. I found myself being close to you and no matter how much I try to isolated myself from this passionate bond, In the end, I found myself worshiping this dusty tomb of ours as it become and eternal source of gratification to me and I am so happy to give me a chance to love because i was lost and you found me. Introduced me to the world I never thought existed for me and my heart finally accepted the fact; That’s what love is and my love is you. " I lifted my gaze and looked a
Once again, I am at my mother's place with no signs of Christian. Now where did he go this time? I sighed deeply and looked at Roger and Juliette playing with the kids and were so engrossed in it. Mother then came, she smiled and sat down. I thought it would be awkward for them to meet after all these years but it seems like everyone is on good terms now. They are quite friendly, I didn’t expect it. "By the way Sophie, Why are you so stressed?" Juliette asked tickling Aletha and earned a giggle from her and grinning. "Once again, Where is Christian?" I said putting my palm on my chin. Well, the advantage of coming here is that Mother takes care of the kid and I can finally have a peaceful sleep but it never lasts long as their hunger takes over. "Oh, Look, It s
After dinner I came to my room and saw two angels sleeping peacefully on the bed as there's no crib here. I cautiously set pillows on the corner so that they won't fall and shifted in a corner. I plopped on my elbows as I stared at their angelic form. I decided to call Christian but he didn't reply. Seems like he has slept or else it’s impossible for him to not pick up my call. I also fell asleep. *** It's been a few days and Christian didn't contact me. I puffed and was angry at him. No, it's an understatement; I was burning with wrath. I sat on the sofa angrily as my mother asked, "Hey, Why are you so angry?" "Where the hell is your nephew!? Can't he call me for once?! What kind of errand is that?" I yelled frustratedly.
"Oh, Come on, Tell me." I whined for I don't know what time but Christian kept smirking, irking me more. I pouted and closed my arms at my chest in annoyance because of his lack of response. I just woke up this morning, from the sweet sleep at night. Note the sarcasm. And when I was about to receive a lull, he came up with Mine, Christopher and Aletha bags saying we are going somewhere special and when I asked what about him, he just said that he has some errands and we are going somewhere. I never took care of one child and now I have two of them, so it's very difficult, but I am grateful that I have Christian and helpers of the house with me. But, at night, all of them are oblivious of the fact that we have kids at home. When one sleeps the other cries, leaving me with no time to have for myself and bestowed wit
1 Month Later:- I sat on the sofa and put my leg over the other in pride as I held my head high in pride. A smirk was formed on my lips as I kept looking at Christian who was trying so hard to change Christopher's diaper. A laugh escaped my lips as I mocked, "Too easy, isn't it?" He scoffed and said, "Chris, Don't move that much." "Watch it Aletha, how your father is trying that hard." I said to her, Christian kept trying but Christopher kept moving his legs, not letting him secure the diaper. When Christian finally thought he was successful in it, another laugh escaped my lips. "What now? Can't you see. I won." He said annoyed as I replied, "You are not supposed to make him wear it like this, it's inside out." His mouth gaped as he felt his hopes being crushed.
I went after him and called him, "Christian!" He stopped in his tracks and turned to me, he raised an eyebrow at me and hummed.He acts as if her death is meaningless, even in revenge. He seemed completely normal, not a single shred of remorse or happiness that he completed his goal."Don't you feel anything?" I asked hoping he'll show a single emotion but to no avail.I don't know what I am thinking is right or wrong but I definitely can't be happy over someone's death even if that person is that Bastard's daughter.A human life is precious and you can't bear any grudges to the dead. We both have to understand this."Tell me what you feel first." Christian said, turning to me. I gave him a sad
"Open them." He ordered in his deep commanding voice that finally made me bend my knees in defeat against the dominating presence before me. His grip tightened as I felt his nails digging into my skin as another moan escape my lips in pleasure because of these cherished sensations, "P-Please C-Christian.." I couldn't oppose the urge to have him anymore as I spread my legs apart a little. I swallowed hard and called him again, "Christian.." He again lifted his gaze. The way his gaze slowly made its way to me is causing a disruption in my mind. Wrecking a havoc of needs for him but I want to control myself. He then noticed that slight distress in me as his grip loosen. He leaned in close to my face as his
6 Months Later:- I walked down the stairs looking for Aletha and Christopher and saw them playing with their father. Aletha has learned to crawl but Christopher grew a tooth! She looked so cute when she crawled and he looked so adorable when he laughed. God, I love them so much!I just can't explain my happiness. They are my reason to live, all three of them. My light, my love, my heartbeat, my life. I saw them as a smile crept upon my lips when I saw Christian playing with them. He shot his head up and smiled, "Good Morning, Love." I smiled back as I yawned and sat beside him holding Aletha and kissing her forehead. "How did you sleep?" he asked. I put her down and then picked C