Chapter 48: Lost

I was lying on my bed and feeling terrible.

I somehow managed to make it all the way here. I had Felix’s help, of course, but I felt so weak that I didn’t think I’d be able to climb the stairs.

I was demoralized and my guilt wasn’t helping me. I felt like I’d killed Marina and Phil. I’d ruined their happiness. And over time, I became angry at all of them for not telling me what was going to happen. Maybe I would have held myself back. Maybe I would have been prepared for the disaster that happened.

She was a good person. She didn’t deserve to die.

I hated Felix. I hated all three of them. Right now, I wanted to be anywhere but here.

If I could just get those grisly scenes out of my mind, I would have felt better. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t erase the memory of him walking in with her in his arms. And then him dying because he couldn’t fathom living a life without her.

I sat up in bed when the noise in my head got too loud. I took a few steadying breaths before deciding that what