Chapter 5 - True Colors

After all my breakfast, I decided to get out of my body in the most embarrassing way. I started to walk back to Stefan’s office and found that the door was not fully closed. 

I was about to open it to walk back in when I heard the most annoying voice in my life talking. 

“Is she really pregnant?” she asked irritatedly.

I peeked through the small opening of the door and watched as she walked towards where Stefan was leaning in front of his desk. 

“Well, she’s showing signs of pregnancy,” one of Stefan’s councilmen said. 

I held on to the doorknob unsure if I should get in or just go straight back to my room. But when I looked up again, I saw Clarisse looking directly at me with a snicker on her face as she uttered these horrific words. 

“I think the best way is to not let that baby be born,” there was no uncertainty in her voice as she uttered those hurtful words. 

“No one will hurt the baby,” Stefan said firmly but what he said didn’t even remove the smirk that Clarisse had on her face.

“Or better yet, we let her child be born and we keep the child. But after the child is born we can ditch her,” Clarisse said with conviction, her eyes never leaving mine until she had said how she wanted me out of this pack. 

“What do you mean?” Stefan asked, his voice cold. 

“Let’s face it, Alpha,” she said with an innocent smile as she looked at him, “who would want a weak Omega for a mother?”

Some of the councilmen agreed but some shared their disagreement.

“We should keep her instead,” the councilmen with white hair said. “Especially with her noble bloodline that we can make use of. Just like other women from her family. We can use her bloodline along with our Alpha’s bloodline to create the greatest offspring the world has ever seen.”

“We would still need a Luna,” another councilman said. 

“We can have Beta Claire could easily take that role,” the councilman with white hair said. “No one else is best suited for the Alpha other than her.” 

Everyone agrees, even the obsessed Clarisse as she looks at me with an evil smile on her face. 

They continue to talk about making Beta Claire the Luna of the pack as they tell Stefan all the pros that come along with it. 

I know that I am no match against Beta Claire and that everyone hates me. All this time I was able to get over the hurtful words that people call me. It’s not that I don’t get hurt, but I just learned how to be numb to what they call me or say about me. 

I was just not expecting how much it would hurt to watch as Stefan listened to what his councilmen had to say about me. Their plans of throwing me away. I know Stefan hasn’t done anything intentionally bad to me but the way that he’s not saying anything at all to stop them from all the suggestions that they have given him hurts me the most.  

I stood in silence as I watched and listened to them, but most importantly, I was waiting for some miracle and hearing Stefan fighting for me. 

I’ve always thought that after all these years I was slowly having a space in his heart. The way he stopped everyone from calling me a breeder. Or letting his servants know that I was supposed to be respected. 

I know that he usually misses spending more time with me because of his busy schedule, but whenever we were alone in our bed or his office, the way he touched my face and my body made me feel that I had a very special place in his heart.

But as I watch all of them everything seems so clear. He was not slowly getting close to me and I never had a special place in his heart. Because the truth is, I never had even the tiniest piece of his heart. He stayed with me as he waited for the person who held his heart, Beta Claire.

I didn’t know that was crying until I heard a familiar voice and smelled that familiar scent. 

“Claire?”

I quickly turned around as I tried to stop him from causing more problems for me and was surprised to see that he wasn’t alone. 

“I’ve been looking for you,” Ethan said with a big smile on his face as his blue eyes twinkled like I was the best thing that he had seen. 

It was that look that I had been waiting to see from Stefan. Something that I now know would never belong to me. 

“Why are you here?” I asked, whispering as I tried to usher them away from Stefan’s office but before we could take a step away from the door, Clarisse opened the door so wide making everyone see us. 

“I knew it,” Clarisse said and then turned to Stefan, “I told you she was the one that Alpha Ethan met and pretended to be my sister Claire.”

The whole office fell silent and my head fell forward as I avoided everyone’s eyes on me.

I could sense Stefan’s anger, but I didn’t dare say anything or look at him. I was so afraid to see his reaction when he found out that I was really the one who met Alpha Ethan and used his precious Beta Claire’s name.

Because I know that the moment he finds out what I did, he will never forgive me, and whatever hope I am clinging to will disappear and I will lose everything.

But how can you lose something you never had in the first place?