Chapter 1.2

Kayle devoured a lot of nachos and Jess was chugging her soda as if it was a vodka.

A moment later, I stood up aiming for the comfort room to pee. It took me a couple of minutes to finish and wash my hands. When I came back, I saw the girls sternly looking at their phones so I walked fast towards them and grabbed Kayle's phone to see what their asses are up to.

As soon as my eyes landed on her phone's screen, I saw I*******m posts of Charlie making out with different girls at a party. My eyebrows furrowed and I clenched my fists. My heart thumps erratically and I can feel the redness of my cheeks as well as my ears. So before I could destroy Kayle's phone, she snatched it back away from me.

"See? Look how asshole your ex is," mad Chandler says out loud.

"When did you two breakup again? Yesterday, right? Look at the jerk, enjoying his single life." Kayle sighed and then turned her phone off.

Jess and Chandler did the same.

"Fawn, he's not worth it, I know you loved him so much--"

"Love, present tense." I cut her off.

"Okay, okay. I know you LOVE him so much but I hope after tomorrow at school, try to compose yourself and let him see that even if you're sad and scarred, you still have the gut to look good and not emotionally breakdown in front of him, okay?" Jess said, convincing me to get my shit together and try to avoid breakdowns in public.

Chandler and Kayle agreed and smiled at me.

Oh, how I love my girls.

I walked closer to them and pulled them into a warm hug.

"Thank you for standing right beside me no matter how fucked up I get." I pulled back and sincerely smiled at them.

"Your girls will always be here, just don't do something that might put you in jail because we may be there for your hearings but we won't be a big help to get you out of jail, you know?" Kayle smiled, convincing herself that she have told me the most comforting advice ever.

"I'm not a criminal, Kayle," I reminded her and I heard loud laughs, "but no shit, we will always be here, supporting your ass out," Chandler said and then she sweetly smiled at me.

Again, I squeezed them into a huge hug.

"Come on, Sex ed is waiting for us!" Jess shouted.

"Nope, let's just blare the speaker on and pretend that we're part of Taylor Swift's squad," I suggested.

They looked at one another and beamed.

Jess turned off the TV and connected her phone to the bluetooth speaker. Taylor Swift's You Need To Calm Down was playing then we all jump to its beat.

"Oh, this is for Charlie, everyone! The dude has to calm his dick down!" Jess shouted then we all laughed.

"And I ain't tryna mess with your self-expression

But I've learned a lesson that stressin' and obsessin' 'bout somebody else is no fun!" Kayle sang along with Taylor.

"And snakes and stones never broke my bones," we sang our lungs out and laughed as we jump on our feets.

So oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

You need to calm down, you're being too loud

And I'm just like oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh (oh)

You need to just stop

Like can you just not step on my gown?

You need to calm down

We jumped our hearts out, singing along with Taylor Swift, imagining that Taylor herself was jumping with us.

"Beer?" Chandler asked us as we sat, panting.

"Beer's great," Jess answered and Chandler went to the kitchen afterwards.

"You are somebody that we don't know. But you're comin' at my friends like a missile," Kayle sang out of tune.

She basically did that on purpose as if she's talking to Charlie or to the guys who happened to broke my heart.

"Why are you mad? When you could be GLAAD? (You could be GLAAD)," Jess continued, out of tune as well.

This time, she's pertaining to me and telling me that I should be glad Charlie's finally out of my life.

"Sunshine on the street at the parade. But you would rather be in the dark age. Just makin' that sign must've taken all night," and it was my turn to sing.

"You just need to take several seats and then try to restore the peace. And control your urges to scream about all the people you hate.'Cause shade never made anybody less gay," Chandler sang, walking in. She looked at me with stern eyes, saying I should move on and gain the peace I've lost.

So oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

You need to calm down, you're being too loud

And I'm just like oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh (oh)

You need to just stop

Like can you just not step on his gown?

You need to calm down

Singing along, she walked towards us, handling each one of us a bottle of beer.

"And we see you over there on the internet. Comparing all the girls who are killing it

But we figured you out

We all know now, we all got crowns. You need to calm down," I sang once again before chugging the bottle of beer I was holding.

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

You need to calm down (you need to calm down)

You're being too loud (you're being too loud)

And I'm just like oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh (oh)

You need to just stop (can you stop?)

Like can you just not step on our gowns?

You need to calm down

And then on the last part of the song, we all sang in unison, surpassing the loudness of Taylor while we chug our bottled beers.

"Is it late for a toast?" Kayle asked, laughing a little., "nope, cheers?" I pioneered.

"Cheers!" The girls exclaimed as we toast our beers together.

"Let's acclaim your singleness!" Chandler exclaimed and thus, we all laughed at her.

"Oh right, my singleness," I whispered before chugging my beer once more.

Another Taylor Swift song was playing and the girls are now quiet. I pushed myself deeper on the couch and and wiped the tears falling down my face. They just looked at me, sincerely smiling and respecting my silence. They knew I needed this.

"Charlie will never fetch me up again, he will never drive me home again, and I won't receive morning and sweet text messages ever again from him. I will surely miss him but I still have a life to live so screw you, Charlie," I said while wiping and tears and looked up at them with a sad smile on my face.

"But you still hope for a good life for him," Jess knowingly said and smiled at me.

I then slowly nods.

"It's okay, Fawn. It may still hurt but I promise you, that pain you're feeling right now will just be a story in the future," Chandler said.

And for the first time today, she told something we barely hear from her.

They crawled towards me and hugged me for the nth time.

"We love you, Fawnie," they all whispered.

I'm glad I have these girls in my life. They might have different personalities and has different life values but I know deep in my heart, they don't like me to get hurt by anyone and this is their way of comforting me and telling me that Charlie plus all the other guys who broke my heart are the people who came into my life with different purposes but are all lessons to be learned.

Long silence roamed around us as soon as we pulled apart. They looked at me, waiting for me to speak but I refused to break the silence. I could hear my own deep sighs and I can feel the familiar, warm liquid that escaped from my eyes.

A vivid memory of Charlie, smiling at me triggered my tears to flow heavily. This is my 6th relationship but why it hurts more than the past relationships I had? Charlie's a good guy. He will protect you at all costs, he will make you feel that you're loved and special, he tries his best to like the things you like, he could be a study buddy, he's very thoughtful and easy to vibe with. I just can't figure out what I did for him to fell out of love with me. Am I that easy to let go?

Once again, I wiped my tears away.

Sighing, I looked at my friends in front of me.

"Am I that easy to leave behind?" I asked, no one in particular.

"Of course not. Charlie may have left with an absurd reason but it doesn't mean you're easy to leave behind. You are an incredible girl, Fawn. People come and go, it's not you, it's him, it's them," Jess softly explained.

Kayle and Chandler nodded to agree.

"It hurts because among all the guys I've loved before, I loved Charlie the most." A sad smile escaped from my lips.

"Fawn trust me, we truly understand you. We'll always be here for you, okay?" Kayle softly said and I nodded, smiling.

"And it happened before, it will surely happen again, you'll get over him. Maybe not now, not today, but soon," Chandler said with sincere eyes.

I smiled at them and again, silence roamed around us.

"Okay, time for bed, kids!" Jess exclaimed, trying to lift the mood up.

"Right, time to sleep." Chandler stood up, "and enough for beers." She sighed and smiled.

"Aye aye, captain," I said, smiling.

I gave her the bottle of beer I was holding and she collected Kayle's and Jessica's as well. And then she threw those afterwards.

We walked side-by-side towards our rooms and before I could finally enter, they all whispered we love you, got your back always. Then I sweetly smiled at them, wishing them a good night.

I closed the door behind me and went straight to bed. I pulled my comforter up and reached for the lamp. I was about to turn it off when my eyes landed on the picture frame neatly standing on my bedside table. It was a photo of me and Charlie during our acquaintance party.

I smiled a little and put it down before going to sleep.