"Oh my God, Athijha," Lily mumbled and helped me to get up. "He's just handsome but I don't like his vibe."
"Lily, he's just like that because he's mad at me. I already told you that." I heard her sighed. "Lily, do you mind going back to the mansion alone? I am going somewhere before, you know, get my things at home."
"Okay. Just make sure you won't commit suicide or I'll be the one to kill you in another life."
Minutes have passed and I'm still standing outside the hall. Staring at the busy street like I have nothing else to do.
A loud horn from a truck startled. I tucked my lips in and started walking to a random way.
I can't forget the way he looked at me earlier. I can't for
I kept on mumbling the same statement over and over again while shaking my head. I stood up and used the wall as support. I took my hoodie and left his condo. I held my chest. My tears are dry now but the pain is still in there. Crawling from my heart to every part of me, slowly eating me alive. I fell on the floor when my knees gave up. It's a good thing I fell on the grasses, if I fell on the rocky or hard ground, my knees would be wounded and that will affect my chosen career. A burst of empty laughter echoed around me. I surrounded my gaze and chose to stay. It looks like an abandoned park but it's not scary at all. I laid on the grass. The moon is so beautiful. My eyes star
Oh G! I don't want to have those kinds of thoughts. I massaged the bridge of my nose and hissed. I slightly knocked my head on the wall. Cakes. Ice creams. Pizzas. Strawberries. Chocolates. I kept on repeating and picturing the foods I love inside my head while running to school. I don't want to entertain those thoughts. Coffee. Salad. Pasta. I stopped running and he
Maybe that smile from earlier wasn't meant for me too. Maybe... maybe the moment he stepped into this condo and landed his gaze on me, he saw her. He thought I was her. It's so stupid of me to forget that he's drunk. It's so stupid of me to think that he has forgiven me. It's so stupid of me to do things for him even if it breaks me. How could I forget that he's into her? And I can't believe how masochist I am. I can't believe that I can't bring myself to be mad at him, to hate him. I can't believe I love him so much. I combed his hair and planted a feathery kiss on his forehead before storming out of the room. I sat by the window. The light coming from the misty moon is not tha
My jaw dropped when he turned his back. No, no, I did nog ruined the years we spent together as friends, Quel. You did, I just took the risk of being with you and it was you who decided to throw those years."You don't even worth a thing to me, selfish bitch," He said before ascending upstairs.I smiled bitterly. Your words will hunt me forever, Quel. It made my heart bleed a gallon and will leave a huge scar that will be embedded not just in my heart but also in my soul.We just graduated from college today. I almost lost my place in dean's listers because of you, Quel. I did everything I could to fix everything, even if it takes away everything I have or even if I lose myself.I brushed my tears away when my phone rang.
I clenched my chest when an unbearable pain struck my heart. It hurts so bad. I held onto the wall and pulled myself up. I was sobbing silently when I ran out of his room. I did not intend to shut the door that loud but I can't help it. I'm pain. I'm deeply hurt that I can't control my actions. I drove away from his condo as fast as the legal department allows. I screamed at the top of my lungs and as loud as I can as I drive somewhere I don't know. I immediately turned off the engine and jumped out of my car as soon as I found a place where there's only me, the moon and the sea can hear my screams. "Aaahhhhh! Quel, today is our second month of marriage! Damn, and you spent your
I leaned on the railings as soon as I reach the highway. I was panting and was already sweaty. Damn, my back is really killing me. The fast movements of the vehicles makes me feel dizzy so I just looked up to the sky where the stars lies without the presence of the moon. My mouth parted when I realized how beautiful they are. For a second, I forgot about my aching back the moment a falling star passed through the sky. I beamed. What a beautiful sight to see. A loud horn made me jolt in surprise. I looked at the car in front of me. Its window slowly rolled down which revealed the person from the inside. River was frowning while looking at me, obviously confused about the reason why I am standing alone by the highway.. "What are you
"Exiquel!" "Slap me, Athijha. I don't have enough reason to treat you that way. You are already in pain and I added up to your problems. I treated you like a trash instead of treating you like a princess. Hurt me, Athijha," I kissed him on his forehead instead of doing what he wanted me to do. He pulled me and hugged tightly but it didn't hurt me. It was tight yet gentle. I combed his hair using my fingers. "I can not do what you want me to do, Exiquel. Even if you hurt me over and over again. Break me again and again. I wouldn't care. I will still hug you as tight as I can no matter how many times you stab me, no matter how much I bleed. I am going to give all the love I can." He hugged me tighter. "I'm so sorry, Athijha."
I sighed and rolled my eyes. I bit the insides of my cheeks to suppress the smile that has been begging to be shown. "Does it taste good?" I bet if I ever say yes, he's going to brag about his how good cook he is even if he just learned to cook by himself so nuh-uh. I refuse to give him what he wants to hear from me. "No, it's kind of salty. You're still a bad cook, Quel," I said while shaking my head. He frowned then he took a spoon to taste it. His frown slowly faded and glared at me. I let out the laughter that I have been holding for several seconds. "You should have seen your face, Quel. You look defeated earlier," I said in the middle of laughter. I held my tummy when it s
"Clea," Exiquel called right after I jumped out of our car. "Are you hear to play with me again?" He asked.I smiled then waved at him. "Of course, what else could be the reason I am here?" I asked.I witnessed how my father treated Athijha and she witnessed how hard it was for me too. My sister and I was there for each other but we never had the power to save each other.We were exposed to tons and tons of crimes at such a young age. We were exposed to killing and smuggling, all for the mafia. And even if I want to deny it, Athijha and I were also victims of our father's craziness.My hatred towards this family grew that I even did the most stupid mistake. I used Athijha as as shield just so I can enjoy my life.I started feeling envious towards my sister when I found out that we have different fathers. And I always wished I was her because even if she's an illegitimate child, her real dad is not like mine.I'd always cry myself to sleep after dad's done with his business with me.I'
"Why... why didn't you do it?""I don't know what to say to that person," She replied.I felt enraged towards the person she's talking about. He must hide under his mom's skirt once I find out who he is because curse the ground he's standing on to. I will definitely hunt her until he wishes he died before he could meet me.She was mumbling something but it's a little vague and faint."What? Sorry, Assia, I didn't catch it," I said.Her jaw almost fell when I said that. I wonder what's wrong with her.She laughed nervously and then shook her head. "I didn't say anything. Ha ha ha," She averted her gaze and then smiled a little. "I just find the crowd a little uncomfortable."I chuckled. "Still not used to the crowd, huh?"Something hasn't changed. "I guess I could never get used to it," She whispered in the air.I presented my hand. Her eyes traveled from my palm, up to my shoulder, and then to my bluebell eyes. A smile which reached my eyes crept on my lips as she stares at me with t
"Then I'll just go back to my s-," Before she could even finish what she was saying, I grabbed her arm.My brows are furrowed. "Nope, you're not going anywhere. You're staying here with me."She just want to tease me and damn, love, it's working!She closed her eyes. She sighed and smiled as if she's planning some mischievous things again and wants me to be a part of it.She tugged the hem of my shirt. "What?" I asked."Will you go with me?" She asked in a flirtatious manner.I looked around. "Where?"She smiled a little. "To the cliff, of course.""No," I said which made her brows furrow."Why not?" She asked."You just want to escape this party and just don't want to hear their farewells," I replied and crossed my arms. "And what are you gonna do there? Just stare at the moon or something?"She made a face then stepped on my foot."Stop sounding so sarcastic. And it's better to talk with my son than hear their farewells and shed a tear in the crowd. So, if you don't want to come wit
"Do you feel okay, little sis?" River asked.She tried to reach up for her brother's hand as her eyes starts to water. "Kuya," She called, almost voiceless. "Kuya," She repeated in much clearer voice.She calls her Kuya, huh? It is a Filipino word which refers to your older sibling with a male gender, I suppose. Damn, I guess I really did miss a lot of things.River chuckled a bit then drove his wheelchair to his sister's side.I gulped when I witnessed I Ath... Assia pulled her brother in for a hug."Your eye," She mumbled as she hide her face on River's shoulder."You're thinking that I've gone blind, are you?" She nodded in response. "My eyelid was just grazed by a knife. It's just a small cut.""What if you go blind in tge following years because of that?" Assia asked."I'm glad you're still as silly as fuck," River said then let out a burst of a loud laughter. "Good morning, little sis."You're not really hurt, right?""Yeah. I caught a bullet with my leg though.""Well, you're a
"Good evening, my lady. You look gorgeous like always," I said with a smile when she opened the door."And you are annoying as always," She said then rolled her eyes. "Can I leave this bouquet here? I have a feeling that I might destroy this by slapping you with it out of annoyance.""Harsh. But sure," I took her hand and kissed it. "Shall we go, gorgeous?"She nodded. "Sure."I never knew that 4 kilometers ride is too short for us to stay in car together. Damn the time."Quel, do you know me?" She asked out of nowhere.My forehead creased. "What do you mean? Of course, I know you, Athijha.""What if my name is not really Athijha? What if it is Clea?" She joked then chuckled a bit. "Don't get me wrong, okay? What if I am just her copycat and the real one just happened to tell me everything about her life?"I smiled. "Then you copied her perfectly. Your mannerism, the way you frown, your smile, and your laugh. It perfectly matches hers. But I can never forget how her eyes look. That is
It seems like she's havinf the urge to hit me with her bag she held herself back. "Why are you insisting that I am still your wife? You signed the divorce papers back then, Exiquel." She said.I smirked. "Oh, that? I didn't want to let go of you so I retrieved it when you left. Then I burned it together with the copies you prepared."Her jaw dropped upon hearing that. "How dare you put my money and efforts to waste?"I laughed. "Don't worry, wife. I'll give them back to you, twice. Even a million times if you ask. Anything for you," I replied then wiggled my eyebrows."What if I do something unforgivable? Are you still willing to do that?"I chuckled. "I'll always be on your side, little girl," I shuffled her hair."Exiquel," She called my name."Hmm? What is it, wife?" I asked.She took a step forward. "Do you still remember something I do?" She asked then took another step. "To the moon and back?"My eyes widened upon hearing that. My eyes shone with an unreadable emotion that keep
I visited the pavilion I built to commemorate the faded existence of my child.I'll bring Athijha here for some other time.When I got home, I decided to give her a call.[What is your problem, again?] She said as soon as she answered the call."Are you home?" I asked.[And why should you know?] She retorted with sarcasm. "You didn't text me so I got worried. Are you home? I'm heading there," I said, making up reasons just so I can hear her talk.[No, I am not. I just left. And I don't really see any reason why you should know.]"Because I am your husband," I responded in a proud tone, giving her a hint about what I did.She scoffed. [No, you're not.][Yes, I am.] I insisted.[Shut up, Exiquel. We're divorced. Stop insisting we're not separated, you dumbass.]"Or not," I chuckled.[Whatever you say. I gotta go. There is something important I have to do. Something more important than you,] She said then dropped the call.Then she found out about what I did. She kept on ranting about h
I felt how she got frozen on the spot when I planted a soft kiss on her forehead. I smiled at the back of my mind.I missed doing that."You're being considerate of my feelings too much again. I can handle myself, you know. Go on, love. Sleep now. I'll leave you here alone now. Goodnight, my love."I was wakened by terrified screams from the other room.Chill washed through my body when I realized it was my wife."No, son, no! No," She screamed."Athijha," I called in panic. She's still asleep and covered with sweat as she cries in her sleep."Fuck! Athijha, wake up!"She gasped for air then opened her eyes widely.She touched her cheeks and then brushed the tears away as I cup her face."Fuck! Are you okay, love?"She looked at me who's looking at her with my eyes filled with fear and nervousness.She held onto my wrist then tilted her head. "Quel," she called my name."Yes, love? What is it? Did you had a nightmare?" I asked in a worried manner."Love," She uttered our endearment th
She went out if the car and was about to guide me out but she doesn't really have to do that anymore. I jumped out on my own."It's okay, Jha. I am not drunk anymore," I flashed a smile. "You're back in here again."She nodded a little. She may not be aware of this but the way she acts while looking at the place that's used to be her home says how uncomfortable she is."You should take my car on your way home. It's dangerous," I said."No, thanks," She declined."Athijha.""No matter how much you put authority and warning in your voice, you can't order me to use this since I left my friend's car at the parking lot of the restuarant in front of the club where you drowned yourself."I took a remote out of my pants. "Then might as well spend the night here instead of going home at this hour."I walked in and didn't even dare to look back because I know that she'll choose to walk away and go with the first option I had given her.As I shower in the bathroom of her old room, my feet felt c