0006: Unstable Feelings

LUKAN

"What do you mean by her injuries won't heal easily."I said bursting into the room and from the corner of my eyes I could see Merida flinched.

My fist rolled into a ball by my sides and my eyes were blazing. I was so angry that I was even surprised. 

This was the kind of anger that came because one cared so much about someone.

I shook my head , I was only doing it because I felt pity towards her, I said to myself.

Julietta's head shot up quickly and she gave me a sidelong look which I recognized immediately and turned away. 

I knew something terrible was going on.

"You will have to apply the Willows Tears on the injury." She said in a very small voice her eyes fixed on mine as she walked to her desk.

" Come Merida, let me take you upstairs." I said, taking her hand .

Upstairs in our bedroom ,I made her lift her shirt up and unscrewed the small bottle , the greenish paste-like substance stared back at me, it had no smell .

I scoped just a little amount and placed it on the injury and she flinched under my touch, her ribs jutting out.

"I also have to rub this on the injuries at your back." I said my eyes fixed on the injury which was already turning purple at the edges.

"Why is it called Willow's Tears?" She asked in a small voice, it actually surprised me that she could speak to me and I knew she had been rehearsing it since forever.

" It's because the Willow tree produces a tear like sap and seems to make a crying sound when one scopes it. When it dries up it solidifies and becomes green." I explained glancing up to see her staring at me in astonishment.

" I made that up." I said immediately raising to my feet and her eyes dilated,the surprise and admiration gone." I only wanted you to feel at ease."

I placed the small bottle on the bedside table. 

"Are you hungry Merida?"

She shook her head." No,I'm not."

And just as the words left her lips her lips stomach betrayed her and rumbled and our eyes met.

" I thought you said you're not hungry?"I was beginning to get angry with her. She just couldn't speak to me freely.

" What's wrong with you?" I barked, making her jump.

"Look, you are not with your aunt with her watermelon head and this is the last time I will tell you to speak to me freely. I don't bite."

A small knock came on the door three times and I didn't give a reply , the door creaked open and Rosa pushed her head in.

" What do you want?" I said in a deep voice.

" I came to announce that dinner is ready." Rosa replied.

"I had been waiting for you for centuries." I gave her an irritated look." I even thought you got lost in the kitchen."

Rosa swallowed and kept her eyes low staring at her feet.

"I want you to take Merida downstairs ."I commanded ." I hope you and those sick maids didn't prepare what will make me visit the toilet like I'm on a tour."

" No,Alpha."Rosa said in a small voice." I carefully supervise the maids and I'm sure—"

"Whatever." I cut her off with the wave of my hand. I turned to Merida."I will be with you shortly."

I turned and left the room descending down the stairs to Mom's office.

The look she gave me was so strange, I knew something was up and my heart pounded in my chest as I pushed the door open

" You are late." She said picking up some files.

" I was helping her apply the Willows Tears to her injury." I finished waiting for her to say something. 

" How do you feel around her? " She asked ,her eyes avoiding mine.

"I do not understand."

"I noticed she doesn't have a scent, every wolf had one even if their wolf was bound or caged." She shook her head ." I don't know, whatever."

"I think it is because of the injury."I explained." But I can perceive her."

" It is because you are the Alpha." She said almost immediately. 

"Is that what you wanted to tell me?" I asked folding my hands on my chest looking kind of bored. She said nothing for a while.

"But do you feel drawn to her?" She asked , her face twisted ready to shoot me with a lot of questions.

"Does it really matter?" I spat

" She is your 15th bride ,mate ... whatever." She said, pulling her lab coat." Do you feel that she is your mate?"

I look heavenwards and silent anger dances through me." How I'm I supposed to know ? I'm not the moon goddess."

Julietta shut her eyes momentarily and pinched the bridge of her nose.

" You don't understand,do you ? You need to find her, your true mate, else you might die."

"And all my life I have tried finding her, I'm already sick and tired of everything ,I just wish I could live a normal Alpha life." I muttered to myself staring out of the window.

" You have to check if you feel something for her if you feel that connection if she's your mate." She continued.

"Does it really matter?. Can't you just drop it?" I yelled.

" I'm not because you are my son and I can't bear the thought of losing you," she rattled off angrily and stopped her chest heaving."Even though that would happen you should have an heir, you don't want your cousin taking over the position of Alpha. This Pack will be in ruins, you of all people should know."

I turned away when she wanted to reach for my hand.

" If you find out Merida is not your mate, what will you do?"

I stared at her for a while, silence dwelled between us.

" I don't feel a thing for Merida,you know that." I confessed." I was just hoping she is The One ." I exhaled." If she isn't ,then she is going back to her Pack."