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41 || Not fair

Author: maramartha
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

A kiss to my cheek, another to my lip, and my eyes fly open. Calum stares down at me, his emotions on display. I manage a smile. My thoughts centre on him, my heart does a flip, and a colony of ants erupts in my belly.

“We will need to go to the pharmacist,” I say, ducking his lips before he claims mine.

“Oh.” Worry dips into his eyes, and he slides his fingers into my hair. “Are you okay?”

I nod. My cheeks heat up. “You came inside me,” I whisper. “I don’t want another Macey.” Not anytime soon.

Calum laughs. “Okay.” I try to sneak out of the bed but he hugs me from behind. “We didn’t get a chance to talk yet, superstar.”

“Talk about what?” Throwing my head back, I look out the window. Calum’s arm settles on my belly. “What are we talking about?”

“Us?” Calum says. He sits straighter, folding his legs under him. He must have changed into a pair of shorts while I slept. I pull the cover with me to hide my nakedness. My back hits the headboard and shivers race down my spine. Calum ad
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maramartha
I'm glad you had someone around you to push you to getting help. I also battled depression in graduate school. Studying can be so tedious.
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Erica Boeh
So glad she’s getting help
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MiMo King
In graduate school, I hit my lowest point. My husband recognized that I was in a bad place and talked me into seeing a therapist. I’m so grateful to him and to her. One of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I’m not sure where I’d be if I had not gone.
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