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To Love You Hurts Spying On Me.
Leaning my body against the door frame, I fold my arms across my chest, “and how do you propose we do this?” I ask him, intrigued to hear his plans.“Janice is hosting her annual lunch meeting with her friends in two days at the La Farfalla resturant. We will expose her then.”“Okay,” I reply, discreetly letting him know that he now has my attention. “I will do this with you because Janice needs to pay for her sins. But once we are done, I want you to come clean and tell Tobias the truth about everything.”“I will not tell him about our father. He’s had his time with him, it’s now my turn.” He states sternly, looking at Mr. Landry with a heavy sigh departing his lips.“You will do right by Ava and your child.”“I don’t-”“This is not up for negotiation, Davis,” I interject, pushing off the door frame as I look him square in the eyes. “You shouldn’t have dipped your penis in the honey pot if you weren’t ready to take on the responsibility of being a father. Even though Ava and I don’t
Last Updated : 2023-05-17To Love You Hurts A Monster.
TOBIAS:The hurt in Keris’ eyes pierces my heart like a fucking dagger driven through my back. The way she walked out on me this morning has left me feeling royally screwed up. I can’t think straight, and I have a feeling that I am making things a hell of a lot worse between us than what it was hours ago.I’m a fucking tool.Driven by possessiveness and anger.I hate seeing her with Davis. I hate Davis. Full bloody stop.I can't quite put my finger on it, but, there’s just something about him that has my guard up and the hairs on the back of my neck standing.“Then tell me what you are doing here, with him.” I exhale roughly, eagerly awaiting her reply.Licking her lips, “I can’t tell you why I am here, Tobias.” She whispers, looking past me, refusing to meet my gaze.“You can’t or you won’t?” I growl, feeling myself getting frustrated all over again.I want answers and the ones she is giving me aren’t good enough. She’s hiding something from me and I don’t like it one bit. How
Last Updated : 2023-05-17To Love You Hurts Life Is A Journey.
TOBIAS: I know I fucked up and I’ve lost your trust, spitfire. But you have to believe me when I tell you that I love you and I’ll do whatever it takes to win your heart back. Because the one I have is defective and it’s making it almost impossible to breathe without you.KERI: Then I suggest you go and seek medical attention because my heart cannot breathe life back into the person that has poisoned it.Why is it so hard for him to leave me alone?Does he not realise that his texts are doing more damage to my soul than good?I toss my phone on the sofa as I stand up and walk into the kitchen. Opening the fridge door, I pull out a fresh bottle of wine that’s been sitting on the top shelf for months. I was saving it for a special occasion, but I suppose my leaving Tobias will have to be special enough, even though my chest constantly aches.Removing the top, I take two large swigs straight from the cold bottle, wiping the back of my hand across my mouth.It’s been two days since I las
Last Updated : 2023-05-19To Love You Hurts The Brown Envelope.
I dart across the road to the small diner where I have agreed to meet Davis at.As I walk inside, I look to my right and see him sitting in the back booth, waving at me. Running my hands down the front of my little black dress that every woman should have tucked away in the back of their closet. I smooth out any little creases I have created along the drive over.“You made it,” Davis says as he picks up his cup of coffee and looks at me over the rim; appearing surprised.Sliding into the booth next to him, I flick my hair that’s in loose curls over my shoulder and sigh. “I told you I would be here, didn’t I?”He places his mug back down on the table and nods his head, “You did. But I wasn’t confident if you were going to keep your word after everything that has happened. You know, I personally wouldn’t blame you.”“And what would you have done if I didn’t show up?”“I would have put my plan B into motion.”“Plan B?” I ask, intrigued to know what he would have done if he were to fly s
Last Updated : 2023-05-22To Love You Hurts Because Of You.
“Oh, I’m sorry, but the restaurant is booked out this morning for a private luncheon.” The hostess stops me as I walk inside the La Farfalla restaurant.I smile brightly at her, “You have really cool hair. I love the deep purple on the auburn,” I tilt my head to the side as she smiles and runs her fingers through her hair, genuinely taken aback by my compliment. “Is that your natural hair?” I ask her, trying to lighten the mood so she will see that I pose no real threat and grant me access.“Yeah… the ah… the hairstylist around the corner wanted to experiment with my hair and in return, I only paid 50% for her service.” Her words leave her lips in a rush. In a blubbering mess filled with excitement to talk about herself like it’s something she doesn’t normally get to do.“Well, it looks great and it suits you. I wish I could pull it off, but not many of us are lucky like you.” I reply with a friendly smile on my face, meaning every word I’ve said.She also has lovely skin in the sha
Last Updated : 2023-05-25To Love You Hurts Nothing Left Between Us.
My jaw clenches as my gaze bores into the very soul that led Sawyer down a path of destruction. Because of her and her sick fetishes, Janice was made to choose between protecting her son or keeping up appearances, and it’s pretty damn obvious that she chose her social life over her son.Janice should have her parental rights provoked. Slowly, I tear my gaze away from Eileen to soak in the dark aura that now contaminates the air. Every pair of eyes, made up of different hues, dart between Janice and Eileen, waiting for one of them to speak up and explain what the hell is going on.The silence in the restaurant becomes deafening. You could drop a pin and point out its location as it bounces off the black and white marbled floors. My nostrils flare as I can’t believe that I am in the same room with both Janice and Eileen.I feel queasy with hot flushes coming and leaving my body as I slowly expose every skeleton that’s been hiding in Janices’ closet of secrets.Since the day I was ma
Last Updated : 2023-05-26To Love You Hurts The Real Crime.
TOBIAS:“The damage is done and there is nothing left between us.”Keris’ voice echoes through my head as I’m paralyzed by the sensation of shock and… heartbreak. I tear my gaze away from her fading figure as she walks farther away from me with every calculated step driven by determination, and I look down at my hand.Sitting perfectly in the centre of my palm, which still burns from her touch, are the rings I had placed on her finger when we mutually agreed to marry one another for different purposes. And now, I just want her to remain by my side as my wife because... I love her.I fucking love her with every nerve that thrums through my body. With every breath that fills my starving lungs and with every beat of my heart that keeps me alive.“Tobias… Oh, Tobias…” My mother wails as she staggers toward me. “It’s over. My life is over.”Curling my fingers into the palm of my hand, I make a tight fist around the rings and drop my hand to my side. I turn to look at her. Tears stain h
Last Updated : 2023-05-29To Love You Hurts Exhaustion.
With my back facing Tobias, because it’s too hard to look at him, I anticipate Kips' response, really hoping that he will be able to give me a ride home and explain what the hell is going on.“Sure. I’ll take you home.”His arm wraps around my waist, keeping me upright as he leads us out of the restaurant. My stomach swirls, causing my mouth to water, and I have to force myself to think of something— anything apart from Tobias.Being in the same room with him brings my emotions to the surface. My heart feels heavy as the pain he has caused me is still all too raw.Yeah, sure, it’s only been two days, and it’s natural for me to feel this way; heartbroken, used, and ashamed.But I would rather not feel this way at all. No one should be made to feel this way about themselves when all they have done is given their heart to the traveller, they wanted by their side during their life journey.And after today, I’m going to work on trying to put my needs first for once. I need to remind mysel
Last Updated : 2023-05-30
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To Love You Hurts Are You Happy?
EPILOGUE: TOBIAS:The waves fiercely crash against the shoreline behind us as the sun rays beam upon us.“I do.”Tears of joy brim my eyes as she utters two small words that mean everything and so much more to me. She is officially mine. Again. This time by choice.“You may now kiss the bri-” Before the priest finishes his sentence, I reach for my wife, crushing my lips against hers as I seal the deal between us. Keri smiles against my lips. “How does it feel to be a married woman by choice, baby?”“Perfect. How does it feel to be married and a father of twins?” She has a mischievous glint lining her eyes.“Like the lost pieces to my life have finally pieced themselves back together,” I reply honestly.I turn around and look at my children sitting beside one another with a large grin on their faces as they sit on the white chairs in the sand. Sawyer is holding a small bouquet of flowers, and Ryan, an empty small pillow that not long ago held our wedding rings. My gaze shifts further i
To Love You Hurts Let Me Explain.
TOBIAS:A persistent knock raps on the timber door, catching me off guard as I flip my steak over on the grill. Turning the BBQ off, I move my steak to the side, taking it off the heat so it won’t overcook. The banging on the door starts again, and my strides become larger until I reach the door and yank it open.“Why the fuck do you continue to bang on my-” The words fall from my lips when my gaze collides with Keris'.What the fuck is she doing here?How did she know I was here?Fuck… Fuck… Fuck…“Keri, I… Uh…”Slap!Before I can finish my sentence, her palm collides with the side of my face. Lifting my hand, I cradle my cheek, dampening the stinging sensation spreading across it. She looks pissed off. Like she could murder me, and I don’t blame her.“So, it’s true. You’ve been here for two months?” She hisses, enraged to find me here. In the same country and not behind bars like I should be.“Yes.” I state firmly, gritting my teeth.“You bastard!” She cries out, shaking her head. “
To Love You Hurts The Lake House.
THREE MONTHS LATER:“We need to reschedule today's’ meeting,” Mel looks up at me from her desk, sounding a little strange. “I’m not feeling well, and I need to go over the new contract Adem sent through for a new deal he wants to cut with us. I aim to be on my A-game before facing him.”“I can get Davis to come in and go over it with you? Two sets of eyes are better than one, and unfortunately, I’m still trying to get up to speed with everything going on as it is.”“Davis is unavailable today. He is at the hospital with Ava.”I know I shouldn’t ask, and I don't understand why I give a rat’s ass about her after all the grief she has caused me in the past, but I can’t help myself. “What’s wrong with my sister?” My voice sounds harsher than I had intended.Gnawing on her inner cheek, Mels’ brows furrow as she raises her gaze to meet mine. “She was standing on a chair, screwing in a light bulb when their oldest girl came running into the living room, accidentally colliding with the chair.
To Love You Hurts The Guilt.
“You need to stop being so hard on yourself, Keri,” El speaks softly, resting a gentle hand on my shoulder. “Under the circumstances, you have done a remarkable job with the twins, and one day, they will eventually realise that you have always had their best interest at heart. If there is one thing I know for certain, it’s that being a parent is a learning process, too. After you have given birth, you are not handed a parenting manual. You learn as you grow together as a family; sometimes, the road we pave isn’t easy. But it sure as hell is fulfilling when you reach the end of that bumpy road.”I take a moment to let her words sink in and wipe my eyes dry as I nod my head; agreeing with her. “You’re right,” I whisper, patting her hand that remains on my shoulder. “It’s been four years now, and I am still as clueless as I was yesterday on how to parent my children correctly.”“Everything that has transpired into this mess with Tobias and Coach Matty, isn’t your fault. I need you to hea
To Love You Hurts It's Your Fault.
As the front door to Kip and Elz home opens, I glance at Officer Marcus and give him a small smile that falls short of reaching my eyes – a silent expression of gratitude for his safe escort here. He offers me a brief nod, pivots on his heel, and walks away without uttering a single word.“Oh, my gawds, Keri!” El screeches as she yanks the door wide open and pulls me into her loving embrace.I lean into her, tears streaming down my face as my heart shatters further. I feel an overwhelming urge to express my emotions loudly. To express my frustration and lament that the universe and Gods have conspired against my happiness. Yet, I find myself without that feeling. I search within my soul to find my strength and muster the bravery to stand before the twins as they come rushing towards me.“Mummy, mummy… we missed you last night.” They say in unison as they fling their arms around me.El rubs my back as she gently pulls away from our embrace. Our eyes collide, and she utters the words, ‘
To Love You Hurts A Million Years And One Day.
I shut my eyes, attuned to the strong and rhythmic pulse of Tobias’ heart, my body half entwined with his. His fingers glide softly up and down my spine as he lies on his back while his gaze remains fixed on the ceiling. We haven't slept; we've only been exploring each other's bodies on an intimate level, compensating for lost moments and creating memories that will linger for years ahead. I press my face against his chest, a deep sigh escaping my swollen lips as I cling to him with all my strength. I long for a chance where time could freeze, allowing us to savor the precious last moments that Kip has generously given us. The sun has risen, birds are chirping, and early morning traffic for churchgoers echoes through the room. There is so much I wish to say to Tobias, but I don’t want to ruin this moment. Though we showed each other how we felt about one another on a deeper level, using our bodies to express ourselves, I still feel like there is so much unsaid between us.“I want you
To Love You Hurts Use Me For Your Pleasure.
TOBIAS:The soft caress of her lips is like a lifeline I desperately try to cling to. Warm. Soft. Sensual.I hate to think that this could be the last time I get to feel her like this as she passionately tries to kiss away my deepest and darkest fears. I’ll love her until my dying breath. It’s always been her, and it always will be. I am undeserving of her love, her warmth, and time.“Don’t speak… Just feel, Tobias. Use me for pleasure.”“Don’t say that,” I murmur, pulling away from our kiss. My gaze travels down her body, and she has no idea what the vision of seeing her in my clothes does to me.“I’m serious, Tobias. If now is all we have together. I want you to take what you need from me.”Lowering my pants down my hips, my cock springs free, and I watch through half-lidded eyes as she licks her lips like a starved little kitten looking for its next meal. She lowers herself onto her knees, gazing up at me, with the moonlight accentuating her natural beauty. I lean against the glass
To Love You Hurts Don't Leave Us.
I slowly feel myself surfacing from the deep slumber that embraced me. Reaching across the bed, I search for the twins, and when I am met with air, I jolt awake in a frenzy as last night’s terror claws at my chest. I open my eyes, and my vision slowly adjusts in the darkness.“Tobias, is that you?” I whisper, squinting towards the far corner of a room that isn’t mine.Sitting in an armchair with the moonlight illuminating the room, Tobias is leaning forward with a bottle of Whiskey dangling between his wide-spread legs. He stares down at the bottle, tilting his head to the side as he swirls the amber-coloured liquid at the bottom.“Go back to sleep, baby.” He mutters in a soft tone, raising his head to meet my gaze. “It’s still early, and you need your rest.”I notice that he’s wearing nothing but a black pair of satin pajama pants. His hair looks damp as if he’s just stepped out of a shower, and the woody scent of his body wash faintly lingers in the air.“Have you been sitting in th
To Love You Hurts Utterly Useless.
TOBIAS:My sedan comes to a screeching halt as I pull into Mattys’ driveway. Pulling the handbrake up, I don’t bother killing the engine and push the door open. Exiting the vehicle without slamming the door shut behind me, I race up the stairs, giving Link the death stare of a lifetime.“Where the fuck is she?” I growl, curling my hands into tight balls at my sides. Rage licks my flesh, setting every inch of it on fire. Without uttering a single word, he points to the door, indicating that she is inside. I bite down on my molars and shove my finger in his face. “You are fucking fired!” I bark in a breathy and murderous tone.So fucking fired!I vividly hear movement inside the house, like there is a struggle, followed by a muffled whimper and I spring into action, realising that my Keri could be in grave danger. I take one step back from the door and I kick it in. Link rushes inside, and my blood turns to ice when I see Keri pressed up against the wall with Matty trying to rip her pan
