Fear
The only feeling I want everyone to have for me.You can call me a sadist because I truly like to cause people pain.This brings a kind of satisfaction to me and now I am addicted to it.
Those who face my wrath curse me from the depths of their heart
But it dosen't matter to meTheir words are nothing when I know that my birth itself was a curse.I was not meant to be born
My birth itself was a curse which made me loose my mother.She was supposed to live while I should have died in her womb but when moon goddess controls your arrival and demise, we are just puppets in her hands.It's not that my father dosen't love me.
No instead ,he is the only one who truly loves me but when I see him hold my mothers picture and cry for hours I can't help but hate myself for his pain.Others hate me and I don't have a problem with that, because I also hate myself.
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"Xav she is defiant I am telling you!""Eric you saw her, she was so scared, I don't think she is capable of even speaking to me let alone defy me""Okay then lets provoke her to see ""Eric do whatever you want to, I am busy right now ""Okay! But please come to the canteen in the lunch time to see the show"I ignored him and continued my work.After completing my work I went towards the canteen to get something to eat.As I entered I saw a circle of students gathered around something rather someone.They saw me and cleared the way for me.What I saw was unexpectedEric was enraged with anger, his aura had a deadly vibe to it and his eyes were fixed on his target which was struggling to break free.Erics hand was squeezing her tender neck leaving huge red marks on it and breaking her air supplyShe was struggling under his grip,she was desperate for releaseAs desperate as a goldfish in
Ezra's povSeconds turned into minutesMinutes turned into hours.The visibility of the day was followed by the horrifying darkness of night.Everyone left hours ago not daring to help me by going against the Alpha kings son's order.My lips were getting cracks from dryness ,forcing me to moisten them with my tongue again and again.My arms which were tied behind me around the bark, were now numb with pain and rigidity.I closes my eyes to escape from this harsh reality .When a person gets caught in a hopeless scenario as mine one usually thinks of the happy memories one has,those smiling faces cross their minds ,those giggles enter their ears ,and memories of those who love him give him strength.But in my case those little happy times I had in my 17 years of life were eclipsed by the horrers I had faced .I was too young to remember those happy memories I spent with my family.I try to remember the
Xavier black's povI was doing my regular workoutSweat was dripping like water from my forehead as I did my push ups.999.10001001...My face was facing the mirror in front of me where I was watching my muscles flex with my every movement.I was angry and I had to release it one way or the other.That defiant girl was the reason.I slapped herDammit!!I slapped a girl!!How could I??A real man never raises his hand on a girl .I moved on to the punching box and continued to hit it with full force.My actions got controlled by my emotions and I hated it when I loose control.My knuckles were turning red but I did not care.I had to punish myself and this was nothingNext I heard Chris enter the room"Exercise at this time?Xav man are you alright??"I didn't paid heed to what he was sayingThat girls face kept coming in front of my eyes
The biggest fear a child has is of getting lost and loosing his parents.I experienced it at a very young age of 6 when my world collided with his.Flash backThe thunder was striking and the swords were clashing.Mama was holding me tightly in her arms shielding my eyes from the inhuman acts going on around me.Screams of pain around me were making me fear only one thing.DeathNot mine, no I didn't cared for myself as much as I cared for them.They were my life.And without them I was no oneThey were my mama and daddyAnd I feared their death."Ezra baby go with uncle Dan ,I will meet you in a few minutes at our favourites placeOkay?"She said looking into my blue eyesI refused to leave her still clinging onto her not releasing my grip"No mama!!!! Please take me with you!!!""Mama loves you sweety and I will never leave youI promise I will meet you there
I was not normal.I realised this till now.Those blue lights I saw around me eliminating from my body were far from normal.There was something about me which even I didn't know and this was scaring me .Am I ill?Am I even a wolf?Or Am I just a human?I was standing in front of the mirror staring at the thunder birth mark on my chest.Mom asked me to hide it from everyone but she never told me why?The mark I beared was never heard of before.No one was ever born with special marks .Then why was I?Was I a freak of nature?I looked at my face in the mirror to see blue eyes staring back at meBlue just like the clour of light that surrounded me in the forest that day .I closed my eyes remembering the dayMoon goddess what am I??Please tell me!!I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't hear someone else enter the room.Only when warm hands engulfed me fr
I walked around the forest butMy thigh could still not hold my weight for long timeDoctor asked me to not put pressure on my leg or else my wounds would re openI have decided my escape.I can't let things repeat themselvesI can't let him come closer to meMy plan is to kill his father , the present king and till he is in picture I can't do it.He won't let me do it.I came close to Eric just to enter the palace and kill the king and now when Xavier could bring me so close to the palace,to the king I just can't take my revenge.I need to leave and take my revenge as Ezra and not as Xavier's mate.Right now Xavier is busy with his meeting5 guards are guarding my roomI have tied the bedsheets together and tied them near the window.Slowly I descended and once I jumped from the tied bedsheets my body landed with a jerk sending sharp pain to my wounded thigh.I made my way out of his t
As the car came to a halt past memories resurfaced.Those giggles and laughsThose multiple rides on my fathers backThose warm cuddles and loving kisses my parents showered over me.Overwhelmed with past memories I placed my first step back in the place where my life started.A warm hand engulfed my cold ones.I looked up to see Xavier passing me a smile of assurance."Don't worry my dad may seem cold at first but he is good at heart,Just be yourself..okay?"I noddedAs we entered the ceremony hall at the centre stood the chair which belonged to the king.The same chair on which I used to sit with the crown of my barbie princess on my head and imagine my self as the real princess.The same chair on which my Dad used to sit with me on his lap .Now the chair was still the same with it's beatifull gold plated back with an intricate design and blood red cushioned seat but
6 months laterI never knew what being loved felt like but now when he loves me like no one has ever loved me beforeI feel like I am trappedTrapped between my revenge and his loveI am not a good person and surely not a good mate but still he made all my flaws look beautifull.Right now his arms are encircling me in their safety as he is sound asleep but my eyes are fixed on the full moon .In these 6 months he showed the world what I meant to himHe treated me like a true princessAnd I will never forget what all he did for me.Those endless times he made me smile and those numerous times he stood behind me as a rock for my protectionHundreds of those against whom he stood to prove me being human didn't made me weakThe day he told his father to never say a word against me or else he will forget he is his fatherAnd especially that confession on the boardwalk under the shining starsThe nu
Do you often get lost in the beauty of stars and wonderHow in so much darkness they are capable to shine?Do you look at growing trees and wonder how a leaf is capable to defy gravity and grow upwards against itDo you wonder why sometimes you feel in the present that an event has happened in the past and you rightly predict the future.Why these things don't have an explanation..The answer is simpleSome secrets are beyond logic and are magics of natureWe can only enjoy the show but can never replicate themThey are the monoply of nature and only she masters it.We may pirate it,modify it,but can never make the originals because that right is under god's patent rights.I don't know what my destiny holds now ...what nature has in store for me..as I lay lifeless on the ground with my soul ready to break free but even that is not achieved so easily.Each second equals thousands of mind numbing and soul breaking
Endings are meant to be happyAnd if there is no happiness it is not the end..Was this my end?I thought as I was lying on the forest floor ...too weak to rise and too painful to moveMy hands were covered in my own blood and my clothes drenched in it.My vision was going hazy with the amount of blood I was loosing but I was still trying to keep my eyes openI wanted to see those blue eyes even if they had hatred for meI wanted to feel her touch even if it killed meIs this love?Is this the extent of love I have for herIs my own life nothing compared to herIf it is then I must say that love destroys you..kills you..but still makes you the most happy person on this earth.I could have lived without her...I could have left her to deal with her own wolf..I could have replaced her with some other girl and had pups to live a happy life...But no..Love destroyed meIt bought the king of warewolves
Xavier's povI was going down the road not knowing where it wentMy mind was preoccupied with thinking where she wasMy wolf was in pain since the second Ezra bid her farewell to meHer last words being how much she loved meI was a fool to not realise who she wasShe was always there but I was to blind to see itNow I knew her reasonsHer reasons for killing my dadFor hating royalsFor hating meAnd why wouldn't she?We attacked her happy world and destroyed her world firstWe became monsters in greed of power and positionI still remember that day I first met herI did save her that day but that was the only good I did in my entire beingI took away her everything and accused her of destroying me when in fact I was the destroyer18 yearsHow each and every minute was a struggle for herAnd how I made it worseMy knuckles turned white because of the strong grip
"Ezra.....are you okay?"The king asked afraid of his mate as he looked into her blue eyes.Her eyes were a mixture of silver and blueBeautiful but very deadlyShe remained silentHis hands held her faceBut her face was void of any emotionIt was like she couldn't hear what he was sayingShe stopped looking at him and lifted herself upThe king moved forward to help herBut she held up her hand asking him to stop"Ezraa..please ..I...I....am ....I... didn't....ahh.....j..ust tell me you are okay?Silence..."Ezraa?"The king again asked with eyes full of worryEveryone around were looking at themThe media was going crazy trying to record something no one has ever seen beforeThe blue light her veins emittedAnd the silver blue eyes that looked at themWas indeed most magical thing they had ever seenBut little did they knew th
Her eyes were fixed on meThere was no fear in them...no love...only one thing was present and that was desperationDesperation to be lovedShe took small steps towards the stageHer muddy feet stained the red carpet with her footsteps.People looked at her like they look down on an omega.But she was unaffected by it.She stopped at 10 feets distance from me .The guards moved towards her but she held out the bottle of a silvery liquid in her hands"Don't you dare touch me or I will kill myself......"The guards looked at me and I ordered them to step back immediately.What are you doing Ezra?Please don't do this!!"Oh wow so many people are here...my apologies...everyone...let me introduce myself.....I am Ezra.......the...muderer of your previous king....the betrayer of my mate...I am sorry I am interfering like this....my apologies to all.....but before I go....I just wanted to see him o
Xavier's povChris keep an eye on Ezra..see that she doesn't leaveI mindlinked himYes AlphaI will never let her leave no matter what happensShe belongs here with me and even if I have to put her back into the dungeon s I will do it.I have ordered Chris to watch over her since last 3 days.I know how many bottles she drank and how many tears she cried while sitting in the attic.But I don't care.When she appeared before me only then did I saw how broken she wasHer eyes had large dark circles around them and were red with crying ,her body lost toned curves and she looked bony.She looked like she was deadI couldn't control my anger and I screamed at her for making me pity her state.I know she will try to leave nowHer last words proved itBut I also know she will not survive even 100 m outside my packs territory in this stateShe has my mark and today is full moon
Oh god!! He looked handsome as everAn epitome of perfectionAll my craziness vanished as I looked at himMy dead heart started beating again and my eyes stinged with tearsHis face held shockLike he couldn't believe what he sawHe turned around and looked at me from head to toeHis eyes scanning meNo words were exchanged and the tension could be cut with a knifeSoon his silence got replaced by fury as he stepped towards me"Ezra what the hell is this???If you think I will pity you by seeing you in this state and cancel this ceremony then you are dead wrong!!Stop with this drama and go freshen yourself up...I need you to serve the guests!!"I laughed.I couldn't control myselfI should cry but I am laughingI think this is what verge of insanity felt likeI was not going to stop laughingAnd sensing this he held my shoulders tightly and started shaking me"Ju
I woke up to realise that it was dark outsideThe lights to the infirmary were off meaning no one came here while I was out.I tried to lift myself off the floor holding to the nearby shelf.My legs were still numb from the effects of the drug but I managed.As I made my way out of the room I was met with a deadly silenceIt must be very late I thoughtI turned the corner and my body collided with something making me to fall downI looked up to see Eric looking at me with a look I couldn't decipherEric Christopher JonesThe beta of this packThe man who is Xaviers right handIt's been so long since I talked to himI still remember the first time I saw him fighting in the school arenaThe first time his eyes locked with mine and the girls around me started shouting like crazy.I remember him protecting me when Xavier told him that I was his mate.He is a silent personHe o
Working as a maid is not a childs playMy body is aching like I ran a marathon and my feet are killing me.Each day I was handed a list containing 30 around tasks and untill I completed them I was denied of any food to feed my grumbling stomach.I was currently on my day's 10 th task of cleaning Xaviers room when I saw himHe was ignoring me like I never existedAnd ignorance was the worst form of pain anyone can give to other especially when that someone was your world once.As I pulled his sheets to change them I heard him sigh while looking at his phoneI continued trying to feel indifferent of his presenceBut my heartbeat told me that this was impossible.I heard a knock on the doorHe looked at the door then at me signaling to open it for himI opened the door to see Azira standing there in a short mini dressHer face was caked with make upHer small lips highlighted by the blo