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Through the Threads of Time Sunsets With a Chance of Heartbreak
I let myself slowly sink to the floor as I heard Luke backing out of the front porch. I could feel my heart breaking even before I could let myself be in love with him, the pain filling my mind before I even let the love begin.But that was how we were bound to end up. In pain, in love, in sadness, and in hurt. This was a love story that could never happen, a love story we shouldn't even begin.But he didn't know that. To him, I was just a girl who was here, who helped him, and who, he, probably, slowly, felt something for.I swallowed as Bernice came out of my room and she folded her hands, her eyes watching me sympathetically."Are you that in love?" I looked up to her and shook my head using the back of my hands to wipe my tears away."I have never seen you cry twice for anything. Not me, not your parents...nothing and no one. But you can't even stop crying now."I looked up at her, my chest heaving. "What do I do?"She looked at me with all the seriousness in the world. "Go be
Through the Threads of Time More
I left the window side and walked back to my bed, feeling like it was the only thing I could do. I felt weak to my toes, and I wondered how Luke would be feeling too. He was shut off by me, and then bashed by my friend, he has the wake of his father to think about...I sighed and reached for my phone. There was no message and it made me sigh again. Maybe I should call him, but I wasn't even sure I knew what to say.Hey, sorry about my friend, but she doesn't know what's between us.I swallowed. Between us?I lowered my head and dropped my phone when it started to ring again. I immediately picked it up, and then pressed it to my ear, my heart beat accelerating rapidly."Karla? Is that you?"I swallowed, the sound of his voice filling my ears. I nodded. "Yes."He went silent for a while. "Did you miss the sunset?"I closed my eyes. "Yes."Another silence. "Luke, I...""Is something wrong with me? Something you are not telling me?""Why?" I asked, my lips parting."I just...after the pho
Through the Threads of Time Empty Casket
I leaned on the door, tears welling up in my eyes again. It baffles me how many times I had cried already, as if I was paying the price for not crying much before this. His fragrance and the essence of his touch lingered, long after he was gone, and it threatened to drive me crazy. A little too crazy, more than I already was.Like a log, I dragged myself back to bed, fully intending to let myself just wallow in the sadness my heart felt, at least for today.I watched the sunset in earnest, hoping he was seeing it too, hoping that at least, the hope that I was watching too would heal him. And heal me too. My phone didn't buzz with a message or a call, and I knew he had the right to not call. It still hurt a little and I had to slap my hands every time I reached for my phone. I drifted off to sleep on a cloud of my sadness, and when I woke up, it was already 11 a.m. I sat up on the bed for a while, trying to make sense of my surroundings. My eyes landed on the small calendar on the b
Through the Threads of Time Answered Wish
Luke turned to the now upturned coffin, and a small gasp escaped his lips. I swallowed. My guess was right. Luke's father did not have a body, because somehow, just like me...he has been thrown somewhere into the future.I saw Luke visibly pale off all the color he has gotten from yelling and crying so hard and the crowd around him stood."Luke!" Mrs. Catherine said, running around to the coffin and trying to pull it together."Where is my father?" Luke asked, his breath going wild again, his hands slowly going into his hair. "How come there is no body?"Mrs. Catherine could not say a word, and she just stayed on her knees, pulling the coffin to a close. Like it would fix anything."Mum. Where is my dad?" Luke asked again, and his voice sounded like he was using the very last bits of his sanity. Like he was finally losing it."Mum!""I don't know!" She yelled back, as he clutched his hair, his eyes filling with wild tears. I stepped forward towards him, but didn't quite get to him."
Through the Threads of Time You're Beautiful
"You have now been pronounced husband and wife. You may now kiss the bride."I looked at Luke, who swallowed nervously. Even through my veil, I could see his slight apprehension, even though he was trying hard not to make it obvious. He took two steps towards me and slowly rolled up the veil, then gently put it over my head.I saw his fists clench as he leaned forward, bending a little to my height, then moved closer. He watched me a little, and like he had convinced himself, he finally closed the distance and lightly pecked my lips. My eyes were wide open all through and he leaned away and moved backwards. That had been the one most intimate thing between us when we got married. That was the closest we ever got to being a normal couple, and the closest we ever got to being as close as us now...or in the past...or however I was supposed to convey this time zone.So this is how it should have felt like.I felt his lips slightly brush mine, seeking entrance, like a plea. My eyes closed
Through the Threads of Time I Don't Think I Like You
Luke lay cuddled up in the sheets, with my hand in his hair as he rested his head on my laps, a small, sad smile on his face. I still haven't gotten over the kiss and the magical moment after, but it didn't change that his father's corpse was missing."Do you..." he started to say, then let out a small breath. "Think my dad could still be alive? Could he have somehow survived by some string of destiny? Is that why his body is gone?"I swallowed. I wanted to know too. Was he alive? And if he was, where could he be?"Your father was a good man, Luke. Good men don't end up in bad places. Alive or not. You can trust that."He smiled, and this time I could see the crinkles in his eyes. "Right?"I nodded. "You just need to believe it and you will eventually manifest it."He gave a small laugh. "You sound cute."My cheeks reddened a little and I shook my head. "I am just saying."He turned on his back and looked up to me. "Yesterday...I was scared. I don't know of what, but I guess it's that
Through the Threads of Time The Promise
"I am in love with you."I hadn't expected him to be blunt, neither was I prepared for it. He straightened, leaving my face, then held my hand and brought me to his body. His warmth engulfed me as I buried my face in his chest, his scent filling me up. My husband's scent."I...""Karla." He said, stopping me. "I just...I don't want to watch the sunsets alone anymore. I want to go on more birthday trips with you. I want to laugh about the silliest things." His hand moved to my hair and his fingers moved th rough it. "I don't know...I am not so good at this," He laughed, and I pulled him harder to me."You are good enough."Time passed by with Luke like it was unreal, and every minute seemed to click a little faster. We ate, although Luke turned out to not be a big eater. I waited nervously as he took a shower, my fingers intertwined with each other, like someone waiting for her interview results.But it was similar. It was a maddening experience, getting to fall in love with my husband
Through the Threads of Time Date
Luke still hovered above me, his smile small, but he did look satisfied with my answer. He was playing with strands of my hair, and he looked so fascinated, like he was seeing something he had never seen before."Like?""Mhm?" he hummed an answer, and brought his eyes down to look at mine."Are you...going to get off me anytime soon?" I asked, humor dancing in my eyes."I am not sure about that." he said with a small laugh, then leaned further into me and kissed my left cheek. He then moved away, and helped me up too."Your mum called. I didn't pick it up but...""That's better, thanks I don't really want to talk to her right now." He said, his smile fading.I bit down on my lips. "Sorry if I..."He shook his head. "You are the only thing keeping me sane right now. You have nothing to apologize to me about."I nodded with a smile and stood from the bed. "I have a few Celine Dion tracks here. We could listen to that while we watch the sunset, what do you think? We don't have a lot of t
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Through the Threads of Time Epilogue; Te Quiero Mucho
I stood in front of the spot where Luke's grave had once been, this time instead of the knitted brows and expressionless coldness, I had a small smile playing on my lips, thinking of how far I have come. As a person. As a wife.I smiled again, raising my head to the small tapping sound of a walking stick."Seeing how you are looking at that blank space and smiling like that, I bet it had been well for you." The man I now know to be Mr. McGregor said, his smile knowing.I nodded. "I couldn't think of anywhere to find you, and I thought of here. Where we first met.""Miss the mad man?" He teased and I laughed."How is my son?" He asked once the laughter died down, a hint of seriousness in his tone.I turned to him, squinting against the bright sun rays. "He is perfect. Luke is perfect."He broke into a big satisfied smile, then nodded. "I know. He takes after me. Without the flaws.""I think you are not that bad too."He turned to me. "You seem to have learnt a little too much. But then
Through the Threads of Time November Rain
I felt tears well up in my eyes again, and I slowly reached for the phone. My hand was trembling badly, and I had to hold it down with my other hand. I picked it up, then brought the phone to my ear, tears already streaming down.It was still raining outside, and I kept my eyes on the drops that stayed on the glass window, as I spoke into the phone."Hello?" My voice shook, and I closed my eyes. "Who is this?"I knew who to expect. The man that would report Luke's accident to me, and the hospital he was rushed to. Then I would run out the house only to meet him dead."Karla?"My brows furrowed at the sound. Even over the static and the heavy rain, I could tell who it was, well enough."Karla, this is Karla, right?"My brows furrowed even more as I clutched the phone to my ear. "Luke?""Oh, thank Goodness gracious. I guess I was so out of it earlier when I was about to leave, and I forgot the documents meant for the meeting on the bed. Did you see it?"My eyes widened as I slowly turne
Through the Threads of Time The Call
I watched Luke as he slowly went back to eating and a small smile spread my lips. Of course. It was because he had bought it for me.We ate in silence, and once we were done, without letting me even have the chance to protest, he packed the plates up, then headed straight for the kitchen.I followed behind him, and just like I used to do when he baked back then, I pushed myself on to the island and sat, my feet hanging downwards.He looked at me once and I smiled at him. He smiled back, a little sheepishly however, then returned to his chore. It will take some time for me to adjust to the fact that he wasn't in love with me now."You won't go to work today?" He suddenly asked, raising a brow to me.I shook my head immediately, I didn't even need to think about it. "I am going to take a lazy day and...spend it getting to know you better."He looked at me, like I was ssome alien."What?" I asked, laughing a little."I will need some time to get accustomed to you being like this with me.
Through the Threads of Time Miracles and Necklaces
Luke watched me like he wasn't sure what I was about, but he let me skim my hands over his face, feeling his skin open up under my palm."Was it a bad dream?" he asked slowly, before pulling away from me. He didn't go too far, and I lowered my head, my hair falling in front of me."No, I just...like, the past few months were wrong. On my part...the silence we subjected each other to and the loneliness...everything Luke. They were wrong. Of me. They were wrong. That we both were thrown into this without actually...knowing what to do with this situation. I don't hate you, I could never, I just...we both didn't deserve this."He bit down on his lips. "I know. But it's not us. The situation is...weird. We found ourselves in this marriage and...""I want to make this work." I said, looking up to him, my trembling hands coming to my face to slowly wipe it away. When I dropped my hands, I could still feel the moisture under my eyes.Without a word, Luke brought his thumbs under my eyes and
Through the Threads of Time Let Me Do More
My heart beat picked up, my eyes feeling with hot tears. My lips parted slowly as the memory came flashing back, painfully.I rushed down the stairs once I heard that clatter, my eyes rolling a little as I passed by the large kitchen door without even turning back."Karla?"I rolled my eyes and turned, a deep exasperated breath escaping my lips. "Yes, Luke?""Well, I....""I have work to go to."He looked at me, his expression unreadable. Like he was trying hard to understand me, to tolerate me, but he was finding it too hard."Karla, I was hoping...I was hoping we could..""I know. You are still finding it hard to adjust to this. So am I, really. I don't understand why I have to wake up. To you. Everyday. That stare. Everyday."His lips parted, and his hands lowered, but I never looked down to see what he was holding."Karla, it's not...""I am tired of it too. I have things to do at the office. Later.""Karla.""I'm busy!"He flinched, but said nothing as I walked away through the
Through the Threads of Time November 13
I sat up, my chest heaving hard. My eyes stung hard, my body feeling weak. My hands were wrapped in a cross around me as I held I and Luke's wedding picture to my chest.My eyes fell on a dark brown book sitting next to the bedside lamp. I propped myself on all fours and took the book, then slowly let down the picture.It was Luke's diary. The same one he had used seven years ago. The same one I had read in the past. I swallowed hard, feeling my eyes moisten up again.I opened the first page. Most of it was the same. The problems with his mother. His father's death...the only difference was that, there were absolutely no traces of me. Nothing at all.My eyes welled up more as I flipped the pages hard, till I got to a certain page. July 17th, 2022. The day we had gotten married.I swallowed as my fingers moved to let me read Luke's words on the marriage."I got married. I can hardly believe it, but I did get married. I never did believe in finding someone I would love, but marrying
Through the Threads of Time Infinite
"My love."It's Luke."Karla?"His black eyes came into slow view, and the edges crinkled as a small light twinkled between them. It is me. I put those lights in there."You are beautiful."He slowly leaned in, his lips brushing mine lightly. He leaned back as a strand of my hair fell on my face and we both laughed. His voice. Beautiful.He moved the strand away, the tips of his fingers teasing my face."I love you, Karla."But I don't get to respond. He doesn't let me. He covered the distant between us and kissed me, making me forget my years of loneliness. Making me forget the times I had hated him."Do you believe in forever?""As long as forever is with you."His hands were outstretched towards me, his smile big as I ran to him. I could hear his faint voice. I could see his one sided dimple. "Karla!"The way he called my name..."My love."My eyelashes fluttered slowly as the images slowly disappeared into darkness. My eyes slowly opened, and I could already feel the wetness in m
Through the Threads of Time The Last Sunset
"Luke?" "Yes, love?"Do you perhaps, want to go in the sun? I want to spend the whole day outside.""You don't seem to like bikes, though?"I cuddled closer, my hand moving the hair that had fallen in front of his eyes. "No, love. I want to spend the whole day out in the park." He looked down at me, his eyes still half closed from sleep. He smiled a little, then nodded.I gave a small sigh and leaned back down, feeling his chest. I could feel it in me. These moments that feel like treasure...they are the very last. Maybe I wasn't supposed to make peace with everyone from my past. Maybe just this is enough. I sighed and pulled away from Luke who had fallen asleep again. I then went to the shower. It was already morning, probably the last morning of the past. I could almost feel it in my bones that these were the last moments. Like when your body tells you when you are about to lose someone close. I wish my body had told me, then. I hate that my body is telling me now. I stepped i
Through the Threads of Time Do You Believe In Forever?
I sat in the cab, my eyes swollen and red, as I watched Luke's house. I couldn't see him, but it was bright in there, like there was a party or something.I swallowed, feeling a lump rise in my throat all over again. Luke. That name will haunt me forever.I stepped out of the cab slowly, then walked to the front door. I didn't need to knock, and I just opened the door, then stepped in.The strong aroma of baking hit my nose, and it only cause the tears to well up more. Without a word, I went to his room, and then straight to the shower.I closed my eyes as the warm water hit my skin, my eyes starting to feel again. Can my heart....really go on?"Karla? Is that you?" I heard from outside as the door closed."I just wanted to take a shower. I will be out soon."There was a bit of silence. "You don't need to. I'll join you."I said nothing, and I heard the door open slowly, before Luke stepped in, still in his robe."Did something happen?" he whispered, coming close to me. I closed m
