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Chapter 39: Prince of Arcadia (Part 2)
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2021-12-13 23:17:44Controlling my temper has always been the biggest challenge ever since I was little. I mean, literally.
I had to always keep my emotions and temper in check. I would literally snap at every single thing, especially if that thing belongs to me. Food, clothes, toys and even the people I like.
I had this belief that whatever is mine, should not be touch by anyone except me. That's how it's always been.
But these past couple of days has been the hardest. Everyday is like a battle between me and the monstrous beast inside of me. A war between good and evil. Between desires and rationality. Between my human and lycanthrope form.
And now, that battle has become worst ever since I met Austin. Everyday, I want to be with her. I need to be next to her every single minute. I feel like I would suffocate every second she's not with me. She's like the air I breathe and the water I need to satisfy my thirst.
She's the very reason I need to live. The
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