Royal... Gamma Blood?

~Abe~

She left. As soon as he told her, she left. I knew that’s what she would do, and I was right. He isn’t speaking to me now, but it doesn’t matter because I was already not speaking to him. He refuses to recognize the truth; only our fated mate will genuinely accept us for who we are. I wish he would stop running from the truth, but I’m not surprised.

The last time, the only person he ever told decimated him. It’s what caused him to go into ‘proper overdrive.’ Everything from then on was on point: always following orders, always acting like a proper royal, hell, even adopting some of the ridiculous royal mindsets. It was a way for him to have some sort of control, a way for him to ignore who he really was.

At first, I constantly fought against it, but the fight became tedious after a while. I couldn’t continue to have the same argument with him again and again. I finally left it alone; I let him be whatever he wanted, and here we are. Maybe I should have fought harder. I might be the reason why he won’t accept our Goddess-given mate.

I often think back to that time. It wasn’t just hard on him; it was hard on me as well. I don’t think he ever found out what I had to go through. I made sure to keep my issues to myself. I didn’t want to burden Devonte.

*Flashback*

It was the first time I was able to sleep soundly in a while. Things have been so crazy. I wasn’t sure we should share our secret with her, but Devonte insisted. I never thought she’d react like she did. I definitely didn’t expect there to be a ripple effect. We were rested enough to attend school the next day, so we did.

I wanted to quit school, but I never told Devonte. He felt it was contained, but I knew better. I knew before he did that our secret had been leaked. I figured that telling him wouldn’t change anything, so why bother?

We were sitting in English class the day I realized how exposed we were. “Is that him, Cin?”

“Isn’t he of Gamma blood?”

“Not just that, but he’s a royal.”

“He’s fucking pathetic. You’re lucky you didn’t get involved with that, Cin.” This was the conversation I heard everywhere. My human couldn’t hear it, but I could. The school we attended was a bit different. We had a lot of royal children there, along with the species who work with them closely, so not just wolves. Because of that, the grounds were blessed long ago to where the wolves can communicate with each other. It’s actually pretty cool and keeps us busy, so we don’t only sleep all day.

There was a buzz around us, with Cin being in the center. She was the wolf of Glory, our high school girlfriend, for a time. After she found out our secret, she told her friends, and I had to endure their taunting every day. That day was particularly hard on me, and I lost my cool.

“You stupid bitch! How could you betray us like that? If it’s something you don’t agree with, that’s fine. You didn’t have to tell others and mess with us every day.”

“Let’s just be grateful that they can’t take over the Gamma position. Our pack would crumble to have such a weak bitch in a ranked position. We should let everyone know how pathetic their royal Gamma boys are, just to be on the safe side.”

*End of Flashback*

I had to use my power to silence them, and we had to have our parents talk to the Alpha. He compelled them to keep their mouths shut on the matter, but they didn’t even know what the issue was. We just told them it was a personal issue and the girls couldn’t tell others. The entire group was compelled, and we left that school and went to a local high school, keeping our royal aura stifled. Vonte had no idea why we left that school, and we drifted apart after that incident. He doesn’t even know what happened.

I hear a door open and footsteps inside the room. I focus on the scent coming through our nose, but it isn’t our mate. I can’t believe she came back; I’m actually surprised. Maybe I was wrong about her, but her being here doesn’t help me convince Devonte that we need our fated mate. “I will just fake it for a while.” My ears perk up. I know Devonte is asleep, but I’m staying alert to hear what’s going on. “I don’t know Jessie. Being mated to him has too many advantages to ignore. I guess I can find a way to deal with the rest of it. You just better make sure you keep your damn mouth shut! I mean it….tell no one!” She’s only here for the title. I guess I was right about her after all.

~Sonya~

*Flasback*

“....I need to tell you something first.” Devonte is holding my hands, and I’m trying not to let my mind spiral out of control. I have no idea what he needs to tell me, and I’m starting to get nervous.

Devonte abruptly stands and starts to pace in front of me. I feel a bit of a chill since I’m sitting here naked. I grab the comforter and wrap it around my body. I can’t stand this wait; it’s making me insane. “Just tell me, D. You can tell me anything.”

He sighs and stops pacing. He’s facing me, but his head is down and looking at his feet. “I’ve only told one other person this. It’s not something I talk about; my brother doesn’t even know.” The silence is dragging, and my stomach is in knots.

“Well?!”

“I…..I……” Devonte takes a deep breath. “Have you ever wondered why we’ve only had sex a few times and when we did, I never…..uh, I never finished?” I mean, it’s something I’ve spoken to my best friend about. Jessie said that since he’s so disciplined, maybe the fact that we aren’t marked makes things difficult for him. He has to do things properly, and her reasoning made sense to me. I nod so he can continue. “Well, it isn’t because I’m not attracted to you, because I am. It’s just…..well….I need more.”

“More? What do you mean? I’ve given you head and even let you in my ass. What more do you need?” Devonte sighs. I let him in my ass because I thought that would help us sexually, but it did nothing, and he didn’t even put himself all the way inside. It was just the tip, and that’s it.

“My wolf and I….well, we need to be…..we need to be…..”

“FUCK! Just say it, D!”

“We need to be dominated. We need to….to submit.” I begin to laugh hysterically. I know he has to be joking. I lean over and laugh, my side starting to hurt. I look up and wipe my eyes. Devonte isn’t laughing; he isn’t even smiling. He’s looking down at the floor, and there’s a pain on his face.

“Stop joking and tell me what’s going on.” Devonte doesn’t move, and he doesn’t speak. “Are you…..are you serious? Like you want a woman to tell you what to do, you want her to....what? You want her to put her hands on you or whatever?” Devonte slightly nods his head, and everything comes crashing down on me. This can’t be real. “But…I mean….you are…I mean, you have Gamma blood…..you have royal blood……the only people you are supposed to submit to are the Alpha and Luna of the royal pack, the King and Queen. You wouldn’t even submit to some average Alpha and Luna; you have more power than that. How weak are you? How did you become so pathetic?”

*End of Flashback*

I ran out of here after my talk with Devonte. What else was I supposed to do? How can a Gamma-blooded, royal-blooded wolf be that kind of person? It literally makes no sense to me. I was going to stay away, but I changed my mind when I thought about it.

Who in their right mind would stay with him after knowing that? No one, that’s who, so why not use that to my advantage? He won’t find anyone to accept his….his issue, so why not act like I’m okay with it? When he marks me, I will be given some royal blood, and I will have the strength that comes with it. I will also be considered a ranked member of the court. Devonte’s older brother is the one who holds office, but that doesn’t erase his rank or importance in the court.

I’ve been with Devonte for a year now and have put up with his shitty brother and boring personality. I’ve put too much into this just to walk away. I will find a way to deal with him and make sure no one finds out how weak a wolf he is. I’m not sure how I’ll do it, but I will figure it out.

I take a deep breath and strip down to my underwear. I slide into the bed and lie down next to him. I feel disgusted, but the benefits outweigh all of that right now. Devonte stretches out, and his hand hits me. He sits up and looks in my direction. “S…Sonya? Is that you?” I don’t say anything. “You came back! Oh, baby, thank you.” He reaches for me, and I cringe.

“It was a long drive, D. I just want to sleep. We can talk in the morning.” Devonte looks at me but doesn’t say anything. I turn so my back is to him, and I close my eyes. I will have to do better with my reactions, but I will figure it out. I just have to remind myself that it’s more beneficial to be with him than without him.