A Collision

I watched as the bride and groom exchanged vows, declaring their unfailing love for each other.

Years back I would have been smiling like a crazy person, thinking about my forever with my highschool boyfriend Kelvin. I would be daydreaming of our wedding day and how it would be so magical and fantabulous. 

But now I know better that I am never destined to love any man or to be loved back in return. I know that I would never stand in front of an alter and say the word, *I do*  I have woken up from my slumber and I would never dream again.

Kelvin had told me that no one would ever love me, and he was right.. no one would love a fat, ugly girl like me. I'm too fat. If I was a man, I wouldn't even fall inlove with me.

Who would want a fat sweaty ugly girl as their wife or girlfriend. Back then in highschool, I had always fantasized that my Mr Right would sweep me off my feet and ask me to marry him. But hey, how could he possibly sweep me off my feet when I weigh so much. (chuckle).

"With the power vested in me, I now pronounce you man and wife." The priest in charge of the ceremony said, "You may kiss your bride." He added.

I watched as Derek lowered his head and then kissed Alice deeply. Deep down in me I wished I could also find my prince charming.. deep down.. I wish someone would also love me. But those were wishes that could never come true. So.. I have learnt not to dream again. My one true love does not exist!.

"Okay.. all the single ladies, gather at the front here. Is time to throw the banquet." Alice announced, her face radiating with so much happiness.

A lot of singles ladies filed out, but I remained where I was. 

"Ugh.. come on Juliet, don't be a stubborn bunny. You are single and you are a lady, so come stand over here." Alice beckons unto me, but I paid no heed to her and just remained standing at exactly where I was. Is already enough that she forced me to be her maid of honor, I will not let her force me into this also.

Alice glared at me, then walked behind me and started pushing me so hard.. till we got to where the other single ladies were standing. 

"Now, this is better." She said smiling. I rolled my eyes.

She walked to the front of all of us, and then started her countdown. "1, 2, 3 and catch!!." She yelled throwing the banquet really high up in the air.

Now... This is where I got confused. I Juliet Weston, was busy standing idly while other ladies were running after the banquets trying so hard to catch it. But no, the banquets just had to fall on my head. Why my head?. What have I done to the banquet, I didn't pursue it or try to catch it.. so why did it have to fall on my head!. Stupid Flowers!.

"Wow, juliet caught it!." Alice announced clapping her hands excitedly. The ladies screams and they all hugged me.

"No, no, no, I didn't catch it. It fell on my head." I yelled exasperated as they all hugged me cheerfully.

"Ugh, it's still the same. And guess what?, I'm already hearing wedding bells ringing. I just need you to remember that I would be your maid of honor." Alice says pointedly hugging me slightly. Her eyes reflecting happiness.

"The only thing you would be hearing is my alarm. And you would probably die while waiting for me to get married." I replied her rolling my eyes. Alice shakes her head disappointed. What? I'm only saying the truth... No one would want to marry a fat ugly lady.

"Can we just go to the reception already." I sighed.

"Stop this whole madness juliet, just because of a little drama that happened in highschool... Shouldn't make you define yourself as an unwanted ugly fat lady. Cause you are beautiful, and any man.. I repeat, any man would be lucky to have you in their life." 

"Hold it right there Alice. You and I know that this isn't just only about highschool, have you forgotten about Chris.. shadrach, or even micah. Everyone of them ended up telling me how ugly I was. None of them truly loved me, they all wanted my sister and tried using me to get her." I said pointedly. Anyone would think I would be probably sad after saying this, but no... Am not m

Sad. I can't be sad, cause I have learnt to adjust to that bitter truth. 

My twin sister Julia, is nothing like me. She's the opposite of me. She's thin, pretty and has really long tanned legs. She's every guy dreams.

"Okay.. am not having this argument with you on my very special day. So.. all I'm going to say to you is, you're beautiful and the earlier you realize that, the better. See you at the reception." She pats me lightly on my shoulder and then walked away.

Well... I'm glad that's over. Ugh, I need to use the restroom, am suddenly pressed. Why would I be pressed when it's time to move to the reception, the reception is my favorite time of a wedding. Why?.. cause there's different varieties of food and snacks that I could stuff in my mouth.

I hurriedly walked to the ladies toilet and did my business in it. I was in a haste to go to the reception, cause I didn't want Alice screaming my name in anger searching for me. Although I'm pretty sure she would be too busy with her husband that, she wouldn't even notice I'm not in the reception.

"Ahh!." I yelled when I came in contact with a solid wall. But.. what is a wall doing here. I am pretty sure that a minute ago, there was no wall here... At this very particular spot. At that very moment, I noticed this particular wall had legs and it's wearing a nice black suit. OMG, this is not a wall.. this is a human being. This is a hard solid body, of a man.

I looked up to find two beautiful green eyes staring at me.. if I didn't fall from the collision, I guess I'm actually falling now.

"Careful there.. are you okay?." Green eyes asked, wrapping his hands around my waist so I wouldn't fall.

Gosh, who the hell is he. I have always thought that only Chris could look like a Greek god in a suit, but this man renders my theory wrong. This man looks more handsome than a geek god in suit.

"I am really sorry, are you okay?." He apologized again. Why is he apologizing, I know for a fact that I'm the one at fault and not him. I cleared my throat and then stands my self upright. I dust my gown idly, preventing myself from staring into greek god eyes again.

"My name is Jason, are you okay?." He asked stretching forth his hand for a handshake.

I cleared my throat, ignored his outstretched hand then said, "I'm okay Jason. Thanks for asking. I will take my leave now." I said coldly then turned around to leave.

"Uhm.. can I atleast get your name." He yelled. I didn't reply him, Instead I continued walking.

This is how they all come, charming and handsome and after that.. they all leave me heartbroken. Not again.. never again would I dream of love and a forever. Cause there's no forever for me.