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2024-10-29 19:42:56Once the filming was done i headed to Grayson's to spend the night. A part of me felt off in a way that i couldn't quite describe but i decided to not dwell on that because i was exhausted and ready to just put everything behind me. Entering his building I went to his floor and used my key to let myself in. He was sleeping, when he was like this he was so docile and beautiful.
I took off the sweats I had been wearing and put on one of his shirts and then got into his bed. He grabbed my body and held me. His comforting warmth had me asleep. When I finally woke up my body felt refreshed and had a ghostly dull ache of exhaustion. I was alone in the bed. Grayson had left.
We couldn't have sex for a while because that asshole Andreas had fucked me hard and i felt sore. I strectched and opened the curtains. The sun was setting to my surprise. Going into the bathr
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