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Chapter 32 - Reflection
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2024-10-29 19:42:56“You slept with him?” Casey asks looking at me shocked. “I thought you said you weren’t going to spent time with him anymore.” She says her eyes bulging at me. Her eyes zero in on me from her kitchen; I’m sitting on her sofa a few feet from the kitchen.
I was dreading telling her what went down with Knox and I but I have to tell her. She’s been there for me when I was struggling. Knox’s heart break did a number on me and she’s the one person that took care of me. She never judged me; she just made sure that I don’t go insane.
“I know.” I say feeling so guilty. I went back on my own word and I feel bad. It’s even worse because she and I were trying to get rid of Knox together. She walks to where I’m sitting and hands me a glass of wine. She stands there looking at me for a long moment.
“What about Michael?” She asks sitting down, I frown at her. “What?&rdqu
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