Cayden's POV"Make love to me, Cayden." I was halted when she said those words. Hindi ko maintindihan ang mararamdaman ko. I am happy as fuck but I am afraid that she might regret it after it happened. She's under the influence of the alcohol. If she wanted to do it, I want her not under the influence of anything. I want her to want me like how much I want her.Kung ibang lalaki lang ako, agad na papaunlakan ko na ang hinihiling ni August. She's one hell of a woman. I desired her like this but not this way. I want her to say those words to me when she's sobered. I would be gladly oblige to fulfill her wants. I love her so much and I don't want to take advantage of her but I am also a man, who loves her the most. "August, you're just saying that 'cause you're drunk." Saad ko rito. But damn, I am so tempted to ruin her. I wanted to kiss her senselessly until she screams my name. I wanted to taste her again, but I don't want it to be like this."I am drunk but I am aware of what's happ
August's POVNakauwi ako bandang mga alas kuwatro ng umaga. Magkasama kami ni Cayden pero agad kaming naghiwalay ng nasa Academy na kami. Naging maayos ang lahat sa pagitan namin dalawa. The confusion was resolved and now I know the reason why Cayden has to put up with Dani.Hindi naramdaman ni Misha ang pagdating ko dahil tulog na tulog ito ngayon. Nagbihis na lang ako ng pantulog tsaka patuloy na natulog. I was able to sleep good after the foreplay happened. I still can't believe that Cayden has that much self-control. He can do it all the way, but he decided not to.Hindi ko na namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako at nagising na lang ako dahil sa tili ni Misha. Gusto ko naman maasar dito dahil pwede naman hindi tumili. Kung tumili kaya ako kanina habang tulog siya matutuwa kaya siya?"Fuck, why do you have to scream like a husky in the morning!?" Inis na saad ko at nagtakip ako ng tenga at tumagilid."Why should I not? I waited for you last night! And I know you were with Cayden so s
August's POVBiglang napalingon naman ako sa aking paligid. I felt someone was watching me and I have this weird chilly feels sometimes. Wala naman akong nakitang kakaiba sa paligid but I have this uneasy feeling. I saw people walking patungo sa classroom nila but I know it is not them. They are not capable of giving me this feeling."Hey August, malelate na tayo!" Tawag naman sa akin ni Tonet ng makita nitong huminto ako at nagpalinga-linga.Ipinagwalang bahala ko na lang yun dahil wala naman akong nakita. "Oo, teka sandali lang." sagot ko naman rito at nagmadali na akong maglakad para maabutan ko si Tonet.Agad naman kaming nakarating sa classroom. I can see their eyes on me. Kahit hindi ko itanong ay alam ko na nakarating na sa kanila ang balita. Halata naman sa tingin nila. Hindi ko nga lang alam kung negative sa kanila yun o positive.Umupo na kami ni Tonet at naghintay sa susunod na lec. Pero si Tonet ay hindi napigilan ang sarili na tanungin ako."Everyone saw it yesterday. Tot
August's POVWhy do birds....suddenly appear....Everytime, you are near....Just like me....we're long to be....Close to you....Napamulat na lang ako ng aking mga mata ng marinig ko ang kantang yun. It was an old and familiar song. But I was disoriented when I felt the cold ground and rusty scent of my surrounding.Biglang napabangon ako sa aking pagkakahiga at napatingin sa paligid. It was dark with only one torch lit at nasa sulok yun. I can even hear a drop of water on somewhere na hindi ko matukoy kung saan. Napansin ko rin na nakahiga ako sa malamig at sementadong sahig.Napatingin naman ako sa aking kamay ng maramdaman ko ang malamig na bakal na nakapalibot sa magkabilang pulsuhan ko. It was a thick cuffs and it was connected with chains rooted on the wall that is made of rocks.Biglang kinabahan ako. The last thing I remember is I was strangled to death by Dani and I lost consciousness. Without a doubt, alam ko kung ano ang kinasadlakan ko. I was held captive and I can only
August's POVI feel like my back is about to explode because of the fresh wounds I got from the whip that was lashed on me by Dani. I can still remember her cruelty and mercilessly whipping me like a devil itself.Flashback:"I am liking this scene. Seeing you helpless and slowly dying August." Parang demonyong saad ni Dani habang tumatawa ito.Hindi ko na mabilang ang ungol at sigaw na nagawa ko dahil sa hapdi at sakit na nararamdaman ko dahil sa latigo na dumadapo sa likod ko. Sobrang sakit at walang tigil ang pagdaloy ng aking luha dahil sa sakit.I am strong but I am still human and I don't have a high tolerance with pain. Sobrang sakit na parang gusto ko ng mamatay na lang. The pain is extremely unbearable and my toes are curling everytime the whip hits my back."N-no m-matter what y-you do. N-nothing w-will c-change." Nauutal na saad ko sa sobrang sakit. Kahit gusto ko ng sumuko ay hindi rin kaya ng pride ko na magmakaawa kay Dani. I will only look pathetic to ask for mercy from
August's POVCayden is kissing my hand nonstop and I received a countless sorry from him. He was blaming himself because he wasn't able to protect me from the cruelty of Dani and I have to go through the series of pain.Everytime I remember the pain crosses his eyes, I can feel his pain as well. Hindi ko rin alam kung paano papagaanin ang pakiramdam niya. I already told him that it is not his fault but still I cannot stop him."I can't bear seeing you in that state again, love." Pain was evident on his voice. "I almost, lost my sanity when I saw you chained and bloody—that proves anything about you makes me crazy to hell. I almost lost my reason and almost killed Dani because of selfishness." Saad nito sa akin habang hawak-hawak nito ang kamay ko.Ako naman ay kumakain ng mansanas na binalatan kanina ni Cayden. He was so silent earlier at alam ko na nahihirapan siya at di alam kung paano simulan ang pagsasalita kaya ako na ang nauna kanina. No one should be blamed, yan ang paniniwala
August's POVHinihingal ako habang paupong bumagsak ako sa damuhan at pinupunasan ko ang aking pawisang mukha. I was training alone habang si Cayden ay naghahanda sa kanilang pagpunta sa Kimera para sa gaganaping digmaan.He was fixed with the decision on not bringing me there. But something is pulling me to go to Kimera lalo na at may narinig akong usap-usapan ng mga faculty. Hindi ko sinasadyang marinig yun. Hindi rin ito sumagi sa utak ko noon at hindi din ako nagtaka. Hindi ko akalain na ang akala kong normal na mundo ay hindi pala.Flashback:Naglalakad akong patungo sa likod ng Amphitheater dahil gusto kong mapag-isa. Ayaw talaga akong isama ni Cayden kahit gustong gusto kong sumama. Nakakasama ng loob. Naiintindihan ko naman kung bakit ayaw niya akong isama. Ayaw niya lang akong mapahamak pero di ko pa rin maiwasang sumama ang loob dahil gusto ko rin makatulong.Kaya dahil gusto kung magpalipas ng sama ng loob ay naglakad akong papunta sa likod ng amphitheater kung saan ay hind
August's POVNanghihinang nakatayo ako at nakasandal sa isang malaking puno dito sa Kimera matapos namin makatawid. Hinimatay lang naman ako kanina ng tumawid ako at isa sa mga kasamahan ko na hindi ko kilala ang tumulong sa akin at napunta ako dito ngayon.Kasumpa-sumpa ang portal kahit kailan pero kailangan kong tumawid doon dahil kung magteteleport ako ay mararamdaman yun ni Cayden. Tagong-tago ang presensya ko ngayon pero minsan ay parang gusto din kumawala. Ang hirap pala ng pinipigilan mo ang kapangyarihan mo dahil ang pakiramdam ay parang natatae ka pero pinipigilan mo kasi walang available na kobeta.Akala ko pa naman madali lang yun kasi parang easy lang naman kina Lucas yun pero bakit sa akin ganun? Hindi ko maintindihan pero masyadong unfair yung ganun. Pinagpapawisan ako ng malamig sa ginagawa ko."Okay ka na ba?" Tanong ng babaeng nakapulot sa akin sa labas ng portal. Mabuti na lamang at hindi niya ako kilala dahil malaking gulo kung makikilala niya ako. Iniisip ko pa lan
August's POVIt's been three years and everything fly so fast. I thought three years will take long but it turns out it feels like it's only a year. Within the three years, marami kaming pinagdaanan ni Cayden. Away-bati kami. Nagkakaselosan pero naaayos naman ang lahat. Our relationship is normal. Natural lang naman talaga na mag-away sa isang relasyon. No relationship is perfect. Only God is perfect.Napapangiti na lang ako habang nakaupo ako sa waiting room. Wearing my long wedding dress and holding the bouquet.My heart is rapidly racing. Finally, the day we will promise together to stand side by side and love each other the whole life comes."August, lalakad ka na..." excited na saad ni Gen sa akin mula sa pintuan. She's not one of the bride's maid dahil hindi nito maiwan ang anak na si Elizabeth."Thank you." Naisaad ko sa kanya at tumayo na ako.I walked towards the door which is slightly open and I can already hear the music that makes my heart twist.The day we metFrozen I h
August's POVI woke up and I can feel my body is in pain all over. Cayden was insatiable at ngayon ay ako nga ang nagdusa dahil sa ginawa ko. I provoked the beast in him. It was still painful but it is now tolerable. Hindi tulad noon una na halos umayaw na ako.Napatingin ako sa aking paligid and I didn't see Cayden. Maybe he's awake already at may ginawa lang. pasalamat ko lang din at hindi na ako nilagnat. Pero talagang naubos ang lakas ko kagabi dahil parang walang kapaguran si Cayden. Hinding hindi ko na talaga gagawin yun. Shit, not unless he will request it.😆I can't imagine myself how daring I was last night. Paanong nagawa ko yun? Saan ko kinuha ang kakapalan ng mukha ko kagabi? Ni hindi ko nga maimagine paanong natuto ako ng ganoon. Damn, I should not do something like that.Dahan dahan akong napatayo at parang nanginginig pa ang aking kalamnan. Peste, paano ba ako tatayo nito ng maayos? Pinilit kong makatayo. I am still naked pero hindi ko na yun naisip dahil gusto ko ng pu
August's POV"Let's go to my room." Yaya ni Cayden sa akin as he hold my hand tightly and giving me a piercing look like I'm gonna melt anytime.Biglang nakaramdam naman ako ng pagkataranta. I should not be trapped with Cayden inside a four cornered room! Kanina ko lang sinabi sa sarili ko na iiwasan ko na makasama siya kagaya ng ganito pero heto ako ngayon. Where is my principle?"Ah....I should be going to the guest room right now. I-I still have to study." Kinakabahan na saad ko. Iba kasi ang pakiramdam ko sa mga tingin ni Cayden. Even a girl like me knows what's the meaning of it."Your room is not the guest room. My room is your room, love." Parang wala lang dito ang pagkakasabi na parang sinabi lang na kain tayo. Like what the heck!Umiling naman ako na halos mabali na ata ang leeg ko. "Your room is not my room—""We'll sleep together—""—No! We can't!" Agad na tutol ko.Napakunot naman ang noo nito. "Why? This is not the first time we'll slept together so I can see there is not
August's POV"He's my father?" I asked incredulously. Sino ba naman kasi ang hindi? I just freaking saw this man as a God! Tapos malalaman ko na siya ang ama ko? Then what am I?"Yes. He is your father and beside him, is Mikaella. They are my friends but they are a normal mortals." Sagot ni Queen August pero napakunot noo na naman ako sa sinabi niya."Mortal?" I am referring with my father. I know he's not mortal. Imposibleng magkamali ako sa nakita ko and even Harithus, that cat brat confirmed that he's a God though I did not know that he's my father at that time."Yes. Your mother is mortal while your father is........a mortal as well." Sagot nito sa akin. I can even hint the delay of the answer when she spoke about my father."I see." Sagot ko na lang. I can feel that Queen Snow knows something but not willing to say anything about it. It is not my attitude to pry. I am contented with what I know about my parents, especially they are no longer here, so it really doesn't matter to k
August's POVMatapos kong makausap si Harithus ay hindi pa rin matanggal ang pagngingitngit ko sa batang yun. Wala bang nagturo ng kagandahan asal doon? Walang modo. Hindi marunong gumalang sa nakakatanda at higit sa lahat, feeling alam niya lahat. Eh mukha naman siyang pusa.Mukha na nga akong nagdadabog na naglalakad dito sa Campus dahil sa badtrip ko sa batang yun. Kung alam ko lang na tagumpay yung pagsubok ko na sinasabi niya eh di sana hindi ako nagsayanh mg luha ko sa kakaiyak. Akala niya nakakatuwang umiyak at masaktan pero wala pa lang dahilan ang mga yun. Hayop talaga ang batang yun. Kaya nga batang pusa yun kasi Hayop. Pero bigla naman akong tinawag ni Cayden na ikinalingon ko rito."Love? Is there something wrong?" Tanong nito. Naglalakad ito patungo sa akin. Medyo napatanga naman ako sa itsura nito. Nagpaputol kasi ito ng buhok. Nagreklamo kasi ako dahil tumatama sa mukha ko ang buhok niya noong.....basta yun na yun. Hindi ko naman inaasahan na ipapaputol niya ito. But h
August's POVIsang lingo din akong nagpahinga. The first three days was hell. Ang sakit umihi at maglakad. Palagi lang akong nakahiga dahil natatakot akong maimpeksyon. Hirap pa akong maligo dahil masakit siya kung hahawakan.Araw-araw kong sinisisi si Cayden at ang bakulaw naman ay todo alaga sa akin, bumabawi daw siya dahil siya daw may kasalanan. Tinatanggap nito lahat ng sama ng loob ko sa kanya dahil sa nangyari sa akin. Ang awkward pa tuwing chinecheck ako ng doctor dahil may kakaibang ngiti ito! Jusko, nakakahiya! Nakakahiya yung nagkasakit ka dahil dun!Hindi ako lumalabas ng kuwarto dahil sa kahihiyan. Ni hindi ako tumatanggap ng bisita. Kailangan ko munang kalimutan ang nangyari pero peste, paano ko makakalimutan yun kung ganoon ang impact sa akin? Forever na yun nakatatak sa utak ko.Buti na lang ngayon at hindi na siya masakit. Hindi na rin namamaga. I'm healed. I should avoid being alone with Cayden in a room. Dahil sigurado ako, since nasimulan na namin ito, masusundan a
August's POVI found myself lying on my bed with body and naked. Sa gulat ko sa mga pangyayari para akong naging manyika na hindi man lang ako nakapagreak noon binuhat na ako ni Cayden at pinatay ang shower!He kissed me hungrily at unti-unti ay natutugunan ko ang kanyang mga halik. His hands are all over touching and squeezing. His kiss went down to my jaw and then to my ear. This warm breathing is sending me tickles and at the same time is giving me a feeling of wanting more.I can feel his tongue tracing it. Then his kiss went to my neck. He's bitting and sucking my skin stubbornly. I don't have the will to stop him. Naramdaman ko na lang bigla na parang may tumutusok sa tiyan ko. Napakagat labi ko. I already have an idea of what is it. But fuck, mangyayari na ba? Is this it?I shuddered when his kiss went to my chest. He's licking and sucking both peaks while his hands are caressing them at the same time. I can already feel that I am wet below, but does it matter? I was wet in the
August's POVIlang araw na ba akong nagkukulong dito sa kuwarto? Hindi ako pumapasok sa klase. Genieva is sending me food dito sa room ko pero hindi kami nagkikita. I haven't seen them since I went back from my time travel. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin matanggap ang mga pangyayari.But should I continue living like this? I can already notice that I am starting to destroy myself. Is Cayden will be happy after risking and sacrificing his life to save mine and I wasted it just like that? I can even no longer cry with tears. I am crying but there are no longer tears coming out.The pain is still there and it's making me crazy. I don't even have the guts to go outside. I don't even have the guts to face everyone. How can I face them if I am the reason why Cayden is no longer around? I can't still stop myself from blaming. I was given a chance to change the future but I wasted it. I wasted it because of some selfish reason.There are lots of messages and missed calls on my phone that
August's POVMabilis akong gumalaw ng makita ko ang paglapit ni Alucard sa sarili kong nakaraan. I saw how they clashed swords. Walang malay si Clint at patuloy pa rin ang iba sa pakikipaglaban. I saw how Alucard intentionally made him stabbed by me. Naningkit ang aking mga mata.Ibig sabihin ay hindi ko siya nasaksak sa sarili kong kakayanan dati. It was fucking intentional! He purposely made his defense open para masaksak ko siya.I saw how he fell to the ground and I saw how myself left his body thinking he's already dead. It was just part of his scheme. From the very beginning it was already plotted. Sinadya ni Alucard talaga na isipin ko na patay na siya para maisagawa niya ang kanyang balak.Napalingon na lang ako ng narinig ko ang tili ni Genieva."August!"I saw how I stabbed King Laurent and how his sword pierced in my stomach. I saw how they went pale seeing me in that situation. Agad na bumitaw si Cayden kay Augusta at nilapitan ako."August, stay awake. Please... please...