Showered and in dry, clean clothes I feel much more like myself, albeit a far weaker version of myself. How long will it take to regain my strength I wonder? If I regain it. You certainly donât hear tales of great rogue alphas in our histories. Is that because there are none, or because rogues donât write history books? Time will tell.I eye the bed in the corner of the room. Itâs strange to feel tired. Sleep has always been more of an optional pleasure for me than a necessity, but right about now, I feel as if I could sleep for a century. That would be one way to pass the time.Making my way over to the bed, I collapse really more than lie down, relieved to be off my feet, but just as I settle in and close my eyes, the door opens. Becca leans against the door frame with her hip. She doesnât say anything at first, just watches me with her head cocked to the side. I sit up.âWhat?â I ask, trying not to let my annoyance show. I am her guest after all.âJust debating joining you in bed
âYou can stay in my room!â Anna chirps as we come to a stop in front of a neon pink door. She swings it open to reveal an equally pink room. âI decorated it myself! It was one of the first spells Laumae taught me. She says I have an artistâs heart,â she continues proudly.âMy room is next door, and Thomas is across the hall. Thereâs an empty room next to his for you. I wouldnât stay in here if I were you. It looks like a pink elephant puked up Pepto,â Eric adds laughing. Anna gives him a death glare. âIt does not! Youâre just jealous you couldnât figure out how to change your room!âHe goes quiet and kicks a stuffed animal at his feet. Anna continues to show me all her treasures and triumphs oblivious to the nerve sheâs struck in her brother. He continues to sulk for a bit before Anna mentions the training grounds, and he perks back up, tales of his newfound prowess with the bow and arrow pouring out of him.I soak up every word they say. Every expression they make. The way the light
I close my eyes. Let the sun fade my field of vision to a warm, red glow. Feel the heat on my skin. It's a perfect day. Not too warm, not too cold. The birds are singing a song of spring. A gentle breeze wafts campfire smoke, pollen kisses, and promises of tomorrow my way while the swaying of the trees lulls me into a sense of calm. If I focus on it, it almost drowns out the crowd's cheers and taunts, excited for my hanging. It's a perfect day to die. "Amalea Ann Whitehouse, you stand here before the eyes of your alpha and pack condemned to hang on the charges of treason, murder, and arson. Would you like to speak your peace?" The jailer drones on. There are a lot of things I'd like to say to these bastards, but they don't deserve it. They're not worth it. "I am at peace." That's all they get. I open my eyes. Look at the town I once called home. The pack I once called family. The man I thought I might have loved. How did I get here? Standing on the edge of a platform in rags, covere
"Anna, the garden is not going to weed itself." Ah, my sweet girl. She's sitting on the porch braiding a dandelion chain, shirking her chores as usual. My mate and I, we always wanted a girl, and third time's the charm. I wish he'd gotten to see her. At all of 8 years old, she's everything we'd hope she'd be. Smart and sweet, but also stubborn and strong. All red golden curls, just like me, but with more dimples. She's sunshine in a werewolf body. Sometimes I wonder if there's not a wee bit of fae in there somewhere. "Momma, momma, look what I made you." She skips over to me, looping her finished creation around my neck. I hug her tight, tickling her sides. "I love it! Now see to the garden. We're housing warriors tonight." "Again!" She pouts momentarily before some likely mischievous thought seems to occur to her, and off she goes. I'd bet a week's chores she's about to con her older brothers into helping, or more likely, doing her job, but no matter, there's much to do. Always is
As the front rig comes to a full stop, the man driving hops out, slamming his door as he does. He's every bit of the average warrior. Tall, muscular, with dark hair and eyesânothing stand-out. Nothing that would make you look twice at him, at least if you're a werewolf, but his aura is imposing enough that it's obvious this is the gamma, and you can tell he's proud of that. He stands stark straight, perfect posture, head held high. None of the packs use uniforms so as not to draw the attention of humans, but you can tell he imposes one of sorts anyway. I watch as his men begin to file out of the increasing number of vehicles arriving. They are all dressed similarly. Dark slacks, black shoes shined to perfection, plain dark t-shirts. The only difference is in the shirt color and the slight variance of their facial features, and more just keep coming. I try to appraise my new guests. We've housed warriors from nearly every pack now, but never Blood Moon. Their pack is reclusive. Member
Dinner was served by 9 as requested and went smoothly. The Blood Moon warriors were strictly regulated indeed. Like clockwork men, they marched to the mechanisms of their routine, which I learned was dinner at 9, practice from 10 to 12, cleanup, drinks, then it was lights out. They barely spoke to one another, let alone me or my children, not even a thank you for the lodging or food. They've been here half a day, and the gamma is the only one I've spoken more than three words to. It's unnatural. We're pack animals, after all. There seems to be no comradery, no warmth in their ranks. Even over the drinksâwhich they broughtâthere was no idle chitchat between them, stories, or songs. They just recited oaths to their alpha, who isn't even here. It's just another ritual, a mark in their routine. This is no normal camp. 1:05 AM, and I find myself in bed listening to nothing but eerie silence, trying to process this situation. I can't just let them leave with the girls, can I? I'm not stupi
The car comes to a sudden stop, slamming me into consciousness and the seat back behind me. I hear car doors shut and feet on gravel before the trunk door opens, and someone pulls me out and to my feet by my hair, dragging me toward the pack house doors. The early morning dawn light is blinding. My eyes hurt. My head hurts. My heart hurts. I'm forced to crouch slightly as the warrior gripping my hair drops his arm. He holds me in place absently while waiting on our warriors to permit him into the pack house. I can't seem to bring myself to think of them as anything but our warriors, but there is no "our" anymore, is there? I'm alone. "They will see you now," one of the gaurds announces, opening the door and leading us into the foyer. It's been so long since I've been to the pack house, and now, to return like this. My feet leave dark marks on the cold marble as dried blood and mud flakes loose. "Stop," the warrior who let us in suddenly comments, "Not her. She's a mess." His eyes gla
"It's 5:30 in the fucking morning. Couldn't this bullshit wait?" Marcus rages. He's in a mood again. He may have inherited the title by blood right, but he hates every second of the responsibility and duty that entails. We've got four pack links severed, three dead Blood Moon Warriors, one dead gamma, no answers, and he's worried about getting his beauty rest. Typical. "Where's my coffee? Fifty fucking omegas in this house, and no one can muster a cup of coffee for their alpha? Incompetent idiots," Marcus continues on his tirade as Alice slips in with a hot mocha for him, sliding it on his desk without him even noticing. Ah, she has one for me too. My savior. She always comes through for me. It smells a bitâoffâthough, but not in a bad way. Or is that the garden? Whoever has taken it over has really outdone themselves. I don't even know how to describe it. Sunshine and jasmine? Does sunshine have a smell? If it does, this is surely it. The council doors open, and I lean forward in a
âYou can stay in my room!â Anna chirps as we come to a stop in front of a neon pink door. She swings it open to reveal an equally pink room. âI decorated it myself! It was one of the first spells Laumae taught me. She says I have an artistâs heart,â she continues proudly.âMy room is next door, and Thomas is across the hall. Thereâs an empty room next to his for you. I wouldnât stay in here if I were you. It looks like a pink elephant puked up Pepto,â Eric adds laughing. Anna gives him a death glare. âIt does not! Youâre just jealous you couldnât figure out how to change your room!âHe goes quiet and kicks a stuffed animal at his feet. Anna continues to show me all her treasures and triumphs oblivious to the nerve sheâs struck in her brother. He continues to sulk for a bit before Anna mentions the training grounds, and he perks back up, tales of his newfound prowess with the bow and arrow pouring out of him.I soak up every word they say. Every expression they make. The way the light
Showered and in dry, clean clothes I feel much more like myself, albeit a far weaker version of myself. How long will it take to regain my strength I wonder? If I regain it. You certainly donât hear tales of great rogue alphas in our histories. Is that because there are none, or because rogues donât write history books? Time will tell.I eye the bed in the corner of the room. Itâs strange to feel tired. Sleep has always been more of an optional pleasure for me than a necessity, but right about now, I feel as if I could sleep for a century. That would be one way to pass the time.Making my way over to the bed, I collapse really more than lie down, relieved to be off my feet, but just as I settle in and close my eyes, the door opens. Becca leans against the door frame with her hip. She doesnât say anything at first, just watches me with her head cocked to the side. I sit up.âWhat?â I ask, trying not to let my annoyance show. I am her guest after all.âJust debating joining you in bed
The cold collision of my skin against rock jars me back into consciousness as the council guards walk away from me, leaving me in the mud with nothing but the echoes of their laughter. I knew this could happen. I just never believed it would.I push up out of the muck, trying to get a sense of where theyâve dumped me. Even thatâs a struggle. Iâve never felt so weak, even when I was transitioning. Death hurt less than this. Itâs as if a piece of every cell in my body has been violently ripped from me. Itâs so quiet, startlingly alone, after feeling so many connections for so long.Itâs no wonder there are so few rogue alphas. The few that survive the pack bonds breaking likely end things themselves just to escape the isolation. That wonât be me. Iâm stronger than this. I can come back from this.The terrain is rocky here, and thereâs a chill on the breeze, but no sounds of civilization. Iâm not near a town. Mountain peaks peek over the trees around me. The road the guards brought me he
âWait! Slow down!â I call out breathlessly to my strange guide as I struggle through the brush after him. I donât know how far weâve gone, but it feels like miles. Whatever I was dosed with may have worn off, but my body still feels foreign, like it belongs to someone else. Someone weak and slow. It doesnât help that I have no shoes, and Iâm constantly struggling to keep the cloak my guide gave me tied around me, but it is better than being naked.I nearly topple backward when he doubles back and pops up beside meâhe certainly isnât slow. âHave you seen others like me come from the mountain? Werewolves I mean? Two boys and a girl?â I ask, trying to distract myself from the creeping realization that Iâve now followed a fae creature deep into their wood. Iâve followed the enemy.He answers without hesitationâwith an elvish stream of gibberish. I canât understand him. His tone seems friendly at least. The confused look on my face as I try to puzzle out what he means must be clear because
My visit to the capital has gone a little differently this round. No luxury cars and comfortable accommodations, thatâs for sure. Just cold dark walls and distrust. Worse, theyâve given me a cellmate this timeâfucking Darius. Two days now, and he hasnât said a word. He just sits there brooding. Heâs plotting, Iâm sure. That bastard is always plotting. His plotting got us into this. At least the council seems to view this matter with slightly more urgency than Aliciaâs dramatic performance. Weâre set to stand before them today. I still donât know how Iâm going to get out of this. Fuck, I still donât understand what happened. All I know is itâs Dariusâ doing somehow, and heâs got to pay. Thankfully, Iâm not doomed to spend another awkward afternoon stuck in my cell. An omega gives us our daily bread and Darius gets his blood bag before a council agent escorts us to the meeting chamber. No one is working this time. All eyes are on us, and the looks we are getting are more than disappro
I canât sense her anymore, but she canât be dead. I felt her through the blood bond, followed our love all the way to a huge oak tree in the Dark Wood, but I couldnât find her, and as dawn broke, I felt her move away before I lost her completely. I donât understand any of this. Having fae blood explains her ability to shift into other animals, but not why I canât feel her now. I can smell she was here. Thereâs an itch in my mindâsomething I used to know. Something familiar about her abilities. What have I been forced to forget, and what does it have to do with Amalea? It would take a powerful witch to cast an enchantment like this. To erase something from reality? Thatâs not childâs play. Itâs not something that would be done on a whim or could be done by just anyone. It would have a price. Clouds gather overhead, casting a gloom over the forest as it begins to rain. I donât want to, but I need to leave. I wonât figure out anything just sitting under this tree. Iâve been here for ho
Itâs soft. Whereâwhere am I? I should be dead. I try to open my eyes, but they feel heavy. I feel heavy, sleepy, distant from myself, likeâI canât think straight. My thoughts run from me, confuse me. Why is it soft? I can feel it all around me, against my skin, cradling me. NakedâIâm naked. Why? They hung me.I should be dead. It smells like soil, like earth, like home. Am I dead? Am I home? I have to open my eyes. Open. It takes all my strength, but slowly the world fades into view. Moss. The moss is soft. Iâm below a tree, an oak tree.The realization sends a shot of sobering adrenaline through me, and my mind emerges from the hazeâitâs not just any oak tree. Itâs our oak tree! Iâm laying at the tunnel entrance, but how did I get here? Who brought me here? Why am I naked? Why canât I move?I try to wiggle my fingers, but they wonât budge, and my eyes flutter closed from the effort. My tears fall anyway. Who cares how I got here? Iâm alive, and Iâm home. I just need to sleep whatever
I canât even look at her. I know if I do, I wonât be able to go through with this. Even if this isnât a real execution. Fuck, even if she really does hate meâwants that asshole insteadâshe shouldnât have to go through this. I can feel every step she takes. Her anger, confusion, hurt, fear, and now calm. Sheâs letting go. I just hope that I can bring her back.âThe bag,â I manage, trying to keep my voice steady as I glance up at herâand thatâs when I know. I feel it. A surge of defiance. I should have known her calm was just the eye of the storm. A smile plays across her perfect lips as she jumps off the platform before Jackson can put the bag over her head.She seems to fall in slow motion as I watch my world end. The council member will know. Heâll know she isnât dead. Heâll know I tried to defy the councilâs orders. Theyâll kill her anyway, and me too maybe, if they donât expel the pack from the alliance or both.I hear her bones snap, breaking me from my trance, but not at the end
Iâve had a lot of time to thinkâtoo much maybe. I wish that I had more time for so many things, but thinking isnât one of them. The more I think about how I got here, about all the things that have been done to me, the angrier I get. Angry that I wonât get to do all the things I wanted in my life. That I wonât ever get to see my children again, to know if theyâre alright, to see the people theyâll grow to be, to say goodbye. Iâm angry that my own people put me here. That the leaders we chose to protect us built a system that uses us as fuel to create power for a few, for them. That I canât do anything to change it, make it a better place for my children, for Liza, for everyone I love. That Iâm letting them all down.âYou didnât eat your breakfast,â James muses beside me. I donât need the mate bond to know heâs worried about me and that makes me even angrier. I hate him for putting his mark on me, for forcing fate on me, for being here right now instead of Darius.âIâm ready,â I repea