When the new week started I tried to compose myself as possible. I tried not to come out physically looking like the mess I was deep inside. So I put on make up here and there to hide the sleepless nights and had energy drink or coffee every single day. It felt like shit but at least I was getting by. I went to work as always. Anzania on the other hand was the cutest, checking up on me here and there to make sure I was okay. Not pushing, but making sure I was okay. There was no doubt that I was in love with her and she was just making everything hard for me. I was lite2 thinking about leaving, in all the places I have ever been in these past years nothing like this has ever happened, so this meant something... And my mind wondered if I should stay and face what has always been coming for me, or flee like I always do. As for Matt, I never saw him. Which was very good, but also strange because it was like he warned me and then disappeared... Got swallowed by the monster he kept talki
I sat there and watched her leave. I couldn't tell what she was feeling or how she was because she didn't dare to look at me. She just walked and walked and walked until I heard the door shut.Tears fell down my cheeks as I replayed that conversation over and over in my head. How I stupidly opened up to her. Why did I do that to myself? I was damaged, I should have known that no one would want to be associated with me after finding out that I was raped. I should have stayed quiet like I have been all my life. Why did I have to feel differently with her? Why did I love her? Couldn't I just push time with her like I've been doing with everyone else? I felt like shit and so stupid. How could I fall in love and think someone will love me back? Maybe I was meant to be with Cecelia. Maybe I was meant to take the abuse because right at this moment I was sure no one was ever going to love me. As much as I had to deal with being forced to sex, maybe being with Cecelia was the only thing for
Saturday came and I thought the least that Sophie deserved for being a good person to me here was a goodbye.I planned everything I'd say when I got to her. I planned on talking about some vacation I needed to take because I needed some air from the scary drama this town was in.I mean it was reasonable. There was no way this was going to not work.I took the rest of my clothes that I had not packed and got ready to them also. 3 weeks was long. If they knew where I stayed it was only a matter of time before they came to take me.My mind wondered around, it wondered to the hell hole I'll be taken back to. What were they going to do to me now? Would I still be expected to myy father in law's sex slave even now? Would I still have to sleep with him to pay being married to his daughter? Would she allow it still? Would she sit there and console me as she watched her father do this to me?I felt so small and like I was literally going back in there. The whole weekend I spent cuddled up in m
I stood there not believing that she could manipulate me like this. Use my feelings to get away with whatever she did.She sighed when I didn't say a word and disconnected our hands but still stayed closer to me, "please... Okay.. Don't leave.""I have no choice Anzania. I just feel so stupid that when my past hunted me I didn't want to leave because of you."She smiled, "oh yeah? Then listen to that. Don't leave."I laughed and turned back around to take my phone and see if Jeremy can't at least leave me outside the small village to the freeway. I know I was a bitch to him but I needed to get out of here. "Allison it was shitty of me to leave like that. Totally. But I needed time to think of a way forward. I wanted to know what to do from now onwards.""well thank you so fucking much for the heads-up. But I'm sorry I can't stay. You made me feel the exact same way I have been feeling. Like I'm damaged goods. You make me trust you and convince me that I can talk to you about anything
Wanna know what's awful about quick decision making? When they come to bite you in the ass or when you have to take back anything you said... Like having to unquit my job. Honestly I didn't think there was anything she'd say that would make me rethink me leaving... But after this, I knew she had more power than I did. My feelings for her were beyond control. We laid there on the floor where she was sitting 30 minutes ago and stared at the roof. We didn't say anything. We just let our thoughts wonder in silence. I on the other hand was worrying about the big elephant in my life. I had no idea what I'd do workwise because it seemed like I was going to be here for a while because of Anzania...and I was sure the principal was already looking for my replacement as we spoke."what are you thinking?" she asked not even moving an inch. Her eyes were still looking up at the ceiling over us. I sighed, "is it that obvious?"She smiled, "yeah... Your breathing keeps changing and your heart is
"umh.. Ava..." I said, the sound of her name so foreign in my mouth. We never talked about names. We just did what we did and stopped. She laughed, "God to think you didn't even know my name... You met me at a bar three times.. Took me back to your place those three times.. And then disappeared after that...is that what you do?"I cleared my throat not knowing what to say. I knew exactly what she was talking about because I was there and I was doing exactly what she was saying. But I had no idea what I was supposed to do now.. And what were the chances that we would meet 4 years later in a different country? I thought zero... But apparently we live in a small world if it was this possible."you won't say anything?" I shrugged and got out of the car to stand up in front of her, "Ava what do you want me to say? I'm sorry okay.. I am sorry I did that to you. I was dealing with my own things back then." "so what? You deal with your things by fucking people and leaving them hanging? Did
We got my stuff from my apartment and moved them to her place. When we got there she created a whole new room for me. Told me I shouldn't feel the need to sleep in the same bed with her, that as much as she was my girlfriend and she'd love to share a bed with me, she also wanted me to feel secure and safe.I was thankful for that because I didn't think I'd be ready to share a bed with her with the secret I was hiding. Ava was working for them. I mean it made so much sense. The pictures I got were sent from when I was in Egypt until here.. And I met her in Egypt. She was the one. She has been following me all this time."hey.. Hey...." I was startled when I heard Anzania call me.I put the bod down and turned to her, "hey..""are you okay?" she asked and I nodded my head, "yeah...""I've been talking to you but you seem miles away."I sighed, "I'm sorry... Something is worrying me a bit but I'm not sure if I should worry. I mean I know I'm not making sense but I'm not fully okay... And
Sitting back in the bar seemed not to take long because the door made noise and opened a few minutes after and she walked in. That exact same moment Sophie walked in from the back also. She furrowed her brows at me, "thought you were on vacation with your girlfriend that is approaching us...""who was she going to vacation with while her girlfriend is here coming for her.." Anzania responded after reaching us. She wrapped her arms around me from behind and kissed my neck, " hey princess..."My body fit so perfectly into her body."okay love birds.. What can I get ya'll?""her hot chocolate to go... I'm cooking for her tonight.""wish I was in love..""thought you were with the principal's wife.." I said and Sophie stopped on her heals and looked at me, "you said what now?"I kept quiet. Shit!I wasn't supposed to know that? How was I going to get out of this? How?"sorry... I'm so sorry Soph. I might have told her when I was talking to her about your case back when you were attacked b
I looked at them both wanting to scream. What the hell was going on? Another part of me wanted to leave but another one was so happy to see Brandy alive. I couldn't bare the thought of her being dead, and not that she was here in front of me I was so happy, but then again I was so conflicted because of what Anzania said.Should I leave? Should I not? My heart was inconclusive."Hey..." Brandy said again and I slowly walked towards her and pulled her into a hug trying by all means not to cry.I thought she was gone. I saw the plane and it wasn't good. How was she here?"You have no idea how happy I am yo see you right now. I never thought I would." she said and I nodded my head, "I never thought I would see you too. I'm so glad you're okay.""Yeah, thanks to Kaycee. I honestly didn't believe it when I first got her text." My sister said and I looked at the Kaycee she was talking about. She slowly lifted her hands up, "I'll give you guys sometime, but please Allison don't leave before I
I went to take a shower and I cried in there. I let my tears out and allowed myself to feel the pain. Last time I felt like this was over two years ago when I thought Anzania was dead. But then I didn't have a chance to cry like this. So now I cried. I turned on the water and put it on cold then cried silently.All the little memories I shared with my sister these past 21 months were running through my head and the more I thought about that the more I got sad. I knew I'd never have that again. I'd never see her again. The more I thought about it the more it broke me.I was startled when the water stopped. I was so tired to even lift my head up to see what was going on.I felt a towel on my body, and someone lifting me up. I didn't fight, I just let her.She laid me in bed and then started drying my whole body, she put lotion on it and put me in shorts and a shirt."We are still waiting. Please don't lose hope." she said and I shook my head, "she sent me this text while boarding. She i
My hand was shaking. My head began to heat and my heart was beating so fast on my chest.Sound started to be louder. I could hear the dor that was walking outside. I could hear kids laughing from the distance. I could hear the train moving. Everything that was far from me seemed to be so close. Yet everything that was so close to me seemed to slowly parish. I could see people's lips moving but heard no sound.That was until I felt my body hit the wall.I looked around me and quickly pulled away when I saw Cecelia standing in front of me. She was touching me and trying to say something.I pushed her off me and started to walk but quickly felt something push me against the wall again. It was her.She moved her lips but I couldn't hear her.I heard someone cry and looked around. I couldn't see who it was. I heard someone sing and looked but couldn't see.Who were they? Where were they?"Allison... Allison. Oh God." I finally heard call sounding like she was so far from me. I slowly turne
I felt a little bit empty and out of place. I went straight back to sleep when I got home. I was going to face everything tomorrow. And to be honest tomorrow couldn't come fast enough. I was dreading it, but the fact that I spent two to three hours in the mountain talking to my ex who was supposed to be dead kinda lead to my night being short and the morning arriving sooner than I anticipated. I felt like screaming when I woke up. I felt like running away and also funny enough, I felt like I didn't even know Cecelia. She laid there looking so beautiful and so innocent. I couldn't believe everything that Anzania said but then again what did she have to lose? 'You Allison, she stands losing you.' a little voice said inside me. Anzania stood a chance of losing me if she didn't say all these things to me. I'd marry someone else who wasn't her. So she was driven by jealous and didn't want to see me happy. But why would it take her so long to come? Why would it take her me accepting th
On the way back I couldn't stop thinking about Marry and about what Anzania said. They were in a relationship. I didn't know what Cecelia Was capable of.I looked at her as she scrolled through her phone. What was she capable of? What was she planning behind my back. I mean she told me the plan but it benefitted me. Sophie, her dad and her brother were going to die and she was going to inherit everything. Why did Anzania say the things she said...?I hated how much these questions were pilling up instead of reducing. The more I met up with Anzania the more questions I got without any I had getting answers."Hey..." she whispered taking my hand and I slowly pulled away from her.She swallowed, "look. I know Marry can.."I shook my head cutting her, I didn't want her to lie to me."You don't have to explain anything to me Cecelia.""But you're mad..."Our stop got announced and I got up getting ready to get off when the train stops. I went out and she followed me."You're mad at me." S
"When you suggested we drove to Hamburg I thought the initial plan was for us to spend time together and play music and all that stuff. But no, you just wanted to sleep." Cecelia said as we took the first break out of nowhere.I yawned and wiped sleep off my face, "yeah I had high hopes too, but your music is so boring.""What do you want?"I took her hand in mine, "if you're going to play some classic love song please also throw in some hip songs you know."She pulled away from me, "you called me boring... And my music."I laughed and kissed her cheek, "you're a very beautiful wam with a boring taste of music. Mix it up a bit."We went back in the car and I drove the other half. I have to say she enjoyed my music. She even told me that it wasn't as bad when we got to Hamburg.We took a shower and fell asleep. That was a lot of driving for 10 hours...Sunday we woke up later than we usually do but I didn't care because we were not home, we were on vacation. I turned around to look at
I extended my hand towards her but she pulled away, "you can't touch me. You know what she is, she will know."I felt like screaming. I knew she was alive, because she was right here in front of me, but I still wanted to confirm it by touching her so I could feel if she was real. This somehow still felt like a dream. Like I'd blink and this would all be an imagination. "Princess..." she said and I shook my head cutting her off, "stop, please. Stop calling me by that as if everything is okay because nothing is okay. I thought you were dead."She nodded her head and looked around us, "I'm sorry. I'm sure you have questions.""Yeah, the first one being where the fuck have you been?" I whisper yelled out of frustration and that got us a few pair of eyes from people who was at the restaurant. I watched as the woman who has been stalking me walked towards us, she tapped Anzania on the shoulder and left.Anzania sighed, "I have to go.""Really Anzania? I haven't even...""I know," she cut
"Anzania told me not to go ahead with the wedding." those were the first words I let out to my sister the second we both sat down.She looked around us and then back at me, "what? How?"I sighed, "I don't know how but I know she is since the text I received. Though it took her a whole fucking year to contact me, she did. I don't know whether to be mad or happy.""We are so close with the plan you can't be happy that Anzania is back and asking you to ruin it.""She just said not to marry Cecelia.""The plan includes you marrying Cecelia. Or did you forget what we talked about?"I sighed not knowing what to do. Of course my sister said I should marry Cecelia in community of property so that what is hers can be mine and what's mine can be hers.. I had nothing under my name so I was good with that.I sighed, "part of this was me making them pay for taking Anzania away from me.""And what happened to you when you were a kid. Or did you forget that? I don't know how many times I've stopped
"Are you ready for whatever is behind that door?"I sighed and opened my coat revealing how half naked I was and how much that meant I wasn't ready. She arched her brows, "really?"I shrugged, "I mean I can turn Wolf if that's what you're asking. I just might have to wrip off these in a non attractive way." "Did you come here to seduce me to have sex with you or to apologize." I shrugged, "I kinda did apologize already. So I came here to do both. There's no crime in that is there?" We heard the figure move and she sighed, "really...? They are leaving." "Go check who they are. I can't leave looking like this." She rolled her eyes but left me there. I ended up cleaning the rest of the room and even fixing her bed. I cleaned up the living room too and then she walked in. "What the fuck?" she exclaimed and I looked at her confused, "who was that?" "Not Anzania.. It was Marry the one who was in the meeting I had at the beginning of the week."Ahh so she was the one who smelled like