It’s been almost three days and Lexie lost track on how many times she had tried calling her family, hoping that even one of them would pick up, she had already tried searching in the internet but she got nothing. Lexie sighed as she punched out her cousin Claire number one more time but like the previous time, her call didn’t go through. “Balita?” Amy asked, tanging tipid na pag iling lamang naman ang isinagot ni Lexie. “Ano nang plano mo ngayon?” Tanong pa ng kaibigan, marahas pa siyang napabuntong hininga bago sumagot. “I don’t really know.” “Okay, well why don’t you try calling the father?” Suhistyon nito, agad pa siyang napa ngiwi dahil doon. “Amy no, the guy maybe have a family of his own, a beautiful wife and God knows how many children, tsaka tingin ko talaga hndi ko kaya eh.” Kagat-labing sabi ni Lexie. “Oh eh ano na nga ang plano mo? Aba sa laki ng halagang kakailanganin ng anak mo, kahit magpaka hirap pa tayong manlimos eh hindi aabot.” “I know that Amy, tomorro
Lumipas pa ang ilang araw at hanggang ngayon ay nag hihintay pa rin si Lexie ng tawag mula sa kanyang dating asawa, She tried to keep her mind out of it and just tried to work diligently in an effort to keep her mind calm and at the same time tried to be with her daughter all the time. She applied for work from home, which the new management accepted as she had the most valid reasons to. At exactly two-fifteen Lexie jumped off her seat and made her way to pick up Macy from school. Agad pa siyang napangiti nang makitang masayang nakikipag harutan ang anak sa ilang mga kaklase nito, her daughter smiled the sweetest smile the moment she saw her. “Yey! You picked me up today!” Masayang sabi ng anak habang patalon-talon pang lumapit sa kanya. “Mommy will be picking you up from this day onwards.” Lexie said as she hugged her daughter tight. “It is still pretty early don’t you think?” She said smiling, Macy tried to look at her own pink and Barbie designed digital watch, sandali pa
They just finished having dinner and Lexie was trying hard to have fun with her daughter whose been complaining about how hard was the puzzle she chose to solve. She was trying so hard not to think about Ram Jordan and failed miserably. She seemed not able to remove the image of him in her mind and it was killing her. It has been six years since she last saw him and she won’t deny that Ram still has the same effect on her, he still has the same ability to send her heart into other dimension she has no idea where to find. “Are you okay mom?” Kunot-noong tanong sa kanya ng anak na hindi niya na namalayang kanina pa palang naka titig sa kanya. Mabilis namang nag pilit ng ngiti si Lexie saka tumango. “Are you thinking about my medicines again? And the doctors for when I get my operation?” Nag aalalang tanong ng anak, agad namang natahimik si Lexie kasabay ng gulat at pagtataka sa tanong nito. She never mentioned anything to her daughter, Macy knew that she was sick but she neve
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing here?” Ram Jordan asked the moment he caught sight of Honey entering his office building. Feeling annoyed, he grabbed her by the arm and tugged her out of his office. “Ano ba dahan-dahan nga nasasaktan ako.” Reklamo ng babae dahilan para lalo lamang mainis si Ram. “What made you think that you can just barge in here? Being with you had already caused enough damage to my relationship with my wife and I am working so hard to fix that, if she sees you here everything will go down to a ditch again, so leave. Pinuputol ko na kung ano man ang naging relasyon natin Honey, I mean it. Leave.” Lalo lamang namang nainis si Ram nang ngisihan lamang siya nito bago muling sumagot. “Oh no I am afraid you can’t do that.” She said as she extracted a piece of paper from God knows where and handed it over to him. Mabilis nangunot ang noo ni Ram nang basahin ang nakasulat doon. “I am pregnant Ram, you are the father.” She said, mabilis nag tagis ang b
“Nothing, these files are showing nothing!” Inis na nalamukos ni Ram ang mga papeles na naka latag sa kanyang lamesa. “It’s been almost six years, Ram. Maybe this is about time that we stop, if she wants us to find her with all these never ending investigations and all imposibleng wala pa rin tayong makuha. Baka talagang ayaw niya nang magpakita?” Malungkot na sabi ni Claire, ang pinsan ni Lexie na isa rin sa mga nakikipag tulungan upang mahanap ang pinsan nito. “No, maybe all these investigators aren’t good enough, maybe I should hire more.” Ram said refusing to listen to his wife’s cousin. Malungkot namang nagkatinginan ito at ang asawang si Andrew. “We already did everything Ram. Even contacted everyone that possibly helped her, but nothing. Knowing my cousin she won’t have anywhere to go, it’s only either Cavite, or London. We have also searched everywhere but we can’t seem to find any lead.” Dagdag pa nito, marahas namang napabuntong hininga si Ram saka pabagsak na suma
Six years hadn’t dimmed her memory by the slightest degree, if anything the passage of those years had only served to magnify the qualities of a man Ram Jordan had become, Lexie doubted she would ever be able to forget. Halos isang oras na ang lumipas mula nang umalis si Ram at heto siya’t hindi makatulog, Lexie tried different sleeping positions and failed miserably, kung bakit ba naman kasi sa tuwinang ipipikit niya ang kanyang mga mata ay ang gwapong mukha ni Ram ang nakikita niya, sa tuwinang siya ay hihigit ng malamim na paghinga ay ang mabango at magskuladon amoy nito ang naamoy niya. Ram Jordan is still Ram Jordan, nothing has changed, tingin niya nga ay mas gumwapo pa ito lalo, and how old is he now? Forty-one? Lexie sighed as she forced herself to sleep only to end up jumping off the bed, hindi malaman ni Lexie kung dapat niya bang ipag pasalamat na sabado na bukas at walang pasok kaya’t maari siyang mag puyat o mainis pang lalo sa sarili matapos malipat ang tingin sa ora
Mataas na ang sikat ng araw nang magising Lexie, tulog pa ang anak na si Macy at hinayaan niya na lamang din dahil wala namang pasok. Pasado alas nueve nang magising ang anak at ang doll house nito agad ang hinanap. Wala namang nagawa si Lexie kung hindi ang hayaan itong mag laro habang siya ay abala sa pag aayos sa kusina. “Mom, I forgot to tell you it’s my classmate Carl’s birthday today.” Lexie almost jump in shock when Macy excitedly said, her daughter was standing by the kitchen’s door with a guilty look. “I startled you did I?” Macy asked, Lexie smiled the sweetest smile to her daughter and nodded. “Why you did, now why don’t you go find the best dress to wear to Carl’s party?” Naka ngiti niyang sabi sa anak, excited naman itong tumango saka patalon-talon pang nag lakad patungo sa silid nito. - Lunch was a light meal, for Macy was too excited to eat much in view of all the sweets available at Carl’s birthday party. “Are you ready, babe?” Lexie asked, her heart filled
Hindi malaman ni Lexie kung ilang minuto na siyang nakatanga sa harap ni Ram, tahimik na pinag aaralan mga salitang binitiwan nito. ‘Our marriage meant everything to me…’ Lexie tried to console herself and forced to meet his gaze. “Our marriage meant everything to me, Lexie. Must I draw it to you like blood from stone?” Mayamaya pa ay ulit nanaman nito, halos mabingi si Lexie sa lakas ng tibok ng kanyang puso, for a quick second, she was scared that Ram could hear her heartbeat. “You gave me beautiful things, Ram. Put me in a beautiful home, made me experience heaven by your side…” Lexie whispered and felt incredibly sad. “Except nothing was beautiful, not really. I loved you, you knew I was loyal to you, you knew that I am yours, I have given myself to you, and I could not help but feel like I was nothing but your new playmate.” Sumbat niya rito kasabay ng pagkabasag ng kanyang tinig. “I was too young for you, too naïve and I didn’t know the rules of your game.” Dagdag niy
Wala pa man halos tatlong minuto mula nang maka balik siya sa silid nila ni Ram galing dining ay hindi magawang mapakali ni Lexie.For some reason, she just can't get herself to behave, lalo na at alam niyang ano mang oras ay papasok rin doon si Ram, it was very kind of him to actually listen to her joke habang nasa dining sila kanina.Akalain niya nga ba namang hindi nga talaga ito pupunta sa opsina at mag tarbaho, sa halip ay mas pinili nitong siya ang samahan sa kwarto nila sa buong mag hapon?Lexie was lying on their bed, freshly showered, again, she was wearing nothing but Ram’s old white button-down shirt. Isa ‘to sa mga paborito niyang isuot kahit pa nga hindi naman ito sukat sa kanya, ngayong ubod na ng laki ang kanyang tiyan dahil kabuwanan niya na, pakiramdam ni Lexie ay mas komportable niyang isuot ang mga damit ng kanyang asawa.And right now, it was more than that, Lexie needed him. Hindi niya itatangging ang biro niya kay Ram kanina ay hindi half meant.She needed him.
Walong buwan na rin ang mabilis na lumipas mula nang mangayri ang lahat, ngunit kahit ganoon ay parang kahapon lamang nangyari iyon.Masakit pa rin para kay Lexie ang pagkamatay ng pinsang si Amanda, kahit pa ng sabihing hindi naging maayos ang naging relasyon nila nito noon, kahit paano naman ay naging close rin naman sila nito.Kung sana nga lang ay nagkaroon silan ng kahit kaunting panahon ni Amanda para ayusin ang lahat bago man lang ito mawala.Lexie sighed at the though, it was too early in the morning at iyon na nanaman agad ang gumugulo sa isip niya, ni hindi pa nga siya halos nakaka bangon mula sa malaki nilang kama.Lexie sat up slowly, sandali pa siyang napa ngiwi sa bigat ng kanyang tiyan, tuloy ay hindi siya maka kilos ng maayos. Ilang lingo na lang rin kasi ay malapit na siyang manganak.Nang makabangon ay agad siyang napa ngiti nang makitang wala na sa tabi niya si Ram.Wala sa sariling hinanap ng kanyang mga mata ang dereksyon ng digital clock na naka patong sa maliit
Ram gripped her hips so tight she knew mamumula iyon mamaya. But she didn’t care. She wanted it. Needed it.He slammed into her again and again, skin slapping skin, habang bumibilis ang paghinga niya.“You’re mine, Lexie. You f#cking hear me? No one gets to see you like this, no one gets this pussy but me.”“Yes! I’m yours, only yours... oh my God, don’t stop, don’t f#cking stop!”He reached around and pinched her clit hard as he continued pounding her. And that sent her over the edge again, her legs nearly giving out, but Ram held her in place as he pounded harder, deeper.It was primal.Savage.Obscene.At nang labasan siya, hindi malaman ni Lexie kung umiiyak ba siya o sanyang halos yanigin ang buong banyo sa sigaw niya, Lexie orgasmed so violently she felt like she's just been exorcised.She needed her own demons out of her.And the same time, she needed them to stay.Ram came seconds after, groaning low and dark as he spilled deep inside her.But he didn’t pull out.He leaned
Mataas na ang sikat ng araw nang magising mula sa mahimbing na tulog si Lexie, agad pa siyang napa ngiwi nang maramdaman ang bahagyang pananakit ng kanyang katawan ngunit ganoon pa man ay hindi niya magawang mag reklamo.Ano nga ba naman ang i-re-reklamo niya pa? Ram did her good last night, hell, he wrecked her in the best possible way.She smiled faintly when she felt Ram's warmth on her skin, mahigpit itong nakayakap sa kanya mula sa likod. His arm draped possessively over her waist, habang ang kanyang isang binti nito ay naka-ipit sa pagitan ng kanya.“Good morning, wife."Ram’s raspy, just-woke-up voice sent a thrill straight to her core.“Morning husband."Mahina at paos ang tinig na ganting pag bati ni Lexie habang kinikiskis ang likod sa dibdib nito.Ram moved behind her, at dama niya ang pag-usli ng naninigas na pagkalalaki nito na tumatama sa kanyang puwitan dahilan upang agad na manlaki ang kanyang mga mata.“Oh my God, Ram… again?”Napatawa ang lalaki, at lalong idiniin
Ilang linggo na ang lumipas mula nang makalabas si Ram ng ospital, at kahit na hindi pa ito pinapayagang bumalik sa full work mode, ay balik na ulit sa dating ikot ng buhay nila ang lahat, well, almost.Lexie sighed as she looked around their cozy living room, ngayon ay mas maayos na ang bahay, mas tahimik, pero mas mainit rin ang mga gabi.Especially with Ram’s new hobby.“Ram, can you please stop staring at me like that?” Inis ngunit may halong kilig na sabi ni Lexie habang inaaba niya ang kanyang sarili sa pag-aayos ng mesa para sa dinner nila.Hindi naman kumibo si Ram, sa halip ay nanatili itong nakaupo sa isang stool habang naka sandal sa counter, shirtless, at may hawak na isang glass na may lamang whiskey. He was biting his lower lip habang sinusundan ng tingin ang bawat kilos niya.“Lexie… you have no idea how sexy you look while slicing that damn tomato.”“Ram…” Natatawang kunwaring saway ni Lexie dito. “Seryoso? Kamatis na ang turn on mo ngayon?”“Not the tomato, baby.
Book 2 BLURB"She was his fire. He was her ruin. But what happens when desire turns into obsession?"Lexie Stevens thought she finally had it all, Ram Jordan in her bed, their daughter in her arms, and peace after years of heartbreak. Pero ang tahimik na mundo nila ay nabasag when they took in Addy, a broken girl with dangerous eyes and a twisted need to belong.What started as compassion becomes chaos.Addy wants more than a family, she wants Ram.Now, every touch between Lexie and Ram burns with tension. Every kiss tastes like guilt.They still crave each other, wild, raw, and unrelenting—but the lines between love and destruction are fading fast.In a home filled with secrets, jealousy, and seduction, Lexie must fight not only for Ram… but for herself.Because when another woman wants your man, and he’s too broken to push her away, how far will you go to reclaim your place in his arms?A sinful, scorching tale of lust, betrayal, and the kind of love that ruins you beautifully.CHAR
Hindi malaman ni Lexie kung ilang beses na siyang nagpa ikot-ikot sa living room ng kanyang bahay, nawalan na rin siya ng bilang kung ilang tasa ng kape na ang naubos niya. It’s already been 3 days and Ram Jordan was still in the hospital, and the fact that he still hasn’t regain consciousness is making her anxious, worried. “Lexie, pinuwi ka nga rito para makapag pahinga ka, yet you are here pacing around like some kind of maniac. Will you please calm down?” Sermon sa kanya ng pinsang si Claire habang masama ang tingin sa kanya. “Oh Claire, how am I supposed to calm down, my husband was shot, two times at hanggang ngayon ay wala pa ring ulirat sa ospital, I am worried sick Claire… Ikaw? Ano ang ginagawa mo rito? Weren’t you supposed to be at Amanda’s funeral?” Tanong ni Lexie sa pinsan bago pa bagsak na naupo sa sofa matapos maka ramdam ng pagod, naupo naman sa tabi niya si Claire. “I was, Macy called me, she said she was at the hospital at nag babantay sa tatay niya, she
Hindi pumayag si Lexie na mag paiwan sa bahay nang mag desisyon si Ram na mag tungo agad sa malapit na police station, ganun rin naman si Addy at ang anak nilang si Macy ay nag pupumilit rin na sumama, mabuti na lamang ay napakiusapan ito ni Ram na mag paiwan na dahil masyadong delikado kung maging ang mga bata ay isasama pa nila. Kaya lamang ay mapilit ang anak ni Rafael, wala rin silang nagawa nang mag salita ito, lalo pa at alam rin naman ni Lexie na may point rin ang sinasabi nito. ‘I know what happened, I am the only witness here, kung may tao man po kayong kailangan ngayon, ako po iyon. And if you want to have my evil father punished, I want to be there to witness that, so please let me go with you.’ Those were the exact words she said, even Addy was sitting at the back seat of the car, Lexie could feel her anger, too much anger and she knew that is not safe, not for a child, like Adalia. Lexie slowly leaned forward to Ram who was driving quietly, funny how none of them dar
“How are you feeling?” Ram Jordan asked as he wrapped his arm around her waist, sandali pang napa buntong hininga ni Lexie saka ngumiti bago sumagot. “Tired, gusto kong mag pahinga sandali.” “Lex, I know you are tired, I made you feel tired, what I am asking is how are you? Are you in pain?” He whispered through her ear, Lexie smiled after she figured that Ram wasn’t asking her about how tired she was after the sex, he was asking her how she actually feels, and she would bet it was about her cousin Amanda. Muli pang nag pilit ng ngiti si Lexie bago umikot ng higa paharap sa asawa, mabilis niya ring iniyakap ang mga braso rito saka muling bumuntong hininga. “I would be lying if I will say I am fine, I feel sad Ram, devastated, mad.. Amanda and I never had the best relationship as cousins but we sure did shared the best memories together, hindi man kami kasing close tulad ni Claire, but I can say Amanda could still be one of the best family I have.” Pabulong na kwento ni Lexie,