Pakiramdam ni Lexie ay tila lumilipad ang kanyang isipan na hindi niya na namalayang nakarating na ang sinasakyang tricycle sa bahay ng kaibigang si Amy upang sunduin na si Macy. Amy invited her for coffee, which she gladly accepted though Lexie felt coffee can do her no good, not at all. To sit with a close friend, a mother like her sipping coffee and sharing conversation proved to help her regain some measure of composure especially that Amy started to crack some jokes. “Ano ba ang nangyayari at mukhang namumutla ka yata?” Untag sa kanya ng kaibigan, sandali pang nag paka wala ng isang malalim na buntong hininga si Lexie bago tinitigan ang kaibigan. “Maipapagamot na si Macy baka sa susunod na lingo.” She started nervously. “Oh eh hindi ba’t mabuting balita iyon?” Tanong ng kaibigan na mabilis naman niyang sinangayunan. “Yeah, I am sure Rammel Oliver Jordan chose the best doctor for our daughter bu-“ “Teka Rammel Oliver Jordan?” Kunot-noong tanong ni Amy. “Well yeah, he’s
Pilit pinaliwanag ni Lexie ang kanyang mukha, ginawang mapag anyaya at mapagtangap ang ekspreyon kahit sa totoo lamang ay halos ayaw niya nang buksan ang pinto. Kung hindi pa siya muling hinila ng anak ay hindi niya pa pipihitin ang doorknob. Agad nahigit ni Lexie ang pag hinga nang bumungad sa kanya ang isang matangkad, may kayumanging balat, seryosong mukha at gwapong lalaking nakatayo sa pinto, naka suot ito ng maong shorts na umabot hanggang tuhod nito, itim na t-shirt habang hawak ang isang napakagandang bouquet. For a brief second, Lexie thought of smiling as she raised her arms to accept the flowers from Ram and dismissed it immediately when Ram moved it away. Oh ayan gaga, napahiya ka tuloy. Inis na kastigo niya sa sarili saka pilit na ngumiti na sa huli ay nauwi lamang naman sa ngiwi, sandali pa siyang nakaramdam ng inis nang makita ang pigil na ngisi ni Ram. Lexie fight the urge to roll her eyes at him, and knew for a fact that if only their daughter wasn’t around she
Lexie lost track on how many times she had tried to keep her eyes away from Ram Jordan, who never seemed to bother that she can see how much happy, sad, lost and miserable he was, it was all evident, she can see all those emotions written all over his face, and Lexie could not help but feel bad and guilty. Hawak nito ang photo album na inabot niya rito kanina at abalang tinititingnan iyon. Mga litrato lamang naman nila ni Macy ang naroon, nasa pinaka unang pahina ang mga larawan ni Macy mula nang ipinanganak niya, sunod-sunod iyon hanggang sa kasalukuyan. “Damn! I couldn’t believe I’ve missed this!” Mariin at bakas ang inis sa tinig na sabi ni Ram, nakita niay rin ang pag silay ng isang mapait na ngiti sa labi nito habang titig na titig pa rin sa litrato ni Macy noong sangol pa lamang. “When is her birthday?” Ram Jordan whispered slowly refusing to take his eyes away from the photo album. “24th of May…” She answered still keeping her eyes on Ram Jordan, it was almost as if Lex
“It’s late Ram, I think you should leave.” Kagat-labing sabi ni Lexie habang pilit na iniiwasan ang mapanuring tingin ni Ram. Of all the right places and of all the right timing, kung bakit ba naman kasi ngayon pa napili ni Ram ang halikan siya, tuloy ay hindi niya malaman kung paano niyang sasalubungin ang tingin nito lalo pa at nakuha pa nitong ngumisi. Marahas siyang napabuntong hininga nang muli nanaman siyang hilahin ni Ram, pinigil rin ni Lexie ang mapa pikit nang masuyo nitong haplusin ang kanyang mukha, pa akyat sa kanyang batok habang marahan iyong minamasahe. “R-Ram, you sh- you should leave.” Nauutal na ulit niya pa. “Are you sure?” Ram asked naughtily making her squirm. “N-no…” Pabulong at tila wala sa sariling sabi ni Lexie, tila pa siya agad natauhan nang marinig ang mahinang tawa ni Ram. “I mean y-yeah, I need you to l-leave, it is late and we should all take some rest.” Mabilis niyang bawi na tila hindi naman umipekto dahil lalo lamang lumaki ang ngisi ni Ra
Lexie experienced a sense of acute nervousness as she caught sight of Ram Jordan’s imposing three-storeyed French-style home. The home where six years ago, she started dreaming of creating a huge family with him, a huge home that even from the outside already screamed luxury, and the same home that she chose to leave together with her dreams of a happy life with Ram. Kahit nakikita niya kung paanong halos wala pa ring pinag bago ang buong kabahayan na tulad pa rin noong iniwan niya ay halata pa rin naman ang ilang pag babago. Katulad na lamang ng dating malaki nilang entrance door, ngayon ay mas lumawak pa. Kapansin-pansin din ang napaka gandang garden na napupuno ng iba’t- ibang uri ng halaman at mga bulaklak na bagama’t may iba’t-ibang kulay ay magaan pa rin naman iyon sa mata. ‘Dear lord, what have I done?’ Nahintakutang bulong sa sarili ni Lexie. In the space of 10 hours she had packed, cleaned the apartment, notified the owner and confided to Marie, not to mention the enor
Pasado alas nueve nang makatulog si Macy, sandali pang napangiti si Lexie bago hinimas ang buhok ng anak saka dahan-dahan nang umalis sa kama upang mag tungo sa sarili niyang silid.Hindi malaman ni Lexie kung dapat nga ba siyang mag pasalamat na pumayag din naman si Ram na magkaroon siya ng sariling silid tulugan.She argued that even she and Ram had already decided to start over, in the past six years of being apart she would still need her own privacy now.Paano nga ba naman siyang makakatulog sa iisang silid matapos ang anim na taong nasanay siyang mag isa, bukod pa doon ay hindi niya rin itatangging naiilang pa rin siya kay Ram.Anim na taon rin ang binilang, sa tingin niya naman ay normal lamang na iyon ang maramdaman niya.Ram was never open to how he feels and Lexie tried to understand, siya na rin ang nag sabing dahan-dahanin nila, one step at a time kumbaga, bukod pa doon ay hindi niya pa rin naman itatanggi na kahit pa unti-unting nagiging maayos ang lahat sa pagitan nila a
For the first time in six years, Lexie slept peacefully, not having those bad dreams that haunted her, naka pikit pa rin na mabilis siyang nag inat para lamang agad na mapamulat nang may kung anong bagay siyang natamaan. Lexie’s eyes widened as she encountered Ram Jordan’s steady gaze. Reclining on his side, his head rested in one hand, her first instinct was to leap out from the bed and stopped when Ram smiled at her. How on earth did she forgot that she slept in his bed last night? ‘Not just slept…’ Her subconscious reminded her making her pull the duvet to cover her breasts. Agad na tumaas ang kilay ni Ram sa ginawa niyang aksyon. “W-what’s the time?” She asked, as if this were just another regular morning in a series of mornings she woke to find Ram beside her in the same bed. “Maaga pa, not long after six.” Paos ang tinig na sagot ni Ram saka pinag lakbay ang mga mata sa hubad niyang katawan sa ilalim ng makapal na kumot nito. Sandaling napa lunok si Lexie nang huminto
It was past nine in the evening when her cousin Claire and Andrew decided to leave, she had already tucked Macy in her bed and did not take long before her daughter fell asleep. Masyado rin marahil napagod ang kanyang anak sa pakikipag kulitan sa tiyahin nito. Wala sa sariling napa ngiti si Lexie saka mas binilisan pang lalo ang pag lakad patungo sa kanyang silid. She maybe let herself slip last night and allowed to share Ram Jordan’s bed and she had no intentions of doing the same. She was beaming with the thought that she and her cousin Claire reunited and was pleased with the knowledge that even Claire hasn’t given up looking for her. And very pleased with the knowledge that Ram Jordan, after all that’s happened between them never given up on her, although it wasn’t clear how he really felt towards her, Lexie would not dare to deny how much she’s still hoping for the best. Wala naman marahil masama kung umasa… Lexie jumped out of shock the moment she entered her room and saw
Wala pa man halos tatlong minuto mula nang maka balik siya sa silid nila ni Ram galing dining ay hindi magawang mapakali ni Lexie.For some reason, she just can't get herself to behave, lalo na at alam niyang ano mang oras ay papasok rin doon si Ram, it was very kind of him to actually listen to her joke habang nasa dining sila kanina.Akalain niya nga ba namang hindi nga talaga ito pupunta sa opsina at mag tarbaho, sa halip ay mas pinili nitong siya ang samahan sa kwarto nila sa buong mag hapon?Lexie was lying on their bed, freshly showered, again, she was wearing nothing but Ram’s old white button-down shirt. Isa ‘to sa mga paborito niyang isuot kahit pa nga hindi naman ito sukat sa kanya, ngayong ubod na ng laki ang kanyang tiyan dahil kabuwanan niya na, pakiramdam ni Lexie ay mas komportable niyang isuot ang mga damit ng kanyang asawa.And right now, it was more than that, Lexie needed him. Hindi niya itatangging ang biro niya kay Ram kanina ay hindi half meant.She needed him.
Walong buwan na rin ang mabilis na lumipas mula nang mangayri ang lahat, ngunit kahit ganoon ay parang kahapon lamang nangyari iyon.Masakit pa rin para kay Lexie ang pagkamatay ng pinsang si Amanda, kahit pa ng sabihing hindi naging maayos ang naging relasyon nila nito noon, kahit paano naman ay naging close rin naman sila nito.Kung sana nga lang ay nagkaroon silan ng kahit kaunting panahon ni Amanda para ayusin ang lahat bago man lang ito mawala.Lexie sighed at the though, it was too early in the morning at iyon na nanaman agad ang gumugulo sa isip niya, ni hindi pa nga siya halos nakaka bangon mula sa malaki nilang kama.Lexie sat up slowly, sandali pa siyang napa ngiwi sa bigat ng kanyang tiyan, tuloy ay hindi siya maka kilos ng maayos. Ilang lingo na lang rin kasi ay malapit na siyang manganak.Nang makabangon ay agad siyang napa ngiti nang makitang wala na sa tabi niya si Ram.Wala sa sariling hinanap ng kanyang mga mata ang dereksyon ng digital clock na naka patong sa maliit
Ram gripped her hips so tight she knew mamumula iyon mamaya. But she didn’t care. She wanted it. Needed it.He slammed into her again and again, skin slapping skin, habang bumibilis ang paghinga niya.“You’re mine, Lexie. You f#cking hear me? No one gets to see you like this, no one gets this pussy but me.”“Yes! I’m yours, only yours... oh my God, don’t stop, don’t f#cking stop!”He reached around and pinched her clit hard as he continued pounding her. And that sent her over the edge again, her legs nearly giving out, but Ram held her in place as he pounded harder, deeper.It was primal.Savage.Obscene.At nang labasan siya, hindi malaman ni Lexie kung umiiyak ba siya o sanyang halos yanigin ang buong banyo sa sigaw niya, Lexie orgasmed so violently she felt like she's just been exorcised.She needed her own demons out of her.And the same time, she needed them to stay.Ram came seconds after, groaning low and dark as he spilled deep inside her.But he didn’t pull out.He leaned
Mataas na ang sikat ng araw nang magising mula sa mahimbing na tulog si Lexie, agad pa siyang napa ngiwi nang maramdaman ang bahagyang pananakit ng kanyang katawan ngunit ganoon pa man ay hindi niya magawang mag reklamo.Ano nga ba naman ang i-re-reklamo niya pa? Ram did her good last night, hell, he wrecked her in the best possible way.She smiled faintly when she felt Ram's warmth on her skin, mahigpit itong nakayakap sa kanya mula sa likod. His arm draped possessively over her waist, habang ang kanyang isang binti nito ay naka-ipit sa pagitan ng kanya.“Good morning, wife."Ram’s raspy, just-woke-up voice sent a thrill straight to her core.“Morning husband."Mahina at paos ang tinig na ganting pag bati ni Lexie habang kinikiskis ang likod sa dibdib nito.Ram moved behind her, at dama niya ang pag-usli ng naninigas na pagkalalaki nito na tumatama sa kanyang puwitan dahilan upang agad na manlaki ang kanyang mga mata.“Oh my God, Ram… again?”Napatawa ang lalaki, at lalong idiniin
Ilang linggo na ang lumipas mula nang makalabas si Ram ng ospital, at kahit na hindi pa ito pinapayagang bumalik sa full work mode, ay balik na ulit sa dating ikot ng buhay nila ang lahat, well, almost.Lexie sighed as she looked around their cozy living room, ngayon ay mas maayos na ang bahay, mas tahimik, pero mas mainit rin ang mga gabi.Especially with Ram’s new hobby.“Ram, can you please stop staring at me like that?” Inis ngunit may halong kilig na sabi ni Lexie habang inaaba niya ang kanyang sarili sa pag-aayos ng mesa para sa dinner nila.Hindi naman kumibo si Ram, sa halip ay nanatili itong nakaupo sa isang stool habang naka sandal sa counter, shirtless, at may hawak na isang glass na may lamang whiskey. He was biting his lower lip habang sinusundan ng tingin ang bawat kilos niya.“Lexie… you have no idea how sexy you look while slicing that damn tomato.”“Ram…” Natatawang kunwaring saway ni Lexie dito. “Seryoso? Kamatis na ang turn on mo ngayon?”“Not the tomato, baby.
Book 2 BLURB"She was his fire. He was her ruin. But what happens when desire turns into obsession?"Lexie Stevens thought she finally had it all, Ram Jordan in her bed, their daughter in her arms, and peace after years of heartbreak. Pero ang tahimik na mundo nila ay nabasag when they took in Addy, a broken girl with dangerous eyes and a twisted need to belong.What started as compassion becomes chaos.Addy wants more than a family, she wants Ram.Now, every touch between Lexie and Ram burns with tension. Every kiss tastes like guilt.They still crave each other, wild, raw, and unrelenting—but the lines between love and destruction are fading fast.In a home filled with secrets, jealousy, and seduction, Lexie must fight not only for Ram… but for herself.Because when another woman wants your man, and he’s too broken to push her away, how far will you go to reclaim your place in his arms?A sinful, scorching tale of lust, betrayal, and the kind of love that ruins you beautifully.CHAR
Hindi malaman ni Lexie kung ilang beses na siyang nagpa ikot-ikot sa living room ng kanyang bahay, nawalan na rin siya ng bilang kung ilang tasa ng kape na ang naubos niya. It’s already been 3 days and Ram Jordan was still in the hospital, and the fact that he still hasn’t regain consciousness is making her anxious, worried. “Lexie, pinuwi ka nga rito para makapag pahinga ka, yet you are here pacing around like some kind of maniac. Will you please calm down?” Sermon sa kanya ng pinsang si Claire habang masama ang tingin sa kanya. “Oh Claire, how am I supposed to calm down, my husband was shot, two times at hanggang ngayon ay wala pa ring ulirat sa ospital, I am worried sick Claire… Ikaw? Ano ang ginagawa mo rito? Weren’t you supposed to be at Amanda’s funeral?” Tanong ni Lexie sa pinsan bago pa bagsak na naupo sa sofa matapos maka ramdam ng pagod, naupo naman sa tabi niya si Claire. “I was, Macy called me, she said she was at the hospital at nag babantay sa tatay niya, she
Hindi pumayag si Lexie na mag paiwan sa bahay nang mag desisyon si Ram na mag tungo agad sa malapit na police station, ganun rin naman si Addy at ang anak nilang si Macy ay nag pupumilit rin na sumama, mabuti na lamang ay napakiusapan ito ni Ram na mag paiwan na dahil masyadong delikado kung maging ang mga bata ay isasama pa nila. Kaya lamang ay mapilit ang anak ni Rafael, wala rin silang nagawa nang mag salita ito, lalo pa at alam rin naman ni Lexie na may point rin ang sinasabi nito. ‘I know what happened, I am the only witness here, kung may tao man po kayong kailangan ngayon, ako po iyon. And if you want to have my evil father punished, I want to be there to witness that, so please let me go with you.’ Those were the exact words she said, even Addy was sitting at the back seat of the car, Lexie could feel her anger, too much anger and she knew that is not safe, not for a child, like Adalia. Lexie slowly leaned forward to Ram who was driving quietly, funny how none of them dar
“How are you feeling?” Ram Jordan asked as he wrapped his arm around her waist, sandali pang napa buntong hininga ni Lexie saka ngumiti bago sumagot. “Tired, gusto kong mag pahinga sandali.” “Lex, I know you are tired, I made you feel tired, what I am asking is how are you? Are you in pain?” He whispered through her ear, Lexie smiled after she figured that Ram wasn’t asking her about how tired she was after the sex, he was asking her how she actually feels, and she would bet it was about her cousin Amanda. Muli pang nag pilit ng ngiti si Lexie bago umikot ng higa paharap sa asawa, mabilis niya ring iniyakap ang mga braso rito saka muling bumuntong hininga. “I would be lying if I will say I am fine, I feel sad Ram, devastated, mad.. Amanda and I never had the best relationship as cousins but we sure did shared the best memories together, hindi man kami kasing close tulad ni Claire, but I can say Amanda could still be one of the best family I have.” Pabulong na kwento ni Lexie,