Buzz buzz buzz
6:15
Alarm.
Seriously, I was out last night. As my head hit the pillow I probably started to snore.
I was so tired. It was such a long day.
Buzz buzz buzz
6:20
Alarm.
Let's get dressed. Jump out off bed.
Breakfast's in thirty minutes. I got a lot of make-up to put on my face today to try to conceal those bags and darkness under my eyes.
I'm dressing simple today. Skinny black jeans, ripped over my knees and under my butt. Red tank top. Black wedge boots. Black satin duster jacket.
A black choker and my hair down straight.
Smokey eyes and red lipstick.
Grab my black tote bag. I didn't even took anything out yesterday. Well, I got no time.
Run downstairs and literally swallow the breakfast.
7:00
"Sorry mom. It was the make-up." I say while eating.
"Slow down. You have to eat properly. He'll wait 5 minutes. He won't die." My mom laughs.
"You're right." I smiled.
"Okay, so are you ready to go to school right away?" She asks.
"Yeah mom. I'm fine. You know... at least me and my friends are together in this... happening." I explain.
"That's right. You can talk to them, but if you need to, you can also talk to me. The woman that carried you in her womb. You know?"
"I know. Thank you. See you later." I kiss her and run outside.
I see the Land Rover parking.
"On time. Impressive." He says when I slide inside the vehicle.
"I know, right?" I joke.
"Did you sleep well?"
"Yeah. Like a rock." I answer.
"Me too. You look great today, that sleep did you wonders."
If only he knew...
"Thanks. I see you are yet again in a t-shirt."
"Well, it's warm enough."
"Humm humm." I look outside deep in thoughts.
"What are you thinking about?"
"How do you think a wild animal got inside the Diner and murdered those women?" I asked him.
"I have no idea, Ziig. All I can tell you is that it smelled weird. Like a stray dog, but worse." He solemnly tells me.
"A stray dog... odd." I rumble.
"I've missed you. I lost part of me when I went to Canada." He says with sadness in his voice.
"What? Come on... I bet you lured half of those girls to your bed, wolfie."
He laughed "Well, not half. Three quarters at least..."
"Ugh. Disgusting... " I made a face.
"What? I'm kidding. I'm an one mate for life kind of guy." He confessed.
I chuckle "Yeah. Yeah."
"Whatever..." He says rolling his eyes.
I returned to my thoughts and started to notice my heart rate increased. I tried to breath deeply to calm myself.
"What's wrong?" He says stopping the car.
"Nothing. I don't know." I said.
"Z, I can hear your heart racing and your lungs are not responding as they should." He says exiting the vehicle.
"What?" I simply reply.
He opens my door, take my safety belt off and picks me up, taking me in his lap.
The fresh air hits me.
He was holding me almost like a baby.
"Calm down. You are just having a panic attack. Calm down. Just listen to my voice."
I nod and try to do as he says.
"You are fine. This is nothing. You are safe."
"I am?" I ask.
"Yes. I'll rather die before someone hurt you. Including that Cole prick that cheats on you in a stupid party."
"Calm down, Ogi. You're temperature is increasing. Wait. What?"
We are literally in the middle of nowhere.
I got up and start pacing.
"What did you just said?" I asked.
He just stood there. With a concerned look on his face.
I started to list every odd situation I have witnessed in the last day and an half.
"You are always warm and when stressed or mad, burning. One.
You listened to my conversation with Cole Cook, from the other side of the cafeteria. I remember seeing you, sitting on the basketball team table. Just don't freaking deny it. Two.
You have the ability to capture scents from far away. Three.
You listened to my heart beat and flux of air in my lungs. Four.
You're eyes turn red when you feel threatened or protective of me. Five. You developed an protective instinct over me, that is flat out abnormal. Six. and You never lost your cool after seeing two dead bodies that were probably covered in blood. That's seven.".
I stop and stare at him.
"What are you?" I asked serious as death.
He didn't answer.
"When it happened I was almost twelve." He starts talking.
"I looked at you and I left something different from before. It was not painful at first. Like a little pounding in the back of my skull. Annoying me, but not as painful as it got with the passing of time." He continues.
I was looking at him, like he was telling me I have two heads .
"When that 6th grade ended it was horrible being around you without touching you. The physical pain was... astonishing. I made the mistake to tell my father. We moved the next day." He finishes talking.
"What are you talking about?"
I chuckle " Why would you need to touch me?"
He stiffened "You are my mate. In order to function... We need to become one."
"Mate? Become one?" I laughed "What happened in Canada? Did they brainwashed you?"
"Ziigwan, don't mock our ways."
"Our ways?"
"How many times did you kiss my cheek in the last day and an half? Or touched my arm or my shoulder or my back?" He asks.
"What?" I'm adrift.
"How many times you touched another person in the last day and an half?"
"I think I hugged Molly...and I probably kissed my mom..." I tried to remember.
"How much you want to be in my arms right now?" He defies me.
"Don't be like that... come on." I snap at him.
"Just be truthful." He says.
I shrugged my shoulders and stayed silent.
He's right. I've been trying to throw him to any girl that is not me. Hoping I would feel different about him.
"Fine. Maybe I find you attractive. But you are literally a God figure. How am I suppose to ignore all that? It's ridiculous." I puffed.
"Well, thank you." He gives on of his winning smiles.
"Please... That doesn't mean that we're... mates!? What are we? Animals that mate for life?" I ask rolling my eyes.
"Yes."
I chuckle "How am I suppose to believe that?"
"We got to go. Otherwise we'll be late." He says returning to the car.
I followed.
"It's 7:45. Shit." I sigh.
"We'll make it. Hold on to something." He says and he speeds a little.
"That is why you call me your queen, sometimes? Star. Dancing star..." I asked.
"You are my queen and my little flower, my star, my light, my hope, my dreams. You have no idea what was like for me not be able to see you for five years.
At least not seeing eased the physical pain..."
"This is totally twilight zone stuff. I just can't... I don't know... It's just too unbelievable... I mean, come on. You were twelve. What did you know?" I rumble.
"My body knew. My little wolf knew."
"Oh My Gosh. Seriously? Are you going to tell me that the Great Spirits chose you to carry on with the Wolf and pass it to your children? Are you changing to wolf next weeks Thursday night, because you know .. full moon and all..." I mocked.
"You'll see." He says dryly.
"Okay. I'll be waiting then."
We made it. Don't know how but we passed the gates at 8:02.
Barely making on time, but we made it.
No one would blame us. Not really. Everyone knew what happened yesterday. Molly and Tiffany were missing school today.
That meant that Mr. My-Mate, sat with me in all the classes today. And at lunch.
Katie, Britney and I sat with the boys today. Considering yesterday events... I guess we needed someone that was there.
Logan was paler than usual.
"Are you okay Logan?" I asked.
"Yeah. I'm dealing. And King? What do you think?" He asks almost whispering.
"He's fine. He's really strong, you know, being raised as he was. And I was a little too. He's really strong. I hope you overcome this quickly, Logan. I've always though you're a good person. You'll push through." I smiled briefly, hoping I was encouraging.
"Yes. I know I will. Thanks for saying that anyway." He replied.
"Ogi," I unconsciously put my hand on his arm "can we talk after school?" I ask him, whispering almost inaudible.
He nodded.
"I'm sorry. I don't mean to be rude, I swear, but why do you call King, Ogi? Yesterday... you know... in the Diner you called him that and I was just wondering..." said Katie. She is so funny.
"Ogimaa means Chief, leader or King in Ojibwe. His name is Ogimaa Binesi. That translated to King Thunderbird." I explain her.
"Oh. That's something. Wow. That's so cool." Katie was smiling like a dork.
"Unfortunately I am not as good as I used to be. But when I was a kid I talked Ojibwe pretty fluently. He was always better than me, though." I chuckled.
"Well, it's mandatory for me. You learned because it happened." Ogi stated.
I rolled my eyes. Punching his shoulder.
Shit. Two touches in 2 minutes.
He's right... great. My heart starts to race.
"Ogimaakwe, are you okay?" He asks me.
"It's..." I say.
"I'll take you outside." He says, pulling me up.
"Calm down. I think you are finally turning. I must have ignited your process with my arrival." He says, as we leave the cafeteria.
"What? Turning what?" I ask.
"Wolf." He dryly reply.
"Ogi, what tha funk are you talking about? That's a Hollywood movie, not real life. Wake up.""Just calm down or else you will act suspicious in front of all these people.""Let just get to next class. I'll be fine by then." I rush past him.The rest of the afternoon went smoothly.It's Wednesday and usually the practice is thougher on hump day. Today was not, well it was business as usual, but strangely it was easier for me.I think I'm faster and don't get that tired. Maybe it's just the adrenaline from recently been a victim of Ogi and life."I'm so hungry. my stomach is eating itself. Urgh." I cry out in the locker room."I would tell you to go to that Diner, but you know..." McKenzie said.McKenzie is that typical bitchy girl, that is always rolling her eyes, saying 'Whatever' and 'Loser', undermining everyone that is, in her mind, a threat."Jeez, McKenzie, you're going to hell for sure..." I snap back."Oh,
"You're on edge..." Ogi tells me when we get to the car."McKenzie... is just... Urgh!""You're afraid that people notice your pull towards me. They all already have. Just stop fighting it.""I have no idea of what you are talking about... I mean. We're friends." I say stoically."Well, we don't need to be more than friends... just you keep lying to yourself and that's when your pain grows. Meaning. I got used to it and manage to function without much-needed closeness, but you... you'll find it an impossible task if you deny it even exists." He tells me calmly."When did you become a philosophy master?" I ask."I had to deal with a lot in the past six years. That's it." He shared."I see. So, how weird it would be if I place my hand in your neck?" I ask afraid of sounding desperate."That's an interesting choice, but okay. I wouldn't be offended. Neither would I look too much into it." He says.I immediately place my lef
Buzz buzz buzz6:15Alarm.Get immediately out of bed. I'm fresh as a leaf today. Guess that nap wrapped in Ogi had some positive effects.Great.What am I wearing today? Oversized white shirt, white skinny jeans. Camel cardigan and ankle boots. Wavy beach hair, light make-up but purple lipstick. Purple tote bag.I think I've overdone it today, but I don't care. I love it.Me: Can you come inside? I'm a tiny, little late. Sorry!Ogi: O.k.. C'ya soon.And I'm freaking late. Urgh!7:00"Mom, I'm late." I yell, descending the stairs."I know. Sit down.""Ogi is already here." I smile."And got some awful news." My mom adds."Indeed. I was just telling Mrs. Woods that Sheriff called my father last night to inform that a person that was found dead in Covill motel. it's a man, late 50's. Animal attack." He says."Oh my. That's terrible. Horrible news. What is going on? Rabies?"
"Ogimaa, you had six years to get used to it. I'm seventeen and thought I knew all it was there to know about myself. I'm sorry if this is not easy for me to swallow." I pause " I don't even know if you're not having a psychotic episode and I'm getting convinced of something that is not real."He starts to come back to the car and strip his clothes."Shit." I let out "what if someone sees?""If you don't believe it yourself, even with your family background... Do you think a tourist will believe his or her eyes?""No." I simply reply.He was only with boxers shorts.I don't think anybody is around here anyways. This is a pretty remote access to the woods and the car is really close to the trees."Okay. Here goes nothing." He declares "Take the car keys, my flower."I run to his side and store the keys inside one of my many pockets, zipping it."Okay, just let me kiss you first."I look up to him and
"Your mate was born on a snow moon and Great Spirits Moon. First full moon of the year. He's not white, is he?" My father asked as it was nothing."He's dark brown, almost black. And you?" I ask with shaking hands and voice."I'm plain grey. Like the wonderful Canis Lupus. Just bigger. We thought you wouldn't be like me, since your mom is not Anishinaabe. Looks like she is. Not pure of course, but not as far as it looks." He pause " Pure was an awful word to use. I'm sorry my love." And kisses my mom's hand."That's why we're only having this conversation now?""Yes. Until now, you didn't need to know." He answers "Your mom told me 5 or 6 years ago that little wolf was acting strange. I told her who he was. She also expressed concern about you and him. I wrongly dismissed any imprinting on you. I thought you didn't have enough Anishinaabe blood to be his mate.""Both Grandma and Grandpa are Chippewa descendants, I didn't know that." My mom adds.
"Look. We have super abilities. I'm not joking. We literally can smell every component of that amazing shampoo that you usually use. Sometimes you switch to another, more like a pine tree meets an orange scent. I can see your blood passing through your veins, in your neck, in your wrists. I can hear your lungs and the air entering and exiting. Your heart beating. I can see a gap in your third and fourth right upper teeth and other things that I don't have to tell you."I ruminate on that. "So you have to focus on what you want and ignore the rest. If you are not trained...""She lost it. Probably don't even know what to do. Acting only by instinct. Instinct of a wolf that was born a month ago. This is a mess." He concludes."I don't want to be a mess..." I say sad."You won't be a mess. Not even a hot mess. You were born wolf. You just didn't know. Besides you got me to help you."*-*-*-*-*-*-*Covill is a small t
"I heard that the men that was killed in Covill was a regular client. Is this true? " Hunter asked Tiffany."Yes, known player. He was married and lived in Croftville." Tiffany said.Croftville is another small and unorganized community that is located 3 miles northeast of the city of Grand Marais."Was the wife with him?" I ask."The mistress was with him." She implies.Any connection with the women working at the Diner? I wonder."Animal attack?" Ogi asks."Mrs. Clarkson said that the blood was everywhere." Tiffany says with a sad look on her face."Okay guys. Let's talk about Homecoming Dance and Spirit Week. It is in two weeks. I'm head of the committee. Again and I need help. Any ideas? Theme? Pranks? " I ask."Actually. Spirit Week will mark the beginning of Basketball games, with our game." Cole Cook says " We, man are going to take care of Spirit Week, including the traditional picnic, pep rally and the bonefire.
"That backyard will be for ceremonies and celebrations? You know I won't host a pow wow in my house."He laughs "No. The ways will be the same. You know that you'll be hosting it. Shut up. Just not on that backyard. That will be for us to express our love... you'll see.""I'm sorry for being shocked. I shouldn't.""Calm down. You have until graduation." He smiled " If it was 50 years ago, we were walking into a broken, poor and highly discriminated tribe. We are blessed, Ogimaakwe. And I know that you will be the one I'll look up to everyday. Sharing my life, heart and tradition.""We'll get there when we get there. Just don't impregnate me with your thoughts." I laugh."Not scientifically possible, but I can try...""Shut up." I chuckle, kissing his cheek "let's visit the store where that woman works. Ok?""Okay. I'll be right back." He says getting up to pay.He looks better everyday. Damn!
Fortunately everyone said exactly the same thing and Logan was with me when I entered the kitchen area, so it was fast to take everyone's statement of the happening.I told Ziigwan to call her mom, she was probably getting worried about the fact that she's not home.I called my mom. She told me that she was going to meet Mrs. Woods at her house to calm her down. I guess not having her husband in town and her daughter being at a crime site would do that to a person."Okay, mom, I love you." She tells her mom before hanging up.
The basketball practice was awesome and any stressful stares or glances died on the court.We are a team. No matter what. In that basketball court we are a team.I'm taking forever taking my shower. I need to clear my head of all the carnal thoughts about her.I stand under the freezing water, steaming when it hits my burning skin, sending vapour to the air.I feel rejuvenated and fresh as a spring leaf.
"Piece of Cake. We even have first period together. Come on, Wolfie let's ignite rumours. You look hot and have no zits on your face." She jokes."Yeah." I simply said.Everyone was looking at us. At her obviously because of her look. At me because I am new and I am walking with her."Zig." I heard a girl call her."Come meet the girls" she tells me, dragging me.
It was a bust. When I got there it was nine pm and she was just laying in her bed in her phone. I could listen to her breathing and heart beat.I returned to my parents house and try to get some sleep. I slept like a pup.At seven was at her house craving to see her. I was talking to Mrs. Woods and trying to calm her about my driving skills when I hear her trotting those stairs."Mom, can we go see Jessica this weekend..." She yells.And ap
It's finally September and today is the first day of school. It's too hot, but I know that no one but me is wearing just a t-shirt and jeans.Civilians are always cold.At least I am living as south as I ever heve for the last five years.It's time to prepare my mate for the next-generation of our Band.Haven't seen her in two years. She was beautiful in her room dancing to a stupid pop song. She d
The Ceremony was beautiful. The speeches too.Cole Cook talked about coming together as a community and learning from each other.The Dean was proudly saying that the problem we had last year with drug use was finally eradicated.I just remind everyone of th
Grand Marais Gunflint Water Tower at GunFlint trail.Again and this time literally in the forest. No houses around the Tower, only half a mile away and the tall trees block any noise."Fourth killed by a animal attack..." Ogi adds.We're in his c
I would like to say that we didn't hook up.I would like to but I can't because we did hook up.Stupid inner wolf. This time was deeper. I felt loved. Passion and loved.He made it on purpose. He's sneaky.
Ogimaa Binesi called and texted several times and I ignored him a little.I searched for Eric West online. I got a lot of people, but not him.It's a popular name.The guy intrigued me. I won't lie.