DESTINY
Mrs. Donahue came upstairs to look for me. I must have looked a sight, because she took one look at me and demanded to call the doctor.
“No, please, Mrs. Donahue. I’ll be fine. I just had some bad reaction to the pizza we had last night. Or it might have been the beer.”
“Hmm….” She felt my forehead. “No fever. Well, then. What you need is some proper food. No wonder you pick up all sorts of bugs, eating al lot of shite.” She tut-tutted, “Such a shame about Lord Barrington, poor dear. Working himself to death, he is.”
“We visited with him last night. He is recovering.”
“Well, thank the good Lord for that, eh. Well, I’ll not bother ye. Ye rest up, Lass. I will make you some chicken broth, perk ye right up.” Her smile made her round cheeks look like little red apples. She left and I snuggled down under the covers.
My phone dinged and I grabbed it to see who was texting me. Of course, it was James.
‘Hey Sugar, just want to know if you feel better. XXX.’
I texted back. ‘I’m fine. Mrs. Donahue is making me some soup.’
‘You’re in good hands then. C u soon.’
I started to text back, ‘Luv u’ then I deleted it and wrote ‘K’ instead. Love you. Oh my God! What is wrong with me. No, it was just a reflex I didn’t mean it. Thank goodness I stopped myself before sending it. What would he have texted back though?
***
“Well, happy to see you’ve made a recovery, dearie.” Mrs. Donahue said watching me eat her broth with her small hands folded across her rounded belly.
“It’s lovely, thank you, Mrs. Donahue.” I felt better after a long nap and a hot bath.
“You sure it’s just something you ate, Lass?” she smiled, winking at me. “Couldn’t be a little bun in the oven, if I may be so bold to say?”
What? I dropped the spoon into the bowl, feeling suddenly sick to my stomach all over again. No, no, it couldn’t be. James assured me he had a vasectomy. I wanted to slap myself. He could have lied. Would he lie about it?
“No, no that’s impossible, Mrs. Donahue,” I faked a laugh. Oh, he’d better be telling the truth.
“If you say so, Lass.” She smiled to herself and went about cleaning the kitchen.
***
I wanted to confront James right away to show me the proof that he indeed had a vasectomy, but the moment he walked through the door, he looked so miserable, I couldn’t.
“Bad day at the office?” I followed him through to the entertainment room where he poured himself a double.
“You want one?” he offered.
I shook my head, not wanting to upset my stomach any further.
“I guess it depends on how you look at it.” He sighed as he plonked down onto the couch, swirling the ice around in the glass. “But nothing to worry about, Sugar. Are you feeling better?”
“Umm…. Yes, I’m fine. Mrs. Donahue cooked up a storm today. Your dinner is in the oven. I’ve already eaten.” I added quickly, because to tell the truth I was starting to feel a bit green.
“Have you heard news from the hospital?”
“I went there before coming home. He looks better. Already arguing with the doctor to discharge him.” James sipped his drink. “If he knew what was good for him, he’d stay there a bit longer. At least it will give me time to sort out the mess.”
“Oh, that sounds bad.”
“Just some trouble with the finances. I need to go through some financial reports.”
“And here I thought you were just a wild, biker playboy.”
“I have a degree in finance. Boring stuff, Sugar.” He pulled a face.
I looked at my feet, feeling suddenly stupid. “Wow. I didn’t even finish school.”
“Really? Why not?” He looked surprised.
“After Mum left my dad was a mess. I dropped out to get work.” There was no point in keeping it from him.
James shook his head. “Unfair to you, Sugar. Parents are supposed to look after their kids, not the other way around.”
“I couldn’t just leave him.” I remembered how pitiful he was, but he was still my Daddy. “He’s my family.”
“You could still finish school. If you want. I’ll help you.” He put his glass down and pulled me closer. “Instead of working, rather study. You could be whatever you want to be, Destiny.” His face so close to mine had the softest expression and in that moment, I loved him so, so much there was no denying it. I was in love with James Barrington.
***
I went to bed early and James stayed up late in his study. When I woke up, I noticed he hadn’t slept in the bed and being worried I got up to check on him. But as soon as my feet hit the floor I was overcome with a wave of dizziness and nausea. The room spun around me like a crazy carousel, and I staggered towards the bathroom.
I barely made it to the toilet. Seconds later I became aware of James hovering over me.
“Again? I am calling the doctor.”
Before I could protest, he was gone. Mrs. Donahue’s words revolved in my head, a little bun in the oven. No, please no. I can’t be pregnant. I am too young to be a mother. I’ll be a terrible mother. I had no role model.
He was back a few minutes later. I was crying, sitting on the cold tile floor, next to the toilet, such a pretty picture.
“James, what if I am pregnant?” I wailed, totally mortified.
James shook his head, “Don’t be ridiculous. I told you it wouldn’t be possible.” He helped me to my feet, “You’ve just caught something, Sugar.”
“Are you sure? You didn’t lie to me?” I sniffed loudly.
“I can show you the proof, if that makes you feel better?” He smiled, handing me a tissue. “I’m taking you to our family doctor, Dr. Levi. He’s been the Barrington’s physician since I can remember.”
“That doesn’t make me feel any better.” I blew my nose and handed the tissue back to him. Holding the tissue with two fingers, he dropped it into the waste basket.
Sugar Dumpling, you have nothing to worry about.” James kissed my forehead. I hoped he was right.
***
Dr. Levi was as old as I expected. He had a kind face with a bulbous nose that spoke of his love for alcohol. But his eyes were sharp and clear, like a ferret’s.
“So, what seems to be the problem, young Mr. Barrington? I believe this is your lovely wife?” His hands were cold, but his grip was firm.
“I believe my lovely wife caught a bug on our honeymoon.” James grinned at him.
The old man peered at me, lifting one grey eyebrow. “Nausea and dizziness? Especially in the mornings, Ma’am?”
I nodded, too scared to say a word. He chuckled and scribbled something in the file they opened for me at reception. “I believe we need to do a pregnancy test, Mr. Barrington.”
“Pardon?” James’ face went a shade lighter. I wanted to sink into the floor.
“Yes, well, it’s not uncommon for newlyweds.”
James laughed, “I don’t think it would be possible. I had a vasectomy two years ago.”
The doctor offered him a shrug. “Anything is possible but let us do the test and we will go from there. Shall we?” He extended his arm towards the door for me to walk through.
***
The wait was killing me. James sat silent like Stone Henge. My brain played different scenarios over and over. James taking my child (if there was one) after three years and kicking me out. Then there was the other scenario; what if Jenna’s baby was really James’ and not Lord Barrington’s? What if James didn’t want a baby? Would he force me to have an abortion? I started hyperventilating and another bout of nausea brought me to my knees just as the doctor stepped back into the consulting room.
“Sorry, so sorry.” I couldn’t stop apologizing for throwing up into the doctor’s waste basket. I grabbed a handful of tissues from his desk to wipe my face.“It’s quite alright, my dear. I’ll give you a shot for your nausea.” The doctor was sympathetic, unlike James who looked terrified.“Doctor, what is wrong with my wife?” James clutched the armrest of the chair, looking like a man expecting a death sentence.“Well, let me put it this way. I have bad news or good news, depending on the way you look at it.” The doctor frowned while scribbling something in my file.“What?” What kind of answer was that? Was I pregnant or not?“Doctor Levi, is she pregnant or not?” James leaned forward in his chair while I huddled in mine.“Like I said, good or bad. Mrs. Barrington is not pregnant.” Dr. Levi looked up from his notes.“Oh, well that’s a blessing.” James made no effort to hide his relief. “What is it then?”I had mixed feelings. But James was surely pleased.“There’s this new bout of flu
JAMESMy father was back at work. Of course, against his doctor’s orders. I didn’t want him back at work either, but James Barrington the second never listened to anyone. He called me into his office.“James, I have something to tell you.” he said as I sat opposite him.“Please tell me you called off the engagement.” One could only wish.He shook his head. “No, we will be married in December.” We were in the month of August. Four months to go. I wondered how far along Jenna’s pregnancy was.“Any more bad news?” I leaned back in my chair, hands behind my head. I still had to tell him that someone was skimming money off of our company.He chose to ignore my comment. “I’ve offered Jenna a percentage in the company’s shares.”“You did what?” I tipped the chair back with a jolt. “Why would you do that? You don’t even know if that child is yours.”“We will have a paternity test done. We also need your DNA, James.” The way he pierced me with those blue eyes, like I was the one to blame. He w
DESTINYOh, my God! Did James just say that? Am I going nuts? He pressed my fingers so hard I had tears in my eyes. Goddammit James, why were you lying to your family? Every time he opened his mouth!“Really?” Grandfather looked at us with wide eyes.“Yeah, we just found out. Today.” James lied smoothly without batting an eye.My father had tears in his eyes when he turned his face to me. “My girl…” He reached for my hand to pat it between his two rough ones.I wanted to kick James under the table, but I was next to him, so it was difficult without drawing attention to ourselves.“I guess we have to congratulate you then.” Tiffany said seemingly cheerfully, but her face was cold.“Thank you.” I wrangled the words past my lips.“So, does this mean our baby is going to be your baby’s aunt or uncle, James? Or maybe… siblings.” She laughed and I wanted to throw a knife at her, but my father was holding one hand and James the other one.“Congratulations, James. How far along are you, Dest
JAMESOffense has and always will be my best defense. I’ve fucked up. Royally. And she was spitting mad, like a little kitten, cute, but her claws were damned sharp.“Sit your ass down there.” I slapped the counter, I had my boss face on, but she wasn’t scared of me.She hopped on the counter, glaring daggers at me. Her knees were badly scraped, but I was more concerned about her hands.“What the fuck were you thinking running off like that? You could have been killed.” I was laying it on thick.“James.”I took out the first-aid box from under the counter and placed it next to her. Damn it, her palms were dirty and bleeding. “I should take you to get a tetanus shot. Look at this mess.” I disinfected her hands and wiped them gently with cotton balls. She didn’t even flinch.“James.”“What?!” I snapped at her, pretending to be angry. I wanted to avoid the issue of the fake pregnancy. What the hell was I thinking.“Why the fuck did you lie about my being pregnant? You’d better tell me r
DESTINYI couldn’t sleep, rolling around on the bed, twisting the covers around my legs. Eventually I just gave up. James was in my head. Damn him! I was such an idiot! Every time he looked at me, I just caved in.What was I going to do? I got myself into this mess by agreeing to his stupid contract in the first place. Because I felt I owed him. But he looked after me, like no one else had in my entire life. He was the only one, despite his selfishness. And I was in love with him. The simple truth.“Oh, Destiny, you are so pathetic!” I told my reflection. “Just because he looks after you, doesn’t mean he loves you. He is using you. Like everybody else.”But still…I fell back onto the bed and pressed a pillow over my face. So, now I am considering giving him a baby. My child. Am I worse than my mother? She left me for a rich man to be raised by an alcoholic father.James said he won’t let me abandon my child. How can I believe him when all he does is lie?Will he discard me after he g
JAMESFather stumbled away from me but regained his balance fast. “You’re going to regret this, Son. You always do.” He nodded at Destiny. “Be smart. Take the money and run.”“I don’t need you to manage my life. I am done. Destiny and I will manage.” I held out my hand to her. She was pale as milk, and at that moment I felt like crashing my fist into his face for shaking her up like that. She looked like she was about to faint. But she took my hand, and I pulled her in underneath my arm.My father whom I thought loved me unconditionally, straightened his jacket and tie, brushed off his lapels like I had sullied them somehow, said to me, “We’ll talk again when everything falls to shit around you.” He had to have the last word in, like always.I chose to ignore him. With one last disappointed look at me, he turned on his heel and left. Minutes later I heard his limo drive off. Good fucking riddance.“Fuck! Can you believe it!” It’s not even mid-afternoon yet and I needed a drink after
DESTINYDespite what I told James earlier, I was scared. Scared that I wouldn’t be a good mother. Scared that James would drop me. Scared that his father would follow through on his threat to take the child. The supposed child. I wasn’t even pregnant yet. Maybe the procedure wouldn’t work. What would James do then? Would he let me go? That thought terrified me the most.I was so in love with him. But he didn’t love me. I know he told me he loved me on our wedding day, but that was just to get me to agree to go through with it. That was the problem with James, he was so used to lying, I doubt he even realized that he was a pathological liar.Looking at him, sleeping like an innocent next to me while I was wide-awake, one would never say he was the wild Billionaire playboy people made him out to be. I stroked his dark brown hair away from his brow, gazing at his handsome face, committing every line to memory as if he could be gone in the morning. Tracing the lines of his dragon tattoo o
JAMES“Hello, Mother.” Destiny said.Damn! Her mother was a fox! I couldn’t believe my eyes. Now I understood where Destiny got her amazing looks and body from. Sure as hell not from her old man.“And who is this gorgeous man at your side, baby?” Aurora smiled broadly at me. She had large green eyes, lighter than Destiny’s and they looked me over like I was some snack, and she was starving.“James, James Barrington. Destiny’s husband.” I said and just touched her hand briefly. This woman was trouble with a capital T. “And who is this handsome lad?” I smiled down at the surly looking boy who to my estimation couldn’t have been more than three or four. He hid behind his mother’s leg.“Married? Why don’t I know anything about it!” her voice rose an octave and onlookers started to gape at us.I didn’t want to draw too much attention to us. Heaven knows I’ve had enough publicity. “Let’s take this to the coffee shop on the other side of the pier.” I suggested, and fuck if Destiny didn’t gla