HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW
All day long, Hendrix continues to get on my nerves. He’s mad we’re not taking the lead in the Cadet Program this year. He’s mad I’m “wasting my time” studying biochemistry instead of leading our people. He’s mad I’m not Alpha yet. He’s mad I’m not mated yet. He’s mad I’m not there welcoming the Cadets on their arrival. He’s mad I’m thinking in a human way. He’s mad I’m thinking too loudly. He might as well be mad I’m breathing.
In previous years, while I was in college, I was able to take a more prominent role in the Program. Hendrix was very happy with that. Both of us are really passionate about improving the quality of life in Ghost Pack, and the Cadet Program is one way to do that. But, as a grad student, I’ll be less involved in the next few years.
Within our territory, unbeknownst to most humans, we have a thriving town. We host a couple family-run markets, restaurants showcasing the cultural diversity in our pack, a small movie theater, apparel stores, bakeries, a dance studio, cafés, bookstores, accounting offices, a law firm run by Mom… whatever you’re looking for, you’ll likely find it there. And whoever is running those places, they are likely a former Cadet putting their college degree to use. Using their college degree in the pack’s benefit.
Whatever you can’t find within the pack, you will 100% be able to find in Waterloo, the closest human city. Our pack is great. Or maybe I’m biased because it’s MY pack…
“Nope, we’ve traveled elsewhere, our pack really is a very good one,” Hendrix says.
He’s not the rational one in our duo, but I love using him as validation for my own not-so-rational thoughts. Ah, the perks of being Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde!
“The perks of being a werewolf!” He corrects me.
In addition to those places, we have institutions run by the pack itself. Gym, training center, schools, pool, daycare, library, hospital, you name it – and they’re all very good.
I had a great experience at Ghost Pack Elementary and Ghost Pack Middle School, but they’re small community schools. My horizons really started to broaden when I went to boarding school in Toronto for high school, instead of attending Ghost Pack High.
Building a college within our territory was one of Father’s dreams. My time in Toronto got me hyped up about it, too. So Sandy Hills College was a collective effort of myself, Father, Grandfather, and Olivier. Its name honors the ones who gave their lives to protect our pack in the war.
Before SHC, pack members would attend college in the nearby human cities. SHC also helped improve the Cadet Program. Logistically, long commutes, clashing class schedules, and paying tuition to several schools wasn’t too great. So, in the seven years since SHC was established, the Program has improved tremendously.
Hendrix is so proud of it, preening like a damn peacock, pointing out how he’s a great Alpha looking after his pack. He forgets it’s mostly MY brainchild, but whatever.
“We are one.” He rolls his eyes.
Of course, as a wolf, Hendrix is really into the training part. That’s what he cares about the most, that we’re training warriors to defend our pack.
I keep telling him we’re at peace and surrounded by allies. The three closest packs to us are even ruled by other people in the Temple family, we’re all second cousins, for crying out loud!
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After my lab hours and a brief chat with Dr. Tremblay, I drive back to the territory.
Everyone at the Pack House is very excited about the welcoming dinner, especially the kids.
The Small Hall is, despite its name, a large dining room where we hold events and host people. We use it when we have visiting Alphas or business partners. But, growing up, my favorite thing about it was when Father would invite people over.
He has the habit of inviting random pack members for dinner at least twice a week. This way, I got to meet construction workers, teachers, business owners, cops, welders… It was part of my training, because I got to learn about how different parts of the pack are run, and it was also a character-forming experience. An Alpha needs to know and respect his people.
He still does that, because my siblings and some of the Beta’s, Gamma’s, and Delta’s children are still young. For the last two years, Rhys and Olivier have been attending.
Anyway, having dinner at the Small Hall is a great event and a huge honor for pack members. Every year since the Cadet Program started, they have been welcomed by all the ranked wolves with this event.
As the Luna, Daphne was the one who planned the décor and the menu and all the small details that make the usually dull Small Hall look like a fancy gala venue today.
There are five tables, which will soon be filled by the five members of each cohort, and their generals. Except for Savannah, who is a general this year but, as the Alpha’s daughter’s mate – woosh, that was a mouthful – will be sitting with all the ranked wolves at the table on the dais.
I’m wearing a grey suit, a white shirt, and black shoes. No tie for me.
Everyone else is in suits and gowns, while Sav is wearing a jumpsuit. Our table is huge, as it has to accommodate a total of 26 people, including all ranked members, their mates, their children, plus Rhys and Olivier. Delta Linda’s oldest son, Isaac, is a new Cadet this year, so he’ll be at the regular tables with his peers.
Right now, in the dressing room right behind the Small Hall, I can hear the Cadets’ excited giggles and “aws”. I smile. I’m happy they’re having a good time. I can only hope their entire Cadet Program will be a good experience for them.
Once we get the mind link saying all Cadets and generals are seated, we enter the hall. Hendrix is hopping around in my head. I’m standing by Father’s side, as the Cadets clap.
I feel something in my chest. My breathing goes ragged.
My nose is filled with an enchanting, seducing, drool-worthy scent of barbecue and grass. Like a hangout at the park with friends and family. Like a warm, fuzzy embrace. Like heaven.
My mind goes hazy, and my knees go weak.
Get a grip, Holden.
I look through the tables below me, searching for the source of this enticing smell.
And I see her.
The most beautiful woman I have ever seen.
She has long, dark brown hair curled to perfection, and she’s wearing a blue, tight-fitting gown. She turns her head and looks at me.
I see a hazel storm in her eyes.
Her mouth opens in an O shape, and I can hear her heartbeat spiking up.
We lock eyes.
Get a grip, Holden.
“Mate!” Hendrix and I say, in unison. I mentally pat myself on the back for saying it only to her in the mind link. Her connection is weak.
“Mate!” She says back.
Then I see the lankiest blonde surfer wannabe in the world lean in to whisper in her ear.
Father is already giving his welcome speech and I don’t want to make a scene.
Okay, I want to make a scene. I want to cross the hall in long strides, to yank the kid away from my mate, and to kiss her in front of everybody. I want to pick her up and carry her to the dais so she can be in her rightful place, by my side, as my Luna.
“Do it!” Hendrix says.
Instead, I growl at her in the mind link. Father seems to feel it, though, as he side-eyes me.
“Mine!” I snarl, to her ears only.
She stiffens and visibly distances herself from the kid. Good.
The guy looks up at me and back at her. He seems to understand what’s going on, as he gives me a huge, irritating grin. I want to punch that grin off his face. He raises his palms up, in surrender.
“Who’s this kid? Let’s kill him!” Hendrix growls.
I look around. Everything seems to be going normally, no one else seems to have noticed our interaction. Except for Father, who shoots me a glance every now and then, as he continues his speech.
To my right, Nick raises a questioning brow.
“Later,” I tell him in the mind link.
Now, what? I have to wait until dinner is over to get to her. I have to play my role as the future Alpha.
“Fuck the dinner, let’s have a snack!” Hendrix says.
“Couldn’t agree more,” I mumble.
My eyes run quickly through the hall. Then I see it. The washroom
“Excuse yourself to the ladies’ room after the speech,” I tell her. I try to sound calm. I don’t. I sound like my heart is exploding. And it just might be.
She gives me the briefest of nods.
And now, I wait.
***PLEASE NOTE THAT HOLDEN REFERS TO FELIX AS "HE" BECAUSE THEY HAVE NEVER SPOKEN AND FELIX PRESENTS IN A MORE MASCULINE WAY***
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW As we get ready for the welcoming dinner, Felix, Xenia, and I get to know each other a bit better. It turns out Xenia’s father was born and raised here in Ghost Pack, then met his mate in Sol de Luna Pack, in Puerto Rico. The two of them lived there, and that’s where Xenia grew up. As the child of a Ghost Pack member, she was allowed to apply to the Cadet Program and decided to do so. She tried out FOUR TIMES and only now got accepted. She said she wasn’t the greatest at fighting, but she worked her ass off and made it. If she’s been accepted into the Program, that means she has to be good. And her commitment to it, training and trying out for four years? She’s definitely going to be an asset in this “not a competition” thing. I didn’t ask her about her glasses, though. I thought it would be rude. But I will figure it out. “Add that to the ever-growing list of things we need to learn about Wolfkind,” I tell Jamie. “Yes, ma’am,” she jokes. Felix grew
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW This should be the grandest moment of my life, because this awesome ass dinner is being thrown in my honor, in honor of all new Cadets. I should be giddy with excitement because I’m about to listen to Alpha Michael III welcoming me and thanking me for my service. I’m about to drink from his blood and pledge allegiance to his pack. My pack. I’m about to be part of a pack, the one thing I’ve always wanted. Instead, this is the grandest moment of my life and I’m giddy with excitement because mate mate mate mate mate mate. Mate! I don’t need to guess who my mate is. I don’t need anyone to tell me who my mate is. I can tell by his striking resemblance to Alpa Michael III and to the woman Felix called Alice. I can tell by his posture. I can tell by his huge ass aura. Oh, Goddess, his huge ass aura. Does he have a huge ass cock to match? Does he have A HUGE ASS? He’s perfect. I am Luna. I am Luna. I am Luna. I’m not only about to be part of a pack, but
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW “See ya!”?!? What the hell was that? Who the hell was that? The last thing I wanted to do was to say goodbye to him, to leave him. I wanted to mark him and spend the night making babies. What the fuck, Willow? Babies? I don’t want babies! Not now! Everything I’ve ever worked for, and dreamt of, is now just a shadow of an old dream, an empty shell. I wanted to be a great Cadet, to excel at fighting and college. I wanted to carve my spot in this pack, to fulfill my contractual obligations, and to live a regular, happy pack member life. Now, all I want is Holden. And I want him to want me. I desperately want him to want me. I want him to want me for me, not for the bond. I want him to fall in love with me, with who I am as a person. Because of me, not because of the bond. And that is why I left. “He seemed to want us pretty hard,” Jamie mumbles. “Yeah, to fuck. Would he want me as his mate, though?” I ask. “It doesn’t matter what he wants, he IS ou
HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW This wasn’t just the greatest sex of my life, this was the greatest sex in the history of the world. Her pussy felt like an embrace from the Goddess herself. I don’t ever want to come down from this high. The whole ceremony, all I can think about is what I’m going to do to her once it’s done. How I’m going to take her to my room and feast on her juices. How I’m going to bury myself into her over and over, and hear her sweet moans all night long. And then, everything comes crashing down. Everything comes crashing down when, while taking her oath, Willow’s stubborn eyes don’t turn grey, they shine bright yellow at us. I can feel it through the mate bond as the happiness she felt from the pack link shatters when she taps into my feelings. Does she think I don’t want her? Wait, do I want her? Of course, I want her. I need her. I want her so bad it’s driving me mad. Willow Katherine Reid. I can’t wait to say her name out loud, to taste it as it rolls off
HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW Nick and Father are waiting for me in his beautifully decorated office. The walls are covered by bookshelves made of blonde wood, and you can tell the books in there aren’t just for decoration. Father sits in his fancy velvet chair behind his behemoth of a desk, while Nick sits with his legs crossed in one of the smaller chairs across from the desk, his foot fidgeting with impatience. “Alpha,” I greet as I enter the room, and both men look at me. Nick’s eyes and sly smirk show amusement, while Father’s eyes show concern and rage. Well, I’m in for a shitshow. “Explain,” Father says impassively. “Which part?” I ask, trying to play dumb. “Is Willow your mate?” Father sighs exasperatedly, running his fingers through his hair. “Yes,” I reply, dryly. “Oooooooooooh,” Nick chimes in. Father gives him a stern look. “Did you mark her?” Father asks. He sounds exhausted. “No,” I say, my voice a bit higher than usual. “Did you do it?” Nick asks, wiggling
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW Once we get to the barracks, I lock myself in yet another washroom and let the waterworks run free. I weep and wail and sob. My mate regrets having sex with me. I met the most handsome man in the world, and we had the best sex of my life. And he regrets it. The one person who was tailor-made to me by the Goddess regrets having sex with me. He doesn’t want me. Fuck knowing me and wanting me for who I am, not even the mate bond is enough for Holden to want me. And I want him so fucking much. “He wants us, Willow,” Jamie whimpers. “He’s just in denial.” “Well, tough luck. If he doesn’t want me, I don’t want him, either,” I say. This mate bond wasn’t even supposed to happen, anyway. I’m on MBS. Cadets have their mate bonds suppressed so they won’t be distracted. Having Holden as a mate would just be a distraction. I’m going to be the best Cadet ever, and I’m going to carve out the life I’ve always dreamed of. There’s no space in my life for a mate who doesn
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW ****RATED R**** As I lay in my bunk bed, a plan starts to form in my head. I’m not giving up on my mate. Not now, not ever. “Hell yeah!” Jamie agrees. The bond is affecting him just as much as it affects me, and he will have to concede eventually. So, I decide to stop being this moping, fearing girl and go back to my confident boss-ass self. I wait for the right time, when everyone else is asleep. I can feel he’s still awake, though, the mate bond really is a gift. “Holden?” I reach him through the mind link. “Willow?” He sounds surprised. His husky voice is a sweet caress. “Yeah. I can’t sleep,” I say. This is weird and uncomfortable. First of all, I’m not used to mind linking anyone else but my parents and my brother. And I’m not at all close enough to Holden to just link him up in the middle of the night. But I’m sure of what I want, and I’m going to be bold and trust this bond. “Me, neither,” he murmurs. “Thinking of me?” I ask in a put-on
HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW This is it. I have all the logical reasons why I can’t be with Willow, and I also have all the logical reasons why I can’t reject her. But I won’t live in limbo forever. I won’t reject her, nor will I mark her. I will dissolve the bond. I have a clear view of the situation. I have a new goal in mind: I’m going to focus even harder on the MBS. I’m going to get Willow’s blood samples from the pack lab, all her stats and results, everything. I’m going to take them to Dr. Tremblay and we’re going to work on it together. We’re going to figure it out, and I’m going to have the perfect variation of the drug and all my problems will be solved. “And unicorns and rainbows and pixie dust,” Hendrix snickers, and I ignore him. The best thing about this plan is that it’ll create a distance between me and Willow. This way, I won’t be influenced by the bond. I’ll have my mind clear, and I’ll be able to focus on my research. I’ll spend even more time at the University
HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW The second I'm out of the Council Room and in the Pack House bunker, fear and anxiety hit me head-on. There is no shame in admitting it, I’d be mad if I weren’t afraid in this situation. Ghost Pack is home to 1,533 werewolves, and this bunker is equipped to house 200 people, with enough food and water to keep them for an entire year. It’s the center of a spider web of underground tunnels leading to several other bunkers, which also have enough room, water, and food. All in all, we can keep our 1,533 pack members and an extra 200 safe and fed should we need to. The ghost of the Siege of Sandy Hills looms large over us, so we’ve prepared for it in the last 60 years. We’re ready to stand natural disasters, bombs, nuclear attacks, radiation, and biological weapons. Not that we ever thought anything other than rogue attacks and wars with other packs would ever happen, but hey, better safe than sorry. Right now, the atrium is alive with urgent activity. It’s like a
HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW Stepping into the Council Room, I can instantly feel the tension hanging heavy in the air. The room’s usually calm and orderly, soothing Father’s OCD. But today, it’s buzzing with uncertainty and worry. Beta Ricardo, Gamma Linda, Delta Andrew, and Elder Johnson sit around the massive wooden table, each with their tablets in hand and their heads leaned in, exchanging urgent whispers. Father is pacing near the fireplace, the flames flickering in his eyes. When Willow walks in behind me, surprise sweeps across the room. Eyebrows shoot up, and I can almost hear the wheels turning in everyone’s heads. "I see your mate is joining us," Father remarks, stopping in his tracks. His eyes move between Willow and me. There’s a faint smile on his lips, but I can sense the underlying scrutiny. He's weighing, assessing, observing how we handle the situation. Alice spins around, her eyes flashing with hurt and anger. “Everyone knew?” Her voice is barely a whisper, but it cut
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW The stables hum with the usual noise and chatter, as hay and horses give off their familiar scents – scents I’ve come to love. Today, I’m on brushing duty. There’s something oddly soothing about the brush moving rhythmically against a horse’s coat, seeing how shiny it gets, it’s like a living masterpiece of muscle and power. Harper is still a bitch, but I’ve noticed some subtle changes. Our recent cohort training sections have been pushing us together. The exercises require us to rely on each other for defense and attack, to protect, and to be vulnerable. And then there’s the strategy sessions, where we sit together, maps and plans spread out in front of us. Our voices overlapping and our ideas clashing and merging… We’re learning to value each other’s perspectives, to listen and compromise, to create plans that use both our collective and individual strengths. Somewhere along the line, the shaky foundation of trust was built, and it’s kinda awesome. The pas
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW I stand in formation with my fellow Cadets in the meeting hall, eyes glued on the stage. There are unfamiliar faces among the ranked wolves, but I don’t make any effort to guess who they are. All I can see is Holden. We were told he wasn’t going to be involved in training this year because of his studies. Yet, here he is, on stage, his eyes scanning the crowd, embodying the strength and poise of a future Alpha. He steps forward, clearing his throat. “Welcome, everyone,” he says, his voice clear and steady. “Today, we take the next step in your training. You know about the attack on the Shell and the threat it could mean for our pack. So, we’re going to up our game. I’ve reached out to our allies and asked them to help us. Today, we have the honor of being joined by very special guests. Gathering Storm Pack has sent us an elite squad of 15 warriors to share their wisdom, with their captain, Seth. And Silver Hill Pack has sent Finn, their Gamma, and their futur
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW My heart thuds loudly in my chest as I enter the lab, eager to spend time with my mate, to get closer to him. The first thing to hit me is the sterility of it all. How it’s cold, white, clean, clinical. So different from the warmth and intimacy Holden and I shared just last night. But it’s not the lab itself that hits me like a gut punch, that makes my legs freeze and my blood boil. No, it’s the tall, lean form of a blonde man in a white lab coat. Dr. Tremblay, it has to be. Holden’s boss and research advisor. It seems like we’re back to Science Holden today. Not only does he want to keep his distance from me, but he also wants to put a barrier between us. He’s doing exactly what he said he wouldn’t. Yesterday was only a dream, and now I’m back to the sad reality. I feel betrayed. “Willow,” Holden is at my side in an instant, his words rushing out of him with a hint of nervousness. “Look, I should’ve given you a heads up, but Dr. Tremblay is here to help
HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW The air in the Council Room is humming with tension, each face portraying a mix of worry and determination. It’s like stepping into a hive of focused bees, everyone buzzing with energy and eager to do their job. Father stands at the head of the table, and I take my seat next to him, drawing from his calm energy to steady my own buzzing nerves. “Thank you all for being here,” Father begins, his voice a pillar of strength, “our efforts over the past few days have been monumental. But we’re still far from solving this crisis. We need to brainstorm and piece together every bit of information we have. Holden, would you begin?” Taking a deep breath, I stand up. Hendrix nudges me gently with resolve. “The other Temple Packs haven’t seen any similar incidents,” I say, infusing my voice with as much determination as I can. The Temple packs, of course, are the ones informally referred to as the “Temple Dynasty”: Ghost Pack, Gathering Storm Pack, Shallow Creek Pack, an
HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW “HOLDENNNN!” Father’s voice invades my head, piercing the bubble of post-sex bliss I was in. Shit. “My office, now,” he says in a homicidal tone. Realization washes over me, and a pit forms in my stomach, like a black hole consuming all the thrill I was reveling in just seconds ago. What in the heat of the moment felt so natural, so right, now mixes with the sharp pang of embarrassment and shame. I curse my recklessness, my impulsivity. As I enter Father’s office, I’m greeted by the wall lined with portraits of previous Alphas and their Lunas, going all the way back to the 1800s. Their silent eyes judge me, like they’re Harry Potter portraits about to chew me off. Under their stares, I feel vulnerable, exposed. It’s suffocating. Right now, I feel like I’m four inches tall. Father looks beyond pissed. Before I can find the right words to explain myself, he speaks. “Holden,” his voice is laced with a mix of disappointment and anger, “having sex in public
WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW I wake up to a sweet ache in my body, reminding me of how hard my mate fucked me last night, marking every part of me as his. Well, except for ACTUALLY marking me. But I’m more convinced than ever that we’re on the right path to fully becoming mates, to fully accepting our bond—step by uncertain step. Last night, everything changed. I could see it in the way Holden acted throughout our date, I could hear it in his words as he opened up to me about things I’m not sure he had even admitted to himself, and I could feel it in the way we fucked passionately. “It was a wild ride, huh?” Jamie nudges me cheekily. “Oh, I hope I get to ride that cock soon…” I muse. As I go through my morning routine, I look back on everything that happened with a smile on my lips. Every gesture, every kiss, is an echo of our deepened connection. Yet, amidst all the warm fuzzy feelings, a shadow of doubt creeps in. I have to hold on to the belief that things changed so much that not
HOLDEN’S POINT OF VIEW We then reach a park, and my feet don’t need a guide to take me towards an ancient tree that stands out from the rest. It calls to me. The Eternal Tree. It's huge, with branches stretching out like wise old arms, and its leaves are perpetually green. As we approach it, a warm, calming energy envelopes us, and I take a glance at Willow. She looks so… Peaceful. “Do you feel that?” she asks, her voice soft, almost reverent. “It’s like… Like the tree is alive. More than just a plant. It’s… sentient.” “It’s a portal, Willow,” I smile. “A crossing between worlds. It leads to the fae realm.” I turn my eyes to my mate, taking in her true self. She’s like an open book, with welcoming arms. She’s never been anything but honest and open with me, inviting me in, no pretenses, just pure, inviting honesty. The need to share, to unload, takes over me and, for once, I just give in. “You know,” I start, the words tumbling out in a rush. “All my life, I’ve tried to under