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12. Girl talk. Well, almost

Author: Lena Windsor
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WILLOW’S POINT OF VIEW

Once we get to the barracks, I lock myself in yet another washroom and let the waterworks run free. I weep and wail and sob.

My mate regrets having sex with me. I met the most handsome man in the world, and we had the best sex of my life. And he regrets it. The one person who was tailor-made to me by the Goddess regrets having sex with me. He doesn’t want me. Fuck knowing me and wanting me for who I am, not even the mate bond is enough for Holden to want me. And I want him so fucking much.

“He wants us, Willow,” Jamie whimpers. “He’s just in denial.”

“Well, tough luck. If he doesn’t want me, I don’t want him, either,” I say.

This mate bond wasn’t even supposed to happen, anyway. I’m on MBS. Cadets have their mate bonds suppressed so they won’t be distracted. Having Holden as a mate would just be a distraction. I’m going to be the best Cadet ever, and I’m going to carve out the life I’ve always dreamed of. There’s no space in my life for a mate who doesn
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