1. I Will Leave You

After a long struggle, gaining power and living with the man I love and who loves me too, I don't want anything else anymore. Living happily with my little family for several years. Luke Darens Tharique is our first son. He was handsome like his father and tough like his grandfather, my father. Because he was alone in the big palace and always served by servants, he often asked me to make a little sister for him.

I'm not sure if I can get pregnant again. Because after Luke was born, his father didn't want to make love to me anymore. He did many things as a king. As a Queen, I can't control what he does. I can't spoil him like before. Sometimes, the fear of losing him gnaws at my brain all the time.

I always dream that he is mating in the forest with a Lycan woman. Both of them changed their bodies to become Lycans. I hope it's just a dream that will never come true. I never knew where he had been all this time. I only met him in the morning.

"Mom, can I come in?" Luke's voice behind the door. I rushed out of bed and opened the door. My handsome son immediately hugged me while crying.

"Why honey, what happened to you? Tell me, who hurt you?"

"Is it true that mother is not part of us Lycans? Do you have to leave me?"

What is he talking about? "What do you mean dear, who told you this untrue news?" I said worriedly, did something happen but I didn't know. He sobbed weakly in my arms, his red lips trembled and his clear eyes kept flowing water that kept dripping down his cheeks. "They said, I'll get a new, prettier mom. I don't want another mom, I just want you to be my mom."

My throat felt dry hearing that. Will my dream come true? I don't want that dream either. I just want to have love with Lucan like before. Our love is too beautiful to forget. I don't believe that he would cheat. Lucan promised me he would live monogamously even though he was a King.

"That's not true dear, they are just making fun of you. You little ones can only joke around carelessly."

"Not them but the servants in the kitchen." he answered. I immediately stood up and asked my son to point out who was making gossip like that. On what basis do they say something bad in this house? I don't like two-faced people.

As I quietly descended the stairs, I heard small voices behind the kitchen. I walked slowly towards the kitchen listening to the conversation. "Celeria is the most beautiful omega and is still a holy virgin. I'm sure that King Alpha Lucan wants her as the next Queen. Even though all her family loves the Queen very much, she is still an ordinary human. Her child is not even worthy of being the successor to the Lycan throne."

"Yes, you're right. This is the land of the Wolverse that should be ruled by true Werewolves or Lycans. King Alpha Lucan is probably thinking about this."

I clenched my fists tightly, and walked quickly into the kitchen, making the three of them who were gossiping immediately quiet down and their heads bowed down. "What are you talking about?"

"Um, sorry Queen."

"You are not even worthy to say that my son is not worthy of the throne. If you call about me, that's not trouble, not my son!"

"Forgive us, Your Majesty, Queen."

"Can your words be believed? Who is Omega, say?!" My chest rumbled loudly and I tried to calm down even though I was angry. The three of them didn't dare to answer. The three of them even nudged each other's shoulders.

"If you don't talk, then I will ask King Alpha Lucan," I said and they immediately knelt in fear.

"Sorry, Your Majesty the Queen. We only heard that story from a servant who delivered food and some nice things to the girl. She said that King Alpha Lucan would soon be mating with the Omega."

What?! My body shook with anger, why was he like that to me? If he marries another woman it means he will be rejected me. What did I do wrong? I've never disobeyed him all this time. I never went against his orders again. I always kept quiet and thought all his decisions were right. Why—

"Stand up all of you, later I will ask again. If you keep quiet, you will be the one who will be tortured by the King. If you are honest then I will cover your mistakes."

"Yes, Queen."

I tried to cover up my sadness and annoyance, to welcome his arrival. He always comes home at 9 in the morning and at midnight he leaves. Did he meet his girlfriend?

"My Queen—" he walked over to me and hugged me, kissing my lips briefly.

"What are you doing? Where's Luke?"

"Luke is resting in his room, he's tired from practicing. Do you want to change clothes?"

"Yes honey, let's go upstairs." We climbed the stairs hand in hand. I'm confused, about how to ask him. I got clothes for him and he rushed into the bathroom to clean himself. Haven't showered with him for a long time, am I the only one who misses him?

After showering, I was still sitting on the bed, watching him wearing clothes with his back to me. "King Alpha Lucan, your son wants to have a younger sibling. How many days has he been whining and even crying, wanting to have a younger sibling like his other cousins? I think we—"

"I've decided that we won't add a younger sibling for him. Small children always want a lot, don't worry about it. I'm sleepy, I want to sleep for a while," he said, lying down on the bed. I think I've had enough patience with all his indifferent behavior towards me.

"Will Luke have a younger sibling from another womb?" I said. I'm ready to argue and fuss with him. Truth to me is important even though it is difficult. His eyes which had been closed immediately opened, was that Tharique?

He closed his eyes again. My tears couldn't be held back any longer, they fell profusely and held back my sobs. I walked slowly out of the room leaving him who had answered my question. I don't know, what should I do. Do I have to go with my son, I have to know the truth first before misunderstandings occur and we are separated again and it becomes a problem.

I went to meet the head of security for the Gamma troop, who had been my friend who supported me, Erren. I hope she can support me to do the best for my life. She smiled when I waved at her. She is training some new fighters. I sat under the tree while bringing her food and drink. Small talk might get her talking if she knew anything.

"Where's Luke? He was on leave earlier a minute to get me some water. But he didn't come back."

"Oh, he's asleep because he's probably tired," I said. I told Luke to play in his room. I also told him not to ask his father. This would be something big for other people and Tharique was always firm in giving punishment.

"Um, do you know something that I don't know about my husband, please be honest with me," I said straight to the main point, I don't like beating around the bush. I need certainty. From the look in her dark eyes and the changed expression on her face, I could already guess that she knew.

She took a sip of water, took a deep breath, and said, "Mating will be held tomorrow night at midnight full moon in Legrsof Forest. If you want to prevent it, I will give you something to make them stop and the mating will fail."

My heart broke into pieces hearing that. This time, what's the reason, does he need a successor who is truly a true Lycan? I will leave you Tharique, I will take our son who is proof of our love all this time. Evil, he has the heart for me. That dream turned out to be a guide for me.