When I wake up, I am in my room and it is dark, thank the goddess for having wolf vision despite not having a wolf.
Remembering what had happened the first thing I reach for is my belly. Feeling the baby moving calms me a little but I still can’t get over the fact that Xavier had intentionally and physically hurt me.
As much as he hated me and was cold to me I never ever imagined that he would physically hurt me. But then again I never thought that I would ever attack my own sister.
The anger and betrayal I felt towards her just came out of nowhere and overwhelmed me. At that moment I didn’t see that Bianca was my sister or that I was pregnant, I saw nothing but red.
What was even more shocking was the fact that my claws and fangs came out to play. I have never shifted, ever. Most werewolves shift when they turn sixteen but not me, another thing that makes me a freak in this pack.
Sure I can feel the wolf spirit inside me but nothing else. I could feel her emotions but we don’t communicate like normal wolves do.
It is like our link is somehow broken, so to have my claws and fangs coming out is shocking.
Given that I have never shifted before now, makes the logic of the pack thinking I killed my parents absurd. My lovely parents were torn from limb to limb so how is it that a girl without a wolf would be able to do that much damage?
How would I have been able to take out two full grown adults who can shift? But I guess since there was no other evidence pointing towards a villain and they needed someone to blame, they decided that I would be the one to shoulder that burden and take the blame.
I hated that they put a child through that and I am not just saying that because it was me in that position but because it was wrong.
No child should go through the hell I went through just because they have been accused of a crime, because what I went through I wouldn’t have wished it on anybody else no matter how much I hated them.
I pull myself from the bed and head towards the shower. I didn’t know how long I had been unconscious and I didn't even have a mobile phone to check the time.
I know you are questioning why I don’t have a phone in this age and time but the truth is I have no use for it. I don’t have anyone to talk to so why bother?
Plus ever since I became an outcast, I became used to my own company, my solitude, where I didn’t have to feel suffocated by other people’s coldness towards me.
Reaching the bathroom, I check my reflection first before going into the shower. I looked tired and drained and there is a bandage around my neck. I reach towards it and feeling no pain, I remove it. There is no physical sign that I had been hurt and I am thankful for that.
I continue scanning my body, my eyes stopping at my mating mark which is now a mocking reminder that I will never be loved by my mate.
Once our union is reversed and Xavier rejects me, the mark will disappear. Thinking of that leaves me feeling more lonely than I have ever been.
I push those thoughts to the back of my mind and go ahead and take a shower. My tears fall but the water washes it away, erasing the evidence that I was crying.
I finish showering, wrap a towel around myself and leave the bathroom to go get dressed.
I stand shocked at the bathroom door because Xavier is standing in my bedroom with his hands on his hips, his face is a mask of coldness and he looks like he would rather be somewhere else.
His eyes survey my body, making me hold the towel tighter.
I go to my bed and take the clothes from my bed then rush to the bathroom to wear them. The last thing I need is for him to accuse me of trying to seduce him again.
Once I am done I join him in the bedroom and watch him wearily as I wait for him to say what he came to say.
“If you ever dare to hurt my mate again, I will forget that you are carrying my child and I will rip out your throat, do I make myself clear? I don’t want to see you anywhere near her, if you see her coming, turn in the opposite direction, I don’t even want to see you in the same room as her"
I should have known that he wasn’t here to offer me an apology but to defend his love. Looking into his eyes I am taken back to the way he looked at me while he was choking me.
His eyes were cold and angry and in that moment I knew that he would actually kill me. I don’t know what happened after I fainted but I know he had one intent and that was to end my life.
“I am the one who is your mate Xavier, not her... Why can’t you just accept that?” I ask him, my voice sounding smaller than I had intended it to.
I wrap my arms around my belly in a protective yet comforting way.
Xavier advances menacingly towards me making me take steps back, that is until my movement is stopped by the bathroom door. His eyes keep changing from yellow to grey.
I am overcome with fear and my hands automatically go to my neck afraid that I had angered him and he was about to hurt me again.
“Get this straight through your thick skull Amelia, you are not my mate and you will never be my mate. I would rather have my heart ripped out from my chest than to accept you as my mate. You are pathetic and unworthy and you will never come close to even being quarter of the woman my Bianca is, I hate you with every fiber of my being and once this child is born, I will take him or her and together with Bianca we will raise them because you don’t deserve to be a mother after that you can rot in the pits of hell for all I care” hearing him say all that especially about taking my baby away from cracks something in, something I didn’t even know existed.
“Why are you doing this to me? What have I ever done to you” I tell him, tears running down my face.
“The only thing you have ever done wrong to me is exist. Your very existence repulses me”
“Would you rather I didn’t exist? Would you rather I die?” I push the words out my mouth even though he is breaking me deep inside.
“Yes I would very much prefer that; every day I wake up wishing it” he replies making me quiet because what else could I say? What do you say when your mate wishes for your death?
“For attacking my luna, you will stay in this room till I feel like you have been punished enough. The window and door to the balcony will be barred with wood so no sunshine will reach into the room, you are not allowed to step outside this door until I say so, you will only receive your meals and nothing else.. If it wasn’t for the fact that you are pregnant I would have thrown you into the cells without food and water”
Without saying another word to me, he turns around and leaves the room just as I fall down on my knees crying as I think of the fact that he just referred to Bianca as his luna.
That he would do this to me just for trying to fight for what is mine is beyond my comprehension. Where did I go wrong or who had I wronged that my life had to take this turn of events.
I have no one but my son and even he won’t be with me for much longer because they are planning to take him away from me and I know that he is able to.
The council fears him plus they will just need to say that I killed my parents and the council will rule in his favor.
I must have stayed in that position for some time because soon I hear people outside my balcony hammering away, meaning they were closing me in before daytime.
I stand up and move to my bed. Laying down I start caressing my stomach, feeling the familiar comfort. I am numb, utterly and completely numb, I am completely drained of all energy and without even meaning to I fall into sleep.
My sleep is sort of peaceful and here in my dream world I am completely happy and accepted but the peace doesn’t even last long because I am woken up by pain, pain like I have never known before.
