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Chapter 4 - Brutal

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Solange Raviea Cervana

I have been so fascinated with the beaches ever since I was a kid. The non-stop waves, the feeling of the sand on my feet, the breeze of the cold wind, and the sea water, I somehow find comfort in it and it makes me feel as if I have a safe place to go whenever everything's exhausting for me. But this day was an exception. Mayroong parte sa akin na gustong-gusto umalis sa lugar na ito… Na hindi ako nararapat dito. I wanted to leave so bad.

The distinct sound of waves was the first thing I heard when I ran away from the mansion. Mas lalo pa akong naiyak dahil tuloy-tuloy akong tumakbo palayo kahit na walang saplot ang aking mga paa. The sharpness of the stone from the sand caused my feet to bleed. Dahil sa likod ng mansyon ako lumabas, mas matalim ang mga batong nakakakalat doon. The wind kept on blowing in my direction. As I held my long white dress, someone called me. 

“Solange, you coward!” she shouted. 

“Leave me alone!” I tightened my grip on the hem of my dress more when I felt the salt water touch the soles of my feet. That caused more sting. I had no choice but to stop running. My hands were shaking, I felt something in my neck that made me unable to breathe properly. The unfamiliar girl followed me still.

“The sophisticated and clever woman suddenly turned into a scaredy-cat, huh?” I felt how close she is now. I wanted to run, pero ang dalawang paa ko na patuloy na dinadaanan ng alon ay nanatili sa pwesto, tila may pumipigil sa akin para i-hakbang iyon. “Aren’t you tired of pretending that you’re good enough for people? Hindi ka ba nagsasawang panindigan iyang kahulugan ng pangalan mo? Kasi ako, pagod na.They were making you feel like you were flawless, where in fact, you’re not! You were damaged… you’re in pain. But they keep on invalidating that because you’re not speaking for yourself.” 

“What am I supposed to do with that?” Tears fell on my eyes when she suddenly slapped the truth. “Sa tingin mo ba, kapag sinabi ko sa kanilang ayoko na… titigilan nila ‘ko? Kapag ba sinabi ko sa kanila na pagod na ‘ko… magbabago ba ang isip nila? You don’t know them, they are more than what you think, so stop meddling with my problems because you know nothing, not even a bit of it.” 

“Wake the fucking up, Solange! They never cared for you. You were just like a piece of cigarette who completes their leisure. At kapag naubos ka, walang matitira sa ‘yo,” she furiously uttered. “Tama ako diba? Tama ako… kasi ubos ka na ngayon. There was nothing left but yourself.” She remains on the back, still.  

“Stop…” I pleaded and tightly closed my eyes. 

“I won’t until you do something about it.” Her voice suddenly changed as it gave me chills. 

“What are you trying to imply?” Napatingin ako sa ibaba nang maramdaman ko ang marahas na alon na dumampi sa paa ko. 

“Look in front,” she said. I gazed in front just like what she said. I noticed the ocean was on its high tide. Bigla rin dumilim ang langit, naghuhudyat ng paparating na ulan. “Do you want to stop it?” 

“Stop what?” I confusedly asked. 

“The suffering… the pain, all of it. Do you want to end it?” she asked. 

“Badly,” I nodded and once again shed tears. 

“Walk, drown yourself, and never… ever come back,” she whispered. 

The cold breeze caressed my skin. I looked at the back and there was nothing but the trees that kept on swaying because of the wind. I rigorously stepped forward. Patuloy lang ako sa paghakbang, hanggang sa umabot na sa baywang ang taas ng tubig.  

I once gazed at the back again when I heard a vague voice calling me. “Solange…” Napapikit ako nang may maramdaman na kakaibang kirot sa ulo ko.I pressed my temples together and continued to walk away from the shore. It felt like I hadn't swum in years when the level of the water reached my shoulder and without any equipment, I doubtlessly let my whole being be devoured by the waves.

One, two, three…I counted on my mind. It took three seconds for me to realize that I was slowly losing air inside me, and for the first time in my life… I found peace.

I breathed heavily. Palubog na ang araw nang mapatingin ako sa karagatan. Ang liwanag na nagmumula sa araw ay patuloy na tumatama sa mukha ko kapag nawawala ang lilim na nanggagaling sa mga puno. A familiar song was playing on the stereo, hindi ko na namalayan na huminto na ang sasakyan sa tapat ng building kung saan magaganap ang auction party. Kumuha muna ako salamin sa pouch ko para matingnan ang mukha at nang handa na sa paglabas ay huminga ako nang malalim.

Ang mga ilaw na nagmumula sa kaliwa’t kanan na camera ang unang sumalubong sa akin. Tinanggal ko ang salamin na humaharang sa mata ko bago ako dahan-dahan na naglakad. The red carpet complemented my black halter gown, I gently held the white fur wrapped around me when I stopped walking to smile in front of the camera. As my gown had a slit, I let one leg out.

The center of attraction has always been my label for people. All of the articles and news I have seen, none of them failed to praise everything about me. From the way I carry myself in front of the cameras to the way I have always been confident about how I look. 

Nagsisinungaling ako kung sasabihin kong hindi ako napapagod sa kung paano nila ako tratuhin, dahil isang maling gawa ko lang ay alam kong mag-iiba ang tingin ng marami sa akin. They'd be disappointed in me because they've always seen me as a perfect human being, whereas in reality, I'm scarred and wounded.

“Looking good as always, Ms. Cervana!” puri ng isang photographer. Bahagya akong ngumiti. The two bodyguards on duty to accompany me followed my lead. Ngunit hindi pa ako tuluyang nakakapasok sa loob ay may biglang tumakbo papalapit sa amin. 

“Ms. Solange! Tinanggalan ng trabaho ang Mama ko. Please po, wala na po kaming ibang mahahanapan ng panibagong trabaho. Parang awa niyo na po, may sakit pa iyong kapatid ko! Tulungan niyo po kami!” Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko. 

Wala akong sinabi at hinayaan lang siyang damputin no’ng butler na kasama ko. 

“Ms. Solange! Wala na po kaming gamot pambili sa kapatid ko! Hindi po puwedeng mawalan ng trabaho si Mama!” hagulgol nito habang pumipiglas pa. 

I looked away when they successfully made her leave. Diretso na akong pumasok sa loob, hindi na inalintana ang nangyaring gulo. I have nothing to do with it because I know my father. He wouldn’t let me meddle with his life kahit na buong buhay ko ay ganoon ang ginawa niya sa akin.

Nang makapasok ako sa loob ay roon ko mas napagtanto na engrande ang salo-salo dahil sa mga dumalong artista at mga kilala sa publiko. May mga bumati sa ‘kin na ilan sa mga kakilala ko, ang iba pa nga sa kanila ay hindi ko matandaan kung nakausap o nakita ko na ba dati. 

Nang makita ko ang butler na papunta sa pwesto ko ay agad akong kumuha ng champagne, that's when I started to observe people. Unang tingin mo pa lang sa kanila ay matitiyak mo na ang antas ng kanilang buhay. Simula sa kanilang kasuotan hanggang sa kung paano sila makihalubilo sa mga tao. In just a glimpse, I knew I belonged, that I fit in, and that I'd be enslaved to this kind of living for the rest of my life. 

“Hi! You’re from Celestial Modeling Company, right?” A girl with a high ponytail approached me. I nodded, putting down my glass. “I'm wondering whether you'd be interested in working as an ambassaddress for my recently launched cosmetics.” She smiled while I remained with a straight face.

“No, I’m sorry… Excuse me please?” Umalis ako sa harap niya para makapaghanap ng panibagong pwesto. Ngunit nang huminto ako  sa isang bakanteng lamesa ay na sa harapan ko na naman siya. 

“I badly want to recruit you. My father might neglect me kapag hindi naging successful itong business ko.” Pinagdikit niya ang palad niya. I slightly raised a brow.

“What do you mean?” My brows creased. “Aren’t you aware that I’m a Cervana?” I uttered it with arrogance because she seemed unbothered with it.

She just smiled and moved a little bit closer to me. “Of course, alam ko! I won’t approach you if hindi ko alam, hello?” she laughed a little, nawala ang ngiti niya nang mapansin niyang hindi ako natawa. “I’m sorry... But, could you please help me with this? Gusto kong patunayan sa magulang ko na kaya kong tumayo sa sarili kong paa kahit wala sila.”  

“You can do it without using other people,” ani ko.

“But I can do it with you, too…” She’s persuasive still. “I haven’t introduced myself yet. I’m Laurene Bianca Medina, but Rene is enough. You’re Solange Raviea Cervana, the top model from CMC. Yes, I know that. And I’m here to recruit you as my first ambassadress in Rene Cosmetics,” she said with a formal tone while offering a calling card. 

“Love, let’s go,” Vernon suddenly appeared. Laurene glanced at him and quickly got intimidated by his presence. Vernon put his hand on my waist. Hindi ko na pinansin pa ang nag-alok sa ‘kin at patuloy na sa paglakad.

“Ms. Solange! The calling card!” habol niya pa ngunit hindi na ako lumingon pa.

“Where the hell were you earlier?” I mumbled. “The media is all over the place. Mabuti na lang at hindi ako tinanong kung bakit hindi kita kasama pumasok. Oh, well! I can handle myself alone but—” I was caught off guard when he gently pressed my waist. He kissed my temple, which made me side step a little bit. Nag flash ang camera sa hindi kalayuan. I intently looked at him. “What the fuck, Vernon?” The champagne glass I’m holding was about to fall but thank God I managed to stay still.

“There’s a camera,” He whispered, caressing his lips on my ear. Tumaas ang balahibo ko sa ginawa niya ngunit hindi ko iyon pinahalata, imbis na ginaya rin ang ginagawa niya.

“Ang tindi mo rin talaga magpanggap.” I came close and breathed on his neck. I almost dampened my lips on it. “I’m going to slice your neck once the event finishes,”

“So brutal, hmm?” He chuckled and continued walking with me.

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  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 4.1 - Clean

    Solange Raviea Cervana.I drove alone to my condominium to get some of my things. My family and Vernon’s family will be having dinner tonight. It’s kind of suspicious dahil kayang bilangin sa daliri ko ang gamit ko sa bahay na iyon. Nang matapos kong iparada ang sasakyan ay agad kong kinuha ang baseball cap. It was given by Westley before he stayed in New York, almost four years ago. I couldn’t throw it away as this was the only thing he had gifted me.I don’t like him, but he's been my type since college. But due to busy schedules, hindi ko na inalintana pang sabihin sa kanya iyon lalo na’t lumipat nga sila ng ibang bansa.“Good morning, Ma’am. Have a nice day po.” The guard greeted me. I gave him the paper bag I was holding. “Uy! Nakakahiya po, Ma’am

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 5 - Longing

    Solange Raviea CervanaI got back on track the day after. I have some shooting today with Griffin. Noong una pa nga’y hindi ko alam na siya ang magiging kasama ko sa shoot ngayon. My manager just told me na hindi raw sumipot iyong lalaki na kasama ko dapat ngayon. Natyempuhan lang na si Griffin ang pumalit, he even volunteered himself, so I don’t have problems with it lalo na’t gusto ko ulit siyang makausap.“Closer please,” The photographer demanded. “Solange, I think it’s better if you’ll look this way, while Griffin will look at you.” Tumango ako at ginawa ang gusto niyang mangyari. “Yup, that’s right. Perfect!” Natutuwang sabi nito. “Now, for the second idea, can you guys talk naturally and express positive emotions about it?&r

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 6 - Engaged

    Solange Raviea Cervana.Friday came, it’s girls night out, so I had to join the party and birthday rin kasi ni Shantal. Akala ko pa nga noong una ay sa bahay nila iyon gaganapin pero nag rent na lang sila ng place sa Antares Cruise Ship. I haven’t seen Griffin since last time. Hindi ko alam kung sinasadya niyang hindi magpakita o talagang wala lang talaga siya. Nababahala nga ako dahil paniguradong invited siya sa party.“Manang Rodora, si Vernon po, umuwi na ba?” Tanong ko sa kasambahay bago ako lumabas.“Noong isang araw ko pa po siya nakita, Miss Solange.” Kumunot ang noo ko dahil umuuwi naman siya pero hindi kami nagkakaabutan.“Sige p

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 6.1 - Numb

    Vernon Thobias Alejo.“Come to my office, now.” Utos ko kay Griffin nang mabuo ko na ang planong gagawin ko para lumayo siya kay Seia.I am so sure he can sabotage the plan just for that girl, so, I’m going to stop him. This is what I meant when I said to Papa that I don’t need his help. He’ll only cause trouble, they’re aware of it. Kaya nga hindi nila sinabi ang buong plano sa kanya dahil alam nila kung ano ang kaya niyang gawin para lamang kay Solange.“I am going to stop the marriage,” bulong ko. Bahagya ko pa siyang nilingon pero nagtuloy-tuloy na ako sa loob ng opisina ko. Maya-maya pa ay hindi ako nagkamali na gagawin niya lahat para sa babaeng iyon dahil pumasok na siya sa loob.

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 7 - Forget

    Vernon Thobias Alejo.I ran immediately to the ground. I was watching Griffin and Solange the whole time using the CCTV. I was sweating so hard, asking myself if I made the right decision. Sinabi ko kay Griffin na barilin siya sa pinaka ligtas na parte ng katawan. I was expecting him to just make her arm bleed, not to actually bury a bullet inside.“Seia!” Griffin shouted while crying. He was sitting on the ground while Solange was on his lap.“Fuck!” Ilang beses akong nag mura nang makitang hindi siya sa braso tinamaan. “Call an ambulance, Griff!”“This is all your fault!” Tumayo siya at agad akong sinuntok.

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 7.1 - Happy

    Solange Raviea Cervana. “My daughter’s taking a rest for a while so she was not able to attend the runaway model. For the fans, you guys don’t need to worry about her because she will be back as soon as she feels okay. Thank you so much for your love and support for her.” Pinatay ko ang T.V at pabagsak na nilagay ang remote sa lamesang nasa harapan ko. I had already been discharged from the hospital, but because my wound wasn't completely healed, I took a week off. Ngayon, ay hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko dahil hindi naman ako maaaring lumabas ng bahay. Vernon is working on his last film project before he’ll be on hiatus. I don’t know what’s up with him, but ever since I woke up from the accident that happened, he always asks me if I’m okay. Palagi rin siyang nag u-update through text na hindi ko naman kailan

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 8 - Tired

    Solange Raviea Cervana.“Where are you, hija? Can you visit me now? I prepared something for you. Ipaghahanda na rin kita ng damit mo, just incase. Bring your fiancé, too.” Ani Abuela. Tumingin ako sa orasan, hindi naman kalayuan ang ancestral house nila rito kaya lang, baka nandoon iyong mga pinsan ko na galit sa akin.“Say yes,” Vernon whispered. I told him to shut up.“Sure po. We’ll be there in a minute.” I replied. She bid goodbye and I did the same, too before ending the call.We arrived at the ancestral house after fifteen minutes. The guard opened the gate kaya pinasok na ni Vernon ang sasakyan niya sa loob. T

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 9 - Intruder

    Solange Raviea Cervana.Distinct sound suddenly emerged. Bigla akong napatakip sa tenga ko dahil sa sakit na naidudulot noon, bigla ay napahawak ako sa gilid ng ulo ko dahil sa nararamdamang sakit doon. I was caught off guard when I saw blood from my palm.“Remember this, Seia! You’ll forever be imprisoned for this kind of living! Kaya wala kang dapat na ibang gawin kung hindi sundin kami! Do you understand!? Answer me!”I shouted as an answer, protruding veins from my neck when Papa was about to throw the vase at me. Maya-maya lang ay nagising ako, puno ng pagkatakot at kaba. I started to panic, walang sawang umagos ang luha mula sa mga mata ko dahil sa takot na nararamdaman.

Pinakabagong kabanata

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 35.1 - Answer

    Solange Raviea Cervana.“When will you ever leave?” Biglang sumulpot sa harapan ko si Avril. Hindi ko alam na pumunta pala siya rito. “You’re enjoying your spotlight now, huh? Don’t worry, it’s all just temporary. You will leave the company as soon as possible.”Nang matapos ako sa paglagay ng lipstick ko ay agad ko siyang nilagpasan at dumiretso sa labas ng venue para makalanghap ng sariwang hangin. Hindi pa ako tuluyan nakakababa sa batong hagdan nang hinapit niya ako para mapatingin sa kanya.“Why do you have to come back here! It’s so much better if you’re not here! Kapag nandito ka, inaagaw mo ang lahat ng sa akin! The people, the spotlight, everything! As well as my boyfr

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 35 - Hunch

    Solange Raviea Cervana. Kaliwa’t kanan ang nag e-email na brands sa akin, pati na rin ang pag offer sa mga T.V advertisements simula nang mabalita na bumalik na ako. Ms. Kiara advised me to just let it flood. Hindi pa ako pupwedeng tumanggap ng kahit na ano sa mga iyon dahil wala pa iyong magiging mentor ko. I just did a photoshoot today for articles. It’s like a comeback photoshoot. Sinasamantala ng production ang init na pagtanggap sa akin muli ng mga tao dahil mas nakakataas iyon ng ranking ng company. “Fiercer!” Ms. Kiara de Lopez uttered with her hands crossed. The models are intimidated by her kaya tahimik ang buong studio at tanging pag-shutter lang ng camera ang naririnig. I stay calm and just do what she says. Akala ata nila, galit s

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 34.1 - Protect

    Solange Raviea Cervana.We honestly don’t care about how the media will describe us as a couple. Wala na kaming pakialam kung may nanoood ba sa amin o wala. We have already decided to just leave it as it is, dahil hindi naman sila kasali sa relasyon naming dalawa. It will only make the most out of it worse kapag magpapa-apekto pa kami sa sinasabi ng iba.“My parents don't know we’re coming.” I said to him when we entered the gate. Nagpatuloy siya sa pagmamaneho hanggang sa loob at hininto iyon sa tapat ng main entrance ng mansion.“It won’t be long. If they’re busy, maybe we can go next time,” aniya nang mabuksan ang pintuan para makababa ako.

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 34 - Because

    Solange Raviea Cervana.“I need to know what’s between Westley and Avril,” ani ko.The agents accompanied me to CMC since I’m going to sign a contract today. Papa helped me, so that I could easily join the company again. I just let him do it since I’m not planning on staying here for good. Well, nothing’s new with the bodyguards I’m with since they’re always with me.“Iyong kaibigan niyo po ba, Ma’am?” Vino asked.I told them to just call me Seia over and over again, but they won’t listen to me. I said that being called Senyora is too old to hear, that’s why they decided to just call me Ma

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 33 - Want

    Solange Raviea Cervana.I woke up early and went to the mansion. It’s been a while since I saw my parents. They never visited me in Australia as they knew about my relationship with Vernon. Nito lang umaga ay tinawagan ako ni Mama na ikinagulat ko. She was inviting me over for breakfast, that’s why I didn’t hesitate to go there with the bodyguards with me.The maid opened the doorway. It’s been a while since I last stepped here. It still feels the same. Very empty and frightening. Tahimik ang buong bahay na a-akalain mong walang nakatira roon. I quickly erased my negative thoughts when I successfully entered the dining area. My parents quickly glanced at me with no emotion at all. Tumayo si Mama para bumeso sa akin, tsaka ako sinenyasan na gawin ko rin iyon kay Papa. I was hesitant a

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 32 - Permanent

    Solange Raviea Cervana.“Yes, of course, I know Avril since she joined HDL before!” I heard Sean uttered.“That’s so embarrassing, Sean! I wasn’t able to go to HDL Paris, but I’m glad I became known because of your agency. Thank you for that…” Avril sweetly replied.A was taken aback and couldn’t utter a word. I never saw her again after we fought that day in the comfort room. She never once visited me when I woke up from comatose. Seeing her now, getting more mature and successful, means so much to me because she finally got the recognition she wanted since day one. She must’ve been very happy as people are now looking up to her.

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 31.3 - Introduce

    Solange Raviea Cervana. “Seia, is this your first time?” he asked while heavily breathing. “Yes,” I admitted. “I’m sorry,” “Baby, why are you sorry? There’s nothing to feel sorry for.” Inangat niya ang baba ko habang nakahiga pa rin ako sa harapan niya. “I don’t want to stop…” sambit ko, habang nakalapat pa rin ang isang kamay sa harap niya. It wasn't enough. I want to pleasure him more. Gusto kong iparamdam sa kanya ang lahat ng bagay na hindi niya pa nararamdaman noon. I don’t want him to forget what happened this night. “The visitors are waiting, Seia.” I shook m

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 31.2 - Good

    Solange Raviea Cervana.I help him remove his necktie and button shirt while kissing him with so much passion. Bahagya akong napatingin sa katawan niya kaya mas hinabol niya ang labi ko. I didn’t bother looking at his tattoo on his chest again when he made me stand up so that he could remove his pants. Napasandal ako lalo sa manibela habang nakakapit ang dalawang kamay sa balikat niya. I thought he’s sitting down again, but he continued kissing me from my cheeks down to my neck. Pinulupot ko ang isang kamay ko sa batok niya. I craned my neck to give him more access to it, but I knew from then I can’t wait any longer to finally feel him.I push him back onto the chair while his boxers are still there. He chuckled and inclined his seat. I turn around and grab my hair and put it on the side.

  • The Undesirable Affair   Chapter 31.1 - Ease

    Solange Raviea Cervana.“Lugi ako, biglang inuwian. Tara na nga!” Sean was about to walk away with his friends, but he was able to greet me before doing so. “It’s nice to see you here happy and well, Solange.” Binati rin ako ng doktor niyang kaibigan bago sila umalis at iniwan kami roon dalawa.“It’s nice here. City lights are everywhere, kahit na gabi na maliwanag pa rin sa paligid,” I said, opening a topic because he isn’t talking. “Hoy…” Hinawakan ko ang braso niya at bahagya iyong inalog dahil wala pa rin siyang sinasabi. “Aren’t you going to say some—”He immediately held my waist before I even finished my sentence to put his lips on mine. Ba

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