The truth is, I have always been a good girl.
When I saw an old ma'am broke her back, I carried her from the stop light to her apartment. It is, by the way, a few miles away. Til' this day, I still don't understand why she had to go that far to buy grocery when there is already one nearby the apartment.
I live with my roommate who never cleans the room. I took on the responsibility to do so, but all I have ever got in return is carbon dioxide—which is quite inexpensive if you ask me.
My parents bid me to become a doctor, since I had a passion for health and wellness as a teen. Throughout my progress, I have realized that education is learning what you didn't even know you didn't know.
I followed their instructions until I attended college; I gradually grew apart from medicine because it just wasn't for me. It was then I decided to become a writer. I gravitated towards historical novels; you know, the kind that makes your heart tingle and makes you chuckle like a twelve year old girl.
As a filial daughter, however, I still promised them I will study something close to medicine.. turns out, I chose to study plants.
You know what they say, never go to a doctor whose office plants have died. Botany was my best bet to study aside; I actually favored studying and experimenting with plants, although not as much as writing.
I question my decision now, of course, considering I am quite broke as a creator. Eating cup noodles and spending days and nights writing drafts have exhausted me to the point I seriously contemplate my life. Did I say it is difficult to pay for rent as a writer? And I have to constantly ask my parents for money?
The embarrassment!
Gee, I sure wish money grows on trees. Sure, money doesn't buy happiness. It does, however, pay for sesame Korean barbecue chicken wings and that is practically equivalent to happiness. At least to me.
And so when trouble knocks at the door, I greatly welcome it. After all, I am ready for a change.
But this is not the change that I meant.
Oh no, it is not even close.
I ended up being robbed in the streets. And it was under the broad day light.
Are you kidding me?!
This young man stole my purse out of my bare hands. But hey, it's not like I care anyways. I didn't even have any money left in there. I did have my food coupons in there though. Hopefully it'll be of use to him.
I found refuge in sleeping. I slept to relieve the feelings of inadequacy. That is the only way to escape my capricious life. I occasionally cried, which in response, caused my eyes to be swollen. The bags under my eyes become larger; I see a panda when I see my reflection in the mirror. Now, I am ugly AND broke.
How tragic.
My sheltering, perhaps conservative parents are growing grey, and yet I cannot even care for them. Such pitiful life.
I am such a loser.
And then something strange happens.
At first it is just a voice.
Then, I hear incoherent voices whispering to each other. I proceed to see faces— blurry faces.
The next day, it becomes more apparent. I even feel something warm and soft caress my cheeks. This time, I hear a cry. It isn't long until I smell fire powder.
Soon, I hear screams and yells loud and clear. It's unmistakable. Someone shakes me, hoping that I would regain consciousness.
The shaking is ineffective and to no avail, because everything went blank and I lost all my consciousness.
I wake up panicking.Touching my face, hands, and legs, I realize that none of my body parts are gone.Phew.
Not long after, a loud raspy voice vibrates into the room."Yuan Zi Yan!"Xiu Ying enters the room with two others. A middle aged lady enters the room furiously, followed by an older man.
It has been about a week ever since I, Yan Zi, become Zi Yan.What kind of rip off is that?!I tap my fingers against the mahogany table set and drink some hot tea. How can I return back to the present? Maybe if I fall in a deep sleep again?
Initially, everything was filled with excitement and curiosity. As time progresses, homesickness struck me. I wanted to return home and to my normal lifestyle.This life isn't mine.For the next two weeks, I went to the #1 restaurant of the town and drank
I felt myself being pressed against someone else's back.A sudden urge to vomit but I held it in.One step. Two step. I chuckle.
"Ah, yes," I nod to his statement. "Do make him grab her by the hand and stare at her intensely, will you? He'll mutter 'I love you. I love your smile. I love your mouth that opens wide like that of a fool.' Make sure to depict the way his eyes glimmer with lust.""This.." the pedant sigh briefly before continuing. "Yes, Elder Miss."
I snatch the final booklet off the pedant's hand, "Finally!" I smile happily to the pedant, who expresses his sense of relief with a dutiful nod. "Finished product!"I want to thank Xiu Ying, who managed to help me convince Yuan Zi Yan's parents that inviting a pedant to "teach me" will somehow serve as a torturous method for me.
This marks a whole month since I have been stuck here. Sure, writing again has lift some weights off my shoulders but life is not the same. I forgot my privileges in the 21st century: when I can go out to wherever I want, where I can see my parents whenever I want.I slowly drift back again into pessimistic thoughts.
The door gradually opens up. A strange feeling envelopes Yan Zi, as she raises her head to face the Director.A distance away from Yan Zi stands a figure she thought she'd never see again.Her brows furrow, her eyes widen. She becomes aware of her own heartbeat.
The sun has risen 365 times since she last saw his face. The whistling winds dance with the grass and florals, unbinding the dandelions that adrift throughout the sky.The dawn is calling, as the soft grass laps at her feet and tickles her finger.She chooses
It is pitch black.The absence of light deprives her of her senses. She stumbles into the essence of darkness.Then suddenly, as if a flick of a switch, a glimpse of light shines down on Yuan Zi Yan.
Three figures grieve be forth an empty grave.As General Li and Scholar Li rise up from the ground, they notice that Sir Xu does not move an inch. His eyes rest on the gravestone, heavy in thought.When General Li attempts to tap Sir Xu's shoulders, Schol
Riding his armored horse, Sir Xu rushes past the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees. "Please be okay.. Zi Yan."He thinks back to what happened in the morning today...It is early morning when General Li, Sir Xu, and Scholar Li gather in the Guest Room. General Li huffs through her tear
The pale crescent moon shines down like a silvery claw in the night.Yuan Zi Yan and Xu Kai is now strolling along a river near the up-roaring city. They take a seat on a smooth stone, resting beside each other.The two watch the blanket of stars that stretch to infinity. Stars of all sorts of c
Tiny specks of dust seem to dance in the shaft of afternoon sunlight that slant through the broken windows.Yuan Zi Yan wakes up to Xu Kai by her side. Their hands are intertwined together, with their bodies lying facing each other.Gazing at the sleeping Xu Kai, she lifts up her hands to trace
Yuan Zi Yan listens as the rain continues to pour down. Now, there is barely any sunlight.It's okay, Zi Yan. Someone will find you. You left a letter, remember?She tries to wait it out, but soon falls asleep.
Yuan Zi Yan hears humming, a faint tune. The voice sings:"Enjoy every little thing that life throws your way.""..The sunsets, the laughter, the moon, the gatherings, the takeaways. For you will wake up one day and realize that you are living someone's dream. Enjoy everything, as such a beautif