I feel the cold wind blow on my cheeks. I shift on the bed and cover myself to alleviate the cold. I open my eyes and see a man peering down at me. A huge man. I close my eyes and open them again. I sit up and am about to think about how to fight when huge hands cover my mouth. “Shhh, my dear werewolf,” his knees are already on my bed! “It’s only been a few months and you already forgot me?” He removes his hand from me. I blink and realize it is Klevon. It’s obvious he just shaved and cleaned himself. But other than that, he still looks the same hulking giant of pure muscle. He grins at me. “You miss me? The last mission I’ve been on took longer time than I thought,” he says. Rather than his mission, what the hell is he doing in my room?! Knowing him, I look at my clothes. The fabric is thin, but at least, it’s not see-through. “Hmmm, you are right,” he says. His eyes travel from my head to my stomach, which is thankfully covered by the blanket. “You need to change your clothes.
Like how we left our room, Klevon swoops into it through the window. He deposits me on the floor and I beam at him. I feel like it’s the first time I smiled since I lost my baby. “Thank you,” I say. Crouching on my windowsill, he says, “Turn around.” I did and I find Theo sitting on the chair of my study table. His eyes transfer from me to Klevon and back again. “What is this? Where you’ve been?!” he asks, suspicious. An introduction to his pain and anger. I shift my attention to Klevon and say, “You should leave.” “He is angry. I think I should stay.” “Leave!” I order. Besides, I don’t want him to see this. I doubt Theo’s love for me is real, but I never doubt the depth of his possessiveness over his whore—me. I braced myself for his jealousy. Yet, I am more afraid of myself. If he pushes me, if he forces me into the bed, I doubt that I can fight the mate bond. I will cry and struggle, but nevertheless, my body will enjoy it. And that debasement is something that I don’t wa
Hearing what I requested, Theo looks scalded. He stands up and retreats from me, almost stumbling at the thick carpet. “You don’t mean that,” he says as if he is seeing me for the first time. “Do you think I will joke about this?” “You marked me… You said you love me…” he says. His voice is barely a whisper. “My baby died, Theo. This mate bond with you is painful. I can’t undergo that same experience again.” “Then how about love?!” I look away. Right now, I just want to let go of this fake connection with him. “From now on…” he starts. He moves towards me again and lifts my chin. “My attention will be all yours. I will cherish you, like what I have always promised.” He leans down and I evade his attempt to kiss me. Forcibly, he makes me look into his eyes. I stare, or rather, I glare at him. “Sleep with me, Kaiya. I will focus on your pleasure. I will give everything to you.” “You want love, and yet, you offer the desire of flesh instead. Do you know how hypocritical you sou
I try to stay awake as long as possible. Klevon and I decided to leave two hours before midnight. So, two hours after dinner, I went to bed and try to stay awake as long as possible. I hear the commotion outside my room. I place my book on the bedside table and cover myself with the blankets. Lavender. Theo comes to check on me tonight. I lie on my side, with my back on the door, and fake that I am sleeping. I sense him sitting on my bed in front of me. I can clearly smell his heady scent, and instead of being drowsy, the alluring smell is just waking me up. The tip of his fingers lightly brush against my left cheeks and temple. I can sense the warmth from it. He gently plays with my hair. And then, I feel engulfed by his frame. The lavender smell becomes stronger and I realize that he is leaning over me with both his arms on either side of my body. He places a light kiss on my jaw and whispers, “I love you, Kaiya. Good night.” After a long time, he gets up from the bed, and when
The night goes as Klevon planned. I had no choice but to stay at his side. We sample food that I never knew existed. There are also a lot more weird-looking fruits. In the hunting park, we are given raw meat from time to time. But our diet is mostly composed of fish, vegetables, and fruits—different from the ones that they sell here. Every time I see something weird, I run towards it while pulling Klevon with me. He’s become pleasant the whole time. And I am seriously enjoying myself, even if there is guilt in the back recesses of my mind. I push it down in the meantime though. Suddenly, there is a booming sound. I freeze with the kikiam still in my mouth. “What’s wrong?” Klevon asks. He reaches for my chin and wipes the sauce that’s fallen over my mouth. Another sound. I blink and look at Klevon. “Can’t you hear it?” I ask. He looks down at me while licking the same fingers he wipes my chin with. “Hear what?” “Firearms. Gun. There—” Another explosion. I jump in fright and drop
Looking at what I have done, especially at the way I killed the three monsters, I take a deep breath and saunter back to where Klevon is sprawled on the ground. “You’re weaker than before. But your shift is pretty fast. I think you are the fastest shifter that I know,” Klevon comments. Then I see the way his eyes scour my body. I groan. Right, I am completely naked because of my shift, and I parade myself as if I am wearing some thick clothing. I am about to get my clothes when I notice his erection. I glare at him. “You are such a fuck-up! Why are you getting an erection when you are dying?! Besides, my life is also at risk while fighting it!” “I can’t help it. It’s physiological, you are strutting around in your birthday suit. You even spread your legs in front of me.” “That’s only because I will be killed if I don’t! How could your mind work like that when my life is at risk?!” “The point is, I’ve seen everything. So, how about we take care of this erection at a nearby inn?”
“Come inside, Kaiya,” Theo's voice comes. I glare at the door of his office where he is working. I am his only personal guard during the day. Warriors and generals always surround him that he really does not need me. Besides, I believe he is stronger than me. I think he does this just so he can frustrate me. “Kaiya!” he calls again. I groan. With no other choice, I open the door and enter his office. He welcomes me with a bright smile. He places his chin on his hand and gazes at me. “What is it, Your Majesty?” I ask. Calling him these respectful titles never ceases to annoy him so I make it a point to do it, especially when all I wanted to do, every time I lay my eyes on him, is to kiss him. “I am on my break.” “Is there anywhere you wanted to go?” “No. I just want to talk to you for a few minutes.” I purse my lips. It’s been three days since I killed the three snake monsters. The next day, my role as his lover ceases and I become one of the warriors. I also transferred room
After my bath, I return to Theo’s office. He is still there, thankfully. At least, I won’t suffer from guarding him outside his harem rooms. Realizing that I need to announce myself first, I unconsciously touch my clothes. It’s new. I burned my previous clothes even though I feel bad for it. It is completely fine, but since General Lorant said that the green blood is dangerous, I needed to do it. “King Theo, I am back.” “Come inside, Kaiya. It will be cold outside soon.” I look at the window in front of me. It will be a few hours before it becomes cold, so I stay my ground. Suddenly, the door opens and Theo pulls me inside. Closing the door behind me, he presses his body against me and I hit my back on the door.
I stand in the middle of an arena. In front of me is an enormous man covered in armor and holding a broadsword in front of him. I pull my sword out of the sheath and face my opponent. He is the biggest of the warriors–at least in mass. His armor covers most of his body except for his joints. A helm covers his face, but even so, I can see that he is very ready to fight. “Ready…” the announcer starts. “Fight!” The crowd of spectators cheers at the same time that the man rushes towards me. He swings his broadsword and I dodge to the left, missing me by a hair’s breadth. I counter by thrusting my sword forward, aiming for his exposed shoulder joints. He parries with ease and strikes back, the force of his attack sending shockwaves down my arm. I take a step back, regaining my composure as he advances once again. This time, I feint to the right and quickly pivot to my left, slashing at his unprotected knee joints. The crowd roars as my blade makes contact, biting into him and drawing bl
It is noisy. Why are people talking about me in my room?! I open my eyes in exasperation. They are saying that I am... Wait, is Kaiya my name? I try to sit up, but my body feels heavy and sluggish. I look down and feel relieved that I have legs... Why though? Nothing is making sense. Confused, I look around. “Kaiya? You’re awake!” a handsome man with black-purple hair says. He hugs me, but I push him away. “She doesn’t like you anymore,” a handsome red-haired man says this time. He’s smaller than the first one but still exudes strength. “Kaiya, you remember me, right? I am your mate.” They wait for me to speak and so I ask, “I am Kaiya?” “Yes, your name is Kaiya,” a woman informs. “The guy with the purplish hair is your lover. The guy with red hair is your mate.” “How does that work? A mate and a lover?” The woman named Inanna shrugs her shoulders and adds, “By the way, I am Inanna.” I try to process what Inanna has just told me. Mate and lover? It feels so foreign to me. “I..
As the purification of the Moon Goddess starts, I am overwhelmed by my own memories. It’s like nothing I’ve ever felt before. The pain is excruciating, and I scream out in agony. But as time passes, the pain only intensifies. Tears flow down my face. But judging from the sting as it flows across my face, I think it is blood. I can feel my mind slipping away from the pain, and I can hear the screams of the werewolves inside my head. Suddenly, a warm hand grabs mine, squeezing it tightly. “Stay with me, Kaiya,” a voice says. Inanna. She presses her forehead against mine and whispers words of comfort. I can feel the calming magic from her as well. Through the pain, I manage to grasp onto her hands, anchoring myself to reality. Her magic and tone stabilize me, and slowly, I begin to focus on what’s happening around us. The Moon Goddess is suspended as her purification process starts. I can hear screams from outside the mimicked Realm that Inanna has done. “Don’t give up now...” she
As we leave my chamber, I can hear the sounds of battle growing louder outside. I can sense humans against humans. But there are also vampires and werewolves fighting against humans. There is the sound of swords clashing against swords or armor. Worse, I see the destruction that the fighting is doing to Orttenburg. Even in the early moments of the war, there are already casualties that can be seen around. I clench my jaws. We must end this war soon. All I need is to get General Brandon and purify the Moon Goddess. After that, we can persuade these kingdoms that there’s no need for war. As we hurry through the chaos, I feel a pang of guilt. I can’t help but feel responsible for the destruction and loss of life in Orttenburg. It was my selfishness that led to this war. I have to make this right. Finally, we reach the hall where Inanna and Ruth are waiting for us. Inanna looks at us with a stern expression. “Good, you’re here. Time is of the essence.” I nod as Gezer puts me down. Ina
After sighing, Seth says, “Fine! But only with Theo, at least him–I trust will not hurt you.” I frown. “If you know that then—” “He will not hurt you, but he might take you away!” “Oh,” I mutter because Theo might really do it. I take a deep breath and the room spins for a moment. Seth helps me back to the bed and sits with me while the room steadies. “You should rest more,” he says, but I shake my head. “I can’t waste any time,” I whisper, trying to suppress the tremble in my voice. “Invite Theo. I will meet him in one of the sitting rooms.” “There’s no need for you to move. I will lead him here.” As Seth leaves the room, I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I analyze the current situation. Theo will always help me. The only problem is, I need him to understand the situation. All we need is to trap General Brandon, take out the Moon Goddess, purify her, and that’s it. I can talk with the Moon Goddess and plead with her about my case. All I need is to be strong enough to wr
Suddenly, I am whisked away from my own mind. I open my eyes to see both Inanna and Seth looking down at me. “Kaiya, what’s wrong? What did you see?” Seth asks. “I come here because I sensed some distortions in the air,” Inanna informs. “What happened?” I swallow hard, my head reeling from all the information. It is my fault in the first place! “There’s no dark entity inside me, but I’ve found out something else instead.” “What is it?” Seth asks. He is looking worried as seconds pass. I grin at him. “I am an apostle, rather than a Vessel—if it makes any sense.” Then, I glance at Inanna and ask, “Did you know?” “Just a hint,” she says. “The Blood God told me that you are technically different from us. Gezer, Ninus, and I are Vessels. You are a little bit different, though.” “Then why did you say that I am...” “Because I don’t know what to call you.” “How is an apostle different from vessels?” “I am guessing that it’s in the amount of blessing you received. Once, the Blood Go
I watch as Theo’s ship slowly reaches the horizon. I can still feel the warmth of his embrace, and his words still echo in my heart. ‘No one can take your place, Kaiya.’ I let out a rush of air as I hold back my tears. He’s only been away for a while and I am missing him already. And so I watch as the ship eventually disappears from my sight. At the same time, Inanna reaches for my hand. “I heard that you will be doing a ritual today. Just inform me if you need help,” she says and leaves me and Seth alone on the balcony. I turn to the ocean and take a deep breath. Despite the distance, I can still feel him inside my heart. “Kaiya,” Seth calls from behind me. I turn to him and smile. “Are you ready for the ritual?” “Yes,” I nod. “Let’s start.” We both take out our supplies and prepare for the ritual. We walk to the King’s private garden—a quiet clearing where no one can disturb us. We start by setting up candles, incense, and some crystals that Inanna provided earlier. When all
“Come on, Theo.” I take his hand and we walk to my room. I open the door slowly, revealing my small but cozy room. Light from the moon spills through the window, bathing everything in a soft blue hue. “Welcome to my room,” I say warmly. He looks around carefully with curious eyes, and I can’t help but laugh at his reaction. “Do you like it?” He draws me close before answering. “It’s lovely.” His arms wrap around me tight and he nuzzles his head against mine before kissing me tenderly on the lips. “I really missed you.” I push back and grin at him. “Well, I missed you more.” I take a step back from him and remove my clothes. He watches me as I peel every piece of clothing in my body. He looks at me with such devotion that it makes me blush. “I think it’s about time you bare yourself to me too.” “Nope, I enjoy seeing you like this.” “Like what? Naked and embarrassed?” “No. Looking at me with desire in your eyes.” Theo takes a step closer and runs his hand down my naked back, se
“What the hell is going on here?!” Theo booms, his eyes blazing with fury. I freeze as I see him, my heart pounding in my chest. “King Theo! I told you that this is King Seth’s private area! You are—“ “Your King has done the same thing in my land!” he growls at Darius, who is much taller and bigger than him. Seth stands up calmly and meets Theo’s gaze. “There’s nothing going on here, King Theo. We were just talking.” Theo steps closer and takes in my state, his eyes flickering between Seth and me. “Talking? With your hands all over her? I’m not stupid, Seth. I know that you wanted her even before you have the mate bond with her!” Seth’s jaw tightens as Theo approaches him. Standing tall and unflinching, he says. “I’m not trying to do anything, Theo. Kaiya and I were just having a moment.” “A moment? Is that what you call it?” Theo sneers, grabbing Seth by the collar of his clothes. I stand up, panic rising in my chest. “Theo, stop! We were just talking, I swear!” But Theo doe