There was nothing in the world that could ever comfort her from the thing that was happening in her life. It was like she was caged in a box where everything was dark, and all she could see were those pictures that she had seen, and the words that were posted alongside those pictures. She was in a dark box where all she could feel were the rushing of her blood and the beating of her heart. If someone were to tell her that her chest had already been bruised from the inside, she would believe that person because of how hard her heart had been beating ever since she had entered the show business.
It felt like she was in a box where all she could hear were people whispering and chattering, calling her a whore, a paid actress. Somehow, since she read that, the term paid actress already had a different meaning.
Her gut feeling was right. Something bad really happened.
She knew how harsh the public was, and after she didn’t follow the advice of Theresse to
When she was little, Timothee lived with her parents in a small village in Metro. She remembered life back then to be full of colors. It was like the world was so colorful, it seemed like she was living in a fairytale. Her father would always make her feel like she was a real princess, which also was the reason why she wanted to make the most of her life. Just like a real princess, she knew that there would always be things that she wouldn’t be able to do. That was why for as long as she could, she did all the things that she could do even when it would end up with a scolding from her parents. They were loved by the neighborhood, at least that was what she saw back then. Whenever they went out, everyone they came across in the streets would always greet them, tell them a good morning, and they would never ever forget to compliment her beauty. Back then, Timothee liked wearing princess clothes which people found adorable. They would always tell her, “you’re so pretty,
Timothee was wrong. She had been thinking that it was only Ngel who knew about her relationship with Raphael. However, that wasn't that actual case. She had forgotten about that one person who knew about the existence of their relationship. The reason why she forgot was probably because she knew when they were still at the first three months of their relationship. They were sitll in high school back then, and the two of them planned to meet up in secret. Raphael said that they'd be meeting up someone where no one would know because he wanted to spend more time with her. He wanted to do so because they hadn't talked to each other for a whole week. They were still young back then, and they were still constricted by a lot of factors. That was what they did. Timothee remembered asking her parents that she'd be staying in Ngel's house for a while because he had a new game to play, and she wanted to play with
“You took him from me,” the girl said briefly which immediately confused Timothee. Who was the ‘him’ that she was talking about? Her eyebrows furrowed before looking back at her again. She saw that the girl’s lips were already pursed. “I don’t know what you’re saying. I don’t know who you’re referring to.” “Oh come on, Timothee. I know that you know who I’m referring to. You snatched him away from me, remember? My precious Raphael who was in loved with me, you took. You took him away from me!” Her eyes were already so wide, it looked like they would get out of her eye sockets. “He’s my life, Timothee! It’s better for me to die than to live without him, than to see him with you. I hate it. I hate you so much you’d thank me I haven’t even killed you yet.” It felt like her world crashed down on her as she heard those words from her. &nbs
Was it even possible for the heart to change as fast as that? That question was that one thing that had been running inside her mind that she was afraid to answer. She was afraid of the answer that she was trying to deny. It had already been spelled out clearly deep inside her.Confusion. That was one thing that she felt, especially now that she was trying to deny the thoughts that her mind had been telling her. How couldn’t she? Timothee wasn’t the type of person who changed her mind in a snap of a finger. She wasn’t that kind whose feelings would change in an instant.‘Your feelings didn’t really change in a snap, right? Your mind has just been told to think otherwise,’ her mind blurted out, immediately making her shake her head, trying to stop thinking about it. ‘Stop denying it, Timothee. You know your feelings. You know what you feel.’“Shut up.”“What?&rdquo
It was already six hours since the management had sent her a cue to publish the post both on her Twitter account and Facebook page, but Timothee had still yet to check her notifications. In fact, her cellphone had already been sitting at the foot of her bed for almost six hours already, cold and untouched, heavy with the pressure of the situation.She knew that any moment from now, she would need to face them eventually. She really just wanted to cherish the last moments of her peace. After all, even when she had already spoken about the truth, she knew that not everyone would ever accept it just yet. Some would even think that she hadn’t suffered enough yet, even when they didn’t know even the surface of her suffering.She let out a sigh before standing to get herself a glass of water. She paused the movie that she was watching to kill time before heading to the kitchen.She was alone in her condo now, but Rory and Theresse promised to visit her onc
Raphael stayed for dinner.Actually, he was probably too shy to even decline the invitation, especially when it was Ngel himself who invited for him to stay.The guy just stayed in the living room while Ngel cooked sinigang na baboy. She still hadn’t asked where he had been because the atmosphere was way too awkward for her to even bring that up.It was way too awkward for Timothee to handle so she excused herself to go inside her room, forcing her to pick up her phone that had long been sitting at the foot of her bed.She hadn’t turned on the wifi yet so she still hadn’t seen the notifications that she had been ignoring. However, it was indeed true that Raphael had called her a few times, probably to tell her that he would come to visit. She was surprised that he even had time to do so, considering his schedule.She also received a number of texts from Rory and Theresse as they had been updating her about their
Timothee had known about this idea way back in high school.They said that if you were confused about which one to choose between two objects, or two people perhaps, one toss of a coin would determine the choice.It wasn’t about probability or the fact that coin toss was considered as the fairest game there was because it had the fairest odds possible (although the odds weren’t exactly 50:50 since the two sides of the coin had a slight difference in their mass).It went with the idea that once the coin was already tossed in the air, there would be a side that deep inside, you would wish for to land upright. You would know what to choose by then.Maybe it wasn’t the same for everyone, but it had surely been the case for Timothee. She believed, just like how the probabilities in a coin toss aren’t exactly equal, no person liked two objects exactly the same. No, there would always be a little bit of difference when it came to feelings
Hospitals were scary. The last time she went inside a hospital had been years ago. It had been during that time when she wasn’t yet aware of how harsh the world truly was—innocence was still there, flowing inside her veins. But even so,, even when it had happened years ago, she could still remember it vividly inside her head as if it happened yesterday.She could still remember how the heat of the sun tickled her skin during that afternoon. She was outside their house by then, and if she remembered it correctly, she was with Ngel, playing their favorite game to play as she was told to wait for her parents’ arrival. They had matters to attend to, and were gone for days.That was when a car stopped in front of their house. The car was pitch black, there was nothing by the looks of it that was familiar to her.Both she and Ngel looked up, she was feeling slightly nervous, not because she already knew the news that would change her life forever. It