Chapter 87 Love of Lies

Amanda's POV

There is physical pain, and there is emotional pain. One can be cured with medicines and herbs. The other is a bit difficult. But when the two happen to a person all at once, it could feel like hell. I went through hell and died a thousand times when I realised I have been living a life of lies with Rick, when I realised he never truly loved me, he was just marinating for a greater future taste, and that all of the love I had for him was fruitless. It was a hard pain to bear. All the follow up events that got my mind busy a7nd never really allowed me to mourn, but that doesn't mean the pain and hurt were not somewhere at the corner of my heart.

Jackson came on board and has showered me with unimaginable affection. It was as though he was doing everything to make my wounded heart heal in time. I knew I needed to heal completely for us to move forward in our relationship. I was desperate to reciprocate his affection and show of love, but it was not working well for me. I wa