Prologue

Felix Klein Ramirez. He’s my boyfriend, and we’ve been dating for almost two years. We both love green tea cake, and that’s why we feel that the two of us fit in and become a couple. Besides that, Felix and I also like comics. Felix has been drawing since he was young, and when we started dating, I was surprised to find that he had been writing comics all his life. One day he came home, and he told me, “I have been writing.”

Tomorrow is my seventeenth birthday, and then I will bring Felix as my soul mate. My first transformation, I hope it will be for the best even though it will definitely hurt. However, Felix seems so quiet these days he even refuses to meet me. He seems to avoid me these few days, and now he is in front of me without his sweet smile.

“Kate, I don’t think we’re compatible anymore. Our relationship is messed up right now,” Felix said in such an ambiguous tone. 

The amber eyes looked strange to me. 

“Erm, what are you saying?” I asked in a hoarse voice. 

“I was texting her I’m ending things. She must have got the message. I was hoping it would be sooner, but we never quite got there. She wants to call a truce, but I can’t. I’m done with her,” Felix said as he left. 

“Then why are you leaving me?” I asked and ran after him.

 

“Because I am a good person. I've been good to you. I don’t know what to say, so I have to leave,” Felix replied and grabbed his coat. 

“I love you, Felix!” I screamed and hugged him. “It’s over,” he said with a sad smile. Is it over? 

“How?” I asked as we stepped outside. I couldn’t even make myself heard. “That’s all I can say. I've thought about it many times. It’s only a matter of time before I move on,” Felix said and wiped 

“What do you mean, honey? Did I violate your prohibition?” I asked in my usual spoiled tone.

Felix averted his gaze. “You broke nothing. It’s just that I feel we are no longer compatible.”

I sighed with the exasperation at the world’s worst mother. “Felix, we’re incompatible? Tell me I’m not the only one who thinks I’m a total snot.”

Felix shot me a dirty look. “Oh, please. No one cares. They all love you and want you to stay forever. But, you know you have to grow up sometime.”

My face broke into a huge smile as I pulled Felix close to me and kissed him on the head. “Felix, I am never growing up. I’m never going to not love you.”

Felix sighed and took my face in his hands. He stared into my eyes and placed a tender kiss on my lips. “I know you are never growing up, but you are growing up. I don’t think that’s a perfect thing for you. I think you should just stay that way forever.”

My heart fluttered at his words, but I had to laugh at his innocence. “Felix, I am forever young. I’m not growing up or getting older. I’m the same little girl I was the day you met me.”

Felix grinned widely and pulled me in for another kiss. He winked and said that was correct. “You’re still the only one I want. You’re the only girl I want.”

I wrapped my arms around him and whispered in, “Honey, don’t joke with me. I know you’re lying, right? You’ll prank on me again like last year. You know very well that I am terrified of losing you.”

“Kate, we’re not together anymore,” Felix muttered under his breath.

“But why?” I asked, annoyed. “Felix, don't joke all the time. Are you going to reject me as your mate?”

“Yes. I think just being friends is more—”

“Felix,” I interrupted. “Please don’t finish that sentence. How can we be friends if we can’t even fight? Why do we have to break up?”

He looked at me in a surprising way and shook his head. “You know why. I’m uncomfortable.”

“Hahaha. So now you’re admitting it.”

“I didn’t admit it. I just said I’m uncomfortable with you,” he said weakly. “And I’m uncomfortable because you are this weird and flawed girl who never grew up. And if you change your mind to grow up, you’ll have to take on that responsibility. I know you love me, but what if you had to choose between me and others?”

I laughed. “Felix, you’re so dramatic. And who said I’m choosing between you and others? I’m choosing between you and whoever I want to be with. How is that a problem?”

“It’s a problem because you don’t have a mind! How do you think you’ll get along with your friends, wearing that’s mind?”

“What, friends? I don’t have any friends besides you. You’re my only friend. I don’t want to lose you, and you know what happened to me all this time, don’t you? I don’t want you to leave, don’t reject me,” I cut in.

Felix took a deep breath, then rubbed the top of my head. “Hurry in. I’m going to see Elder James.”

“Will there be other activities for Freepaw?” I asked

Elder James is the leader of our wolf pack, while Freepaw is the name I made for our city’s alternate title. Our city is called Vadawolf, many werewolves live in Vadawolf, and the most famous are the three major groups of werewolves here. Namely Jungle Power, Scarlett Moon, and Youth Goofy. Of the three well-known groups, we are part of Jungle Power. 

“Nothing, and please lower your voice when you mention that term. You’ve entered your period of transformation, Kate.” Felix sighed.

“Okay. I was wrong about this. Why do you want to see him?” I asked.

“Discusses Justin’s death during his first transformation. Go into your house and don’t let the Harvester eat you raw.”

I sighed, then entered my house. I heard that Felix had run away from my home. I went upstairs from the wooden house, straight to my room without washing my face first. I sat on my bed a little confused because suddenly Felix was acting strange today. I don’t know what happened to him. I try to forget it. After all, I have to sleep early because I really can’t wait for my first transformation tomorrow.

+++

I woke up when it was already eight in the morning. I’m late to get up early for the umpteenth time. I quickly cleaned myself up and grabbed the suit I had just picked up from the tailor a few days before. A sunflower patterned jumpsuit that is complemented by a yellow outer but made of denim.

I happily started applying my makeup light makeup so I wouldn’t look like a sick wolf in front of everyone. I took half of my hair and tied it a little high.

I went downstairs with happy steps.

“Sweetie, are you awake?”

I heard my mother calling, hearing my footsteps coming down the stairs. I immediately ran to meet him because I did not want to waste much time meeting my soul mate immediately. My mother was in the dining room, preparing breakfast for me. He smiled widely.

“Come here, sweetie.”

I walked over to him and received a warm hug.

“Happy birthday, sweetie,” she said.

“Thank you, Mom. I love you,” I mumbled later.

I received a warm kiss from my mom, then she gave me a cute package that was sure to contain delicious food. I immediately gave my kisses on both cheeks.

“I love you too, dear. Be a good girl,” she replied.

I smiled widely, then put the cute packaging in my backpack to school.

I’m just living with my mom at the moment because I don’t know where my dad is now. My daddy was an ordinary human being, which was annoying and disgusting. He still lived with us a few years ago, and now we don’t know his whereabouts. However, I’m grateful that he went away from my life and my mom’s life.

Their relationship may be like humans in general. My mom loves my dad very much, maybe even will do everything possible to survive with one soul mate until the end of life. However, perhaps fate said otherwise, because my dad had an affair with another woman. And it keeps repeating itself, and it makes me sick.

Honestly, I hate him and want to pounce on him if I’ve transformed into a werewolf. I wanted to rip his neck and let him feel the same pain he did to me. Unknowingly is what made me grow like this, made me grow up with half a grudge shrouding my heart. My mom was one of the unlucky werewolves to get a second chance at finding a mate.

She focused on me and my older sister, who now lives with an Alpha of her choice, Gustov.

After breakfast that morning, I immediately went to school with a cute motorbike as a gift from Elizabeth, my sister. Just now, I parked my motorbike in a special parking lot, and I looked for Felix. I looked around carefully, and suddenly I felt a wolf’s movement inside my body.

“Soulmate.”

I chuckled a little, looked around the place, and found Felix in a park with his arm supporting a comic. I approached him.

“Dear!”

He glared at me, and he didn’t seem to like me shouting like that. He’s been acting weird lately. I don’t know what happened to Felix. His brow furrowed in annoyance, and then he looked at me with an annoyed look.

What did I do wrong, I thought.

“Honey, are you still mad? What happened? Why did you suddenly change?” I asked.

He stood up straight, left his comic, and put his hands in his trouser pockets. “Listen to me. I am Felix Klein Ramirez, rejecting you as my mate, Katherina Rosemary.”

I felt lightning as if it struck my body that morning. I don’t understand what made Felix have the heart to do that to me. I thought Felix would be so happy like me. He even refused me to be his mate. What is wrong with me? What happened to him? He rejected me?

I can’t think well now, and I look stupid. While still standing there looking at Felix, who has left in front of me. I’m devastated now. My eyes feel hot from expelling the clear liquid. I looked at his back once again.

“What happened, Felix? Why did you reject me?” With tears slowly falling, I quickly left that place. Find a safe place to cry.