Guilt is what I feel as I finish myself off while sitting across the road from her house, her silhouette was my show and I could see her from afar for once, I could see the waviness of her hair and the shape of her body.Every fibre of my being wants to ring that bell on the gate, but she doesn't want anything to do with me, and she made that very clear.I wish that I could buy her a gift and spoil her, because today she had a milestone, which I'm very proud of, but there's a bigger piece of me wishing that she wasn't so successful.I have waisted hours and large amounts of money getting rid of her face in public photos and videos too, and it's hard work when she's just becoming more famous.I had to buy pictures worth thousands of dollars just to stop the paparazzi from taking the photos they took of her to the news.I have a special detective on her every single day, watching her for her safety, but sometimes it still doesn't feel enough and that's why I drive out here every single
Walking into the office, I can feel everyone's eyes on me, especially Julie's. She's in love with Ryan, and everyone can see it except for Ryan.He's a sweet man, but he's so oblivious to her affection. She brings him coffee every morning, and not the cheap kind, and I know she's been the one staring daggers at the back of me."Good morning," Ryan slides in beside me, and I ignore the rest as we head to a meeting in the conference room."Hi, Ryan," I beam as he snakes his arm around my back, squeezing me closer to him in a tight hug."Are you ready for it?" he grins, looking nervous and excited at the same time.I didn't plan on coming in this early, but when he called me this morning and told me there was a meeting, I quickly got ready and came in."I don't know what it is," I roll my eyes playfully, and his knowing grin intrigues me.Is he planning something?"Do you?" I ask as I realize his hand is still on my lower back. I stop, and his hand slides to my waist before breaking cont
I reach for my car handle, tensing when I hear Monty's voice calling out my name, "Blaze, can I catch a ride with you?" he shouts over the lawn, and I roll my eyes, turning to look at him jogging over.Monty's wearing a white shirt with his dark blue jeans, and I just stare until he stops in front of me."Why?" I ask blandly, and his eyes widen, offense written all over his face."I told my parents I'd meet them there...", "Then take your own car, I have errands to run." I deadpan and his eyes narrow as his brows furrow together."Alright," he takes a few steps back, then he smiles, "See you there," he waves goodbye and leaves.I can't let him drive with me, because I have somewhere else to be first.Driving into the city was peaceful until all the traffic started and my blood started to boil.I'm going to be late if I stop at her house first..."Shit," I curse and change direction. I don't want to ruin my mother's night, and my dad will be pissed, not that I care, but I want to see m
"Are you coming over tonight?" My boyfriend Monty tucks a strand of my caramel hair behind my ear, his thumb gliding down the shell all the way down to my earlobe.My lips part as I lean in and whisper into his ear, "I'm sorry, I have to finish packing, You know, I got accepted to that university I applied to. How about you help me pack the last things?""With your dad around? No thanks," He shook his head softly and finished with a soft kiss on my lips.He's afraid of my father after my dad scolded him when he found us kissing in my bedroom, behind a closed door."That was a long time ago, and it's our last night." I pout, putting down my books on the edge of my locker. I wrap my arms around his waist, we're not going to see each other for a very long time, and I don't want to waste a single second of the little time we have left.But even so, I have to get out of here. We're all graduating tomorrow and I have been saving up to go to university for years.Over the past five years, I
I open the room door wider when both look into my direction and Nicky quickly backs away from Monty, my boyfriend."Aerilyn," Monty breathes out, his shocked expression only angers me even more."Air," Nicky mumbles."HOW COULD YOU?!" I spit as hot tears swell in my eyes."It's not...”"What it looks like?" I sneer at Monty as I interrupt his silly, useless excuse."So, you're NOT FU*KING my best friend?"I snap, shaking my head, "No, Ex-best friend," I correct myself,"Why don't you explain anymore? My DEAR, ex- boyfriend!" I asked unflinchingly, glaring at a naked Monty.Nicky looks baffled like it's not a big deal, but to her, it isn't, "Aerilyn,""No, you don't even get to talk to me!" I point at her as I inch closer.My gaze slowly travels to Monty, "Neither of you gets to talk to me,"I sneer, my jaw hurting with how much I'm biting down on my teeth. I absentmindedly continue to inch closer, my hands fisted at my side with my nails digging into the soft flesh of my palm."So, is
My legs carry me home, but my mind is all over the memory of watching Nicky touch Monty, how her fresh manicured hand slid down his chest, moving right into his boxers.The memory of his pleasurable moan sends icy chills to my core, the betrayal makes my mind spin, because I don't know how he could do that...I don't know why he would do that to me.What's worse is that he did itwith Nicky, and now I didn'tjust lose my boyfriend, but Ilost my best friend too. Now that I'm alone again, there's no one on my side, and no one loves me anymore. Luckily, I'll be leaving soon, leaving this hell behind and all of these demonic people too.I kept consoling myself as I made my way home.Somehow, I felt a bit better knowing that such trashy people were out of my life for good.Losing someone like that, wasn't regrettable, was it?I nodded in agreement with my thoughts as I stride up to my front door, and I inhale a deep breath as I muster up the courage to step into the house.In the living r
"Go home with me."Aerilyn seemed startled by my words, lifting her head to look at me in shock, trying hard to discern whether I was joking.Quickly, she shook her head and refused me, "No, thank you."The expression on her face was as if she had seen something disgusting. I could swear she probably thought it would be better to sleep in the park than under the same roof as me.What? Would she be cursed to live with me?!The more she tried to refuse me, the more curious I became about how she would fare at my place. Besides, where else did she have to go now?I crossed my arms intentionally and asked, "Then where are you going? To find Monty or Nicky? Don't tell me you'll forgive them just like that."Sure enough, her brows furrowed quickly, and she gritted her teeth, reverting to her old self."It's none of your business!" She snapped angrily at me.Well, if she could still speak so loudly, then it didn't seem like a big deal.I pursed my lips and nodded in agreement, "Right. I'll l
I find myself wandering into her room, well the guest bedroom where she'd be sleeping, which is right next to mine and the thought sparks some sort of pleasure in my heart.Some idiotic part of me wants to ask if she's alright, but with every ounce of grief I gave her over the years, she'd tell me to go screw myself.We have never gotten along, and here I am, insisting that she spends the night in my house.Just as I sit down on the bed, my phone starts to vibrate in my trouser pocket and I slowly slide it out, seeing Monty's name on my screen.I have never been so unwilling to answer his call before, but what he did was stupid, but nonetheless, he's been there for me through way worse, so I answer the call while Aerilyn is still in the shower."What is it dumbass?" I snort, shaking my head."I screwed up man, I...I can't find Aerilyn and her parents haven't seen her and I need to apologise, I need to explain." He rambles so fast that I could barely hear, but as his best friend, I mak
I reach for my car handle, tensing when I hear Monty's voice calling out my name, "Blaze, can I catch a ride with you?" he shouts over the lawn, and I roll my eyes, turning to look at him jogging over.Monty's wearing a white shirt with his dark blue jeans, and I just stare until he stops in front of me."Why?" I ask blandly, and his eyes widen, offense written all over his face."I told my parents I'd meet them there...", "Then take your own car, I have errands to run." I deadpan and his eyes narrow as his brows furrow together."Alright," he takes a few steps back, then he smiles, "See you there," he waves goodbye and leaves.I can't let him drive with me, because I have somewhere else to be first.Driving into the city was peaceful until all the traffic started and my blood started to boil.I'm going to be late if I stop at her house first..."Shit," I curse and change direction. I don't want to ruin my mother's night, and my dad will be pissed, not that I care, but I want to see m
Walking into the office, I can feel everyone's eyes on me, especially Julie's. She's in love with Ryan, and everyone can see it except for Ryan.He's a sweet man, but he's so oblivious to her affection. She brings him coffee every morning, and not the cheap kind, and I know she's been the one staring daggers at the back of me."Good morning," Ryan slides in beside me, and I ignore the rest as we head to a meeting in the conference room."Hi, Ryan," I beam as he snakes his arm around my back, squeezing me closer to him in a tight hug."Are you ready for it?" he grins, looking nervous and excited at the same time.I didn't plan on coming in this early, but when he called me this morning and told me there was a meeting, I quickly got ready and came in."I don't know what it is," I roll my eyes playfully, and his knowing grin intrigues me.Is he planning something?"Do you?" I ask as I realize his hand is still on my lower back. I stop, and his hand slides to my waist before breaking cont
Guilt is what I feel as I finish myself off while sitting across the road from her house, her silhouette was my show and I could see her from afar for once, I could see the waviness of her hair and the shape of her body.Every fibre of my being wants to ring that bell on the gate, but she doesn't want anything to do with me, and she made that very clear.I wish that I could buy her a gift and spoil her, because today she had a milestone, which I'm very proud of, but there's a bigger piece of me wishing that she wasn't so successful.I have waisted hours and large amounts of money getting rid of her face in public photos and videos too, and it's hard work when she's just becoming more famous.I had to buy pictures worth thousands of dollars just to stop the paparazzi from taking the photos they took of her to the news.I have a special detective on her every single day, watching her for her safety, but sometimes it still doesn't feel enough and that's why I drive out here every single
"Congratulations Aerilyn!"Everyone screams as I stride into the office, and Ryan hands me some flowers and a little jewellery box.I just won yet another case, and it was my two-thousand- case milestone.Overwhelmed by everyone's happiness for me, tears swell. I haven't changed the world, and I'm not even close, but I have changed the world for some people.This morning's case was especially close to home, so I fought for that woman with every ounce of energy I had.Ryan rests his hand on my shoulder, squeezing it as he stares at me with amazement in his eyes, and I recognize that look."Can I go home? It's been a long morning," I sigh, and Ryan looks slightly disappointed, but agrees, "You deserve it," and he's right. I do deserve it, because I have worked on that case for months."I'll see you tomorrow," I smile as I turn to leave.I feel terrible that I didn't stay for the cake I noticed, but I don't want Ryan to think that I'm romantically interested in him like he is in me.I fe
"Ryan, where are we going?" | whisper as we sit in the back of his father's limo.Ryan's family is very rich, and he's been a very good friend since we met each other in law school.We've become study buddies, and probably inseparable since, but I have noticed that he likes me, but I think I have made it very clean that all I want is to be friends."I don't know," he sighs, looking concerned.I've been looking for jobs for a few months, and now that we've finally graduated, I really want to get one.I've saved enough to live comfortably for a long time, but I want to work.I want to help the people who can't help themselves."What do you mean you don't know? Isn't this your car?" | ask baffled.Ryan always came to school in this car, it dropped him off and picked him up."No, this is my dad's." he clarifies, and it's baffling that they have the same vehicle."Why are we in your dad's limo?" I snort.This feels ridiculous, because how do these people have more money than us?What do th
-- Years of chasing men away, scaring them that they abandon Aerilyn has been a hoot, but what amused me the most was when I had her parents locked up, for good. It took a few months of spying, getting to know their routine and hidden cameras all over the pack to catch them, and a few other's. I locked up the drug dealer first, and then they followed him right to the cells along with their addict friends. The look on their faces was priceless, and even though they pleaded for me not to do it, I felt no remorse, because all I saw was Aerilyn on the floor, her tear-stained cheeks and ceramic pieces stuck in her hair and the cuts. All the people who were under the influence fell after, but they were my priority, because it was personal. After all the over looking on people who were struggling, I've begun to notice what Aerilyn has been talking about, and there wasn't much I could do at first, but after a night out following her to a busy restaurant, I've realized that the pack need
It's been a week of calling Blaze non stop about the money he left here. I've left it untouched in my little safe, until he sent me a text.Blaze: Keep the money, I don't want it. And stop calling unless you're coming home.My silence was an answer after that, and I've quit my job to focus on my studies after I found an internship job at a local law firm.It's not an extravagant job,nor is it a very good pay, but Ican live off it since theapartment I rented is now inmy name, and I only pay basicbills.--The first few years of working for the law firm is great, and tomorrow, I graduate from college with a degree. I have worked hard, stayed consistent and I have high grades, which the law firm was happy about since I start my job, as a fully qualified lawyer, the day after tomorrow.My phone dings as I stride over to my car, and I slide it out of my pocket, sighing when I notice Henrick's name in my notification bar.We've been going out for about two months, but I don't really li
"Stop breaking things!" I yell as he strides up and down, heaving while doing so.Blaze freezes, turning to look at me with a cold gaze, "You are the one who's making things difficult," he spits and my jaw drops, "Excuse me?" I glare at him.He snorts, rolling his eyes as he turns his head, "You heard me," he sneers, his teeth grinding against each other as he tries not to yell at me.My fingers dig into the cushions below me as anger pulses through my veins, "I am not the one making things difficult, you did that!" I point at him, "You are the one who was stupid enough to mark me!", "I'm not stupid!" he whips around, glaring at me, his eyes dark and filled with hatred. "You did a stupid thing! That makes you stupid!" I wish I could use his rolling eyeball as a bowling ball because then I'd have a full strike,"Stop telling me I am stupid!" he growls, his deep demand doesn't affect me."But you are, and you're even more stupid if you think I will go back to that hell hole!","It's not
A blissful second has been ruined by his request, "Excuse me?" I ask baffled, not knowing if I heard him right.It could be my own spiraling mind playing tricks on me, even if I doubt it is, but it is a possibility. Blaze sighs, "Come home with me," the confusion and anger is replaced with fear. I step back, putting distance between us, "Are you insane?" I frown. "Have you forgotten why I left in the first place?" I yell."Air,", "Aerilyn," I snap,correcting him. I don't want him giving me a nickname, I don't want him dragging me home because he made a big mistake."Come on," he inches closer, but for every step he takes towards me, I take two steps back."No," I grit out. "I can protect you," his head leans forward, his gorgeous bright eyes pleading with me, but there is no way in hell that I will ever go back there.A wave of nausea hits me, hard. All of the abuse and heartache flood my body, making my eyes glassy as tears, "No, stop being so fucking selfish!" I yell."This isn't m