Chapter 1:
"Geez babe, you should've heard Natalie today! She looked right at Mr. Hanks and said, you know, I'm pretty sure the whole reason your eyes are brown is because not even your body can handle your bullshit!" Randy's laugh echoed throughout the room, hard and loud as if his story contained the funniest joke known to man.
It left the table feeling slightly hollow and as Kaitlyn looked up from her meal, she could only offer a small simper. Her cobalt blue eyes fluttering as she watched her fiancé bellow from across their small oak table.
While she hadn't fully understood his animated story about work, she admired the sparkle in his crinkled brown eyes. His entire face lit up when he laughed, as if it took years off his profile. Kaitlyn never tired of seeing it.
She had loved his smile when she was only a mere twelve years old... and she loved it now.
"Natalie," the name wasn't foreign on her tongue these last few months, she almost wanted to meet the girl. "She seems to have gotten pretty bold lately." The observation followed a quick stab of a carrot before she plopped it happily into her mouth. "I remember when you said she was as silent as a mouse, I'm glad she's finally fitting in at work." She smiled.
Randy seemed to perk up at that, shrugging his broad shoulders with a mega watt smile. "Yeah. She's definitely come out of her shell. I remember when she was quiet and would just sit in her office doodling rather than talk to us. But she's actually hilarious. She's basically the best part about the office."
Well, that one kind of stung. Wiping her mouth slowly, Kaitlyn nodded.
"I guess she just took some time to get comfortable," Kaitlyn answered, her voice soft. But as her fingers gently began to tap the table, she found herself hoping to change the subject from the blonde art therapist to their future wedding plans. She had nothing against the girl, but her anxiety was grabbing hold of her.
Again.
It was getting worse as time went on, impatience a drug that dropped low in her stomach every time Randy came home these days.
"I was looking at table cloths today, different settings too," her mouth opened on its own accord, the bravery she felt fading when Randy stared at her blankly.
His smile was gone.
He never seemed to smile at her anymore, unless he was talking about work.
"Settings for what?" he asked his thick brows knitting as he chewed his food noisly, "I like the table cloth we have now. It looks good in the kitchen... I think."
Kaitlyn couldn't help but giggle and shake her head. Red locks weaving over her shoulders as she stared in wonderment at how her sweet fiance could always be so dense. "I meant settings for our wedding, Randy! The decorations are important."
The way his chewing drew to a snail's pace was odd, but she kept smiling regardless. She couldn't contain her excitement to discuss it with him.
Randy only stared at her though before swallowing. "Ah, I'm an idiot. Did you find anything you like?"
"Yes, quite a few things actually!! I thought about pink, but I know how much you hate that color... so I found some neutral reds or maybe even lavender to off set the white? I have the samples in my purse. I wanted to get your opinion before I finalized it since it's going to be the best moment of our future marriage!" Kaitlyn was positively buzzing in her seat, ready to grab her purse the minute he expressed interest.
And yet, he didn't.
Randy finished his last bite of his juicy sirloin and let his utensils drop on the empty plate with a cough. "I see. Well, as much as I appreciate your... thoughtfulness, I trust your taste. Pick whatever you want," he assured with a slight smile.
Kaitlyn resisted the pull on her lips, fighting the urge to frown. After all, she should be happy Randy had such blind faith in her taste...right? Then again, he seemed to have the same answer when it came to anything about their wedding. Nonchalant, almost disinterested.
She picked at her remaining carrots. "I just thought you might want to give an opinion, you know, be more involved…" she trailed off with a forced smile, but she recovered quickly enough. Her long lashes stared at him with intent. Determined. "Actually, I also narrowed down the list of places for the venue. We can go over those tonight, together since-"
Randy held up his hand and she shut up mid sentence. "Sorry, K. I need to continue editing my paper for the firm tonight, I'm featured in our journal, remember? I don't have time. Maybe next time?"
Kaitlyn deflated like a balloon. Her pink petal lips lost the battle--the frown on her face apparent to the world as her brows furrowed.
"Randy..." she started, feeling...well, she didn't know what she was feeling. "We've been stuck planning this wedding for 6 years. Not one, not two. But six. Couldn't you give me just fifteen minutes of your time? That's all I'm asking."
She wasn't sure how he was feeling but as he reached over and took her tender hand into his own, her heart hurt. But it was so, so hard, to stay mad.
Randy sighed. "I know it's been hard, hell frustrating, but I really have to make this deadline. My boss will kill me, I'm a head researcher K, I can't jeopardize that." He answered so gently that Kaitlyn felt guilty. The young woman was always boasting with pride about how her fiancé was the one and only Dr. Randy Folts. With a grand Ph.D. in Social Psychology, he was kind and well respected in the field.
Kaitlyn admired him, she had watched him grow from the playful boy who stuck flowers in her hair, to the intelligent and kind man he was today. He was a hard worker, one of the best. However, it was this same trait that made him more inclined to do extra work to spare his colleagues and leave her wanting his attention.
She hated to admit it but she was lonely.
His next words, they didn't help that unrelenting truth.
"I swear that I'll give you my undivided attention this weekend." The promise felt rushed but Randy was grinning at her and the butterflies in her stomach acted up again.
Kaitlyn couldn't help but return his smile. How could she stay mad at him? "Okay, but you better keep your word." She said it with a loud sigh before peeking at him, serious. "But please... don't forget, okay?"
He nodded and did a small bow with his head. "I won't. Scouts honor." Randy grinned.
And all felt right with the world as she gathered up the dishes, until he blanched, faltering.
"What is it, Randy?"
Her fiancé laughed, nervous. Her stomach churned.
"Well, actually. You'll be busy tonight anyway." He added hesitantly.
And Kaitlyn raised a single thin brow. Randy ran his fingers through his brown, slick hair. "I know I should've told you sooner, but a friend is coming to stay with us tonight. Well for more than tonight."
"What?" Kaitlyn practically yelped; blue eyes wide as saucers as she stared at him in shock.
Why did he think it was okay to just invite people unannounced? Why did she always feel like she had no true say in their own home!
Her own dissatisfaction at the words came through her sweaty palms and before she knew it, Randy was squeezing her hand before releasing her. "Sorry, Babe, but he's a friend of mine. He doesn't have a job right now and really needs a place while he looks for one... so now he has one, at least for now. It's just for a little while." Randy hurriedly explained while fixing his tie for work, taking his plate and dumping it into the sink half hazardously.
He? A random guy was going to be in their house?
Kaitlyn sunk further into her chair. Shock and annoyance still smothering her system as she objected from her seat.
"Randy- this is ridiculous, nothing is ready for him!"
The blankets for the guest room were dirty, she had to prepare more food--the stew tonight surely was only enough for two and lastly, she had no idea about any of this!
His back was to her as he quickly slipped on his shoes. "Don't worry about that, he won't care. He's a good guy." he assured her, far too cheery for her pysche at the moment.
"So, how long is he staying with us... you said it's just for a bit?" She fished, hoping for a solid answer.
Then again, Randy was the one answering.
He turned his head and grinned. For once, it didn't bring her joy. "Indefinitely for now?"
"Randy!!" Kaitlyn basically whined again, feeling like a toddler. "You can't just make these kind of decisions without me! It isn't fair and it's wrong!"
Giving her a glance with his crinkled eyes, the medium sized man strode over to Kaitlyn and gently gripped her shoulders. "I know I should've told you. Honestly, I was just so overwhelmed because I wanted to help him, it slipped my mind K. I'm so sorry, please forgive me," he cooed, sweet as honey, and Kaitlyn knew he did it on purpose.
Nonetheless she found her nerve slipping as she inhaled the rich smell of his cologne. His neck in her line of sight as he leaned down to give her a chaste kiss on her forehead. Then she caught him glancing at the clock on the wall.
He was pulling away.
"He should be here any minute now. I gave him a key yesterday, so don't worry about that. Just show him where stuff is and he'll be set till I get home from work."
The nerves were back.
"W-Wait," Kaitlyn stuttered as she followed him out the front door. "Where are you going?"
"Sorry, I'm going to work on my paper at the office. It's easier for me to concentrate there," Randy apologized as his large hands grabbed his work bag and slung it over his shoulder.
Kaitlyn couldn't believe it.
"So let me get this straight, you're going to leave me to greet a stranger? By myself?" A man, at that? But she kept that to herself. Bothered as she followed him down the walkway and to his car, the stockings on her feet were scratching against the cement as she scurried behind him. A stomp to her steps as she felt more agitated than she had in a very long time. "Can't you at least wait till he gets here?"
Randy just shook his head, the sound of the car unlocking abnormally loud to her. "Nope, you'll be fine. Sides' the sooner I finish, the sooner I can come back home. That's what you want right?" He said it flipplantly as if he was immune to her worries and tossed his bag into the passenger seat.
"Seriously, you'll be fine. You'll like him." He gave her a short wave and leaned out to give her a kiss on the cheek before he all but disappeared into his car.
Kaitlyn watched, bewildered, as he drove away. She stood there, her pink nails picking at her stockings as she waited until his car vanished from view. Her heartbeat so slow, she felt she might faint. "I don't even know his name," she murmured as if Randy could somehow answer.
"It's Jackson," But it definitely wasn't Randy who spoke.
Jumping back, Kaitlyn nearly slipped on her ass. And she would've too, if not for the stranger's long lithe fingers catching her arm. Her eyes met his stark emerald ones ( such a stunning color ) and her breath hitched. He towered over her by at least a foot or so, though part of his height may have been due to his choppy, spiked up charcoal hair. Messy, yet handsome. A stark difference than the usual sunshine disposition Randy carried.
The tall man had an almost.. playful smile. "Jackson, nice to meet you, though you're a tad bit clumsy, don't you think?"
Chapter 2:Kaitlyn was quiet as she descended the steps of her house, her soft pink socks barely making a noise as she peered over the railing.There he was, silent as ever. Perched on her bright white couch as the raven lounged across it to stare at their T.V, as if he owned it. The sight was a little unsettling and she frowned. It had been three days since he'd shown up to live with her and Randy. And still, she had no idea what to make of him.She found him annoying, lazy, and entirely too tall. And to make matters worse, she still had no idea how Randy had met such an odd person. She'd known Randy since they were children, growing up in the same posh neighborhood as they played cops and robbers together. She'd even gone to the same university as him in order to keep the strain on their relationship light. She had made up her mind as soon as they began dating in middleschool.
Chapter 3:She shouldn't have been disappointed.But as she stared across the way at Randy's hurried movements, she couldn't help the heavy feeling in her heart.It was common these days."Was that all you wanted from me, K?" Randy asked as he paused by the door with his bag on his shoulder. His brown eyes seemed to be looking through her. He'd promised his undivided attention today but fate seemed to have other plans. Apparently, it had turned into his rushed, almost one sided attention. With a glance at his text that had turned into an emergency meeting at his job. Especially pleaded for by Mr. Hanks.Which meant he had to go to the lab as soon as possible.She would be lying if she said she didn't feel...Just overwhelming disappointment.Kaitlyn reluctantly nodded, glancing at the catalog
Chapter 4:Dainty fingers flicked at her blouse, the clips snapping into place as she buttoned the fabric over her chest. With one last once over, she emerged from her bedroom. Walking down the stairs slowly, only for her gaze to immediately fall on Jackson.Her eyes narrowed in distaste, watching with mild disgust as he lounged all over her couch, again. He was consuming a bowl of cheerios at the coffee table, his gaze fixed on the television screen as he scooped up the little tan loops. He seemed bored as he flipped through the channels, moving from the news, to cartoons with the same disinterested expression. All he ever seemed to do was watch TV though, or listen to music on his phone.She couldn't help but wonder if he was putting in any applications at all.Tossing her locks over her shoulder, she toed on her bright red heels and smoothed out her black pencil skirt one las
Today was the big day, the day she got to see Randy for more than just a couple hours in the morning.Tugging the fluffy bristles of her brush through her red locks, Kaitlyn all but twirled in front of the large mirror standing tall in the bedroom. She was adorning a slick mermaid style dress, the gray and black buttons accentuating her curves as they traversed down the sides of her hips. She felt pretty and comfortable in her shoes as she slipped on flats instead of her usual heels.Today was their annual office party, and as Randy's future spouse, she always showed up to support his endeavors.This year would be no different.Her pink lips upturned into a smile, just as the bedroom door creaked open."Hi." She breathed, perking up as Randy entered the room. She waited to hear what he'd say about her attire. A soft blush painting her face as she twirled the edges of her hair around her freshly painted nails--a glossy
"I can't do this anymore."The words are piercing, loud amongst the quiet and watching walls of their bedroom. And Randy pauses by the door. She isn't sure where it came from, or why it was bubbling up inside her now.But as the frustrations fell from her lips like boiling water, she couldn't stop."I'm sick of you treating me like this, Randy!"Not even as Randy peered at her from over his shoulders, his usually chocolate ambers clouded with anger. He cocked his brow at her, and when he turned to face her, the nonchalance on his face only fueled her anger."Treating you like what? Like my future wife? Sorry I'm not home as much as you'd like and I'm busy trying to build a future for us."The scathing reply made her falter, for only a moment, before she shook her head.No, not this time.She would say her piece."No. That'
The bags under her eyes left her feeling ragged. Bringing her fingertips up to her face, she rested them there, against the darkened flesh. Patting away a dollop of concealer as she hid her sleepless night away from the prying eyes of her office.Every time she went to close her eyes, she saw Randy. She couldn't stop remembering the look on his face when he pushed her away, the anger on his face as recoiled away into the vase.That desperate to get away from her.Where had the love in his eyes gone? When had they stopped being so gentle?The hollow feeling in her chest was consuming. And as she checked for phone for the hundredth time, she could only stare in silence.He hadn't returned any of her texts or calls in the last 24 hours. Randy had never even texted her to assure her that he had arrived safely to...wherever he went. She was sure he thought she was ungrateful and couldn't
Kailtyn all but gawked at the restaurant ahead, her eyes darting around as she tried to hide her face from view behind Jackson's towering shoulder. She felt self-conscious as they weaved through the crowd, the click of her heels loud amongst the sidewalk. She was overly in tune with the glances spared at them. As if they knew the person leading her by the hand wasn't her fiancé. She knew it was ridiculous, and she had already told Jackson twice that she wouldn't run away if he let go of her hand. She had even pointed out that she hadn't tried to jump out of his car on the drive over to try and sway him. But to no avail. His grip had stayed firm. The proximity made her blush as she swallowed down her trepidation with a slow blink, the slope of his arm so close, she could almost brush her lashes against it. It made her nervous. It also felt ...
The thrum of alcohol scorched her throat, the liquid a smooth burn that her taste buds couldn't decide if they liked or not.But as the crystal clear liquid was slid at her in the form of another shot glass, Kaitlyn noted that the room was a bit warmer than she recalled. The glossy hue on her cheeks reflected back at her from the adjacent mirror on the wall.She felt giddy. Nerves alive as her leg bounced happily against the booth she resided in."We should do this more often." She giggled out, her hands reaching out to steal a scoop of goopey cheese off his plate.Jackson snickered, his own lime green shot glass being pressed against his lips as he gave her a smirk. "See, I told you that you should live a little."The crunch of the chip all but made her moan as the cheese, for some reason, tasted way better than earlier. It was if everything was just a little more satisfying. And as her g
Epligue ( 77 ): It was everything she had ever wanted. Kaitlyn had never known she could be so happy. Kaitlyn breathed in. Her world coming together as she held her chin high.She was dressed to the nines, gliding in time with the music as her mermaid style dress flowed around her. It was white with pink lace, and she still wore the red heart necklace over the open V-Shaped bodice. She felt like a real princess then, the audience gaping at her as her curled red hair spilled from her pink diamond rose clip. Her arm was laced with Joshua, who was prepared to walk her down to the alter. "I'm sorry," he whispered. "I'm sure you wish your father or uncle could've been the one to.." He started, but Kailtyn smiled. Cutting him off. "No, this is perfect. You're exactly who I wanted to be here." Joshua quieted down then. And then, to both of their nerves, the music started. Josh began walking beside her as he tried to hide the flustered crinkle to his eye
Chapter 76:When she finally sat down at home, it was like everything had suddenly caught up to her, snagging her down by her ankles.Tears had fell from her eyes, and she had held onto Jackson, desperately. The harsh images she had seen, the violate relationship brought back unwanted memories.She wondered, if that broken scene she'd witness between Randy and Natalie, had been how Jackson had viewed her and Randy? Was it as heartbreaking to watch?She hadn't asked that though, no matter how much she wanted to. Because as he cuddled her close, and she wrapped herself up in the scent she had come to love, she knew it just didn't matter anymore.And this time? She truly felt that way. It was like the sound of a chapter closing, and all the new pages were just of Jackson. And she couldn't help but be grateful for that.Randy was gone.Natalie was gone.So, too, would Josh. She had no
Chapter 75: "She wasn't happy that I left." "When is she ever happy with you?"Natalie countered with a sigh. They were sitting together in her apartment, her body snuggled close to him. He froze at her words, as if they struck him like a brisk slap. Those delicate fingers twirled around in her hair. "You could give your life for her and she'd still find something to nag you about. It's kind of sad..." Her whispered words were so sweet despite their message. "S-She didn't nag me," Randy defended, trying to understand why Natalie would say something so cruel about his fiance. Randy knew Kaitlyn wasn't like that. She was the most patient woman he knew. She was always putting up with his absences and long work hours without complaint. Her smile always on her face whenever he came through the door. Well... except lately. It felt like every time he came home, there was a fight.
Chapter 74:Lies and truths had melded into one, and he didn't know how to make his way out.He could see the three of them standing there, but it felt blurred and surreal. Like his grip on reality was slipping.Randy had never felt like such a failure before as he stood in nothing but his boxers and t-shirt. It was one Kaitlyn had bought him years ago.He felt dirty and filthy, as he sat beneath their stares. They all knew what he had done.It wasn't supposed to be like this.Natalie was supposed to make him feel better. She was supposed to love him.But right now, he felt so fucking cold.Josh's angry words splattered all over his ears, but he couldn't make sense of any of them. He couldn't make sense of why everyone was so angry, couldn't make sense of why he had gone back to the same woman he swore to never contact again.He glanced at her now, and her blue
Chapter 73:He had seen her cry, so many times.Yet somehow, as she stood in the center of the decaying lawn, looking lonely and tired, watching her eyes swell seemed even more painful. Her red curls were hanging over her shoulders in wild abandon, her lips set in a furious scowl that didn't suit her gentle features.At least, Jackson didn't think they suited her. But then again, Kaitlyn was like his own special brand of sunshine, and she was always smiling with him.So to see her eyes look so cold, it unnerved him. But that coldness faded away when her blue eyes met his.And then, she looked so vulnerable. Standing there with her dirty jeans and cardigan that hung off her shoulder. Her bottom lip had started trembling when she spotted him."Jackson..." She said his name again, and he wasted no time. He hopped the fence, not giving a fuck whose property it was. He crossed the space in no time to pull her i
Chapter 72: Branches scraped her knees, reaching out for her ankles like a warning to stay away. Yet, Kaitlyn didn't listen.She kept walking in the trees that were so large that they blocked out the sun above, her hands coming up to rub her arms. It was eerie, being alone in the woods. But she swallowed up her nerves and pressed forward. Randy's lies were twisting her insides, and she fought hard to hold onto anything that proved her suspicions wrong. She realized that once again that she wanted to believe the best in him. Yet for some reason, those hopes never went far. That hope was dwindling again, when she finally came across an old, worn down house. Kaitlyn faltered as she eyed the odd looking home, feeling out of place as she stepped past the fence. The lawn was torn up, and the abandoned atmosphere made her think twice about entering. Her mind conjured up the worst possibilities. Was Randy in danger? Was th
Chapter 71:Leaving the house had been harder than she thought. She was nervous the whole way, her fingers clenching and unclenching on her keys as she traversed through town. It was hard to enjoy her walk when she couldn't shake the feeling someone was watching her.Maybe, she was paranoid. But with everything happening, it was hard to tell. She knew she should tell someone, but it felt childish. Like a prank or maybe she was trying to downplay it because she didn't want to believe it was happening.She had finally caved and called Randy, and he had sounded skittish the entire time he was on the phone. It had done nothing to calm her nerves. She had sweetly asked him if he had happened to send her something in the mail, and he asked no why, sounding horribly confused. That had been answer enough.It wasn't him.She frowned. She should've known better, each envelope had no return address. It was clear they were being manuall
Chapter 70:The drawings had unnerved her for days, her moods fluctuating as she gathered her apartment together.It was hard to keep them a secret by this point, Josh and Jackson both noting her odd behavior as she drew into herself the last few weeks.It made starting over hard, as she tried to keep on a brave face in Jackson's presence. A part of her wanted to tell him about the weird drawings that kept winding up on her doorstep and mailbox, but given their recent reconciliation, she didn't want to do anything to hurt their relationship. She had a feeling the drawings had something to do with Randy, as he was featured in most of them.But she knew he wasn't capable of drawing at all. She also couldn't see him doing something like this--no matter how manupliative he could be, it didn't seem like him.So who?She didn't really know, but she was growing increasingly worried. Every picture was a moment she
Chapter 69: Jackson's warmth enveloped her. The feel of his arms causing her to freeze in place. He was so warm, and it was a jolt inside her veins. Slowly, her fingers came up to clutch at his clothes. Sandalwood. Home. The smell invaded her senses, and without even thinking, she burrowed her face into his neck. The little strands of his hair tickling her eyelids as she breathed in the scent of his shampoo. Jackson was finally home. She didn't dare say a word, afraid that she'd start crying again if she did. Or that he'd move away. But it seemed her fears were for nothing. Because his arms were pulling her closer, tugging at her body like he was afraid she'd disappear. She blinked once, realizing then that she could feel his heartbeat along the side of his neck. His heart was racing. The knowledge made her face grow warm, her chest tight. "Don't cry because I'm fucking stu