Who Are You?

I watch Antonio and Charlie leave and I close the door behind them. With a sigh, I collapse on the couch and switch the big screen in the wall on. Everything that's playing sucks so I switch my phone on and it's flooded with texts.

Devil in human form: Did you manage to meddle your pretty ass into his life yet?

- It's been a whole week Lotus, how much more fucking time do you need! Remember your life's in my hands.

- Time is running out beautiful flower.

I don't reply to any of his texts knowing he already has somebody following me around to see if I'm doing as he instructed. I see that an unknown number texted me.

Unknown: Hey Lotus.

L: Uhm hi? Who's this?

Unknown: It's Jake, the guy you went to school with. Remember?

Oh, sweet cakes! It's Jake, the guy I had a crush on for four years straight and all we ever did was talk. He never knew I had a crush on him and I know you are probably wondering why I had a crush on one guy for four years of my college life.

Pretty simple really, never had the guts to tell him I liked him and he was the only one who caught my eye, and I so happen to be more of a keep to myself person.

Jake was or still is hot, he had an athletic body and was smart. Yeah, he's hot but Antonio is freaking gorgeous! Argh, shut up. 

L: Of course! How've you been?

J: I've been great. Just been thinking of you lately.

Thinking of me? Somebody is playing a prank on me for sure!

L: Oh?  What have you been up to since graduation? Geez Lo! You're really great with this!

J: Well, I got an internship with some company, you?

L: Oh, uhm life just decided to dump all its rubbish on me so it's kinda been hell, nothing much you know.

J: I heard about what happened with your dad. I'm so sorry.

The last thing I need is sympathy, I hate it when somebody feels sorry for me

L: Thanks. It's not your fault though, don't stress about it

J: If you need anyone I'm here for you. We could go out for drinks sometime yeah?

L: Sure! Definitely. Yeah right! That's a lie right there Lo!

J: Can I call you? Why?

L: Now?

J: Yeah, that's if you can...

I'm not ready to talk to him, think of an excuse quickly!

L: I'm with my uncle and his wife, it's kind of rude to be on the phone when they're here. Already taking a risk lol.

J: That's okay, laters Lotus.

L: Bye.

Couldn't you add a bit of hearts Lo? What for? Your heart isn't beating like it does when Antonio is near you. Shut it about Antonio already!

A knock on the door ends the conversation I was having with my conscience. I walk over to the door and open it slightly to find a gorgeous tall woman standing there in a coat.

"Who are you?" She snarled out. Did you forget he said you shouldn't open the door?

"Who are you?" I asked back with a smile that didn't meet my eyes

"I'm Jesse, what are you doing in Tony's house?" Tony?

"What are you doing in Antonio's house?" I answered back, I honestly did not see why I should answer her questions, she rolled her eyes and pushed her way inside.

"He's my boyfriend," She put her hand on her hip and gave me a challenging stare.

"Okay," I shrugged my shoulders and went to my room, leaving her there. I told you he could never like a person like me. You're not giving yourself a chance. Did you see her!? Totally the opposite of me.

Skinny, tall, gorgeous, model body, silky long hair! Something that I don't have so you could stop trying to trick me!

FUCK! The one instruction he gave me, I forgot to follow!

I end up texting Jake asking him to call me, we talk almost the whole night, after the call, I head to the kitchen to get a bottle of water when Antonio struts into his house with so many different scents, hmm probably went to a club. I quickly ran away not wanting him to see me.

I watch him as he picks up the blonde and kisses her, sexually? He pulled her by her hair and bit down on her neck and she screamed.

"Didn't I tell you to not come back!?" He gritted out and carried on with his assault on her neck. 

"But baby you..." She whined and was cut off.

"I told you not to call me baby Jesse! What are you doing here?" He put her on the island and ripped off her coat hissing as he saw whatever it was she was wearing. Nothing! Eew Ant I cook there!

"Like what you see daddy? She purred, opening her legs wider for him.

"Yesss. On your knees now," Well, that was rude of him but quite funny. Wait, why I'm I still watching them? This is disgusting but something about his dominating aura makes it sexy and hard to look away. Look away Lotus!

He gets on his knees and unzips his jeans, he spanks Jesse a few times and thrust his fingers into her pussy, she was a moaning mess and I wished I was her right now. He seems to know what he's doing...and I'm still watching?

I watch him roll the condom onto his dick and thrust into Jesse without a warning. She screamed in pain but moaned out in pleasure, I watched him slam into her without giving her a chance to breathe. He carried on spanking her flat ass and she moaned every time. 

I turn around and put my hand against my chest trying to calm down my heart, I’m so disgusted by myself right now...but what the fuck!

"Separate your ass cheeks for me slut!" Did he just call her slut? Maybe it's a thing they do, some sort of kink?

I rushed back to my room and closed it softly, climbing on my bed. I stared at the ceiling and reflected on what just happened. 

Lotus I am disgusted by your behaviour tonight young lady! I am too! I can't believe I just did that! 

But did you see the way he thrust into her? He was so rough and dominating, just like your erotica books.

Yeah but nothing about all of that had love in it, it was just sex and I don't want that at all, I want it full of love even if it's rough, I want it to have love in it.

You are reading way too many books, Lo. 

Maybe I am. I drop my head on my pillow and close my eyes in an attempt to sleep but I can't because all I hear is moaning and grunting. Somebody is having fun... Lotus stop!

"Swallow all of it bitch!" I hear Antonio's voice boom through the silence, that sounded hot! Flipping hell I think everything he does is hot. From the way, he slowly blinks his eyes when I tell him off.

Or the way he subconsciously licked his lips when he was staring at my boobs and how he walked back to his desk to hide the hard-on. I noticed everything he did and it was hot, but I'm not for him.

"Get dressed and go," I heard him talk again.

"Baby who's the girl that's here?" She asked in a small voice and suddenly I heard wheezing.

"I told you not to call me baby and not to come here. This is the last time I'll ever tell you, do you hear me, Jesse!?" He growled out and I feared for her life, although I couldn't see them but the way his voice came out, it sounded dangerous.

"You're hurting me, Tony," She wheezed out.

"Go," He said in a low voice and I heard the door shut. His footsteps could be heard climbing the stairs and stopping at my door.

Did he stop at my door? Please pass! The door opens slowly and I even out my breath as if I'm sleeping, keep calm Lo. Keep calm.

He closes the door and walks away to his room, closing it. I turn on my back and release a breath. That was way too close.