Steadying my legs, I lunged forward, grabbing Jayson’s sleeve and tugging him around, making him look at me.
“Jayson? Please, we can fix this. Don’t do this. It wasn’t my fault. Please.” The last word came out like a pitiful whine. I was ashamed of the way I was begging, but I couldn’t stop myself.
Jayson’s lip curled up in disgust. “Don’t touch me, you filthy whore.”
He yanked his hand from my grip and vanished into the forest. His words slammed into me. All I’d ever tried to do was bring pride to my family and pack. Being rejected like this, in public, was almost more than I could take. Some of my packmates were still shouting at the Ninth Pack, but everyone was moving away into the surrounding woods. I was left in the clearing, disgraced and on my knees. Humiliation cascaded over me, followed by shame, horror, and a sick feeling swelling within me.
A pair of eyes caught my attention. Striking green and incredibly intense. Wyatt. Pity and hurt radiated from his gaze. Pity for me.
It was too much. I couldn’t bear it. Not from him.
I ran. My dress tore under my feet as I sprinted into the woods, the screams of anger and shouted arguments fading behind me. As I rushed headlong into the forest, my heart shattered more with every step. I’d ruined everything, even though I hadn’t done anything wrong. The physical pain of the rejection became a throbbing ache inside me. My mind flashed back and forth between shame, anger, and despair. I had to fix this. Somehow. For the first time in twelve years, the searing burn of tears stung my eyes.
Chapter 6
Kolton paced back and forth across my living room. His rage hadn’t abated an ounce since the disaster the day before. He’d become intimately familiar with one of the pillows on my couch. Every hour or so, he’d grab it and either slam it to the ground or kick it across the room. It bore no resemblance to Jayson Fell, but my friend must have mentally imprinted that jackass’s face onto it.
I let him vent. Better he did it here instead of at his house. That place was like a mausoleum. I’d gone over there four times since the ceremony had burst into metaphorical flames to check on Kira, but there’d been no sign of her. She’d still not returned home after escaping into the forest.
My own anger was running as hot as Kolton’s, but it was simmering under the surface. If Kolton was a tornado, shouting and cursing into the void, then I was a volcano—hot, boiling molten rock, ready to erupt at any time. I still couldn’t believe what I’d witnessed the day before. Not only the rejection but the way it had affected Kira. She’d cried. Actual tears. It hadn’t been the same as the tears of pain she’d cried after being stabbed and drugged. No, she’d cried true tears of anguish. I’d only been witness to that once in all the time I’d known her. That day had been hell, and it looked like Jayson’s rejection had hit her almost as badly.
It agitated both Kolton and me that she’d shed a single tear for that spoiled piece of shit. Sure, he was the heir to the Ninth Pack, but other than that, what did he have to offer? A substandard IQ, a pissy attitude, and an unwarranted sense of self-importance. I clenched my jaw, my teeth creaking as I remembered the look of relief on his face when he’d rejected Kira. The relief and the smug glint in his eyes.
I tried to remember if I’d ever heard or read about a rejection as public, embarrassing, or brutal, but I couldn’t come up with anything. No legends mentioned anything close to what Kira had gone through, and if there was one thing people in the past had loved, it was drama and heartbreak. He’d had ample time to reject her in private instead of doing it in front of the gods and everyone. Nothing would change my mind that he’d done it purposefully to rip away her every shred of dignity. To eviscerate her ego and ensure she could never recover. I wasn’t sure what I’d do if I ever came face to face with him again, but it would be a moment Jayson Fell would regret for the rest of his days. Of that, I was one hundred percent sure.
Kolton, spotting my poor throw pillow again, picked it up and threw it across the room. It struck the wall with a muffled whomp.
“I don’t think that’s going to help,” I said.
Kolton turned, fists clenched. “It makes me feel better.”
I shrugged. It probably did, but he needed to get himself under control. This wasn’t about our anger or hatred. His sister had just been shamed in front of two packs, members of the Tranquility Council, and her family and friends. One good thing was that the film crew had been stopped and their cameras destroyed. At least the video of the entire fiasco wouldn’t be sent out to the entire world. The only saving grace was that it hadn’t been broadcast live.
Even so, word was spreading like wildfire. Fated-mate rejections were incredibly rare, especially when an heir of a pack was to be paired with the eldest alpha daughter of another pack. Even though Kira was a latent alpha, she was still an alpha. The whole fiasco was being talked about everywhere.
Kolton flopped down on the couch beside me and hung his head. He stared off into space, then shook his head.
“I’m usually on the same wavelength as Kira. We’ve sort of always been able to help each other through things, but I have no clue what to do now. I feel so damned guilty about it all. That’s why I’m mad. This is partly my fault.”
I frowned at him. “Where’d you get that idea from? That’s some pretty crazy mental gymnastics.”
“No, it’s not. I was born first. I’m tabbed to be the next leader of the Eleventh Pack. Kira’s an alpha, too, though. Super rare in a female, and even though she can’t shift, she constantly made sure my parents knew she would lead the way. Kira’s always known I had no desire to be the pack alpha, that I had other dreams. She took the entire burden of my parents’ expectations onto her shoulders. She was determined to find a match that would strengthen the packs, either by combining us with another or creating a powerful alliance that would keep me from having to take the mantle.”Kolton was very intelligent and had also been born an alpha. With Kira’s shifting ability suppressed, he was expected to take over. Kolton wanted that about as much as most people wanted a root canal. It all made sense now. Kira had latched onto the idea of mating with Jayson to bring pride, power, and prestige to her pack and save her brother from a life of misery. It made what happened the day before sting a
“You almost died a few days ago,” I said, taking a step toward her. “There is no reason for you to be going on missions when you’re not fully healed. You need to recover physically…and mentally,” I added with a shrug.Her eyes flashed. “What I do, and how I choose to recover, is not your business, Wyatt.”“It is my business when I’m always running around and saving you from danger.”Kira grabbed her sandwich and hurled it in my direction. I dodged, and the sandwich hit the wall with a sad little thump and slid to the floor, leaving a trail of peanut butter in its wake.“I guess you haven’t heard the good news. You won’t have to worry about saving me anymore. I’ve just been terminated as a Tranquility Operative. Effective immediately. I’ve been fired.”My eyes nearly popped out of my head. What? The council fired Kira? The words didn’t make sense. All the ribbing about having to be her white knight and swooping in to save her was mostly my way of getting under her skin. Kira was the be
As I prepared for the day and tried to ignore the physical ache from my rejection, a bitter sense of loss settled in my heart when I looked at my Tranquility ops gear in my closet. I’d never wear it again. The one thing I was really good at, the one thing that made me whole, and now it was gone, too. That hurt almost as much as letting down my family. If I still had my job, at least I could have buried myself in work. Catching bad guys was a surefire way to get my mind off everything else.I’d tried that as soon as the mating ceremony fell apart. Within hours of Jayson rejecting me, I called my superiors and asked to get back to work. I had hoped I would get a new case, a new project that would preoccupy me. Instead, they terminated me over the phone. There had been no build-up, no fake apologies. Just a couple sentences about cutbacks, a week’s severance pay, and a boot in the ass. I’d put my life on the line for the council for years, and then Jayson’s bitch of an aunt pulled a few
Zoe’s mouth dropped open. “Kira, there’s no way to fix it. Jayson, piece of shit that he is, rejected you. You’ve given all you could for your family and pack. You don’t owe them shit. Why do you even want to make these people happy? Honestly, the only people who seem to understand how hard you’ve tried are Kolton and Wyatt and his band of lone wolves. Everyone else is demanding a pound of flesh from you.”I groaned at Wyatt’s name. He was where everything had gone wrong. I couldn’t even think about him without getting depressed.I held a hand up. “Let’s please not talk about Wyatt. And let’s not discuss Kolton, either. He’s getting all these ideas about dropping out of school. He’s close to giving up his dreams of starting his own business to stay here and take over as alpha. You and I both know that’s the last thing he wants. He’ll shrivel and die inside if that ends up being his fate. Gods, it pisses me off and breaks my heart.”Zoe’s face softened. “I know, but…” She shrugged. “Be
The crowd applauded again, but I barely heard them. I was staring at Von Thornton, my bowl of ice cream forgotten.“I’m here for this special program to announce that there has been a bit of a wrench thrown into the production of season thirty-one. A wrench that, on first inspection, could have proven disastrous, but upon closer study, may be the greatest and most exciting wrinkle that’s ever happened.”Von stood, smoothed his immaculate suit, and walked to the edge of the stage. “Our female star has, unfortunately, had to withdraw from the show.”A murmur of disquiet ran through the crowd. Zoe gasped and put a hand to her mouth. I’d never heard of a female contestant stepping down. I wasn’t as huge a fan as Zoe was, but the show was an omnipresent part of life, an institution almost everyone followed—even if unwillingly.Von held up his hand to silence the crowd, then flashed another bright smile. “Easy, everyone. This isn’t my first rodeo, as the humans say. An exciting opportunity
There were always two options for the prize. The money and prestige and glamor were huge, of course. But Heline always offered the winner a chance to forgo the new fated-mate blessing and ask her to grant them one favor instead. The Moon Goddess, one of the most powerful magical beings in our entire world, would give you one wish.“Has anyone ever taken the favor?” I asked greedily.Zoe shook her head, a deep frown marring her brow. “No. Why would they? Anything they could ask for is already there in the winnings. You get, like, a dozen different benefits from taking that. Heline’s favor would be one thing, right? Why would anyone choose one thing over the very thing that got them on the show? Over having a new fated mate?”“To shield your loved ones, stop a war, increase their pack’s standing? There are things more important than money or living in a nice neighborhood.” I explained.“Well, none of that matters,” Zoe said in a tone that brooked no argument. “I’m not letting you do it.
I rolled my eyes. Every office had that one staunch rule follower who made sure everyone had their toes on the line and all their “i’s” dotted. Shonda was ours.“Yes, Shonda. I know. Thanks for reminding me. I’ll take care of it.”“Good. Want me to let Jacobs know you’re leaving?”David Jacobs was our pod manager, overseeing three ops teams that made up one Tranquility operatives pod.I blew out a frustrated breath. “Holy shit, Shonda, I don’t need a fucking mother right now. It’ll be fine,” I snapped.She jerked her head back and pursed her lips. “Well, damn. Fine, then. Be that way.”She hunched back behind her cubicle just as Carter turned in his chair and raised his eyebrows in question. Waving him off, I strode out of the office. In the elevator, my thoughts once again turned to Kira.My own experience with rejected mates wasn’t exactly like hers, but it did give me some insight into what she was going through. Looking back on my past, I realized I was happier now than I ever cou
She smiled at me sweetly. “Hello, sweetie. I’m afraid we aren’t in the market for any Girl Scout cookies today. Now, if you have any alcohol or painkillers, we’d be glad to take those off your hands.”“Where’s Kira?” I asked.Zoe grimaced. “She…um…already left.”“Where’d she go? I need to talk to her. It’s important.” I nodded toward the car. “She couldn’t have gone far.”Now Zoe wouldn’t meet my eyes. She seemed to be looking everywhere but at me. “Like I said, she’s gone.”“Oh, good grief. Move,” I said, pushing past her into the house. Kira had to be in there somewhere.“Hey? Did I invite you in?” Zoe said as she shut the door.“Kira?” I called out.Stepping into the living room, I saw two empty bowls smeared with chocolate sauce and whipped cream.I pointed at the bowls. “I suppose you ate both of these yourself?”Zoe shoved her fists into her hips. “I didn’t say she wasn’t here a minute ago. All I said was she left.”“Where’s everyone else?”“Well, Mister Nosy, Kolton is at class