Lilliana’s POVI was taken aback, I never thought that I would ever see Nikolai break down in front of me. Tears welled up in my eyes but I was too determined to hold them back.My body shook and my knees went weak as I sat slowly on the bed with Nikolai still kneeling in front of me.“I know, I don’t deserve any more chances, I’ve messed up too much but please, Lilliana.” He begged, reaching out to hold my hand but I pulled it away.I was scared, scared that I’d be forced to forgive and give him the last chance he’s asking for if I let him touch me.I’ve never really been able to control myself whenever Nikolai was involved and seeing him like this was doing things to me.It was as though I was in a haze, like he was a mirage and none of this was real. It was as though Nikolai wasn’t here and I was making things up in my head.I knew I wasn’t making anything up when I felt his hand and something wet on my feet. Gasping, I looked down to see Nikolai holding onto my feet really tightly
Nikolai’s POVUnable to sleep, I tossed and turned uncomfortably on the couch. I’d left the room last night because Lilliana had asked me to.Usually, I’d be on a mat sleeping right next to the bed but since she made it clear to me that she didn’t want to see me, I had to respect that.My heart raced, it was another day and my eyes had been opened most of the night because her words kept ringing in my head.‘I don’t know if I have any more chances to give.’ I played her words back in my head and I groaned.It was killing me, not having her in my life was killing me but I had no other choice. I caused her so much pain, I should be able to take the pain that would come from her possible rejection.My eyes closed as the clock ticked, it was morning already but it was still dark. Realizing that I wouldn’t be able to sleep no matter what, I left the huge living room in the private wing and made my way to the only bedroom there.Carefully, I opened the door to check on her like I usually do
Nikolai’s POVMy teeth gritted as I examined the room and when the guard told me that everyone was gathered in the safety room already, I rushed there in a bid to find Lilliana.“Where is Lilliana?!” I roared, not caring about anybody else when I looked around and she wasn’t anywhere in the room.“She’s safe, Alpha,” one of the guards responded to my question and I turned with my blood boiling as I raised an eyebrow.“She’s still in the private wing and no one can get there. We tried to get her out but she insisted she was fine.” He explained.I let out a sigh of relief before ordering all of them to remain in the safety room until everything had died down.Five hours had passed and despite the fact that everything had died down, everyone was still a bit destabilized.I’d gone to check on Lilliana and she was sleeping peacefully with her stomach down which made me smile.I needed to work, I needed to do something about these terrorists because I knew that their attack wouldn’t stop at
Nikolai’s POVTired from the drama of the night, Andre had left me to myself so I decided to retire back to the bedroom to check up on Liliana.“How is she?” I asked the guards when I got to the door and they assured me that she was fine with no reason to be worried about her.Nodding, I made my way inside the bedroom to see that she was still very much awake and her eyes glinted when she saw me, almost like she was glad that I’m fine.“I thought you were asleep,” I said, my voice low and resigned as I sat next to her, “why are you still up so late?” I enquired.“I’m going to ask you one more time and I want you to give me nothing but the damn truth,” She retorted, her eyes fiery and her pupils dilating with anger.“What is going on?” She asked and I smiled, hoping that she wouldn’t go all foxy on me if I told her one more time that it was nothing she should worry about.“It’s just…”“I’m not a child, Nikolai, I know that something is wrong, I can hear the commotion from over here but
Lilliana’s POVGroaning, I wanted to turn but the force holding me back made it impossible, my eyes fluttered open and the memories started flooding me.I felt a little sore and it was surprising considering the fact that Nikolai was unbelievably gentle last night.A small smile tugged at the side of my lips as I snuggled closer into him. It felt as though time had stopped as I took in his scent.The satisfaction, waves of ecstasy, everything washed through me as I felt more relaxed than I’ve felt in months. I wanted this moment to last forever.I wanted him to keep holding me like this and I wanted it to be just us against the world. My smile grew wider as the thoughts kept rushing through my mind.“Good Morning,” Nikolai’s gruff voice jolted me out of my thoughts and I just smiled as he held me closer, rubbing my belly and kissing my hair.“How was your night?” He asked, turning me over so that I was going to be facing him. His face early in the morning had always been the highlight
Nikolai’s POV“Whether you like it or not, you’re going to the doctor.” I said to a very pouty Lilliana. I knew she needed to see the doctor because it’s been a while.Despite the fact that I was absent in her life, I always made sure to get the next doctor’s appointment and since I didn’t get the luxury of forcing her to go like I’m doing now, I made sure to entrust it to Andre.We didn’t talk but he always made sure that she never missed an appointment but she’s been missing her appointments for a while now since we got here.“I don’t have to go, I’m perfectly healthy and the baby is fine too. I don’t think I have to go.” She protested.“You’ve been through a lot these past days, Lily, it only makes sense for you to go and see the doctor.” I insisted.She hissed, ignoring me but also silently agreeing to see the doctor because this back and forth could go on for a while.She’s been through a lot and I haven’t lived up to the expectations of a father and partner but now, I have to.I
Lilliana’s POV“I really have to go now, Lily,” Nikolai kissed me, “I’m already exhausted and can’t wait to be back here with you.” He sighed.Smiling, I kissed him again before helping him readjust his tie. I knew how busy Nikolai was going to be today because of the meeting.The house was also going to be filled with people swooping in and out of it and from all of the slight noises I’ve been hearing, I could tell that everyone he invited were coming around already.“I know, just go and get all of this over with, I’ll be waiting for you.” I assured him, kissing him again before pulling away from him.Nikolai nodded and I watched as he left the room, my eyes lingered on the door for a while and I couldn’t help but sigh as I went to bed.It’s still very early in the morning and Nikolai hasn’t even been gone for up to five minutes and I was already missing him.The spirits are a menace, asides from their attack yesterday, they’ve attacked in the midnight too and I can’t help but feel s
Lilliana’s POVFocusing on my work around the house proved to be a little bit difficult and it didn’t take long for the rumors to start spreading.I knew that bumping into Kieran more times than usual was going to make people talk but it wasn’t my intention to keep bumping into him like that.I had even tried to keep my distance, avoiding all the possible routes that Kieran could take but that didn’t seem to work as he kept showing up.“Why does he have to keep showing up?” I sighed and it wasn’t until I heard one of the maids' responses behind me did I realize that I’d said it out loud.“You could stay in the kitchen and avoid him for the rest of the day,” the nice maid said and I raised an eyebrow, realizing that it wouldn’t be a bad idea to do as she says.“He can’t come down here considering how pompous these royals are,” she said and my brows were raised even higher, “except for Alpha Nikolai of course.” She quickly added.“I think I’ll do that because I’m starting to get really