I sighed then looked at the clock hanging in the wall of my apartment.Should I go? But why would I? No one's expecting me there...Oh there's Bullet! But I don't know if he's serious.Who would want me to be their companion, I'm useless.I made up my mind, I wouldn't go, I don't wanna.Monica will be happy for sure, but my stalker, geez, such a huge word. I don't know if he will be there or who he is, I'm afraid but if let them play me, I just confirmed that I'm such a loser that indeed true.I prepared myself to go to work, the venues at the hotel owned by the boss, we are just working half a day today because of the event.I sighed when I received a box, I'm just thankful that I'm a little bit accustomed to what's happening.Just picture and letters, sometimes, I just found myself smiling while reading one of the letter. There's a fear in me but I can't help to appreciate my senders gift everyday.I combed my curly hair while waiting for the elevators door to open, it's like a Deja
I told Emerald the venue of the party. I'm nervous as hell! This is the first time that I'll attend our every year party.Before, I didn't even think twice if I'll go, but now's different. There's so many things that's happening to my life now that even me, didn't know if it's really happening."Enjoy your night, my goddess cuz!" Said Emerald then laughed like she's losing her mind.I just shake my head and get out of her car. She insisted to drive me here. Now, my problem is, how could I get home wearing this dress?I balanced myself and breath deeply. Do I manage to wear this heels long? I wish.I slowly walked inside and sighed again. As I step my foot inside many eyes turned to look at me. Oh geez! Shit man, I'm nervous!I cleared my throat and avoid their eyes. I continue to walk. I'm looking around if Bullet is already here. I don't have friends so I can't stop in a table and acted like we know each other while it's the other way around.Does anyone recognized me as grandma Mild
We continue to talk like nothing happened. I'm still wondering in Bullet's attitude. I found out that he is friends with Blake Francisco who's now busy flirting with other girls.We ate and talk and ate and vice versa. I'm very comfortable with him, but I realized something.Does my stalker is here too? He wants me to go here and wear his 'gift', but where is he? It's not that I want to see him and let him do wicked things to me again. I'm just confuse..."So, you have a cousin?" Bullet's question wake me up."Yeah. My only family left." I nodded.He pick a grape. "Say ah," he said to me.I felt my cheeks heating up and before he figure it out. I ate the grape. He smirked at me and continue to drink his wine.I munched the fruit. "How many glass did you drink?"He just shrugged and continue to drink. I rolled my eyes because of his attitude again."You want some?" He asked. Pointing to his wine.I shake my head. "No. I don't drink."when the party start with the M.C.'S jolly voice, I
My heart was aching because of unknown emotion or I just don't want to name?It's been a week since that incident happened. He drove me home but didn't even talked to me. After that, a week had passed, but still no Bullet. He didn't show up and I'm kinda missing him.I know that I didn't do anything wrong or did I? I don't know. But one things I know, there's something wrong about Bullet. He's confusing the hell out of me. I couldn't even eat properly and focused to my work because he occupied my mind!So to make it short, it's a hella week. Plus that Monica's always giving me a furious gaze. It's frustrating that I can't even tell my thoughts and feelings to anyone because even friend, I don't have one.But today's different. Monica's in good mood that really a first time since I worked here. There's something that make her glow and blush.This is the first time that she didn't have me her work to finish and didn't visit my cubicle to trash talk me.Well I don't care about her. I jus
This is just another day but not normal. Every Sunday, I considered it as my rest for all the pain. I just focus my mind with my lord.I dress myself with a blue below the knee dress. Always remember, that if you're going to a sacred place like church, you should wear something presentable because, if you can't respect the Lord with your cloths, then you're not fully respecting him.The Lord may not command you to wear something formal but you should know it. As I get to sit, I cried because I know, I made a lot of mistake this past few weeks, and that's because of Bullet. I'm sorry for not thinking right just because of a man. I'm sorry because I think, I'm changing myself just to be accepted.I wiped my tears and continue to say sorry. I want my old self. In just a span of time, Bullet immediately made a havoc in my life. And I'm kinda regretful because I let him in...Because of what happened to me, I promise to not change myself for someone or just to be acceptable, 'cause the Lor
I dialed Emerald's number, she answered it on the first ring. She's using her phone, i think?"Milda!!" She yelled my name. I suddenly want to roll my eyes. She's really the energetic."No 'hi?' or 'hello?',"She just laughed. "And please, no need to shout my name cousin." I plead."Haha. Just teasing you. So, why did you call? Need my help?" I heard some noisy, I think utensils? Is she eating?"What's that noise?" I asked, curiously."Oh, I'm eating my breakfast. How 'bout you? Did you eat already?" She's the one asking now. Where this conversation going? I want to tell her my reason, she's just so talkative."Yes. Uhm, can I ask you something?" I started."You're already asking. Duh." Then she laughed.I scratched my forehead. This is the reason why I don't want to talk to her. She's just so playful! And very energetic."Are you free today?" I said direct to the point.I heard her hum. "Yeah. Why?""I want to introduce you to someone… Is it okay to you?" Hesitantly, I asked.Silence.
I didn't got a proper sleep because of that. I sighed and look at the resignation letter that I made. I'm still scared and trembling. I don't know if I could face him not crying.In our company, if you want to resign, you need to go exactly at the boss, so he would agree and sign the papers. He is the boss so he holds the power. But how could I face him? Should I act that I didn't know that he is my stalker? How come? All I could remember that we only meet once, and then in the party. That's all.I wear a hoodie to cover my kiss marks. He left a lot. My eyes are swollen because of crying. When he left, I just cry my heart out. I didn't even bother to chased him because I know, I can't catch him.When I arrived at the company. There's just a few employees. Good, 'cause I can't face them. Hoping to see the boss, I immediately go to the elevator and punched the Top floor. I waited a minute and when the elevator stops, I breathed so hard. I hold the tears that forming into my eyes.You ca
I'm thankful that Bullet stop from beating Brandon. God, how could Brandon can laughed at this moment. He's red because of blood from his face. He's eyes we're swollen and turning into violet, but it's like he's not feeling anything."Are you okay, Brandon?" I came to him and helped him get up. We sat at the sofa. Bullet is just looking at us with his dark expression.I'm sweating bullets to, I'm afraid that he will attack Brandon again. It was like I was seeing the different Bullet awhile ago. He so scary."Why did you do that, Bullet? He didn't do anything to me. We're friends…" I explained.He's brow arch in a sarcastic way. There's this dangerous smirk plastered on his face. "He didn't? For you yes, but for me, he did a lot! Fucking Carson. I'll kill him!" He was about to come to Brandon again when I stopped him. Brandon just laughed.I hold Bullet's arms, restraining him to do more. "That's enough Bullet, you're being irrational. He's a friend, he helped me--""I'm the only one w
I sat at the fuckers couch and look at him boredly. He has this mountain of files on his table including his laptop. "I met Franco in my trip, the fucker don't plan to go back here." I said as I look at his coffee table infront of me. He has this files here too. I picked one and open it. "He don't like this country, he said it's too hot here and he can't take it." he shrugged. "Why do you have so many files here?" I asked curiously. He breath so hard and slump on his seat. "Fuck this life. I need to review all my employees profile. I think there's a traitor."I laughed. "Well, you're fucked too." I stopped flipping the pages of the folder that I'm holding. Milda Asuncion. I looked at her picture and it made my chest pump for no other reason. She look sad but nevertheless, she looks like a goddess. "Who… Is this?" I pointed at the picture of her. Brandon looked at me. "That's my favorite employee. I know that she's being bullied by her co-workers but she still do her works exper
Early in the morning and I am breathing hard and moaning endlessly because of Bullet thing that was now pushing in and out of my private part. I hug him as my nails dig into his back. It's just so good and mind blowing! "Ahh… Bullet oh my god! Faster! Oh my go deeper!" I scream as he obey what I said. He was sweating bullets as he move with outrageous speed and bang me harder. I can feel his balls getting it way on my part because of how hard and deep he goes! It's painful but the pleasure overpower me. " Bullet! Bullet! Oh my! Bullet!" I was chanting his name endlessly as he continue his movement. "Fuck so good! You're so fucking amazing baby! Ah, coming!" his voice roared as his thing became more bigger! I am cumming too! "Me too!" I embrace my arms around his neck as my whole body shooed in pleasure. His loads was too many that it fell out. We're both breathing hard as he lay besides me. His arms snake around my body as he hug me tight. "This is just the morning that I want
I know, what I did to Monica was not acceptable. Until now, the guilt that I'm feeling is still lingering inside of me. Am I really violent? Does my reason valid for doing it to her? I nearly killed her, Bullet told me. After I lose my consciousness, I opened my eyes in the hospital room. Just the sound of the machine, snore of someone. I looked around me as I seek for someone I want to see. I want to see Bullet. I want him beside me… After remembering what I have done, my tears fell. I didn't know that I can be that violent with someone. I know, she did to me was horrible, it's a sex video, it's not a joke but what I did to her was monstrous. Maybe I'm not really valid to be called human. Did I regret beating her up? Yes and no. I just want her to know that I'm not the Milda she knew. I can fight for myself too. But I over do it, I'd let my emotions eat me and take control of my mind. I sniff. "God… Sorry for doing it. I know that my reasons will never be valid to do that to her…
The moment that I opened my eyes, all the realization hit me. Bullet lied to me, Bullet is my stalker then kidnapped me and prison me in his room for how many days, I don't know. He said all the thing that I deserve to know and last night, we just made love. I accepted him despite of what he did because that what is love right? He hurtled me, he lied to me, if you love someone you should know how to forgive, you should expect that it's not always rainbow, there's always a storm before it. I just look blankly at the high ceiling while feeling the soreness of my whole bod, Specifically my private part. Bullet lied again, he said that he'll stop after round two but no, he didn't. We made love until morning that resulted of my whole body's soreness! I can't even move a single muscle! "Hey…" his husky voice. He's awake now. I looked at him. "I told you that I can't take it anymore and you just go and bang me until you're satisfied! Look! I can't even move my body!" I shouted at him. He
"N-No! Please, Bullet! Don't!" I shouted when he ripped my clothes and started to kiss my neck. The cuffed on my hands was restraining me to move and struggles. I never thought that one day he will do this to me. I love you Bullet... So much. I love you so much that it hurts... "You'll like it too..." he whispered lowly into my ears. I shake my head as my tears fell. "Stop. Don't do this... I thought you'll never do bad things to me?" "Don't distract me baby. We'll make love today. This whole day." He looked at me as his eyes sparkles with different emotions. "I thought you love me?" I asked while looking back to him. He quickly nods his head. "Yes. So much that I'll do bad things to have you. I'll play whatever personality you want just to have you... But I guessed you're disappointed to the real me.""Because you fool me Bullet! No one will be happy if they know that the person they love so much is being mendacious to them! It hurts Bullet... You became blind by your affecti
If he loves me, why lied to me? But I'm expecting an explanation. He'll never lie about his family specially, about her sister, right? "Bullet." I called him. He quickly looked at me and wiped my tears away. "You have question, I know. I'll answer it.""Then start explaining. Make it more reasonable." I said coldly. Despite of knowing the truth behide the cheat issue, I still need to know more. Why do I have a feeling that I don't really know Bullet that much? Is he hiding more dark and dangerous? "I told you already that I cant-- no, to be more specific, I don't want to interact with others. I don't have that much friends that I can call real aside from Brandon and Franco, yeah, they're a motherfucker. Our company was known to be famous and unbreakable same with the two. I can't let other people know about my background, it will be my weakness. Ashianna is my only sibling. Before anyone else, she was my first baby. I can't let others use her to make me down. Ashianna was born in
"DON'T T CRY BABY…"I throw the note that I'm holding. I'm broken and in pain and this psycho stalker of mine is messing with me. I don't know what to do anymore. I let my tears flow on my cheeks. Why Bullet? Why? I pour all my feelings for you… You told me to believe in you and that's the biggest mistake that I'd made in my entire life! I told you to not fool me. I forgave you many times… I'm such a fool. I hugged my pillow as the tears continue to flow. I want to stop crying, I badly want to. I'm not the one who's at fault so why am I the one crying? I didn't do anything bad to others to feel this pain. Why can't I be fully happy? "My god it hurts…" I sobbed. "It hurts so much…" I cried. I balled my fist when I'm starting to breathe hard. My vision was becoming blurred to. I punched my chest. "Please… Someone stop the pain. Please…"As I close my eyes, I saw a silhouette of a man that coming to my direction, I thought he's Bullet but when I smell his scent, I knew that he's my s
It's been a month since Bullet started to court me. We really just go with the flow. I'm happy of what's happening right now.Monica's been so mad at me this past few days, like really, really mad. I'm happy that I'm not affected with her attitude. I don't recall a moment that I did wrong to her."So, how's life with him? When's the wedding?" I rolled my eyes.For the past month, Brandon was always there to accompany me when lunch. I have a guessed that Bullet tasked him to guard me. I can tell that Bullet is a possessive type of man, the way he act when we're still friends, so it will upgrade when I'll say yes to him."Brandon, there's no wedding that's happening right now. We're not together yet. But, I'm planning to say yes to him one of this days." I explained.He nodded his head. "That's good to hear." he wiped his lips using the table napkin. "Just so you know, for me, courting was just wasting a time to spend your time with the one you like or love. You can still know him or he
How long does my stalker would send me pictures?I just sighed as I looked at the pictures that I just received. I can't still tell it to Bullet, I'm afraid...Brandon gave me a one week day off, he said, Bullet and I need to know each other more. Just like that.I hide the boxes under my bed. For the past months, I collected it all and it's now too many! How can I manage to hide it for too long? Sooner or later Bullet would find out and I don't know what will be the outcome.I heard the knock on my door. I quickly hide it and look at my self in the mirror. Nothing change. Still me. The glasses. The curly hair. The grandma clothes."Hi!" I greeted him the moment I opened the door.He plastered a boyish grin. "Hi to you too, baby." he comes in.We sat at the couch. He snake his arms around me. I smiled."I want to tell you something!" I exclaimed.He looked at me with curious look. "Shoot."I smirk. "I just knew yesterday that you and Brandon, you two are best of friends!"His face cru