*** Lara ***Finally, everyone filed out of Tonyโs office. โHattie, would you lead Lara to our room for me, please?โMy heart rate kicked up. Kelton usually called me darling. Was he distancing himself from me for his sonโs sake? I mean, that made sense, we didnโt want to rub our bond in his face, but it still hurt.No, stop it, Lara. You are letting your ingrained insecurities rule you again.Kelton pulled me close and dropped a sweet kiss on my forehead, โI'll be right behind you, Darling.โ Oh good, I was darling again. โI just want a quick word with my boy.โAwww, his boy. This man was so sweet. Even if said boy was a grown up man.โOf course.โ Some time and space to set my head straight was a good idea anyway. I couldnโt keep reading into things and panicking like I had been all day today. Iโd give myself a damn aneurysm.With the way you grew up, itโs understandable that youโre worried, Lara. Things have been going so wonderfully with Kelton that youโre paranoid something will go
And just like that the spell Iโd been under for the last few months broke. It felt like all the self-confidence Iโd built crumbled like a house of cards.He was just like my dad, my brother, and my mother: fickle, casually cruel.Before I even realized I was moving, Iโd slammed the door behind me. The sound echoed in the quiet hallway, louder than expected. I didnโt stop to see if Kelton had followedโ I couldnโt. My chest felt tight, my thoughts a chaotic mess of disbelief and hurt.How could he say that?Give him a chance, Maya stated.Youโre supposed to be on my side! Maya had always been more adventurous and more extroverted than me, but we were still a pair. Our souls were joined. Not in the same way as the mate bond.My breath hitched in my throat as I wandered. It felt like I was choking on his words, on Mayaโs betrayal, on my lack of oxygen. Everything.Lara, Mayaโs voice was both scolding and hurt. I couldnโt deal with her emotional blackmail. I blocked her out, just like I bl
Kelton stands frozen, but his eyes betray him. They speak volumesโregret, shame, and, strangely enough, fear. That canโt be right, can it? Fear. Shame. Regret. None of it fits the man I know.Reach into the bond. Mayaโs voice cuts through my spiraling thoughts, sharp with irritation. My head throbs faintly from the force of her emotion, but I sense her frustration isnโt aimed at Kelton. Itโs me. What did I do? The knot in my chest tightens, confusion twisting into hurt. Relationships are hard.Still, I obey. I close my eyes and focus, reaching inward for the bond that connects us. Itโs difficult to describeโlike chasing a glowing thread, spun from golden, wispy light. Itโs intangible, impossible to truly grasp, but in my mind, I see it clearly. This thread, delicate yet unbreakable, ties our souls together. Pure magic. When I find it, I feel it, and somehow, I follow it.Outwardly, Kelton remains a picture of perfect composure: calm, controlled, and utterly unreadable. Usually. But th
Chapter 1Life is hard when you donโt quite know where you fit. Something had been off about me for a long time, though I couldnโt quite figure out what it was. Or maybe there was nothing off with me, maybe it was just the world I lived in that didnโt fit me.Lately, my determination to forge my own path, free of the opinions that restricted me, had me planning. I had been thinking about the future for years now, but more so recently. My birthday rapidly approached. Each birthday I reassessed my life. Each year I chose to suck it up for another year. This year was different. This year I will be 18. I will officially be an adult. That was my personal deadline.Mentally checking the list, I reviewed my packed items for what was probably the hundredth time. Phone, charger, favorite books, favorite clothes, essential toiletries, a few photosโฆ. Then my mind floated to the past and lingered there just a bit too long. Everything started well for me, but somewhere along the way something chan
***Lara***Dinner began with the usual friendly banter. I smiled and nodded at appropriate intervals, as was expected. Half way through the main course, the conversation turned toward the serious matter they actually came to discuss.โOf course, Denzel. This situation hits close to home. Most of the missing girls are very close to my daughter's age, as you know,โ my father gave me a soft smile and reached over to squeeze my hand. He actually did seem worried about me. But then it clicked. I was the perfect, convenient prop in this discussion.My mother, on the other hand, didnโt seem on board with the show. She shot me a look, like somehow this was all my fault. I wasnโt surprised. She always found a way to blame everything on me. Literally everything. I smiled sweetly at her. What else could I do?Kiren followed her lead and shot me an equally venomous look. My father smiled extra lovingly and squeezed my hand again, almost reassuringly. The simple and innocuous gesture just seemed t
*** Lara ***I hadnโt told my dad exactly when I was leaving. I didnโt want to cause anymore pack or family drama than was necessary. I was glad weโd said our goodbyeโs in the garden that day.Instead, after a quiet, almost normal family dinner the day our guests left, I headed to the garden one more time. Dad was right. This was probably what Iโd miss the most about my pack, besides him. I had a gift for growing things. Over the years, in my free time, Iโd created a gorgeous garden oasis. Almost like a maze of little garden rooms. Complete with a bountiful edible garden and cutting flowers. One day I would buy myself a little cottage in the country and start my garden over. Itโs sad that Iโd miss my plants more than Iโd miss the people here. People are unreliable. Plants never judge. The thought briefly crossed my mind that I should have given my brother a letter too. Iโd always hoped that one day heโd see sense. After all, he was just a kid too when everything went sideways with us
**** Lara****A week later was my 18th birthday and for the first time in a long time, I decided to celebrate. Finally, I was legally an adult and fully independent. The thought was both thrilling and a tad disconcerting. I pushed my loneliness aside and focused on how best to celebrate.I decided on a night club. My heart raced as I got ready. Iโd never actually been out like this before, or at all actually. Occasionally, Iโd read at the local coffee shop on my own. But that was it. No dates. No parties. Certainly, no night clubs. Having no social life, I focused on school and graduated early. It was lonely but it was an achievement I was proud of. Of course, I often felt like a 40-year-old virgin librarian trapped in an 18-year-oldโs body.This birthday was both my first hurrah ever and my last before I officially started college for real. The first real step in my new life. Iโd been taking online classes for four years but still heading to a traditional campus was definitely an exp
His touch felt truly magical. Iโd heard that before of course, but Iโd thought the descriptions were exaggerated. His soft, warm touch was both electric and addictive. This feeling was something on a level akin to heaven. Something I never thought Iโd personally experience. Without realizing it, I hummed happily and leaned my head back against his hard, broad chest. It felt perfect. A sense of safety flooded my being, it felt like home. He felt like home. Goddess, it felt unbelievable. No wonder people lose their minds when the mate bond kicks in. How was I ever going to fight this feeling? How would I know which of my feelings were due to the mate bond and which werenโt? Maybe I should give this mate thing a chance? Goddess, I hadnโt even seen him or met him yet and I was putty.I rolled in his arms, unable to escape his hold, not that I tried too hard. I was hooked. In a split second his eyes closed, and he smashed his lips into mine.What the fuck! Maya, growled in my head. She had
Kelton stands frozen, but his eyes betray him. They speak volumesโregret, shame, and, strangely enough, fear. That canโt be right, can it? Fear. Shame. Regret. None of it fits the man I know.Reach into the bond. Mayaโs voice cuts through my spiraling thoughts, sharp with irritation. My head throbs faintly from the force of her emotion, but I sense her frustration isnโt aimed at Kelton. Itโs me. What did I do? The knot in my chest tightens, confusion twisting into hurt. Relationships are hard.Still, I obey. I close my eyes and focus, reaching inward for the bond that connects us. Itโs difficult to describeโlike chasing a glowing thread, spun from golden, wispy light. Itโs intangible, impossible to truly grasp, but in my mind, I see it clearly. This thread, delicate yet unbreakable, ties our souls together. Pure magic. When I find it, I feel it, and somehow, I follow it.Outwardly, Kelton remains a picture of perfect composure: calm, controlled, and utterly unreadable. Usually. But th
And just like that the spell Iโd been under for the last few months broke. It felt like all the self-confidence Iโd built crumbled like a house of cards.He was just like my dad, my brother, and my mother: fickle, casually cruel.Before I even realized I was moving, Iโd slammed the door behind me. The sound echoed in the quiet hallway, louder than expected. I didnโt stop to see if Kelton had followedโ I couldnโt. My chest felt tight, my thoughts a chaotic mess of disbelief and hurt.How could he say that?Give him a chance, Maya stated.Youโre supposed to be on my side! Maya had always been more adventurous and more extroverted than me, but we were still a pair. Our souls were joined. Not in the same way as the mate bond.My breath hitched in my throat as I wandered. It felt like I was choking on his words, on Mayaโs betrayal, on my lack of oxygen. Everything.Lara, Mayaโs voice was both scolding and hurt. I couldnโt deal with her emotional blackmail. I blocked her out, just like I bl
*** Lara ***Finally, everyone filed out of Tonyโs office. โHattie, would you lead Lara to our room for me, please?โMy heart rate kicked up. Kelton usually called me darling. Was he distancing himself from me for his sonโs sake? I mean, that made sense, we didnโt want to rub our bond in his face, but it still hurt.No, stop it, Lara. You are letting your ingrained insecurities rule you again.Kelton pulled me close and dropped a sweet kiss on my forehead, โI'll be right behind you, Darling.โ Oh good, I was darling again. โI just want a quick word with my boy.โAwww, his boy. This man was so sweet. Even if said boy was a grown up man.โOf course.โ Some time and space to set my head straight was a good idea anyway. I couldnโt keep reading into things and panicking like I had been all day today. Iโd give myself a damn aneurysm.With the way you grew up, itโs understandable that youโre worried, Lara. Things have been going so wonderfully with Kelton that youโre paranoid something will go
Once Iโd apologized to Tony for how I treated him, though not quite as many times as heโd apologized to me, the awkward tension in the room began to abate โ slightly. There was still so much to unpack but it definitely felt like the worst was over. I no longer felt like I was single handedly responsible for destroying every one of Tonyโs relationships.Finally, Kelton, who had been quiet for most of the meeting, spoke again. I had to give the man credit for his self control. Most mates would have interjected if their mate was facing off with an alpha, especially a perceived rival.Maturity for the win, Maya happily sighed.โI think weโve accomplished a lot here tonight. It was hard for all of us, Iโm sure. Anthony, Iโm sorry Tony, I am still getting used to your name change. Youโve always been Anthony to me. Iโm trying to respect your wishes. Old habits are hard to break. I wish we could have figured this mess out somewhere neutral, so we could have avoided the incident in the rec roo
*** Lara ***โWho would like to speak first?โ Kelton asked, his voice a mask of calm. Yet, I could feel a palpable tension vibrating through our bondโa tension he surely felt from me as well.After a brief pause, it was evident that no one would voluntarily answer his question as the silence persisted. Every word I had uttered in the past half-hour seemed so incorrect, overly confrontational, overly defensive. I was determined to remain silent for now. In fact, I avoided even making eye contact with anyone, which explained my intense interest in the wood grain patterns of his desk. I doubted I could bear seeing any disapproval in any one of their expressions.โYou said your mate was a slut and an omega,โ Kilani growled, as if she just remembered it.Oh, hell no!โThatโs how you described me?โ I snapped, anger blazing in my eyes, finally looking straight at him. What a mega bastard. Damn it, so much for keeping my mouth shut.โI was angry and embarrassed about the rejection. I know tha
*** Tony ***F@ck, itโs her. A few months ago I would not have thought it possible to die from anxiety and happiness simultaneously, but for the second time in less than six months I thought my heart might literally explode.She found me.My mate.For the last few months, Iโd fallen asleep every night swamped with chaotic mixed feelings. Prominent among them was regret. The mental image of that goddess as she moved on the dance floor, completely content to be alone, was burned into my brain. Unlike every other woman Iโve ever come across, she wasnโt trying to capture my attention, the alphaโs attention. I knew I was decent looking. I was also the strongest in my pack. But I wasnโt naive enough to think it was those qualities women wanted me for. In my experience, it was about my money and position rather than me. No, my goddess of a mate was effortlessly appealing. And since I'd never seen her before and she hadnโt even spotted me yet, she had no idea who I was. She wasnโt here lookin
Suddenly, two strong arms whipped around my waist and yanked me off the man I was still straddling, cowgirl style . Way to layer on that guilt. I squealed a little at the shock - yes, again - all flailing limbs, until I registered the tingles of the mate bond.Kelton.Sighing, I relaxed into his arms. His presence helped to cool my firing nerves and racing thoughts.โDarling. Love, are you alright?โ His breathing rapid, his eyes quickly scanned my body for nonexistent injuries.โWhat the hell happened?โ He growled that last bit to the room at large, but to no-one in particular, giving me a glimpse of the deadly alpha of legend. Iโd never seen that side of him before. Frankly, scary Kelton was just as much a turn on as sweet Kelton.Itโs poor timing, but itโs not wrong that you want to tear his clothes off, Maya hummed.I ignored that.For what felt like a few long minutes, no one spoke.โLove? Darling? What the hell are you talking about. Get your fucking hands off my mate! Dad.โโIโm
*** Lara ***One moment I was laughing at Charlieโs stories, and the next, a man dashed towards me and swept me into his arms. He moved so swiftly it was almost as if he teleported. Following an embarrassing involuntary squeal, I found myself breathless, and utterly bewildered.โYou came back?โ His voice sounded breathless and pleased, his gray eyes sparkled. People werenโt usually glad to see me, at least not until recently. Why was he glad to see me? That alone was hella suspicious.It took a moment for the shock to subside enough to realize that this was not my perfect, amazing Kelton. The hands gripping my upper arms were not his possessive, sexy as sin, ones. My Kelton could be rough, in a way that I enjoyed, but this was not the kind of toe curling domination that my mate was an expert in. Nope. This was completely wrong. This was someone else. Not just anyone though. This was my first mate.He was also holding on to my upper arms as if I might flee. Why was he touching me? Maya
Because, what?โฆ You can protect her.โฆ Sheโs your problem now.Bodie swears this shadow monster thing, as my Lara likes to call it, has never bothered her before.โHe stressed to keep her close, help her feel safe, said heโll explain it when he gets here,โ I answered.โI always knew he was hiding something where she was concerned. Never made sense why they turned on her like they did. Could never figure it out though.โ Keith mused, likely thinking of the few times he, Hattie, and Charlie visited them. โWhat are you thinking?โ Keith demands, his gaze boring into mine.Damn, he knows me too well.โI think,โ I pause a second, unsure how best to word this, โit seems there might be something within her that sheโs unaware of. Itโs as if she possesses some dormant witchcraft abilities herself, yet I sense thereโs something deeper. Otherwise, Bodie would have simply informed me over the phoneโno need for such secretive measures including a personal visit here with his whole family.โCuriously