Prologue
"Say hi baby girl, go on." I shyly hid at my mother's back while my head is popping out just to see the handsome boy that I could ever see. He's not smiling and not hospitable. Or maybe ganon talaga siya. He has this bored look on his face and looks like he isn't interested in the party. A twelve-year-old girl like me, as spoiled as I am, my mother is always calling me a baby girl because I'm their Unica Hija. Sumama ako sa reunion party na pinuntahan ni Mom and she let me. Sa Dmitri Mansion ginanap ang reunion party at di ko akalain na dito ko makikita ang magiging love of my life ko! My eyes just turned heart-shaped!
Napatingin ulit ako sa batang lalaki na hindi pa din ngumingiti. Napakagwapo niya talaga, mas gwapo sa mga dugyot kong kapatid, hindi ko mapigilan na ngumiti at magpacute sa harapan niya. May nakalagay na headphones na nakasabit sa may leeg niya and his hands were inside his pocket. Malapit na mapagod ang labi ko kakangiti sa kanya.
"This is Trevor, my son. Bakit hindi muna kayo maglarong dalawa?" Sabi ng magandang babae na nasa tabi ng gwapong lalaking nagngangalang Trevor. Mas matangkad siya sa akin, though, my mother is always telling me I'm too tall for my age. Pero mas matangkad pa rin siya! Nakita kong sumama ang tingin ni Trevor at umismid.
"I'm too old to play with a little girl, Mom."
"You're just seventeen, Trevor! You are still young, at least for me and please don't act like an adult. Play with Victoria. Isn't she cute." His mother pinched my little cheeks, but not enough to make me groan in pain. Bumaling naman ang paningil niya sa sa nanay ko.
"Ophelia, let's go. Samahan na natin ang dati nating kaklase." Sabi ng Mom ni Trevor which is hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa din alam ang pangalan.
"That's a good idea Beatrix." Sabi naman ni Mom. Tumingin siya sa akin. Lalong lumawak ang ngiti ko dahil iiwan nila kaming dalawa.
"Victoria be nice, okay? Dito ka muna kay Trevor. Maglaro muna kayong dalawa." At tsaka umalis si Mom kasama si Tita Beatrix na kakaalam ko lang na iyon pala ang pangalan ng future mother-in-law ko. Should I start calling her Mom too?
"Play with your own, little girl. I'm out." Tatalikod na sana siya ng pigilan ko siya. I touched his hands and then he winced with my touch. Oh, he doesn't want to be touched?
He glared at me but I'm used with that stares. Ang mga dugyot kong mga Kuya ganyan tumingin sa akin kapag nakakagawa ako ng kasalanan sa kanila.
"Sabi kasi maglalaro tayong dalawa." I pouted.
"What are you? Five years old?" Tumingin siya sa akin mula sa mukha ko hanggang sa paa.
"I'm twelve." I smiled sweetly. "And I'm going to be a teen." Masaya kong pahayag ng malalaman kong malapit na akong mag thirteen. So puwede na din akong iaddress na teenager.
"Still young. Piss off." Umakyat siya ng hagdan at iniwan akong nakasimangot sa labas.
No!
Sigaw ng isip ko. I was born to be a fighter. My dad is always telling me if I want something, go for it. Kung gusto ko hindi ko titigilan hanggang mapasakin. Pagkakita ko pa lang kay Trevor, nagustuhan ko na siya at kahit napakasungit niya sa akin.
Umakyat din ako ng hagdan at sinundan kung saan siya pupunta. Akmang papasok na siya ng kwarto niya ng agad akong tumakbo at pumasok din sa kwarto niya ng walang pahintulot.
"What the actual fuck!" He cursed. Hindi ko siya pinansin. My brothers used to curse like that too. At sa tingin ko may mabuting naiidulot din pala ang mga kapatid ko sa akin. Nasasanay na ako sa mga kadugyutan nila.
"Wow." I said in excitement. Ang ganda ng kwarto niya. Napakalaki. There's a computer set on the table. Laptop and psp na nasa king size na kama niya. Black and white lang ang kulay na makikita sa kwarto niya. Marami ding iba't-ibang instruments. May electric guitar at ang isa naman ay bass.
"Do you play?" Sabi ko at tumingin sa kanya. Ang sama lalo ng tingin niya sa akin. Tingin na nakakamatay.
"Get. The fuck. Out. Of. My. Room. Now!" He boomed. It sent shivers down to my spine. Bakit imbis na matakot ako mas kinilig ako? Umiling ako.
"Gusto ko dito lang ako sa tabi mo. I like you." Diretsong pahayag ko. Umismid ulit siya sa akin.
"I don't like you." Agad niyang sabi. My little heart broke into pieces pero ipinagsawalang bahala ko lang yun.
"It's okay. Hindi naman kita prinipressure. Pagisipan mo yan ng mabuti." Hinawakan niya ang magkabilang balikat ko. Oh no! Hahalikan ba niya ako? Sa kanya ko ba mararanasan ang magiging first real kiss ko!? Naexcite ako bigla kaya pinikit ko ang mga mata ko. And then...
He pushed me out of his room. "Ohh!" Napasigaw ako. Muntikan ko ng mahalikan ang sahig! Buti na lang hindi ako na out of balance.
Hinawakan niya ang doorknob. "You better work on your breast." He said while eyeing my breast.
"Fuck off." He muttered at sinarhan ng malakas ang pinto niya. Napangiti na lang ako sa ginawa niya. Yieehh. Kinikilig lang siya ayaw lang niya aminin.
Bumaba ako ng hagdan na may ngiti sa labi ko. Magugustuhan rin niya ako. I'm sure of it. A guy like him just need a little push.
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Epilogue"Trevor, can you move closer to the right?" Dad said while steading the camera in front of us. Trevor stood awkwardly at my right side. Pinipigilan kong hindi umiling kaya naman itinuon ko na lang ang atensiyon ko sa camera. Hinawakan ko rin ng mahigpit ang bulaklak na hawak ko. I just graduated from College today and I couldn't be happier.With all the dramas that I've experienced for the past months, I got delayed in my studies. I took an additional year to catch up with my subjects. Luckily, I finally gain my diploma. I was wearing a black dress underneath my toga. Sumasakit na rin ang paa ko dahil sa heels na suot ko.And now, we are taking a picture to commemorate the day but Trevor looked a little shy. The place was swamped with people and he seems a little uncomfortable. Nothing new. He's not really fond of crowds. He was wearing an all-black clothes since he wanted to match his outfit to mine. That color emphasizes his pale skin even more. Isa pa kahit nakasuot na ako
Chapter 55: Finally HisVictoria Abbel's Point of View"Tobi was born melancholic." I stared at the portrait in front of me. The portrait is huge, just like something that you can put in an art gallery. Habang nagsasalita si Trevor ay tiningnan ko ang photograph ni Tobi na hindi man lang ngumingiti. He was just staring right at the camera without any expression on his face. His face was just like what I remembered back then. He really looked like Trevor in his teenage years.Nandito ako ngayon sa mansion ng mga Dmitri. It's already two weeks when I left the hospital. My wound is not fully healed but I can walk now. Kahit may nararamdaman pa rin akong kaunting kirot ay kaya ko pa rin maglakad. Trevor introduced me as his girlfriend to his parents earlier. And now we are looking at his brother's portrait at the second floor of the house."He died so young and unexpectedly." Paninimula ni Tevor. My heart aches for Trevor. Losing someone you care about must really hurt. It's like cutting
Chapter 54: ReflectionVictoria Abbel's Point of View"Are you sure you wanna drop the charges?" Nikos asked more than ten times already."Oo, ilang beses ko pa ba kailangan ulitin?" I tried not to roll my eyes at him."Ngayon, alam mo na pakiramdam sa tuwing paulit-ulit ka Toring?" Natatawang sambit nito habang inuunti-unti niya ng pagkain ang grapes na dinala ni Cainn para sa akin."Huwag mong ibalik sa akin." Napasimangot na sabi ko sa kanya at nag cross arms."Your parents don't want to drop the charges. Even Trevor. He wants them behind bars in case they'll do something to you again." Popping out the grapes in his mouth, he looked rather calm in this situation. Biglang pumasok naman si Georginna sa aking isipan. Whenever I remembered the hurt in her eyes, I felt her anger toward me. It was my fault, I admit it. That's why I don't think she deserves to be put behind bars. It should be me."I don't think Georginna will do it again." Naibulong ko na lang sa sarili ko. Ngunit dahil t
Chapter 53: Real MonsterVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewMonsters are real. I used to be afraid of them when I used to be a kid. I remembered when mom always read me stories to sleep, the monster is always the villain. Growing up, I didn't know that I am that monster.There is a monster living inside me and most of the time it wins. How many people should I hurt first before getting what I want? Hindi ko na mabilang sa kamay ko ang mga taong nasaktan ko."Is there anyone who will come for you?" Napukaw ni Nigel ang aking atensiyon. I guess he only applied as the band's manager for this plan. He was the only one with me right now. Georginna left minutes ago, probably getting something from outside. I don't know. Bigla akong napailing sa tanong ni Nigel."I bet no one will ever notice that I am missing." Napahinga na lang ako ng malalim dahil sa naisip ko. That's the truth. Mukhang kahit ang mga kapatid ko ay hindi ako hahanapin. It's not like I'm expecting from them."Good. Georginna's
Chapter 52: Ghost of the PastVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewWhen I tried opening my eyes, I felt kinda dizzy. Kahit ang paligid ko ay malabo. Maybe my eyes are just adjusting to the light that is not well-lit.What happened? Naitanong ko na lang sa sarili ko habang pilit binubuksan ang mata ko. Ang tanging naalala ko lang ay naglalakad ako palayo sa mansion ng mga Dmitri. Feeling confused because all along I thought I was in love with Trevor. Then suddenly, I felt something sharp inserted on my neck as I started losing my consciousness. Ngayon naman ay parang bibiyakin sa dalawa sa sobrang sakit ang aking ulo. Para na rin akong mabubulag sa liwanag. Kahit ang ibang parte ng katawan ko ay hindi ko maramdaman."Gising ka na ba?" Someone speaks. A man with a gentle voice. I tried remembering where I heard his voice."Naririnig mo ba ako?" I heard him again. I tried opening my mouth but all I can feel is pain in the part of my jaw."Yes." I tried pushing myself to answer. My voice is ras
Chapter 51: The VillainTrevor Dmitri's Point of ViewVictoria is in our house.Her image flashed in my mind, wandering aimlessly in the whole house. There's a high possibility that she will see our family picture. Mom had this habit of putting our family picture everywhere. As if doing that made her a good mom. I want to get her out of the house and just pull her closer in my arms. Ako lang dapat ang makikita niya.There are only a few moments in my life when I felt scared. I can even count all of them with my fingers. It's funny that it's all about Victoria Abbel. It's always been about her all the fucking time!Once I reached the house where I grew up, the smell of lavender and rose water greeted me. I can even see my birth mother approaching my place"Trevor! Bakit hindi mo sinabi na pupunta ka? You rarely come here.""I'm here for Victoria," I said plain and simple. I couldn't even force myself to greet her with a happy birthday. All parents damage their children. That's a fact t