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The Player's Playmate Breaking down
I was done crying. My nose and eyes were red and my eyes were swollen and were hurting. But I didn’t feel like a mess. I felt a little better even though the pain of the heartbreak was still there. The day wasn’t over yet but my crying apparently was. I had no more tears left in me. As I drank some water, I realised how dehydrated I actually was feeling. But I was a little better… The pain was still unbearable and Xander’s voice still in my head on repeat as he confessed that it was all a lie but there was another voice there. This was my own voice which was telling me that I was Eleanor Aliana Ambrosia and no one can break me. I was stronger than titanium!My heart might have been broken but I wouldn’t let myself be broken completely. I was going to stay strong. After all, I was still in high school. I had a lot to live for. If not love, I still had to live to make my parents proud of me. I still had to do so much!I had to win a Nobel prize too!A knock on the door
The Player's Playmate Back to School
“I am fine, Damien!” I huffed. I have been saying the same sentence on a repeat for the past fifteen minutes, ever since he picked me up for school. But Damien is still annoying me. And so is Liam. And Mason. And Jason. “Are you sure?” Liam asked me as he looked at my face as if I was going to break down again. I rolled my eyes as I decided to ignore them all. After I told my mom and dad about everything, I had to practically beg my mom to not just go over to Xander’s house and break his face and my dad to not kill Xander. After convincing my parents, my mom made me skip school the next day and she and I went for a relaxing spa day. Later that night, my parents took me to watch a movie at the theatre.During the weekends, Damien, Liam, Kara and the twins slept over at my house. We talked about random things, ate loads of junk food, watched movies and much to Mason’s disappointment, did our homework. Today was Monday. And even though my mom offered to take me to a fair
The Player's Playmate Love Conquers All
“I don’t want to go back to the way we were before, Ellie.” Xander told me, making me frown. What the hell is he talking about?“What do you mean by that, Xan? Don’t you want to be my friend anymore?” I asked him. Xander smiled as he shook his head. “No, Ellie. Now that I know how amazing it is to be your boyfriend, I don’t think that I can be just friends with you. You’re just too special and I can’t let you go.” Xander told me in a sincere voice. I stopped breathing and my eyes turned wide. I didn’t know what to say now. “H-how? W-Why?” I stuttered, not knowing what I wanted to ask or say. Xander chuckled as he looked at my flustered state. “Ellie, I am not going to lie to you anymore. I am not going to hide anything either. I’ll tell you the truth. I did ask you out because I was afraid of losing you to Ace. But I realised that I really do love you. And I have loved you for as long as I could remember.” Xander told me. I knew that if he continued talking, I was
The Player's Playmate Epilogue
“Did he really bake all those cupcakes for you?” Kara asked with a giggle. I nodded my head with a smile. “That is why I always told you to date him, honey.” My mother commented. I rolled my eyes at her. “When you found out about what happened, you were about to go over to his house and kill him! You didn’t even let him come inside the house when he came to apologize to me!” I reminded my mother. After my conversation with Xander, he did what he said he would do. He crossed every limit when it came to seeking forgiveness. He learnt how to bake cakes and cupcakes and I got a batch of the freshly baked goods almost daily. He even apologized to my parents.Xander was always around in school but he still kept his distance. He apologized to Damien and Liam too for breaking their trust.After a couple weeks of him always smiling at me through the hallways and doing his best, I decided that he and I have suffered enough by staying away. I forgave him. Completely.“That was be
The Player's Playmate Dealing with idiots and friends in trouble
“Please?” He begged me with a pout on his handsome face as he played with a strand of my chestnut-brown hair. He was looking adorable but I couldn’t just agree with his plans. Not again.“Nope!” I said popping the ‘p’ as I rolled my green eyes and focused back on the book in front of me. “But I really love her! Ever since I was little, I've had a crush on her! E, I think she’s the one! I have known this since I was just four!” He exasperated. I turned to him with a frown on my face.He really is an idiot!“She just moved here, you dumbo! She had never even set foot in this town up until a week or two ago! And you say that about all the girls! I'm starting to think that you have been a player since the day you were born! I just failed to notice it up until a few years back.” I told him as I rolled my eyes at the dumb headed boy sitting right next to me in the school library. I passed an apologetic smile to the librarian who was now glaring at us. It was a free period for
The Player's Playmate Saving the Big Guy
“I am really sorry, Principal Hughes!” I said in a sincere voice. I turned to the dark haired, brown eyed super tall guy who was standing next to me with an expressionless face. “Apologize, you big oaf!” I whispered to him but he just looked at me with a blank expression. I don’t know why I even try to save him...“Eleanor, I don’t think that he feels sorry for his mistakes. He isn’t even apologizing. I have to teach him a lesson. For how long will you and Liam be there to save him?” The principal asked me with a soft voice as he glared at Damien. I smiled at the principal before turning to Damien. I glared at him. Liam's dad and my dad were Principal Hughes’ friends, so he always treated us nicely. Principal Hughes was in his mid forties like my father and was a kind man. He only shouted in matters that involved Damien creating trouble. I met Damien when I was eight. I had had a fight with Xander and wanted to just punch someone. I knew that Damien was someone who was a
The Player's Playmate Cheating Girlfriend
“Where is our Mr Awesome?” Kara, Liam’s girlfriend, asked me when I settled down in my seat at our table in the cafeteria. I looked at her with a huge smile. “With his new girlfriend.” I told her. We had a test today as it was Monday. So, we stayed at home on Saturday instead of going out somewhere like usual and since we were just studying, I called Leah, my English project partner, the girl Xander was currently crushing on, and invited her to my house where me and Xander were studying. I introduced Leah to Xander and by Sunday, they officially became a couple. Like he promised, Xander treated me with Pizza on both Saturday and Sunday. I helped him study for the test we had in the second class of the day and it went well too. At least for me. Xander and I didn’t talk much since it was his first day at school with his new girlfriend so I don’t know how he did on the test. But I was happy for him anyway. “Lets just hope that this one won’t try anything on you when Xander b
The Player's Playmate Detention and New Best Friends
“Psssssttttt!”Don’t turn, E!“Ellie!” I pretended like I didn’t hear anything.“E!” I gritted my teeth and resisted the urge to just look back and yell at the top of my lungs.“Ellie-bear!” Don’t look back! You are full of peace, E!“Eleanor!” P-E-A-C-E. That’s my mantra.“Ellie-poo!” These idiots can never break you, Ellie!“Ellieeeeee!”Breathe in, Breathe out...“Ellie-belly!” That’s it!“What the fudge-berries is wrong with you two?!” I yell as I turn around in my seat to glare at the two identical dumbos.I was peacefully doodling in my notebook in the chemistry class when Mason and Jason told the grumpy, old teacher, Mrs Sandy Krampe that I was disturbing them. They were already disturbing the class so they got detention but when the grumpy teacher saw that I wasn’t focusing, she gave me detention too. Now, if it were any other teacher, I could have gotten out of trouble easily. But the old Mrs Sandy who pretends to be a little too young for her age
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The Player's Playmate Epilogue
“Did he really bake all those cupcakes for you?” Kara asked with a giggle. I nodded my head with a smile. “That is why I always told you to date him, honey.” My mother commented. I rolled my eyes at her. “When you found out about what happened, you were about to go over to his house and kill him! You didn’t even let him come inside the house when he came to apologize to me!” I reminded my mother. After my conversation with Xander, he did what he said he would do. He crossed every limit when it came to seeking forgiveness. He learnt how to bake cakes and cupcakes and I got a batch of the freshly baked goods almost daily. He even apologized to my parents.Xander was always around in school but he still kept his distance. He apologized to Damien and Liam too for breaking their trust.After a couple weeks of him always smiling at me through the hallways and doing his best, I decided that he and I have suffered enough by staying away. I forgave him. Completely.“That was be
The Player's Playmate Love Conquers All
“I don’t want to go back to the way we were before, Ellie.” Xander told me, making me frown. What the hell is he talking about?“What do you mean by that, Xan? Don’t you want to be my friend anymore?” I asked him. Xander smiled as he shook his head. “No, Ellie. Now that I know how amazing it is to be your boyfriend, I don’t think that I can be just friends with you. You’re just too special and I can’t let you go.” Xander told me in a sincere voice. I stopped breathing and my eyes turned wide. I didn’t know what to say now. “H-how? W-Why?” I stuttered, not knowing what I wanted to ask or say. Xander chuckled as he looked at my flustered state. “Ellie, I am not going to lie to you anymore. I am not going to hide anything either. I’ll tell you the truth. I did ask you out because I was afraid of losing you to Ace. But I realised that I really do love you. And I have loved you for as long as I could remember.” Xander told me. I knew that if he continued talking, I was
The Player's Playmate Back to School
“I am fine, Damien!” I huffed. I have been saying the same sentence on a repeat for the past fifteen minutes, ever since he picked me up for school. But Damien is still annoying me. And so is Liam. And Mason. And Jason. “Are you sure?” Liam asked me as he looked at my face as if I was going to break down again. I rolled my eyes as I decided to ignore them all. After I told my mom and dad about everything, I had to practically beg my mom to not just go over to Xander’s house and break his face and my dad to not kill Xander. After convincing my parents, my mom made me skip school the next day and she and I went for a relaxing spa day. Later that night, my parents took me to watch a movie at the theatre.During the weekends, Damien, Liam, Kara and the twins slept over at my house. We talked about random things, ate loads of junk food, watched movies and much to Mason’s disappointment, did our homework. Today was Monday. And even though my mom offered to take me to a fair
The Player's Playmate Breaking down
I was done crying. My nose and eyes were red and my eyes were swollen and were hurting. But I didn’t feel like a mess. I felt a little better even though the pain of the heartbreak was still there. The day wasn’t over yet but my crying apparently was. I had no more tears left in me. As I drank some water, I realised how dehydrated I actually was feeling. But I was a little better… The pain was still unbearable and Xander’s voice still in my head on repeat as he confessed that it was all a lie but there was another voice there. This was my own voice which was telling me that I was Eleanor Aliana Ambrosia and no one can break me. I was stronger than titanium!My heart might have been broken but I wouldn’t let myself be broken completely. I was going to stay strong. After all, I was still in high school. I had a lot to live for. If not love, I still had to live to make my parents proud of me. I still had to do so much!I had to win a Nobel prize too!A knock on the door
The Player's Playmate Not hurt or Angry, just Numb
“I only asked Ellie out because I saw how Ace was going to take her away. I told her lies to convince her that I liked her so that she would leave him and come back to me. My plan was to break up with her after Ace was out of the picture and the offer for her to go to the music school was no longer available.” Xander said in a strong voice. I heard multiple gasps beside me but I was too shocked to say something or give a reaction as Xander visibly froze. It was as if he was afraid to turn around.“See. He didn’t want you after all.” I heard Sarah’s smug voice say but I couldn’t reply to her either. Xander turned around and his eyes met mine.I could see the shock and guilt in his eyes but I was too shocked to say or do anything.“Ellie…” Xander whispered as he looked at me with wide eyes. I held my tears and sob in as I looked at him but I could still hear his words on a repeat in my head which made a tear fall from my eye and roll down my cheek. He lied to me… It was al
The Player's Playmate Secret's Out
Xander’s POV“I know your little secret, Xander Theodore King.” I heard someone saying just as I came out of the class to make my way to Ellie’s locker. I turned to find Gavin, one of the guys from the football team standing right next to the door of the class. “Big deal, Gav! The whole school knows my whole name. It’s not a secret.” I said as I rolled my eyes. I turned around and started walking to Ellie’s locker. Today was our one month anniversary and I was going to do everything in my power to make sure that she was happy today. I had already planned our date for after the school got over.Ellie and I have been going strong even after Ellie found out that I was hiding something from her. The twins tried to bring it up and make me confess everything to her but it looked like she didn’t want to know. I knew that she wanted me to tell her everything on my own but I was a coward. I wasn’t going to tell her the truth. Besides, I love her now. I feel exactly wha
The Player's Playmate The Starting of the End
“Hey, Ellie!” I heard someone say just as I got out of the house. I looked up to find Ace standing a few feet away. My eyes grew wide. Crap! Did he hear about me and Xander being a couple?Ace and I haven’t talked after the day at the restaurant more than a month ago when I told him about how I didn’t feel like we could be something other than friends. I have no idea where he has been since then. It wasn’t like I didn’t care. I was just giving him some space. I didn’t want to rub it in his face. I just wanted him to take his time and get over it all. “Hey, Ace.” I said as I smiled nervously. My eyes went to Xander’s house to see that he wasn’t out yet. But he could come out of his house any second. Xander was supposed to be my ride to school like always and I knew he was about to leave his house now. I was just nervous to see his reaction on seeing Ace here at this time.Xander will surely get mad!“I know that you have to go to school but I just wanted to talk to yo
The Player's Playmate Hot and Sweet
“A frog can sing better than you, Mace!” Jason said with an eye roll making me laugh. Mason scoffed as he hit the back of his twin’s head. “I seriously sang better than every singer out there!” Mason said in a proud tone, making us all laugh. He pouted like a child as we all continued to laugh. Me, the twins, Damien and Xander were currently sitting in my living room, relaxing after the tiring day at school. Kara was at her house and Liam had to help his little brother with some stuff and so he wasn’t here either. I was sitting between Damien and Xander on the carpeted floor while the twins were sitting directly in front of us on the floor as well.“Mace, please stop with your jokes! You are going to make me cry because of laughing so hard!” Xander said as he tried to stop himself from laughing. “At least I am not the guy who is keeping a potentially awesome singer from becoming a famous celebrity!” Mason remarked making me furrow my eyebrows at him in confusion. Wha
The Player's Playmate Searching for trust and truth
“Jace, do you believe in keeping secrets?” I asked as Jace and waited in the line for our turn. Jason instantly stiffened and gulped while I acted nonchalant as I stared at the girl who was currently giving her order. We were all at the fast food restaurant. After watching a movie, we were all tired so we decided to eat something. Kara and Liam were currently doing some shopping since Kara wanted to and so I decided to just question the twins now.When we all entered the shop, I told Damien to keep Xander and Mason distracted while I went to order for us all with Jason.Yes, I am cornering the one I think will be easier to break. And no, I am not ashamed in the least!“I don’t.” Jason answered, keeping it short. I nodded my head at that. I huffed as I saw the girl starting to flirt with the guy taking her order. Can’t she just drop her number for the guy and leave?“Don’t you think that that girl is taking forever? I mean, can’t she just flirt with the guy after his shi
