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Being Delusional

Author: Simone M.
last update Last Updated: 2023-03-06 08:28:46

ISLA

Like every princess in a fairy tale, they all deserve a kiss from their prince charming. I got one. I experience having one. The difference was, I am a princess, I found my prince charming, but I knew that we’re not bound to the happily ever after.

I am being delusional to have Zero in my life but the truth always showed me that I can not have him. No matter how I try, I cannot have him. He even clears it. But every girl deserves to dream, right?

Can’t I?

I can dream, right? For just once in my life, I knew I have the right to claim something.

When Zero let go and stared at me, tears fell from my eyes.

“I’m sorry,” he uttered. There he goes again with his sorry, sorry, sorry—as if he did something to me.

I wiped the tears that fell on my cheeks with the back of my hand. “Why do you keep saying sorry to me? You didn’t do anything. And I’m sorry for acting weird today. It’s just that I’m adapting to your mood. Now, I will ask you this,” my eyes never left his, “are we still fine—I
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